One Thing I Will Say Today Is Fck Arms Like Seriously… :’ They Are The Bane Of Today. I WILL CRACK

today’s art:

—okay so I just did really VIDEOS!!!! and then went to through this rabbit hole and found.. well I guess first I should start with. I really needed to learn how arm connects to the shoulder asince I think I just forgot????and my gosh I found this super good comprehensive video that did demonstration and everything. it was really good

—honestly after that I went through rabbit hole of seeing his other videos and then well… I found this super long skull video and was watching and then it started to do a draw with me sides of skull and I did want to follow through so I just decided to do that later when I could draw with… and well then.. I just went off to do other stuff

—i don’t plan on drawing today and if i was, probs just general studies but ahaha i was on x and it really inspired to draw my otp and SO I PLANNED TO. but then it turned into redraw of someone else’s art and then into prac ahahah.

—the first one wasn’t great at all… and I just wanted to focus on the pose instead!!! and see what I was doing wrong etc. One of videos I watched made me think about that. Talking about focusing on analytic and like looking at what you drew and finding out what you did wrong and etc. And I do think that was good thing to be aware off and so I did that… and well even if I don’t think the last one turned out amazing or anything I do think it made me realise stuff. like how in the pose it was the arm that was stretching out to the knee…

—and so since I liked doing this n thought was fun/nice I did another pose study! And oh man the hands were HARD tin this one I still have no idea on how to fix it and just gave up in the end lolllllllll. Arms. Arms were hard. Why do I keep saying hands when im talking about arm lollll

—but one think I did realise that I was doing wrong was when drawing lower part, in trying to get the legs right, I forgot about the butt that was actually sitting down. and cut it off since the crouch wouldn’t be visible… and so it was helpful in remembering stuff like that. and trying to visual posing better: like it made next time to remember to think of whole pose and how it interactions with whatever it’s doing and even bits that can’t be seen. like being aware of stuff like that is really important.

—and well after that wasn’t feeling like doing any more pose studies and well… I SKETCHED IN THE IDEA FOR THE COMIC I HAD???? very happy about that

—okay lol I did think of doing some kind of script but cba to and was keeping in mind this comic tips/tutorial I came by that stuck with me yesterday. for first panel I very obviously can’t draw backgrounds and just couldn’t be bothered to look up refs and just scribbled in general idea I had for it. and for the next one I tried hard to make sure my figure was reading well (to me) like the general idea I wanted for it and later in did feel in general idea of background which im happy about.

—the initial idea that started this was the next two panels. ahaha I really just wanted to draw him being tied. can’t believe they did that. I mean I can but still lololol. and I do like the close up in next panel from diff angle. also this made me concious of how expressions ain’t my strong suit lmaoooo.

—and well after that is where things started to fall apart. like I had general idea in my head of what I wanted but I feel like the pacing n etc wasn’t great at all but I think it was good to get the general idea and everything tdown… so im happy that I actually sketched in the idea for comic. soooo happy. ^^

—and welllll remember juv art from yesterday. I realised after a bit that she doesn’t like she was sitting at all lololol despite that being intention. cuz I feel like I was so focused on getting the length of leg correct that I forgot that she was sitting so her knee would be higher. and well. I just wanted to fix that.

—added a bench because why not. and honestly im…..not sure that I did fix it completely. It still seems off…? but ehhhh i got her to look like she was sitting so that’s a win.

—I wasn’t planning to draw anymore but while taking screenshot for this post…I ended up just drawing some figure pracs and ahahah these didn’t go well at all. it was alright. But like mabnnnn even while keeping in mind what the video said (the dots around the arm meaning to represent scapula so just to keep in mind while drawing the arm) but ehhjhhhb I feel like like my arms isn’t at alll good. like I feel like I just forgot everything. so I think it’s best to watch videos of people drawing …. that always helps.

—and well but I didn’t want to end it there and wanted to draw something nice……to finish the the day with… something that would feel nice about. and yeah no that didn’t happen. 😔😔😔

—I thought while it’s been a while since I drew my lil srda too<3 I should do it but yeah no. it went horribly. well that’s kind of an exaggeration. more like I just…? don’t like….? I think it might have to do with the brush and how out of prac I man with drawing her hair… cuz man I have def drawn better srdas in my time. I feel like it might be her expression so. I changed it but it wasn’t. So I did an overdraw just because but it wasnt lollll. and I do think it’s funny how her expression gets more sadder. like the way I felt (more disappointed) when drawing it LMAO

I actually like the first one drew the most…… 😔😔😔

wow… jan25 end…… can’t believe it. already! but also…. it did feel a bit slow but also feels like wow… already end..

anyways! I really did manage to draw something for all of Jan except for one day 😂😂😂 some days more productive than others. but hmm. towards the end… definitely was on slower end.

and then his boyfriend provides him with blood? :) (please say yes i need this in my life so bad)

whats the point of it all if he doesnt

The 3 easy markers I use to help myself draw the lower legbones and how they attach to the feet. Now you know all my secrets!

...the secrets of the leg bones...

DAY STARTING OFF STRONG….!

—okay I saw some super cute comic from diff fandom and it really got me fired up. I wanted to draw comics of MY otp. 🥺🥺🥺 and I thought going for a more simplistic style would help with my high expectations of likensss that I can’t meet right now 😭😭😭 and so I got to sketching!!!!

—had some kind of idea and it was a very simple one and I just went….to do it. it did seem very ambitious too (with lol a big panel of holding…..hands…….)with the FOCUS but ehhhh just yesterday I was practicing hands I would be fine. they thought<3 lolllll

—I had thoughts of changing the comic to be different but I was like nahhh this is simple let’s stick with it! just go for it! I didn’t want to over complicate stuff or anything

—and so I got to overlarging the sketch and making it big so it can be the size I want it to be… and so I got to drawing over it and that’s when I immediately hit a block….

—the thing was the first rough sketch I did was so much cuter and better…. I feel like when I tried to draw over it….i tried to more capture likeness and then it just didn’t turn out as cute or as good as the rough sketch… so obviously I had to redo that. I did try to fix it at first (seeing the diff:larger eyes extra but ehhhhh it didn’t work) so I just went to redoing it. And ah!!! this attempt was def better!!!!

—also ha………drawing bust shots are Hard……….so I tried to (during first redraw over rough sketch) to also include in bits of torso etc to see how things would look like. I remembered this video I watched that said it’s best to draw things that aren’t in the shot so you can know where things are or smth. my quoting isn’t the best. anyways! it def helped…. also initially wasn’t even gonna include the bit I drew to help imagine the rest so I can draw bust shot… but I ended up including… I think it was good to hand in bits of the arm… also I remembered that they’re were supposed to be holding hands so I had made sure to make the hand their moving to hold hands looked like that

—I don’t even wanna talk about ssk’s hair it was so fcking annoying. clothes…….im so glad that ssk’s clothes is very simple in this era… lol… just a cape…. and I tried to remember to add in wrinkle since hand was moving…. sskkr clothes were simple too…. I’ve gotten used to it while drawing a lot of Srda who wears similar to her mom 💗

—I went straight to lining it… I didn’t even redraw over the hands… was impatient lol and just wanted to get to lining the characters…. and so I went! and did! and lol it’s obvs I started to loose the patience lmaoo. I didn’t take that much care when it came to skkr hair and roughly lined it like I was sketching. I didn’t mind. it looked okay.

—also crazy that I just went into lining the hands like that. my rough sketch of the hands was super rough sketch too lmaooo but somehow…?! it turned out well….?! this is the one im almost surprised at. I thought it’d turn out way worse. I mean yeahhhhh skk’s fingers over hers make no sense but skkr’s turned out better than I’d hope for…..im really proud of them…. so djjdjdjd I just didn’t want to cover up with ugly skk fingers so I made his fingers still continue to not make sense 💗

—finished the line art and honestly at this point…..I wasn’t feeling great about the art………….. which made me feel sad…. anyways I thought to add colour??

—and my GOSH do I need so much practice with color like wtf….picking the right color can be so hard wtf………it was turning out worse and I didn’t likeeee ittt. one bitttt. but I decided to just continue and go to ssk and do his hair and THIS WHERR THINGS CHANGED!!!!!

—like okay I was thinking what color for his hair…..since I did the line art dark purple….black made no sense. I usually just scribble in lines for darkness so I just decided to do the purple line art color for the hair and WHEN I LOWERED THE OPACITY A LITTLE… SO I CAN BETTER SEE THE LINEART SO I CAN COLOUR IN MORE ACCURATELY… TAHTS WHN THE MAGIC BEGANZZZZ

—-I realized I can do this in MONOCOLOUR!!!!!!!!! omg I forgot that so much and by gosh, was I so happy by this discovery!!!!!!!!!’ ahhhhhh I love monocolor so muchhhhh. my fav shit. it turned this into super fun drawing. I had much fun in trying to decide the diff opacities/values of diff stuff and really —when I was doing his cape for the hand…..that’s where the magic really flourished…. ah it made this drawing a very happy one for me… <3333

—it did still a lil empty so here I was just adjusting and trying to figure what to add and how to not make it too much and now looking back this version is totally fine……ahhhhh…..I kinda wish I kept the hearts. I did like how I scribbled it in…..they looked fun….oh well.

—also seriously lol I gotta stop posting stuff as soon as I finish it…. There should be something about looking at stuff with fresh eyes but also man…. I’m just pretty lazy abt that lol.

—RIDING THIS HIGH!!!! I WANTED TO DO ANOTHER SS PIECE!!!! THIS TIME MORE LOOKING LIKE THEN!!!!! I had this pose/idea in mind and just went straight to sketching the idea and very happy with it…. it feels so nice too to just have an idea for pose and get to sketching it and be able to doing it ahhhhhh. also felt very nice when I roughly sketched it in and cleaned it up a lil like the face and stuff… properly adding in some features n stuff. also hmmmm i probs should do something with ssk’s other arm….

—also lmao I really have neglected the feet too much. I need to do something about learning them but also ahhhh I really don’t want to. also did have some struggle with trying to find out if they were sitting or what they were lying on… or kneeling or whatever. floor or actual sofa/chair…. I need to better visualize stuff like that… also I think for me, ss in side view I think im the best in… also man I really need to work on her hair a lot.

—anyways as I was doing this I had started to get a better image of like a story so I kinda wanted to turn this into a comic and while I was drawing the hair that kinda turned into a redraw of face too… I ended up trying to draw the comic bit that I wanted to include and ha………..this where things started to fall apart….. 😭😭😭😭 my problem of deawing ss faces came back to me 😔😔😔

—and ahhh seriously I don’t know what it is. I thought maybe the nose…? So I tried different way but nope. it’s not that. it got me so frustrated n sad I just stopped the wip there. I was already planning to pause anyways since I was getting tired… and plus trying to think of clothes was also too exhausting but sad to have to pause the wip in that moment…

(now looking back at this as I am uploading the images on to here… I think it might be the mouth of her face that’s the problem…..? also lol noticed problems with her side profile face too it looks a bit off but eh well I can always fix that later)

—-ahhhb seriously I need to do ss face sketches…. I looked at the manga to see what it is that im just getting so wrong that feels so frustrated…. and I think maybe the eyes…? is a big one…? and maybe nose???? anyways I just really need to practice!!!! but forgetting that part. today start was very good!!!! im pleasantly surprised!!!!

—I want to go back to the comic sketch that I drafted yesterday…. and also I want to do lots of figure pracs so I don’t go out of practice…. yeah….! and more hand studies… feet I can’t be asked to do. BDJFJKFKD. im just not interested into doing it and don’t care to right now even though I probs should be….. 5.56

6.00 I kinda just wanna do the ss face prac right now but also I really am too tired for more art stuff… Rn…. I just wanna take break….

DAY DIDNT START OFF SO GOOD… 😔😔😔😔

—since I was already drawing from last time I thought I might as well continue into next day and do some figure prac and sIGH. watching the time lapse of my fix redraw honestly bothered me. it felt like I was better than…. and I don’t think how I adopted drawing the ribcage lately is something im a fan of. it’s just something I picked up and I don’t think I like it…

—anyways from that and seeing how my first figure prac wasn’t amazingggg well. it just got to me and then when I tried to draw in my second figure using the way I used to draw in ribcage and stuff it really wasn’t going in great and ahhhhb I was really started to feel depressed about my arts again and all sorts of sad 😭😭😭😭 but I persevered and yayyyy things picked up REALLY nicely in the third one……

—I was drawing from ref but got an idea for how pose could go and so changed it to the idea and oh mannnn it came out so nice ♥️ im so happy ♥️

—but yeah the other two just sucked so I gave up and mannnn it got me sad about my art. maybe drawing character art would cheer me up but idk man. I couldn’t just draw more stuff. I think it’s cuz I feel like I’ve regressed in my art which make me sooooo sad. 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 it doesn’t help that I want to draw more nicely but am not at that stage and I just feel frustrated I guess and want to just be more good at art…. SIGH…….

—-oh well. we’ll see how things are a few hours from now. I think I just should just take break from art right now. I did want to focus on my writing lately but haven’t gotten to. maybe I should do that hmmm.

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okay I did have a strong moment where I was really gonna give up on art and everything and then towards end of the day I realised how ridiculous that notion was, considering how I still partially was thinking about art and stuff and cuz I know myself and how many times I wanted to draw my stuff so I know I will be crawling back to art eventually. either I didn’t feel like drawing any more stuff today OR SO IT WAS…

—until I came across this animatir(?) Art of boru+his mom and I had the sudden urge to draw them together now and so I got my iPad to satisfy this bizarre urge and… end up doing some more figure pracs.

—okay tbf, the figure pracs were… already there when I opened procreate and so I just got down to doing it. had realisation I just like.:..? doing these kind of poses () and also man legs are hard and I think I forgot how pelvis looks like and where they are placed and man im terrible at stuff where pelvis justs out… and also at angles where rib is more angled or whatever…? I have struggled with that

—also lol at one point I gave up properly doing these and turned really into more scribble-ly fun… also I was trying to shrug off these being serious stuff and just have fun drawing…. I think I needed that

—I got bored then… and went off to draw the boru+mom idea I had… I didn’t really have an actual idea tbh….. but then I realised I probs should get in some face pracs since I haven’t really drawn hina… and uhhhh yeah it’s been a hot while since I drawn boru and I have been thinking of prev art that made me feel sad when I think of it cuz I feel like my art has not been as good at drawing faces and so I thought to go back to prev brushes but before that in the naru folder I saw some gaa+love face doodles and these weren’t bad….?! anyways after one hard brush face doodle that wasn’t bad (but man do I need to practice drawing shoulders/bust up shots. I went to this other brush that I can’t spell…. And THIS IS WHERR THE MAGIC HAPPENED!!!!!! YES THIS WAS IT!!!!!!!!!

—and well of course not all the drawings were good…. and ahhhhh yeah I need to practice on side

—I wanted to do some skkr practice as you know what happened……yesterday…. I wasn’t gonna do it since it seemed a pain to switch to my ss folder but I just did it. And at this point the better in my pen was fighting for its life so I was quickly trying to get it down and hello??!??? while this is still not reaching the idea way I want to draw her. ITS SO MUCHHHHH BETTERER THAN PREF ATTEMPTS….. IM SO HAPPY…… also I think issue might be her longer narrow face…..? but I am very very pleasantly pleased at how she turned out overall. So happy. These day really turned around in the best way ever and im very happy heh.

SIGHHHHHH today was certainly a day I guess. like it started off great…? I got sudden surge of wanting to improve and it was alright. liked the few figure stuff I did in the beginning…

—it started off STROVG!!! like look my first page of figures and the legs.,,. way better than I usually draw it. cuz I was paying special attention to them and was proud of it.,,

—I lol also did try to lmaooo do rib cage studies but gave up after a bit and the bit of the guy torso in the page was me following YouTube video. thee one I said that I found and was excited to follow in the future since it’s what I was looking for and welllll. I think I jumped the gun there. I do like the way they drew ribcage and the way their method of drawing felt like it was 3D but idk how to explain it when I followed it but like…? yeah idk how to explain but I do think I got something from it I guess.

—I also tried hands too but yeahhh my god hands r just too much. 😔 I need to practice them…….

—-and ehhhh the second page idk what happened but it felt like it wasn’t going well again but I did like the lil character interaction figures I did though so after a bit just gave up on that.

—-juv time!!!!!!!!! I wanted to draw her and so I did and that doodles of her face really and I do like how some of these turned out and I was just also seeing diff brushes and stuff…

—AND SO I WENT TO DRAW HER…. picked a ref that I thought would be perfect pose for her and that’s when things started to fall apart…. 😐

—I didn’t like it at all 😭😭😭like I just didn’t now what it was??? yeah I knew the pose was iffy but I think it had to do with her face or whatever and well as you can see I went back later to redraw it and lol I think I butchered the pose a bit again but anyways I think I got the face a little better? Since I kind of like it better but ehhhh still wasn’t satisfied also. I wasn’t sure as to what outfit to put her in either but just remembered this one cover where she wore that kind of outfit or similar from what I remember and just put her in that….

-anyways it did really bother me how i just couldn’t get her right so i did some more practices focusing on that… i was cooking something at the time and so ahaha i didn’t want to bring my iPad down and lol as you can see on the paper there’s stains of oil fjjfjfjfk. and honestly?! I don’t think im satisfied with this session at all… I mean some of them turned out great but ahhhh so annoyed I can’t reproduce it. i also tried changing her nose a bit here n there and mmmmh don’t know if I like it.

—well after that I just wanted to draw her to see if I got it and just to draw. and welllll. I certainly need to work on sittibg poses cuz wtf this was hard also ahaha I wanted to adjust the pose of ref so she’s leaning on her hand and lollll that was hard like I had a feeling of knowing what I was doing wrong but it was somehow hard to get it down?! I even in the end just took a pic of myself in the pose and tried to doodle it in but ahhhh still haven’t got the pose right but at least I think…? I got the gist of it. one big issue was I think the way her legs was that way that’s why it didn’t feel like she was leaning on her hand…. and I do kinda like how the top initial one turned out even if her pose doesn’t make sense. also man I really shouldn’t use this pencil for sketching in the lines… of pose… yeah I realised that a part of why I didn’t feel like I wasn’t getting her right is cuz I wasn’t using this brush. idk what it is but the roughness of it just seems perfect for her but problem is I can’t use it while doing poses since I have tendency to just scribble or to work over my lines and it’s a bad habit that I don’t like since it makes things harder, I feel like but also cba to go to the other brush… since I was just already using this one lol

—freaking heck…. This one…. alright man the pose the one that freaking drained me of everything ahahahah….. alright…. so I wanted to draw more and found this ref that I changed a bit… and my GOD was the hands so freaking hard to get. just look at my struggle below 💀

—honestly it’s a miracle that i managed that turned out actually good…?! im so surprised tbh that the end result wasn’t so bad… but also lololol i think i did have general idea for what the pose was meant to convey but lmao I didn’t do it in a way at all that conveyed it properly and it just doesn’t make sense now lololol. and man I do feel like not using that pencil brush here would have helped a lot more. also im proud of myself too, the way that yeah it was a struggle and annoying but it… didn’t feel so frustrating to point of quitting? more like wow after this I don’t want to do art for another 100 years. im. TIRED

—i mean yeah also I was sooo disspirited. like I thought I was lil better at this ahhhh. I feel like also I was getting lazy at drawing out structure for pelvis which is dangerous habit to fall on since it’s helps to reinforce what’s that and how the legs and whatever work… I think that’s what happened with my arms like I had general idea of what happens with arms/shoulders but because I just drew it out like whatever. yeahhhh things started to fall apart since I didn’t reinforce shit.

—and well yeah. after that I did draw in another juv but ahahah I was so exhausted by this point I just didn’t want to finish it or whatever and gave up on it lololol. exhausted!!!!

—I didn’t think that I would be doing any more art but I should know myself by now and yeah I did some general figure studies. but wow my heart wasn’t in it. also man…… the arms…… 😔😔😔

sometimes art be like. I have an arm. which I can ref. and I have myself. which I can ref. I forget KDKKDKDKD