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Nicknames they have for you:
Feitan: Doll and doll face. (for some reason I feel like he’d call his s/o ‘little flame’ and ‘my little sun’ in his native language. Darling if they’re someplace formal/undercover or more as a snide/sarcastic nickname to show whose in charge. Brat if they’re being a tease or he’s teasing them. I could also see him saying my pretty little play thing 🤣).
Chrollo: Mi amore, love, dear, darling, sweetheart, my queen/muse/heart/treasure/one and only (very formal and classic names. He might also just look at you and call you irreplaceable)
Phinks: Babe and sweet cheeks
Machi: Just uses your name. (Baby once in a blue moon in private).
Killua: cheeks and babe. (My little light and baby only in private or if one of you is hurt, sick or upset).
Nicknames you have for them:
Feitan: Fei, Killer Queen, hot tamale, love, hunny bun, demon spawn, skull face (honestly I think he gets the worst nicknames given bc his s/o can get away with it). The most common ones they use are love, Fei and Killer Queen.
Chrollo: Lover boy, love and amore. (I feel like Chrollo has a personal hatred for the nickname Babe & Bae because of how casual it sounds. He likes very formal sounding ones but prefers just his name when around others).
Phinks: Babe (sometimes they teasingly call him Mr. Macho).
Machi: Pink cheeks, my little needle, babe (she hates being called baby, it makes her feel less dominant).
Killua: Sparky, sweets, love, babe, baby cakes, kitten, kit kat (if they’re older than Killua I can totally see them calling him hun/honey or baby). The most used ones are definitely Sparky, Kit Kat and Babe.
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Do they prefer a younger, older or same age partner:
Feitan: I think he could go any way. He’d enjoy an older partner due to life experience and a more realistic view on life. However I’m leaning to more of a younger partner because there’s something about the naivety and innocence that brings out his curiosity. How far can he push you? Does he want to break the way you think about the world or protect it? The way their vision isn’t tinted with how cruel the world is just crazy to him. He’ll definitely tease you but he is always thinking about your view and coming up with new things to get your opinion on. It’s intriguing to him.
Chrollo: roughly same age. He wants someone whose curious but not naive or necessarily very experienced in life. He’d rather go through life exploring and discovering new things and ideologies with you. Naivety while it might bring a softer spot in Feitan annoys Chrollo quite a bit. He’s the leader of the spiders. He needs you to be realistic (not cynical or overly naive) about the way the world works.
Killua: as a teen I think roughly the same age or a year or two older. If they’re younger he might end up seeing them more like his younger siblings then he feels like a creep. Once he hits his 20s I don’t think he’d care about age.
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Would Feitan Ever Leave The Troupe?
Overall I think no, but there are always exceptions aren’t there? I think there would be two he definitely would though.
1. If his partner got murdered or he had to murder them (more likely because of the latter). Depending on how it goes down he would stop altogether or go on a more reckless killing spree.
2. Something breaks him. This is what I think it would be (set a few years after the current arc)
Imagine Feitan has a little girl. Cute, quiet, innocent with big eyes. The perfect mix between his s/o and him. Every time he looks at her he feels undeserving to be her parent. He tries to avoid her at times because of the way she always seems to want him. Want his approval, to babble nonsense and talk about how to get away with murder (I mean common, it’s his daughter 😂). She looks at him like he’s her hero but he's a monster. He knows this. She knows what he is. Who he is. Yet that has never changed her opinion if anything making her more fascinated with him. (He’d probably think something along the lines of ‘Just like her mother, terrible taste in people’)
It would be a random mission. It's not supposed to be anything big. They just needed information. Phinks already has them in the room they think Feitan would prefer. He never knows who he has to torture on missions like this. However, when Feitan walked in he didn't expect this. A little girl his daughter's age, same mannerism, same bright eyes, similar appearance. Similar everything. It was as if she was copied and placed in his torture chambers. It was unnerving.
He tried. He truly did. It never bothered him before. Age, gender, power, etc. He hadn't cared before. He could do it all without a second hesitation. He could feel the frustration seeping in. The little girl was insightful, she told him she was dying and her father was a bad man who hurt people too. She smiled sweetly up at him reassuring him she didn’t hate him, that she understood why he had to do this. She always knew this would happen—it wasn’t a big deal.
At that moment Feitan could feel the crack. He recognized this in his daughter too. Her ability to smile through it all. Knowing who he was and that if anyone found out about their ties she would most likely be tortured and murdered in the worst ways. Yet her refusal to hate him, to still want to be around him, running up to him every time he went home asking what he brought her this time while begging him to play swords with her (‘little brat thinks she’s owed a good life ’). Too curious for her good and not afraid to ask him anything, to run to him for protection and safety. That he was home to not just his s/o but his child that couldn’t defend herself just yet but sure as hell had the spitfire to get there.
The way the little girl told him exactly what he wanted to know on the promise he’d read her favorite book to his daughter. That he’d play her favorite game with her and let her die with “Mr. snuggles” ( an ugly little yellow bear) in her arms. Honestly, he’s not positive what broke. Maybe it was his heart. Maybe his inhumanity.
Either way, Feitan wasn’t the same. Maybe he messed up and let her go. Maybe he killed her. It honestly doesn’t matter. Feitan would never be the same. He would never find the same joy once held in torture and killing as he once did. Something just dissatisfied him and made him uninterested in it. He couldn’t put his finger on the exact emotion but he couldn’t do this anymore.
He saw his daughter in his chair, life in his hands and he broke. He flatly laughed, how ridiculous is this twist of fate. From having nothing to having something he never wanted to be taken away in the ways he’s taken so many.
He didn’t have the heart for it anymore, he knew he couldn’t do this job anymore. One little misstep would cause the others their lives and he wasn’t willing to do a job he knew he wasn’t suited for. It was always a tell. One misstep would lead to another one and another, skills slipping, mistakes left and right, tracks left undone, a mess that would only lead to death (the troupe, his s/o, his daughter, maybe all). He hated messy. He hated not doing something right. He hated that in less than a day his whole ideology had fallen apart. Yet that was the path he was forced to face.
Wordlessly he walked back to the spiders.
“Quite”. Was the only word he said dropping his knives in front of Chrollo.
Chrollo confused accepted his resignation without question. An understanding smile creeped on his lips. The others were pissed. Hurt. Confused. Yelling profanities and threats ensued. Spiders demanding an explanation they’d never get.
He turned around walking out. “Where will you go!” Phinks yelled, slamming a fist into the wall.
Stopping slightly Feitan looked back and for once the troupe could see a hint of a smile. A true genuine smile, “home.”
That was the last time they saw Feitan.
Feitan would never be the same but maybe, just maybe, he was ok with that.
Unpopular Kurapika Headcanon
A/N: As always, just my thoughts! Hope you enjoy! 🙃
Warning: torture, murder and rape mention.
I feel like if Kurapika were to find out a spider had an S/O he would go crazy. He doesn’t understand why you’d be with those monsters and that leads him to assume a possibly innocent person has involvement in the troupe that most of the troupe members likely don’t even know exist. Hell, some of the Spiders s/o might not even know the full extent of what the troupe does for their own safety.
( I totally head-canon that they’d all keep their s/o to themselves if they did except maybe Phinks? Especially if they weren’t a spider. Most of this is because while they have some trust in their team they don’t with their s/o especially because they’re aware people with ability like Paku exist thus the more people that know the more danger their s/o is in).
He would demand to know how long they had been with said spiders, what do they know? Do they know about the Kurta Massacre and did nothing? Did they participate? You didn’t even try stopping their murderous acts and this is as bad as the act itself in his mind.
Kurapika would become very angry and unhinged. His friends likely would not be able to stop him. Leorio tried but got knocked out after being punched to a wall. Gon tried reasoning but fell to death ears. Honestly Killua might be able to stop it but it would be more like him and Gon would try finding the spider themselves to get Kurapika to stop from murdering someone who was so clearly not apart of the spiders. (This would come with the condition of not murdering Kurapika. Not a trade for the Spider for their s/o. Gon and Killua can see the advantage to it but honestly they just want Kurapika to stop and don’t care if it comes from a trade or just bringing the spider. This condition is something that the Spiders would live with as they want their s/o back. For now at least. They will plan a brutaler way for Kurapika to die later then.)
Depending on the answers given to the previous questions depends on the outcome.
First, his clan was all murdered. How could a troupe member have someone that they probably loved and still were able to do that with no regrets, qualms or sorrow.
He would want the spiders to feel that sorrow. Even if their s/o wasn’t involved. He’d want the spiders to feel isolated, abandoned, lost and the pain and suffering of loosing the people who love and accept you.
He would be a loose canon. He would only see red.
Depending on whose S/O they were probably depends on their punishment. People like Feitan, Chrollo, Phinks, and Nobunaga’s s/o getting the absolute brunt of it. (If your Chrollo’s good luck, your gonna get the worst of it).
If you weren’t the s/o of one of the previously mentioned spiders you’d probably get a little roughed up and his judgment chain/ chain jail with nen conditions(he would adjust his conditions stating since while you may not have been directly involved with the massacre of the Kurta you are still involved with the Spiders).
The worst possibility is maybe he snaps and kills the s/o. This isn’t likely for the members S/O as he really wants the spiders to see their s/o destroyed as a consequence of their actions.
Now as I stated people like Feitan, Chrollo, Phinks, and Nobunaga’s s/o would get the absolute brunt of it.
Now remember this man is only seeing red, there is no reasoning or stopping him like this. Not when it comes to the fact the troupe can kill people others care about but when it comes to their own loved ones they expect to be untouchable. He just can’t stop. He will regret and have a hard time accepting whatever decision he goes through with. Especially with these members s/o.
Their punishments could go from beating to torture to murder to having his own time with them but it wouldn’t be just his nen chains. The spiders deserved to get pain like no other and what better way than through their s/o.
He would try to break the Spiders s/o. This could be keeping them for a few days to figure out what to do with them and beating them whenever they say something to defend themselves or a Spider. He will break their wills. He wants them to beg for death like his clan did. He will take their eyes. No mercy will be found when he is like this. He wants them to break.
He gets a terrible idea to claim their s/o as his own while breaking them. This means he will force himself on them. He reasons they deserve it. The fact he gets pleasure from the spiders knowing what he did to their s/o disgusts himself. Knowing it will scar their s/o. That the spiders will never be able to get away from a piece of him. Something so intimate and sacred, ruined. He wants to make sure the spiders think of him when they tend to the psychological and physical wounds of their s/o. He wants to make sure they will ALWAYS see traces of him even if just in memories or a flash when they see or touch their s/o. He wants them to feel pain and he’s not above going low methods he will for sure regret and have a hard time living with.
Kurapika justifies all of this with his end goal being to destroy the spiders. Their s/o was unfortunate but necessary collateral damage.
If Killua and Gon show up with the spider they will be horrified but try to block the memory of how far Kurapika is willing to go to break a Spider. The spider will collect their s/o with a calmness like no other but their aura promising nothing but the most painful murder possible. Meanwhile Gon and Killua try to hold Kurapika back begging through tears to just let them go. He’s done enough. When Gon tells Kurapika he’s scaring them that is the moment when Kurapika snaps out of it and looks at his friends. Both pairs of eyes glassy showing urgency for him to stop.
Kurapika will cry, he will feel like he broke himself and imprisoned himself rather than the spiders with his actions. He never wants Gon and Killua to stare at him so afraid and hesitant to reach out again. He refuses to let himself get so out of control again.
He will disappear from his friends for a long time, ashamed of himself. While he is thankful Gon and Killua did stop him from going further he would have a hard time accepting they brought the Spiders to him. Both because it was stupid and they could’ve been hurt but also because his trust felt betrayed though he would push that feeling down a bit more. He knows they did what they had too.
He may still think the Spiders and their s/o deserved it but not at the cost of his closest friends. The only family he has left. It doesn’t necessarily mean he regrets doing it but he regrets being so unhinged that Gon and Killua felt it necessary to seek out the Spiders.
Depending on what happens and if the other Spiders know, Chrollo will most likely order that anyone who crosses paths with the chain user can kidnap and torture the user but to make sure to leave them alive so the s/o’s Spider will get the finishing blows. (After his exorcism of course).
Chrollo & Feitan: Songs That Would Make Their S/O Think Of Them and Them You:
Songs That Make You Think of Chrollo: Mr. Perfectly Fine by Taylor Swift Sober by Selena Gomez Young God by Halsey Easy on Me by Adele Requiem by Mozart
Songs That Make Chrollo Think of You: Two Feet Love Is A Bitch (Slowed) by JK Beats Beethoven’s 5 Secrets by The Piano Guys Young and Beautiful by Lana Del Ray Lovely by Billie Eilish and Khalid Castle by Halsey
Songs That Make You Think of Feitan: Good For You by Selena Gomez feat A$AP Rocky My Oh My by Camila Cabello ft. DaBaby Queen of Disaster by LULLANAS I Fell in Love With The Devil by Avril Lavigne Arcade by Duncan Laurence All Your Exes by Julia Michaels Heaven by Julia Michaels Broken by Noelle Johnson Be Kind by Halsey
Songs That Make Feitan Think of You: S&M by Rihanna Sweet But Psycho by Ava Max Summertime Sadness by Lana Del Ray Without You by The Kid LAROI Monsters by All Time Low ft Blackbear Love is Madness by Thirty Seconds of Mars and Halsey Graveyard/Without You/Nightmare by Halsey
Headcannons for Yoon Bum, Feitan Portor, Illumi Zoldyck, and Tamaki Amajiki
⚠️ note: there is nsfw content, mentions of cnc, might be triggering to some!! ⚠️
Yoon Bum
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- wants to be loved
- devoted, completely loyal
- will do ANYTHING asked of him
- cuddles
- obsessive, doesn’t know how to love correctly
- obsessed like STALKER LEVEL
- but it’s sweet in its own way.
- gets jealous when you talk about anyone
- OLIVE THEORY
- hes so sweet, will plump your pillow and shit like that
- loves it when you do little things
- like just scoot closer to him outta no where
- or lay your legs on him
- or play with his hair
- LORD man will get on him knees
- no, like.. seriously. he will
- and i have a feeling he’d love random kisses, albeit will be hella shy ab it
nsfw
- praise.
- complete bottom
- the only time he will dom is if you make him
- please reward him for everything
- GOOD BOY
- such a good boy
- so submissive
- will do everything asked of him
- so cute
- cums too fast
- thrusts inexperienced-ly
- the cutest doe eyes
- will kind of manipulate you to get his way
- :]
Feitan
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- tsundere
- will tsk or tch at you for everything
- smiles just a little behind his scarf thing when he thinks you do something cute
- does the little things
- gets steals you something when he sees you eyeing it
- listening and remembering to the small things you talk about
- takes your plate to the kitchen with his when you’re both done with food
- takes bags from you when you’re holding something
- when you two walk together he’ll brush his hand against yours to see if you’ll get the hint
- things like that
- likes being the big spoon when cuddling or anything where he can hold you
- is utterly in love with you but denies it profusely
- his eyes soften just a little when he sees you
- when he wakes up in the morning, the first thing he does is pull you close(r) to him.
- or he’ll look for you if you’re not there. (and maybe panic a bit)
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- switch
- definitely dom leaning
- even when he’s bottoming he’s like dominant about it.
- HAIR PULLING
- he likes to be caressed and wants you to be sweet
- but don’t treat him like he’s fragile or made of glass
- throw in a little degrading every now and then
- bdsm
- will spank
- makes you get on your knees more often than not
- sometimes he’ll bend you over his, spank you and make you count, if you mess up he starts over again
- AFTERCARE BOSS
- so sweet afterwards
- will definitely cuddle you
- in the mornings he’s also very sweet. sometimes you’ll wake up to food or something if he’s in the mood or wakes up before you (he prob forced someone to cook tho, bc for some reason, i cant see him being able to cook 🤷♀️)
- :)
Illumi
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- you’ll have to bare with him here
- very emotionally constipated
- does this adorable head tilt when he’s confused (literally a puppy, i like do think hes like a lab or smt idk)
- he’s not used to physical touch but will hold your pinky finger with his :]
- he also will do these domestic thing he probably learned from movies
- like touching you with his cold feet
- or covering you with a blanket when you fall asleep
- will stiffly pet your head/hair
- lets you braid his hair occasionally (wont admit it but he loves those claw clip thingys)
- if he’s really tired after a mission he’ll plop himself onto you and cuddle you
- don’t touch him too suddenly though, make sure he knows what you’re doing
- be soft and gentle with him but also don’t be afraid
- sometimes he’ll release some bloodlust or just try and scare you to make you think he’s bad or “a monster”
- has a hard time knowing that you actually love him
- and don’t want him for his family, power, status, money or- you get the idea
- does want children though so.
- like a family
- and that, to him, is like- 5 kids so.
- he is very stubborn so you’re gonna have to settle with like at least one child
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- BREEDING
- i’m telling you this dude could go on for HOURS
- and i don’t mean like 1 or 2
- I MEAN LIKE 8-9 hours
- definitely tries to impregnate you
- if you have female anatomy or are fertile
- if not then he is getting like a surrogate or something
- he needs heirs
- seems vanilla but is kinda kinky
- definitely does the choking or pain(cmon mans a sadist)
- i think he’s into like pervy stuff too
- def watches you when you think you’re alone
- whether thats like taking a shower, changing, masturbating, etc.
- literally doesn’t know what boundaries are
- he gets off on you not knowing he’s there
- i feel like he’s into somnophilia
- :3
Tamaki
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- so sweet
- timid too
- the cutest
- his favorite cuddle position is like with you two curled up facing each other and your foreheads pressed together
- likes to just stare at you
- you make him blush a lot
- with anything
- say something, wink at him, check him out, hold his hand, play with his hair, kiss him on the cheek(or anywhere), etc.
- he’ll blush
- likes for you to lay on him, no matter your size.
- the weight on him gives him comfort
- like a weighted blanket or stuffed animal
- doesn’t take compliments too well
- usually just like shakes his head or looks conflicted
nsfw
- i don’t really think he’s comfortable with sex
- definitely on the asexual spectrum
- but i will say he does like intimacy and sensuality
- he just likes to be loved
- :>
(EDIT: WHY TF IS MY GRAMMAR SO BAD HELLO??)
