Amchanrambles - Blog Posts

Only when I post something that ends up getting seen by a lot of people do I realize that:

A. I apparently cannot do grammar/spelling for the life of me

And

B. I forgot an entire portion of what I was writing because I pressed post instead of save.

Needless to say, god I love hyper analyzing things and I'm glad y'all like it too even if it's angsty as fuck.

Happy Halloween y'all!

Usually I have something planned/prepared for the occasion (usually it's OC art which I'll post some of those eventually, maybe) but this year I'm in the spirit just not apparently mentally there to make anything right now.

I did say on Twitter I probably will make something for Halloween when it's over. Like I have an EMic family drawing thought up but it's not even sketched yet so it's not happening until probably November.

For now, I got nothing other than:

be safe, don't over eat candy to the point your stomach hurts, those over 21 drink responsibly and uhhhh have fun. I have class today (boo) so I'll try to be spooky afterward.

I'm also gonna add real quick (I accidentally posted before adding this):

I think this really does play into his response when he beats up Kurogiri/Oboro. Like he's letting it out in what many people may think is unhealthy but he's probably felt like this for a long ass time. He's been bottling things up, drinking a lot and trying to get through his life without needing to talk about it and when he did talk about things? It wasn't with the only person he now has left at the end of the main manga.

He preserved Shōta's feelings and memories and took the brunt of it like he did back when they were second years. It's not to say that I'm going to place blame anywhere but not being able to talk about this second round after the war is probably not good for his mental health. He wears a broken mask that he's again gluing back together just like he did fifteen years ago.

That being said, SOMEONE GIVE ME AN UPDATE ON HIZASHI. I care about Present Mic, okay, but I NEED TO KNOW WHATS UP WITH ZASHI PLEASE. His entire mental state collapsed twice in the span of fifteen years, he probably has a lot of trauma packed into himself too and all we have is "oh he's okay!" from Deejaying. No, that's Mic. Mic is as okay as he's gonna get, ZASHI, I want to know what's going on with him, if he's okay. If he talked to someone about something after he had to put on that front again ESPECIALLY after Nemuri passed.

Spoilers for the Vigilantes Manga specifically the School Days Arc because that's what I have to talk about with Hizashi mostly.

Alright here we go. Starting off with the screenshots from my Twitter (a portion is cut out of one because the response was from the OG just talking about how Hizashi was just a boy/kid when they lost Oboro)

(link to the og thread I qrted for this discussion below ⬇️)

Okay let's talk about this. I didn't say a lot in regard to my actual thought process but I have got to talk about it.

First of all: The way in which Hizashi is completely fucking shattered. He's partially mask off in terms of like his entire mental state being shifted into hell. He literally looks about ready to bawl his goddamn eyes out, like he's going to entirely lose himself.

He does technically lose himself, he loses more Hizashi Yamada, the loud "happy" teen with a voice quirk. It's his persona he has aside from Present Mic which I want to say at this point does in some way exist. Maybe not as we know it I'm the main manga but pretty damn close.

When I say he forced himself to glue the pieces of himself back together and "cope", I mean like he's literally gluing himself back together as he's putting back on his smile. He physically is forcing himself to be happy just for a moment. He goes into the mentality of "I need to be strong for others (Shōta), everything will be okay" when it isn't okay.

It isn't okay here and it isn't okay fifteen years later when that façade entirely crumbles again. I always bring up when I in some way write about Hizashi in general pre-timeskip, post-war that he wears a cracked mask with pieces falling off of it. He really does and this mask probably started earlier in time but ended up becoming worse once Oboro literally was dead in front of him.

He puts up the front when his world view is crumbled, shattered to pieces in front of him that he's still happy-go-lucky in a sense. It's jarring because many people in this situation would've outwardly shown how devastated they are. He starts off that way too and as everything progresses, he doesn't give himself the time of day to process what's going on and for the next fifteen years, he still doesn't give himself that.

The shock and horror we see here? Yeah he gives the same when he's faced with the horrible reality that he's losing his "friend" (Kurogiri/Oboro) again and watching it happen in real time.

Like I have so many thoughts on this y'all got no idea. This ain't even the half of it-

Spoilers for the Vigilantes Manga specifically the School Days Arc because that's what I have to talk about with Hizashi mostly.

Alright here we go. Starting off with the screenshots from my Twitter (a portion is cut out of one because the response was from the OG just talking about how Hizashi was just a boy/kid when they lost Oboro)

(link to the og thread I qrted for this discussion below ⬇️)

Okay let's talk about this. I didn't say a lot in regard to my actual thought process but I have got to talk about it.

First of all: The way in which Hizashi is completely fucking shattered. He's partially mask off in terms of like his entire mental state being shifted into hell. He literally looks about ready to bawl his goddamn eyes out, like he's going to entirely lose himself.

He does technically lose himself, he loses more Hizashi Yamada, the loud "happy" teen with a voice quirk. It's his persona he has aside from Present Mic which I want to say at this point does in some way exist. Maybe not as we know it in the main manga but pretty damn close.

When I say he forced himself to glue the pieces of himself back together and "cope", I mean like he's literally gluing himself back together as he's putting back on his smile. He physically is forcing himself to be happy just for a moment. He goes into the mentality of "I need to be strong for others (Shōta), everything will be okay" when it isn't okay.

It isn't okay here and it isn't okay fifteen years later when that façade entirely crumbles again. I always bring up when I in some way write about Hizashi in general pre-timeskip, post-war that he wears a cracked mask with pieces falling off of it. He really does and this mask probably started earlier in time but ended up becoming worse once Oboro literally was dead in front of him.

He puts up the front when his world view is crumbled, shattered to pieces in front of him that he's still happy-go-lucky in a sense. It's jarring because many people in this situation would've outwardly shown how devastated they are. He starts off that way too and as everything progresses, he doesn't give himself the time of day to process what's going on and for the next fifteen years, he still doesn't give himself that.

The shock and horror we see here? Yeah he gives the same when he's faced with the horrible reality that he's losing his "friend" (Kurogiri/Oboro) again and watching it happen in real time.

Like I have so many thoughts on this y'all got no idea. This ain't even the half of it-

The best way to wake up from a nap is seeing the boop button. Thank you. Thank you for giving me the opportunity to get booked again and to give boops!!

I'm gonna cross post a discussion from my Twitter over here about Hizashi when Oboro died because I need to expand on it and making a long thread makes me feel weird. Like I feel like I'm yapping too much but a post on here makes me feel normal. Stay tuned I gotta take some screenshots for context (and get a good fuckin link)

In the 60 extra pages I want an update on hizashi yamada, not present mic.

I'm so sorry to all of my Twitter moots who find this place because I absolutely cannot shut up. The word count on Twitter was what kept me from making big ass threads, I'm unstoppable here other than my hard time writing things and posting them.

Y'all get the exclusive thoughts I didn't want to include there either because I got scared someone would take it wrong on Twitter. Even with the next mass exodus, I do feel safer posting my fandom based thoughts over here so uh yeah.

Slightly more unfiltered (if y'all saw me on Twitter that is) Amethyst-Chan in the house let's go!

Twitter's on the verge of collapse again. Y'all know what that means- more posts over here! It's still gonna be slow but I'll have more time for my big ass analysis rambles I have planned. I'm still posting to Twitter until the entire thing collapses in on itself but I'll be trying to add more stuff here. Spruce it up if you will.

Quick spoiler disclaimer for beyond the cut. It does talk about the final episode and other parts of season 7 for MHA/BNHA! Not a lot but there is a mention of a few scenes just in case y'all haven't watched yet!

I have so many drafts like it's not funny. There's a new one I'm writing that's just my thoughts on the end of MHA's manga because some of it makes me kind of annoyed. I already have one I'm finalizing for Midnight (don't even get me started RN for that one, she deserved better all Imma say), one for togachaco and one for Present Mic/Yamada Hizashi because of one of the things I reblogged like five days ago.

This one is gonna be on my thoughts for like the rest of the students because, at least to me, we don't talk about them all enough. We talk about Uraraka, Todoroki and Midoriya (and by proxy Bakugō) but we don't talk about Momo, Jirō, Kaminari or anyone else enough. Yes this is spurred by that parallel back to season 1 where the students are all flashed to and we see Kaminari staring down at where Midoriya is during the season finale.

To put it simply as to what that one is probably gonna have in it: these heroes are kids. All of them that are in the damn war are fucking kids. We don't talk enough about the trauma of seeing people die, people get hurt, the after effects for some of them (ex: Jirō and her ear), watching people potentially die (ex: Kaminari watching Aizawa and Mic fall practically to their deaths if not for Kurogiri) and so many other things.

They're seeing what no adult wanted them to see this early, hell they saw things during the PLW too, don't think I'm gonna forget about several students seeing Midnight dead. Like I think we don't talk about a lot of this enough and it's prompting a really, really long ramble post because I want to talk about it. It rattles around in my brain a lot.

Y'all I'm gonna take a bit of time on my ramble posts because I just entirely got my ass kicked by my practical midterm exam for a class. Not like I failed it, it was just too physically demanding and I am very very tired. So tired in fact I didn't even think I could be so I might be a bit slow on them.

They are coming! It might take a week or two tho.

just realized Aizawa’s and Vlad King’s birthdays are two days apart. I don’t yet know what I’m going to do with this information but I have to do SOMETHING

I'm finding out from at least two people who have commented and reblogged on two different art posts (the one on the artchive and the EMic doodles) that y'all like tooth gap Mic/Hizashi. Y'all have no idea how much that means to me-

NGL, I mostly saw the headcanon and went "yeah that checks out" and then added it to my collection of visual headcanons. It's like the freckles, although I do project a lot for the freckles because I have freckles (to the point his freckles and moles on him are literally almost the same patterns as mine-) but that's not the point.

Anyway I'm rambling about how much I almost squeal when I see someone liking a headcanon I put on a character, in this case Mic/Hizashi, because idk it just is so nice to see. I love seeing people enjoy headcanons and sharing them so I think that's why.

Writing out a big ass text post based on a Twitter post I made yesterday about Midnight. I did copy the original four tweets but y'all are getting the bonus content for it. I would love to add this bonus stuff to Twitter but again I'm too scared to talk about my opinions on Twitter very much.

I do start off the post with how younger me in middle school thought Midnight was a bit much for an anime but y'know she's grown on me a lot (thank you, Vigilantes) and things about her specifically being dead make me sad.

So look forward to that, it's almost done and I'll get to everything else when I can.

Y'all feel free to send me shit in an ask if ya want! It can be anon or non-anon I don't really care, there's no judgement here about it, my ask box is very much open. I'm down for headcanons, ideas, questions doesn't matter.

I do ask to limit on NSFW and suggestive stuff. If you have those ideas for potential drawings, I don't draw NSFW and I'm very picky on how suggestive I'll draw something. Same with suggestive and NSFW asks in general, I'll decide if I want to answer the ask. That's just a heads up for everyone here.

I will say that I might be a bit slow with answering them just because I'm doing classwork from college and I get tired easily. It's not me ignoring your stuff.

Oh yeah fun facts about that Mic drawing:

1. It's my wallpaper for my computer (I haven't changed that since I was in middle school) and my banner on most websites.

2. The OG sketch had him with his hero hair but Call me Aizawa because I got a love-hate relationship with drawing that thing.

I will say that I love drawing any and every hairstyle I put on Mic/Hizashi but the angle killed the way his hair looked so man bun Mic became a thing. Nothing bad about having man bun Mic but I know realistically he probably wouldn't have a man bun in his hero costume. Who knows, I mean I separate the two this way but I'm down to just fw it.

Posted this onto Twitter (so I'll be copying and pasting) buut:

Someone pointed out that the students have their hero costume designs on the microphones, checked EraserMic and they have a part of their costumes on the microphones too-

I like both of them but Mic's is cool, it resembles the studs on his jacket and shoulder pads. Aizawa's are his goggles of course so that's so cool. I'm in love man.

Oh yeah, btw don't think I'm not drawing beatboxer Mic and Aizawa. Y'all crazy to think I wouldn't my tl on Twitter is full of drawings of them so it's giving me a lot of inspo. I love them dearly and I have the urge man!

Making myself a halloween pfp for October like I usually do. Dunno what the costume is gonna be rn but I do know my persona (the one that's in my pfp now) is gonna rock it regardless.

Wow Tumblr just ate the color out of that drawing. okay then thanks-

The doodles from yesterday are done. I'm on a fix for dadmic RN and he's getting his daughters goddamn it-

He's getting all the damn hugs from Jirō, Uraraka and Eri and nobody can stop me.

Like I'm so close to just drawing them all together after the war and he just cries because one, his daughters are alive (maybe not in the best shape but alive) and two, they're his babies. He might not be their biological father but y'all can't tell me Jirō doesn't see him as a mentor figure at least, Uraraka has his favor and Eri is already under his care so it just works.

And don't think I won't make an accompanying thing with Hitoshi and Aizawa (and Monoma because I see him as an honorary "son" figure to Aizawa after the war and being so damn close to him to use erasure). I just have a bigger fix for dadmic than I do dadzawa rn but they'll come, they'll come.

Starting a new sketch page because I need to focus on something else rn and I just absolutely love his face. He is not seeing at all.

Also the stark difference between that face and the one I gave him for the last one that I'm using as the ref (yes that is how I color his hair btw) is just so funny. God I love him.

Small hc below the cut for those that want to know:

I think really (and it'll be expanded upon soon don't worry that hc post is almost doneish if I don't have anything else to add) like Hizashi can't see very well without his contacts (he has clear ones and green since I do HC him with red eyes but he wears green contacts as Present Mic to hide them) or his glasses so when he tries he squints and sometimes he looks angry cuz he's like "The hell does that say??" and trying to make it out so he's concentrating. Like he can kinda see but not as much as he'd like.

He also is used to being able to see with his contacts (this specific one would be on a very stressful/tiring day tbh) and he's not noticing that a. He forgot to put on his glasses when he got home and b. He's not wearing contacts at all. Like he spaced it basically which I know probably doesn't make sense but I just wanted to do stuff with it.

Rant over, dunno when this sketch page will be done but I probably will be showing little updates to it every once in a while between my massive text posts, reblogs and that bigger three part piece I worked on but haven't finished formatting 😅 I'm not tagging it with any MHA tags rn because I don't want to and it's not really done so.

That is one of his daughters. He looks at Uraraka so fondly I swear to god. It makes me ILL oh my god.

Y'all are too kind thank you for the reactions so far on the EMic doodles! It means a lot to me since I was kinda hesitant to post with all my headcanons n such. Makes me incredibly happy y'all have no idea.

Let it be known I do have more to come, I'm just really slow at drawing and rn I have classes that are kicking my ass. I literally have a post formatted on the artchive but I have to format it the same way on twitter (I don't have to technically, I want to because it makes it look cool) but that'll get posted later. I have a lot of doodles in the mean time I'll try to post and as stated before like at least two headcanon posts.

Again thank you all uh I can't put into words how much I appreciate the positive reactions to my drawings. It fills me with so much damn joy.

I'm writing my headcanons for Hizashi and Shōta individually because I am going way too in-depth with Hizashi's to just put them both together in one post. They both mean so much to me like y'all have no idea I can't even put it into words-

I'll get back to that post momentarily because I forgot about it until I looked at my drafts. In the mean time, if I get the sketches done who's up for some EraserMic doodles I did when I was half asleep last night?

Deadass I should've been doing a paper but instead my brain drifted to EraserMic as something to save my ass from burning out. I was also listening to my playlist for them on Tidal so that didn't help the brain with ideas either.

Anyway, I'll get back to the other post in like a few hours probably and y'all will get some doodles only available to this blog and maybe Twitter.

My knees hurt a lot and I haven't even done anything. It's my first day of classes too so my body is gonna have to suck it up.

Oh I think I'm going to post that sketch dump thing I was talking about/showed on Saturday when I get home and maybe, just maybe, I might doodle more MHA stuff since it's on the brain and I cannot stop either thinking about it or drawing it. There's gonna be a total of probably four sketch pages since I did accidentally draw EMic stuff on the other page, it was not intentional at all but I really couldn't help myself.

That's it until I (hopefully) post later it's again not going on the artchive because it's doodles so it'll be on this page for as long as I wanna have it here!

Ahem, Present Mic everyone. The one character I'll end up learning how to draw hands from like good lord because I want to draw his different hand poses (or some of them Im just intrigued) and Im finding out a lot-

Needless to say, I hope y'all are ready for those doodles/sketches.

I have so many drafts and none of them are art related other than a few reblogs I haven't decided to throw out there I need to clean out my damn drafts-

Hi y'all! I'm working on stuff I swear. I've been fandom hopping a lot rn, getting back into MHA/BNHA after I was so into it in 2020 right as the manga ends (don't talk to me I'm devastated and have some thoughts but I won't post that rn-) and mostly drawing OCs.

I'd like to put this out there that this blog is not spoiler free for any fandom I enjoy, draw and ramble about! I will mark things as spoilers when I know I'll be talking about something that many people haven't seen yet and are also interested but my likes and reblogs may also contain spoilers.

That being said, I'm still trying to finish my intro post cuz I'd like to get that done before I actually graduate college, junior this year baby, and some art. I'm still very much in love with TOH, I just went back to one of my old fandoms so I might post some art from there since I am stuck in the clutches of MHA and I don't think I'll ever leave the fandom.

I hope to post art or something else soon God I have so much art that I'm working on between just trying to get my skills better and getting into media because good Lord sometimes other people's styles are immaculate to look at.