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Heres a reminder for you that being dissociated isn't limited to the common misconception where you are frozen in place, incapable of doing anything or even thinking, or experiencing a significant time gap,, those things. (This is a very important post, read till bottom so im happy!)

And while its hard to spot the milder signs when you're dissociating, don't worry i got you covered by bringing awareness, im showing what those signs could look like:

Dazing/blanking out several times

Hands looking weird (depersonalization)

Surroundings also looking weird (derealization)

Feeling detached emotionally, physically, or both

Light-headedness

Less reactive in responding

Forget things more often

Unable to focus or keep concentration straight

And many more..!

When you have multiple of those signs at once, then chances are you are dissociating (extra note that it can also co-occur with derealization/depersonalization). While it can be caused by various factors, i would like to add that it may or may not get worse as time passes and no one wants that thing to snowball until it got too bad (remember, preventing now is better than dealing later) so having a few tips would help:

Grounding (sensory): listening to music, feeling different textures, paying attention to things in your surroundings, trying different fragrant or scents, have some snacks to occupy your senses

Grounding (physically): feel your chest as you breathe, get your body moving to redirect focus, splash some cold water, hold something you can squeeze (such as a stress ball)

Practice being mindful. As it can help you re-anchor back to reality faster, regulate better, building more resilience, increasing awareness of oneself's state

Sometimes we go do our day without giving a thought that were detached from reality, usually by going autopilot and scrolling through social medias without being aware (well, atleast for me) and forget lots of things while being dysregulated at the end. So by being aware of the mild signs and incorporating grounding skills im sure memory gaps and those funny aftermath stuffs won't be a problem anymore, have a good day peeps.

EDIT: I forgot to mention that another sign is your hearing feels muffled, that you can hear sounds feel more distant despite close, i thought it could be grouped with the “less reactive” before.

EDIT 2: It is true that sometimes these techniques will not work,, so it's recommended to create a peaceful environment in hopes of going away sooner when waiting it out. grab some videos to watch, put some of your favorite musics or cuddle your soft pillows (if any, pets) and stay comfy! Do not stress about it because it'll be counterproductive. Full explanation at here.

- j

wait you understand that kinks are ok because they're fantasies that make you happy right? you all get that you don't need to have trauma for your kinks to be okay? right? like none of you think i witnessed a tragic accident on the pool toy assembly line right?

let me tell you a story…

in which crowley tries to convince himself that all is not yet lost, because underneath it all, he is an optimist…

Yall, today we learned this is the color. And that’s its real name.

no babe I love when you open 100 tabs then go dormant for 6 months you're such a good headmate yes of course I'll just sort of minimize the window and ignore it until you come back don't worryyy

Social isolation can be traumatic.

Neglect can be traumatic.

Not having friends can be traumatic.

Being alone all the time can be traumatic.

Bullying can be traumatic.

Don’t let anyone else tell you otherwise.

Your struggles are valid and you deserve to be seen.

-Dr Sunshine

one thing that I don’t see talked about often is headmates with different body types in the innerworld and how it can be difficult to adjust to the body

so here’s a shout out to:

alters that are plus sized within the innerworld but in a skinny body

alters that are skinny within the innerworld but in a plus sized body

alters with nonhuman features within the innerworld but in a human body

alters that are tall within the innerworld but in a short body

alters that are short within the innerworld but in a tall body

alters that have a different skin tone within the innerworld than the body

and anyone else I forgot!

I know that we aren’t actually how we see ourselves in the innerworld, though it can be a struggle to adjust to the body and come to terms with the fact that we are not how we perceive ourselves

(Endos and related, please do not interact)

-Arlene🪽🩵

some plural/DID My little pony memes for you little goblins in trench coats

unfortunately ive done so much research into did that i know the symptoms really well. therefore, if i display those symptoms, i must be subconsciously FAKING for ATTEN--

"[character] lives in my head rent free" same bestie. probably in a different way though

Traumatic childhood? There's an alter for that. Trouble in school? There's an alter for that. Committing tax evasion? There's an alter for that! Causing an international diplomatic incident? Th

No, you're not.

(Made by me)

-host

People really need to learn how to acknowledge systems outside their own comfort zone.

There are systems with a lot of introjects (yes including fictives) that are 100% fucking real.

There are systems with complex and vivid innerworlds that are 100% real.

There are systems with hundreds and thousands of alters that are fucking real.

Fun fact systems on social media are, in fact, real people and not just an entity that exists on the internet. Tumblr is a social media that houses real people, including systems, and so is any other social media a person can use. Just because you think something is "cringe" doesn't mean the person is faking their disorder.

Stop fucking fakeclaiming people, it doesn't help anyone and you look like an asshole.

telling singlet friends about your DID who didn't know about it when you met is so weird to explain. like.

"right, so, you know me as Cameron. I went by that name for years, and everyone in the system goes by Cameron, but technically, I'm not Cameron at all and Cameron doesn't actually exist. Cameron was the previous host, who later changed his name to Juno. also I'm Phoenix, a fusion of the previous host and someone else, so I'm partly Cameron, but not really".

how the fuck do you phrase that.

A Small Reminder For OSDDID Systems

There is no such thing as the "perfect system." Your brain developed this disorder in the best way it saw fit to help you survive. As such, your system structure and the way it functions is specific to you, the trauma you underwent, and the way you reacted to it.

You might have more nonhuman alters than other systems, or you might form introjects easier. You might have hundreds of fragments, or you might have none. You might have 2 alters, you might have 10, or you might have hundreds.

Your system is catered towards your specific needs. While we all share symptoms and aspects in common, our systems are unique to us. What that means differs from person to person. Some might have hundreds of introjects, and some might have none. Both system were needed for their body's survival.

Your system is valid as it is, even if others try to tell you otherwise. What your system "should" be like is exactly how it already is because it's your system, and it was made to help you survive.

One of the most validating things you can do as a system is try to act like one of your alters, you will very quickly realize you can’t, because it’s just not you. So whenever you need a validation boost, turn on a camera so you can look back on it, and then pick one of your alters and pretend to be them for a few minutes. It’ll look stiff and awkward and not quite right. Because it’s not them.

This tip has been from Apollo. Goodnight people’s

the desire to have a nice organized simplyplural vs the reality of not knowing shit about the system

That DID vibe when you're filled with rage and anxiety and you feel like you're about to fucking snap and then suddenly your thoughts aren't coming through clearly and you feel like you can't move (even tho you CAN) and then.... Calm. Serenity. Indifference. Neutral. You no longer know what you were about to say, or why you felt so angry and anxious. Then you're like "Oh. I switched."

System Experience I Rarely See Talked About

Having only 2 alters

Having under 5 alters

Having over 100k alters

Having over 100k fragments

Having hypersexual child parts

Having child parts that are mentally older

Having child parts who can understand adult concepts

Having child parts that are bodily older, but mentally still children

Having no innerworld/headspace

Only having a room in the headspace

Not having a fronting room

Having a fronting room

Having an extremely complex innerworld

Constant heavy dissociation

Severe amnesia that makes you forget what happened an hour ago

Dissociative fugue

Chronic severe PTSD

Somatic symptoms

Rarely switching

Being frontstuck for months at a time

Rarely knowing who you are

Not knowing if you've switched

Internal trauma reenactment

Internal sexual relationships

Innerworlds not being a safe space

Alters who are dicks simply because they want to be

Alters who rape other alters

Internal pregnancy

Alters living in different time periods

Alters stuck reliving trauma

Having a lot of NPCs

Having cities full of NPCs

Having no NPCs

Having NPCs who reenact trauma

Having NPCs living the life you would have had without the trauma

reading fanfic abt yourself as a fictive:

*picks up ur system and shakes u all like a snowglobe and watches ur headmates fall everywhere*

In favor of our most recent post about people making "DID fakers" bingo, I made my own DID bingo card. Feel free to fill it out and see if you have a bingo

–John

Edit: OSDD systems or UDD systems can do this too. Basically just systems in general –John

not every system has a gatekeeper.

not every system has a set host.

not every osdd system has less than 50 alters.

not every polyfrag system has more than 1000 alters.

not every system has an innerworld.

not every system can access their innerworld.

not every system hates their system.

not every system knows everything about themselves.

not every system knows nothing about themselves.

not every system sees themselves in the same way.

everyone’s system is different. everyone deals with their systemhood differently and has different views on systemhood.

you are not broken or wrong or faking for not being like someone else. you’re just different, like every system is <3

a “horror” movie where the main character had DID/OSDD and they’re possessed by a demon but didn’t realize because the system just thinks there’s a new alter

sometimes DID is screaming crying hellish agony and sometimes it’s trying to figure out WHO THE FUCK DOWNLOADED 117 PICTURES OF SHARKS ON OUR PHONE

btw, if you say you're a system, or if you say you're plural, I will believe you. no matter what. it doesnt matter how many alters you have, amounts of amnesia you have, how good or bad your communication is, whatever. if you say you are plural, then in my eyes, you are plural, and I will love you no matter what.

Just so we're clear.

Fictives are not a sign of faking.

Quiet/Loud switches are not a sign of faking.

Large systems are not a sign of faking.

Switching a lot is not a sign of faking.

Not switching much is not a sign of faking.

Emotional amnesia is still amnesia.

Don't force people to address trauma they may not even remember.

Don't force people to remember trauma.

Childhood traumas don't have to be what an adult would consider extreme. Kids are a lot more sensitive to stimuli and cruelty.

And some systems have done fucked up shit in their childhoods, it's not their fault they had to survive.

Be kind, people need it.