The Fact That I Still Have Facial Hair Is A CRIME I Need Someone To Scorched Earth This Shit.

it’s been rainy 🌧💙

Another unexpected (but very positive) consequence of being trans: I kinda "gentle parent" myself now, so to speak? For a long time, I've had a problem of being incredibly hard on myself in kind of every way, which is definitely not a good thing. Part of why this has changed is definitely due to mental health improvements, but I think my journey of improving my mental health and understanding my gender/transitioning are incredibly intertwined. The former kickstarted the latter and the latter drove the former forward. Had one not been present, the other would not have progressed to where it is today. I still am a bit hard on myself at times, especially when I'm frustrated, but I've gotten so much better at just being nice to myself, at just telling myself I'm doing a good job or that I did enough or that it's ok if I can only do part of this task because it's better than nothing, and I'm better at reframing my dysphoria into less of a "I hate this about me" and more of a "look how this has the potential to change." I'm just so much better at treating myself with the same kind of uplifting compassion that I try to show others. Like just. The impact transitioning has had on my mental health is absurd. I genuinely love and care about myself in a way I don't think I ever did before and it's pretty incredible. So. Some credit definitely goes to therapy and various internet people, but boy howdy is my transition already doing so much.

one star magnolia for @punkitt-is-here! they were sooooo fun to draw, i love star motifs so so much :O)

Unfriendly reminder that while you're busy mourning the loss of your childs old gender, claiming you need to mourn the death of your son/daughter, there's a group of boys/girls/enbies scrambling to take your kid clothes shopping, snatching up the chance to take those "first" experiences from you forever. Your sons first fishing trip is gonna be with his best bros, your daughters first makeover is going to be with her girl friends, your kids first camping trip out as themselves is gonna be with the besties. Good luck getting those bonding experiences back. While you're busy trying to guilt-trip your kid with your weird manufactured parental trauma, there's a whole community ready to take your place as the better family.

Your loss, someone elses gain.

now, i absolutely should be studying. but.

i have officially gotten to a place where i romanticize my own existence.

the way my shoes dirty and scuff after a day across campus

the way the leaves fall around me when i walk under trees

the way my spotify playlist is curated to exactly what i want to hear

the way my t voice still crackles sometimes

i am so, so happy to be alive.

dear all transqueers struggling to be alive: i love you so much. i love us so much. you can find happiness <3

art of laika by @rznant!

"irreversible side effects of HRT" all of life is irreversible. i cannot go back a single second in time

she says this to the protag like 8 minutes into the show

detransition isn't a mark of failure, it's one that shows you were willing to take a huge step to figure out who you are, and you came out the other side learning something from your experience. it's more important to find that out than to spend the rest of your life wondering, and not knowing

Sometimes I think about her