Weird Thing Enjoyer Found Another Weird Thing To Enjoy

Remember how I said I wasn’t gonna do anything for today welllllllll.

— like okay first of all, I thought not doing anything today for the sake of not doing anything was kinda a waste since I didn’t want to go out of prac for no reason. lol remember those days I took off drawing prac in dec and yeah ahahah it showed when I got back into it

— also I saw this vid of someone prac art and it got me really fired up; also man being surrounded by all these good art also made me so jealous and want to get better so. yeah<3

—one thing I learned today, while trying to get of drawing the rectangles, is to imagine the way the limbs are gonna be like before I put pen to paper. it’s really important and helps a lot. and also realised it’s really helpful to have stick figures or rough sketching to figure out pose or whatever but it also doesn’t mean that I have to draw over it, since it loooks better when I redraw it knowing how the pose looks like…

— also when doing my pracs from ref… I tried to adjust the pose in some way so keep practicing imagination stuff. and like to challenge myself and to see like where I need weak one. also realised that why some of this is getting boring is cuz I’m not doing more challenging angles and diff stuff so that’s def up for when doing prac for next time

— also tried to get in some clothes prac. I wanna watch some clothes/folding stuff to get better understanding of it all. I didn’t get to doing that since I wanted to leave clothing prac for when I’m ready/wanted to and well! the time is now ahaha… also while trying to diff pose prac I also realised I barely do!!! any back poses!!!

— so I had to get those in…. and ahahah yeah I’m def out of practice with those…

— while doing figure pracs, I really did want to draw some characters… but ehhhh o really couldn’t be bothered to change the canvas to diff folders… anyways I did end up going to this prev ideas I had and… well I wanted to try to redraw it and it’s nice before the redraw to see this art from two months ago and see already what’s wrong with it… and ahhh the satisfaction to able to just draw it… I even did figure scribble next to it to figure out how I wanted the legs and stuff… and ahhhh it really was so satisfying to see how quickly I get get it down and the way it wasn’t any struggle at all to draw compared to before. IM REALLY FEELING THE PROGRESS!!!! It made me want to look at other old stuff and wow yeah. But also mannn this is ALSO why I wanna draw!!!!!!! Cuz I can just see it and feel the greatest satisfaction of “improvement” ahahah

— cuz wow I def feel like I don’t have enough of this bad art!!!! I need to create more stuff!!!!! but i guess problem is that while I want to… I can’t also be bothered with steps to getting to the canvas lololol.

— I did end up, drafting some ss comic…

— I had some idea but realised quickly how vague it was, so i tried to scribble down some situations and got something… and ahahah this is good to get in background prac… and comic too…. after first draft my energy levels reached zero for this and I couldn’t be bothered to continue at that time…. I think this is cuz I wanted to keep those drafts and not erase and rub over it…,. so next time I think it’s best to already keep some kind of squares for diff drafts so I can just already draw into it… thing I wanted to keep in mind while drawing this comic: is to not keep thinks complicated while chasing that “perfect” comic I want… cuz I think it’s fine to have comics I’m not satisfied with… and to keep it “simple” too… its way I can learn and to not get caught up in details…

— I remember this redraw I wanted to do of the anime watch.,, and ahahaha I got distracted a bit and so there was like only two mins of the day left and lololol I quickly sketched it in… I feel like this will be a good prac for background awareness…. and keeping characters interacting with the background and well hmmm. I don’t think I wanna to a 1.1 redraw. I wanted something that would capture what I really liked of the moment and wanted to redraw but don’t know how to do that yet. I just thought they looked super cute n funny/adorable how they were peaking out from the stones ahahah… and as to how I would try to capture that feeling in my redraw… no clue but something to think on I guess

FOR TMMR!!!! I really want to get in more character interactions prac and I just wanna draw characters,.. and I want to get in some face/expression pracs in diff angles too!! I totally forgot about those….

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DAY DIDNT START OFF SO GOOD… 😔😔😔😔

—since I was already drawing from last time I thought I might as well continue into next day and do some figure prac and sIGH. watching the time lapse of my fix redraw honestly bothered me. it felt like I was better than…. and I don’t think how I adopted drawing the ribcage lately is something im a fan of. it’s just something I picked up and I don’t think I like it…

—anyways from that and seeing how my first figure prac wasn’t amazingggg well. it just got to me and then when I tried to draw in my second figure using the way I used to draw in ribcage and stuff it really wasn’t going in great and ahhhhb I was really started to feel depressed about my arts again and all sorts of sad 😭😭😭😭 but I persevered and yayyyy things picked up REALLY nicely in the third one……

—I was drawing from ref but got an idea for how pose could go and so changed it to the idea and oh mannnn it came out so nice ♥️ im so happy ♥️

—but yeah the other two just sucked so I gave up and mannnn it got me sad about my art. maybe drawing character art would cheer me up but idk man. I couldn’t just draw more stuff. I think it’s cuz I feel like I’ve regressed in my art which make me sooooo sad. 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 it doesn’t help that I want to draw more nicely but am not at that stage and I just feel frustrated I guess and want to just be more good at art…. SIGH…….

—-oh well. we’ll see how things are a few hours from now. I think I just should just take break from art right now. I did want to focus on my writing lately but haven’t gotten to. maybe I should do that hmmm.

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okay I did have a strong moment where I was really gonna give up on art and everything and then towards end of the day I realised how ridiculous that notion was, considering how I still partially was thinking about art and stuff and cuz I know myself and how many times I wanted to draw my stuff so I know I will be crawling back to art eventually. either I didn’t feel like drawing any more stuff today OR SO IT WAS…

—until I came across this animatir(?) Art of boru+his mom and I had the sudden urge to draw them together now and so I got my iPad to satisfy this bizarre urge and… end up doing some more figure pracs.

—okay tbf, the figure pracs were… already there when I opened procreate and so I just got down to doing it. had realisation I just like.:..? doing these kind of poses () and also man legs are hard and I think I forgot how pelvis looks like and where they are placed and man im terrible at stuff where pelvis justs out… and also at angles where rib is more angled or whatever…? I have struggled with that

—also lol at one point I gave up properly doing these and turned really into more scribble-ly fun… also I was trying to shrug off these being serious stuff and just have fun drawing…. I think I needed that

—I got bored then… and went off to draw the boru+mom idea I had… I didn’t really have an actual idea tbh….. but then I realised I probs should get in some face pracs since I haven’t really drawn hina… and uhhhh yeah it’s been a hot while since I drawn boru and I have been thinking of prev art that made me feel sad when I think of it cuz I feel like my art has not been as good at drawing faces and so I thought to go back to prev brushes but before that in the naru folder I saw some gaa+love face doodles and these weren’t bad….?! anyways after one hard brush face doodle that wasn’t bad (but man do I need to practice drawing shoulders/bust up shots. I went to this other brush that I can’t spell…. And THIS IS WHERR THE MAGIC HAPPENED!!!!!! YES THIS WAS IT!!!!!!!!!

—and well of course not all the drawings were good…. and ahhhhh yeah I need to practice on side

—I wanted to do some skkr practice as you know what happened……yesterday…. I wasn’t gonna do it since it seemed a pain to switch to my ss folder but I just did it. And at this point the better in my pen was fighting for its life so I was quickly trying to get it down and hello??!??? while this is still not reaching the idea way I want to draw her. ITS SO MUCHHHHH BETTERER THAN PREF ATTEMPTS….. IM SO HAPPY…… also I think issue might be her longer narrow face…..? but I am very very pleasantly pleased at how she turned out overall. So happy. These day really turned around in the best way ever and im very happy heh.

ahhhh came across other peoples figure practices and im so jealous…. It looks so good….

but at the same time i know that my practice now isn’t like an effective method. if o wanted to get better… i should study forms of ribcage n pelvis and how they interaction in diff poses/angles and the forms of the muscles on them….. but at the same I really can’t be bothered with stuff like that so my skill level makes sense but ahhhhh its gets to me some times fjfjjfkdkdk. I feel like best way to motive me is to just draw character shit and be like fckkkk if I want to draw this I have to be able to learn how to…… but also drawing character shit is takes Effort and I can’t be bothered either right now…. But to give myself credit I did a lot of character drawings (okay it was two recently but i also did a lot of stuff last month!!! so!!!!) im actually doing a lot 😌

and I DID get better!!!!!!!!!! like two months ago…. I couldn’t do shit…. as I can now 😌

just stuff I have to consistently remind myself when I get depressed about this stuff ahahaha

wow… jan25 end…… can’t believe it. already! but also…. it did feel a bit slow but also feels like wow… already end..

anyways! I really did manage to draw something for all of Jan except for one day 😂😂😂 some days more productive than others. but hmm. towards the end… definitely was on slower end.

ahhh feeling much better now…. i approached these drawings wrongly.ll i went straight to it, without any warm ups and or going slow and doing proper construction ahaha…l no wonder it fell apart.

Ah fck this.,, art is so hard.,,, it’s so frustrating :’ like I wanted to create some fanart for my ship and it was sooo hard……… I can’t even…,. There’s so much in realising I have to learn ahahah….. (sob) oh man. This shit is so hard n annoying. The frustration I felt while attempting too…. :’ I wanted to give up so badly aahahha.

you know for this one im not even gonna say anything. it was one hell of a trip to madness though. that I will say. my gosh. I freakin hate you angel boy…..

I don’t even want to say anything. but funny how I was like oh I wanna see if I remember how to still draw him. tried to draw him. goes “hehehe I still remember” decides to check the trace and compare and ah: here’s where the madness starts. at at point I realize there’s no point to this. who the fck cares, also looking at the series, I don’t think he’s drawn the same constantly but kinda changed but I think it’s the sense of colouring and similarity that carries over. whatever. I just give up.

Even when I tried to draw another character it didn’t go well. im just. throwing in flag. but I. Guess I do want to at least study his hair in a bit. man just looking at this makes me want to punch something. I cannot.

back to poses…<3

I want to draw so badly!!!! But no!!!! forcing my self into this break.

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