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A real kiss in the snow this time

Katniss, during almost the entirety of the trilogy: I don't want kids but I want Peeta to have children so much. He is so dad-shaped it hurts, Imagining his kids running in the meadow in 12 brings me so much joy..

Peeta: has never, not once,expressed any desire to have kids before the epilogue

as katniss and peeta enter the capitol for the first time, katniss is shocked at how peeta is able to hold his ground by smiling and waving to the capitol citizens (thg, 59). and she immediately concludes that this is because peeta is already fighting hard to survive (thg, 60). and fighting hard to kill her (thg, 60).

just like everyone else in his situation would.

but literally every other word he says to katniss in this book is about how he doesn't actually think he is going to survive this. like when they are talking about their skills (thg, 90). or when he is explaining how he wants to die as himself and not stoop to the capitol's level (thg, 141). or when he is trying to tell katniss what he wants her to know before he dies in the cave (thg, 261).

by the end of the first games, i am sure that peeta had started to think of himself as a survivor. a victor. after all, he was about to survive a brutal death arena with his lover.

but then the rule changed. and only one of them could survive. and any drive of his to survive did not stop him from immediately realizing that katniss needs to be the one to live. because he needs her to live.

and so, throwing all survival instincts to the wind, he threw his knife into the river and released the bandage from his wound (thg, 342). he was planning on dying for her. he just didn't realize that his songbird was thinking the same.

and this continues in the second game when both katniss and peeta hyperfocus on how they can ensure their lover's survival. knowing that it would cost their own life.

they both don't really consider themselves survivors. or, if they do, they recognize how they will need to just forget all of their natural instincts to survive. because there is something more important.

and it is almost like they both decided to be survivors in the quell because they need to survive just long enough to help give the other person a better chance of surviving. because what is the point of surviving if your happiness dies alongside your lover.

So I reread the jabber jay scene and the scene after to draw this

and holy shit I'll never get over how much of Peeta's dialogue and character got cut in the movies

Most of his role in these scenes was cut entirely or given to Johanna of all people?? (love Johanna, I just think it's kinda funny)

I wonder if part of it is because Peeta notices and cares about the details and the movies cut out most of said details lmao

Guess the scene

Another one of the Peeta moments that rot in my brain constantly is the scene in catching fire when Katniss and Finnick get stuck with the Jabberjays.

Peeta had his hands pressed against the force field, trying so so hard to be there for her and wanting so badly to protect her. And when it finally ended he held her, and rocked her, and let her hide her face in his arms, and protected her for as long as she needed him to and…..that’s just so ughhhh….so heartbreakingly sweet.

Coach Peeta in Catching fire: no time for affection, we are training like careers to survive.

Katniss: no KISS for me ? You DON'T give me any hugs ? Oh ! oh ! Jail for Peeta ! Jail for Peeta for a thousand years !

"No I've got it!"

Mini Rant about Peeta's nightmares:

When he explains his nightmare to Katniss, he tells her they're mostly about her and he's okay when he knows she's safe. I don't believe him. Based on his paintings, I think his nightmares are a lot more often like hers than he lets on But Katniss completely bases her self worth on how much she can provide for others. SO I think Peeta tells one lie in the moment to tell the bigger truth: Her existence is enough.

i do find it funny that movie everlark are always serious and brooding around each other while in the book they bicker over if peeta’s icing skills would be useful if the arena was a giant cake or not