Depressive. - Blog Posts

But I will wait an eternity if I feel as if there is still

the tiniest,

littlest bit

of hope left.

Do you ever just get scared for no reason?.. It's like you know something bad is about to happen but you don't know what and that just makes you even more terrified.

Anxiety // I'm.not.living.im.surviving on ig

Our favorite colors were always the same; blue. But I recently grew very fond of purple. That doesn't mean I like blue any less, I just like purple more now.

Things Change #4 // I'm.not.living.im.surviving on ig

They say we 'are not alone' but that isn't always a good thing. It makes everyone see us as 'just another depressed kid' or 'just another emo teen'. People think that it's 'just what teenagers do.' But if we were like the others, we wouldn't feel this broken.

I guess it doesn't matter though since this is all 'just a phase' anyway

If I were to stop talking.. would anyone even notice?

I Doubt It. // @im.not.living.im.surviving on ig

The sad part is... I saw this coming. I saw it coming but that didn't stop me from continuing to love you.

I still continue to love you... // @im.not.living.im.surviving on ig

I used to feel at home whenever I talked to you. But now it’s more like when you check into a motel; familiar, yet cold and neglected.

Things Change #3 // @im.not.living.im.surviving on ig

I don't know how to do this whole "life" thing.

Everyone is always better than me at everything..

You already knew that though // @im.not.living.im.surviving on ig

I have a bad feeling that my good mood is going to be destroyed when I go back to school tomorrow...

When school vacations end so do my normal thoughts // @im.not.living.im.surviving on ig

I don't even matter...

I don’t think you will ever fall as deeply into this depression as me. Want to know why?.. Because every time you’re sad, I know exactly what to say… All the things that you didn’t.

You never helped me, but I’ll help you because no one deserves to feel this way // @im.not.living.im.surviving on ig

When you came, my nightmares turned to dreams. But when you left, my daydreams became my nightmares.

I want my dreams back

Whenever Things Seem To Be Getting Better

Me: Wow, I'm actually happy.

My Brain: ha! No you aren't

Me: What do you mean?

My Brain: Here are memories of all the things that you fucked up. Oh! Don't forget about the people that used to be a big part of your life but aren't anymore!

Me: ........oh yeah........

Maybe you wonder why. But mostly.. You try not to think about it.

Short film "ReMoved" by Nathanael Matanick

It seemed like it was always night time and nightmares and never morning.

Short film "ReMoved" by Nathanael Matanick

I hate watching people go down the same road as I did...

Does that make me a hypocrite?

I'm not okay but you are so it's okay.

You will always be more important than me anyways

Everything seems so hopeless...

Looking For a Way Out

You don’t deserve to be in this mess.

I’m only going to hurt you. I hurt everyone.

You used to love me as more than a friend, but I guess things change..

Things Change #2 {via idoubtanyonecares}

And when you’re finally happy, you’re scared. Because every time you feel happy, something bad happens and ruins it.

When will things ACTUALLY get better? {via idoubtanyonecares}

You say that talking to him will do nothing but bad things for me. But every time I see his face or hear his voice, all I can do is smile.

How Can Something Feel So Right Yet Be So Wrong? {via idoubtanyonecares}

I can feel myself spiraling out of control but I have no idea how to stop it.

Make It Stop {via idoubtanyonecares}

I used to be your first choice. But then she came along. I don’t blame you for choosing her though. She’s so perfect, and I’m so….Me…

No Longer a First choice {via idoubtanyonecares}

Do you know how it feels when nobody understands you?

I just would like a half decent guy to talk to that is understanding as to what I'm going through

La peor sensación es saber que hiciste lo mejor que pudiste, y qué aún así no haya sido suficiente..

Fingir que no duele hasta que eventualmente deja de doler......

Debe ser bonito eso de querer a alguien y tener la certeza de que esa persona te quiere también.