Why Do I Only Love Myself When Im Starving

Just realised I can totally get away with only eating half of some things at home without my boyfriend getting suspicious. Had a meal deal from Tesco for dinner and only had to eat the whole small thing of sushi, but could get away with only eating half the bag of crisps I bought

Still not great… but less calories is less calories

reminder that even if you have an ED, it’s not okay to fat/food shame others.

So, my boyfriend is gonna be away from home for training from early on the 24th until kinda late on the 26th! That means I can fast that whole time!

Which is good news since it’s his birthday that weekend 😅 so of course that’ll probably involve going out for a meal or getting takeout.. plus a birthday cake for him, of course… but at least a bit more of a prolonged fast a few days before should counteract that a bit 😅 hopefully lol

The Monster Saga

(me trying the different flavours)

Ultra Fiesta Mango

My rating: 7.5/10

Review: Flavour was a bit too strong for my liking (even though I usually love mango flavoured stuff)

Probably would still buy it again though tbh 🤔

I have a massive fear that no one actually likes me, rather everyone is just politely tolerating me hoping I leave them alone

Actually can’t wait until I can fast next week 😫

That moment you realise you got to 179lbs last year and if you’d just not been an idiot you could have weighed even less rn… fuck… well, if I felt like eating anything at all for lunch (was probably just going to be like two wraps by themselves), I definitely don’t now lol so I’m just gonna not 🤷🏼‍♀️

I don’t know if I’m gonna be able to deal with the fact he now has a work phone that I can’t access

My boyfriend just got back home, by the way

I should be happy… but I’m just anxious af