When You Get So Lonely And Empty You Can’t Physically Eat.

I’m not gods strongest soldier

Y’all I’m so so scared of hair loss and it’s so bad what do I do 😭😭😭

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+ some thoughts that may help below the cuț

ik it’s fitness themed, i’m a bit orthorexic and the compulsive exercise type.

A few things I wanted to share as an 3DN0S girl struggling w 4na (orthorexia), compulsive exercise (some docs have called it exercise mīa), and binging.

If you exercise you will have a higher appetite, yes. But building muscle will boost your metabolism and help burn fat. So an extreme calorie deficit (with high protein) and weightlifting and some cardio will literally melt fat off of your body. Yeah, then you’ll have leftover muscle to get rid of. just stop weightlifting or muscle training and keep the calorie deficit. it’s so simple fast and easy. DISCIPLINE. WILLPOWER.

Metab days are not a thing. the only way to increase your metabolism is increasing the energy you burn or the amount your body has to burn aka muscle. sometimes i wear ankle weights while i walk. and 10k steps + ankle weights burns a bunch more cals.

f@sting is not as good as ppl think it is. maybe once every few months, but our bodies basically get freaked tf out if we ⭐️ve too frequently for too long and begin to conserve fat and muscle for energy. a deficit, plus vitamins, to ensure our body is getting the macro and micro (at least some) nutrients it needs will help you not plateau on your lxs loss journey.

once you have reached your ugw, just consider (if you can and it is not too triggering for you), increasing your intake. not to a surplus and not forever. just for a bit until you have nourished your body with some vitamins and minerals a bit. you’ll be less at risk for tooth decay, hair loss, broken bones, cancers, plus sooooo much more. just consider it.

Daily spo 🎀

How are you guys doing today? I had a small binge yesterday and gained 400 grams, but I’m hoping to fast for 10 hours today and lose again ^^

Diary Entry #9

"And if I die?"

Ana smiles, patronizing, "then you shall die beautiful."

At that moment, I knew, as I lied among the rubble of my filthy room. That though I can hardly breath and my body has grown weaker. That though I am pale and sick and nearly lifeless. That though I am fading into nothingness, drowning and sinking into the oblivion that is vanity. I knew I would always crawl back to her.

I knew, that even in death I would call out her name, because she has given me what I most desired, what I most craved, and prayed, and begged for.

Ana gifted me beauty when God did not.

7.6 pounds down since Sunday ✌🏼✌🏼