zack comes back to life after meteorfall au where zack and cloud are spending time together and cloud says something about how he feels like a monster sometimes and zack freaks tf out bc thats how angeal and genesis and sephiroth all felt before they tried to kill him.
Kadaj in all of his Gen Z glory: I would die for you
Aerith: Please don't!
Kadaj: I would die for you
Sephiroth looking him dead in the eyes: you will.
Kadaj: I would die for you
Yazoo and Loz: Not again :(
Kadaj: I would die for you
Tifa: That's sweet but I don't want anyone to die-
Kadaj: I would die for you
Genesis: But then it would be for nothing!
Kadaj: I would die for you
Cloud who's met enough teenage boys to know exactly what response Kadaj wants: then perish
how awful do you think cecil felt when kain disappeared in mist? after accidentally annihilating an entire village, the guilt was already flooding in, let alone when he realized he personally dealt with rydia's mother. then the one person he had in the moment to rely on slides away in an earthquake that he definitely also could blame himself for (this is the most anxiety ridden man i've ever seen. he most definitely blames himself for that.) and is left with rydia, whom he dutifully takes care of, even though she hates him with all her guts (at the time).
imagine the self loathing, thinking that he condemned someone he loved to a death between stone and ash, thinking he could have prevented all of it if he'd simply had the guts to tell the king of baron "no". or investigated the ring he'd been instructed to deliver further. or anything else. but he didn't have time to dwell on it, because he needed to protect rydia, and that was his fault too.
recently discovered i am in a minority which is that reeve tuesti is genuinely one of my favorite final fantasy characters. why doesn't anyone like reeve 😭 where is my reeve content 😭
i just found out viceroy sarruf is implied to be rufus 😭 wdym they pulled a gerad again??? i wanted it to be someone completely unrelated but nooOOOo.
rewatched advent children (complete) recently and it really just makes me so sad for kadaj. i mean, loz and yazoo don't even feel like people in the way that kadaj does- they don't have the sass and snark of sephiroth, they don't command a room the way that sephiroth does. but all kadaj wanted was to be loved. he wanted to be wanted, and his creation led him to believe he could only be loved by jenova (who is incapable of love) by becoming sephiroth, by becoming someone else entirely. kadaj is not sephiroth, he is a remnant of who jenova made sephiroth into. he isn't even a remnant of who sephiroth truly was- of the man that angeal and genesis and zack and lazard and glenn and matt and lucia got to know. kadaj likely doesn't know who any of these people are- because jenova didn't care about who sephiroth was, only his power as her puppet, her pawn. kadaj was never going to get what he wanted, and that fucking sucks.
absolutely gonna rewatch advent children this week
I'm overdue for a FFVII Advent Children rewatch so here we go
i've said it once and i'll say it again: the worst part of final fantasy iv is the the part right after they defeat the giant of babil and cecil makes rosa and rydia get off of the lunar whale because "he needs to protect them" (implying they cannot protect themselves) (they've been functioning as healers for the last 10 hours of gameplay and cecil can't learn white magic past cura. he can't heal for shit!) (implying the final team against zeromus is going to be five men.) and then rosa and rydia sneak on the lunar whale and they come along anyway.
you will never convince me that makes sense. that after years of knowing rosa, that out of the blue cecil no longer respects rosa as a knight, and rydia as a summoner. NONSENSE. random, misogynstic nonsense.
thinking about final fantasy vii dads today...
cloud and tifa have a weird thing going with their parents, where cloud lost his dad very young/didn't grow up with his dad, only living with claudia, and tifa has the exact opposite, where her mom died when she was young (leading to the og nibelheim incident /hj) and she grew up mostly with brian, until both claudia and brian died in the (second) nibelheim incident.
brian lockhart was obviously very protective of tifa, not wanting her to go up mount nibel in the first place with sephiroth, zack, and cloud to check on the reactor. then he died in front of her up in the reactor a week later...
while barret doesn't talk about his parents, he is a dad, and he sure has complicated feelings about that!! what with dyne being his best friend, and myrna not being able to be there with him, caring for marlene through all that loss must be crazy.
aerith's dad literally helped create sephiroth. professor gast was a craaazy dude lowkey. and he's so irrelevant in her life it kills me a little. i hope we see gast in pt. 3. and tell him his daughter is fuckin' dead.
nanaki has a weird thing with seto, too, where he believed him to be a coward, just to learn that in all actuallity, seto sacrificed the life he could have had with his wife and nanaki to protect cosmo canyon, so nanaki wouldn't feel the need to make a similiar, self-sacrificing choice.
yuffie and godo... her anger at him in the remake trilogy has me hooked. sonon seemed to think he was a great guy, and yuffie adamantly argued the opposite. i cannot WAIT to see him in pt. 3. i cannot wait to find out what is going on. she hates him so much right now, for the sake of her country.
does cid have a dad thing? ...i don't think so. neither does reeve/cait sith... well. i didn't forget them. they're mentioned.
vincent and grimoire... another thing i hope they explore in pt. 3... or in a DoC remake (PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE REMAKE IT.) the literal 4 minutes of grimoire screentime that explains absolutely nothing about their relationship, or grimoire's research, or... ANYTHING. i'm so. curious. he came in, flirted with lucrecia, and died. ARGH TELL ME MORE!!!
also, not a party member, but the whole "president shinra having multiple illegitimate sons" thing always makes me hate that guy a little more. lazard and evan i love you guys. rufus i love you too but your daddy issues are a different flavor.
you. rock. thank YOU‼️
recently discovered i am in a minority which is that reeve tuesti is genuinely one of my favorite final fantasy characters. why doesn't anyone like reeve 😭 where is my reeve content 😭
day dreaming about commissioning someone to draw rufus and tseng from my own fic. i know what i want it to look like but i can't draw for the LIFE OF ME.
imagine. it's sunset in junon. rufus and tseng stand side by side, rufus leaning over the railing on the airstrip. rufus is looking over the ocean, tseng is not-so-subtly looking lovingly at rufus. rufus is in a baby blue sweater vest, a white dress shirt underneath, khakis and dress shoes. a jacket tied over his shoulders, a platinum wristwatch on his wrist. his hair is gelled back. tseng is out of uniform too- a deep red silky dress shirt, not quite buttoned all the way up. he's wearing black slacks and his holster, his hair down and cascading over his shoulders.
is the vision there?? do we see it?? do we hate it??