The Monster Saga

Actually can’t wait until I can fast next week 😫

One day I will look like this… a promise to myself

(Picture found on Pinterest)

Why isn’t my weight going down 😫

I don’t feel like a person I feel like a disorder with a body

And before anyone says anything:

No, I don’t 100% trust him

I have very good reason for that

I don’t know if I’m gonna be able to deal with the fact he now has a work phone that I can’t access

My boyfriend just got back home, by the way

I should be happy… but I’m just anxious af

Also ate wayyy more of the Chinese takeout than I’d originally planned 😅 at least I haven’t eaten anything else today though… I guess…

I really cannot wait until the 24th when I can just fast for like two full days and restrict the rest of the week as well because he’ll be back at work

The one and only thing I really hate about living with my boyfriend is that I can’t just not eat when he’s around 😫 I’ve done so well all day today but when he gets home from work I’m gonna have to eat something for dinner… I guess I’ll just try and pick something low in calories and pray I still lose

Drinking black coffee this late in the day (like 6:30pm) is probably gonna come back to haunt me when I can’t sleep later… but oh well 😅