One Day I Will Look Like This… A Promise To Myself

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all i can think about is how everything is on hold until i’m skinny. does anyone relate like?? this isn’t real like this doesn’t count i’m not a person until i’m thin

Only 10 hours left to go until my 48 hour fast is officially done though, regardless of whether I decide to fast beyond that or not

And good news is I’ll be asleep for most of the rest of it 😄

Now the question is whether I should finish fasting at lunch time tomorrow and have like a bowl of soup or something and whatever my boyfriend decides on for dinner when he gets back. Orrr whether I should just carry on fasting until dinner time tomorrow… really not sure 🤔

Also dreading this weekend because it’s his birthday on Friday and this idiot promised to bake him a birthday cake 🤦🏼‍♀️ and he wants to go out for a meal on Saturday as well…

I don’t feel like a person I feel like a disorder with a body

And before anyone says anything:

No, I don’t 100% trust him

I have very good reason for that

I don’t know if I’m gonna be able to deal with the fact he now has a work phone that I can’t access

My boyfriend just got back home, by the way

I should be happy… but I’m just anxious af