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Come on, the title for this is so perfect! Why canât they all be this easy? I have to be honest and say this is probably one of my favorite fics Iâve ever written. I actually wrote this story before the request came in, but itâs what they asked for, so here you go! Enjoy some ticklish Icy-Hot! ^^
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Bakugou was angry with Todoroki.
Well, okay. To be fair, Todoroki couldnât actually tell if Bakugou was angry with him or just generally angry at everything while staring intensely at him anytime he was in eyesightâŠall day long. Every time they ended up sharing the same space, the blondeâs eyes would lock onto him and glare until they went their separate ways again. It started that morning, happened all through class (Aizawa had to get after Bakugou a few times for being turned around in his seat like that), during lunch, and finally free time when they were released for the day.
Todorokiâs first thought was the school festival, when heâd tickled the blonde to hysterics right out in public where anyone could have seen them. But they hadnât â at least to his knowledge. Had someone seen and said something to Bakugou? Was that why he was so angry? The longer the day went on, the more Todoroki thought it must be. He had no other reason to be so vindictive towards him.
Finally, after dinner, he couldnât take it anymore. He stood up from the table, put his dishes in the sink, and turned back to his classmate. âBakugou, may I speak with you when youâre finished?â Then, without waiting for an answer, he left the dining room and went back to his dorm.
Five minutes later, Bakugou was opening up without permission.
âCome in,â Todoroki said dryly, sighing. âSpit it out. Are you angry with me?â
âFurious.â The explosive teen closed the door behind him, still glaring. âYouâve managed to get your hands on me and make me lose my composure twice now. Twice! But youâve never let me get my revenge for it.â
Todoroki was surprised, but he merely quirked a brow. âYou never asked.â
âWell, Iâm asking now.â Bakugouâs glare finally became something else for the first time that day â a wicked smirk. âNo, actually, Iâm not asking. Iâm telling you. Iâm getting revenge, Icy-Hot.â
âWait,â Todoroki said quickly, but Bakugou was already moving, grabbing onto his shirt collar and pushing him backwards until his knees hit the bed and he was forced to sit down. âWait, Bakugou!â The blonde grinned evilly and swung a leg over to straddle him, shoving his shoulders to the mattress. Todorokiâs mind went blank. âWait, waitwaitwait â please donât!â
Much to his astonishment and relief, Bakugou stopped his forward momentum and merely paused, frowning down at him. âWhatâs the matter? You can dish it out but you canât take it?â
âItâs not that.â Todoroki shuddered a little. Heâd never truly been on the receiving end of this kind of look from Bakugou before; it was disconcerting to say the least. âItâs justâŠI donâtâŠmy family never reallyâŠdid the tickling thing. I was never tickled growing up. IâŠI donât even know if I am ticklish, and if I am, how much so. IâŠâ Todoroki gulped and glanced away. âI know youâre rough and relentless, given what Midoriya has told me. I justâŠI donât know if I canâŠâ
Bakugou groaned. âYou want me to take it easy? Are you serious?â
âPlease,â Todoroki said quietly. âJustâŠuntil we know if I even am ticklish.â
âYouâd better be ticklish,â Bakugou snapped, grabbing onto the half-and-half heroâs sides and digging in. Gently â but still with purpose. When the boy beneath him shuddered and brought his arms down reflexively, the atomic blondeâs grin became genuine. âHeh. Looks like you are.â
âC-Cahahareful,â Todoroki pleaded, his giggling quiet and breathy.
âYouâve seriously never been tickled before?â
Todoroki found he couldnât reply for trying to process these foreign sensations shooting up and down his entire body, making him feel electric and wildly out of control with the slightest touch. He was aware his giggling wasnât like the kind heâd heard from his friends, but he also found that he couldnât control it to make it sound ânormal,â either. It just was, coming out in little huffs and chuckles while his body tried to squirm away from Bakugouâs hold on his sides.
âTch, all right, newbie. How about here?â Bakugou switched to digging into his stomach, but Todorokiâs reactions didnât change in the slightest. The blonde moved up to his ribs, even trying the spot that would make him lose composure in an instant if their roles were reversed. All the way until he grabbed Todorokiâs arm and pulled it above his head, the half-and-halfâs reactions were the same.
But then Bakugou scribbled in his underarm, and the floodgates burst open.
Todoroki let out a yelp before exploding with laughter, clawing desperately at Bakugouâs arm with his free hand, head thrown back and eyes squeezed shut as sounds he couldnât control spilled past his lips. âPFFTAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!! GOD, NOHOHOHOHOHOHO, WAIT, THAHAHAT REHEHEHEHEHEALLY TICKLES!! BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAâ!!â He couldnât even get his tormentorâs name out, he was laughing too hard.
âDoes it?â Bakugou smirked. âI couldnât tell. Stop punching me.â He paused just long enough to pin his classmateâs wrists together above his head and resume tickling. âThatâs more like it.â
âNAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!â Todorokiâs laughter was potentially the purest sound Bakugou had ever heard. It was like a babbling brook, only intensified and much louder. âWAHAIT, PLEASE, BAHAHAHAHAHAKUGOU!! STAHAHAHAHAHAHAP!!â
Growling at himself for being so nice, Bakugou did stop, but he kept Todoroki pinned down firmly as he caught his breath. When Icy-Hot pried his eyes open, they were lighter and brighter and happier than the atomic teen had ever seen them. More joyful even than the mimicked version of him that girl from another class had shown off to all those kids. It had taken everything in him to contain his laughter then. Now he couldnât help but stare a little, awed by the transformation a simple tickling spell had cast on his friend.
âSeems like youâre pretty ticklish to me, Icy-Hot,â Bakugou teased with a smirk, beyond satisfied when he saw Todorokiâs cheeks flush pink in response.
âIt appears I am,â he replied with a shy smile. âSo much for taking it easy.â
âItâs not my fault your underarms are a hot spot. Youâre lucky Iâm being so nice. As soon as weâre done experimenting, I fully intend to destroy you for tickling me twice already. Once in public, even.â
Todoroki actually giggled at that, then averted his eyes. âWell, get on with it then, hothead.â
Bakugouâs brows shot into his hairline. âGetting arrogant, huh? Pretty bold move for someone who doesnât know if the lower half is worse than the upper half.â With that, Bakugou scooted back just enough to access some new areas and then resumed his experimenting.
As it turned out, Todorokiâs hips were about the same level of ticklish as his sides and stomach had been, but drilling into his thighs made him spasm and laugh much like when his underarms were tickled. His knees gave almost no reaction at all.
Finally, Bakugou turned his back to Todoroki and straddled his calves, dragging his fingers up and down his soles. He was pleased to hear yet another yelp, followed by hysterical giggling and writhing. âHmmâŠgive me your feet, Icy-Hot.â Bakugou teased, pulling his classmateâs socks off so he could scratch and scribble along his bare skin. âI need to practice these pressure points.â
âCRAP, NOHOHOHOHOHOHO!!â Todorokiâs laughter reached entirely new heights now that the protection of his clothing was gone. He flailed about on the bed like a fish out of water, shrieking and begging for mercy.
Unable to hide his enthusiasm, Bakugou grabbed the toes of his left foot and dug roughly into the space below them as well as up and down his arches. âInteresting!â he exclaimed mockingly as Todoroki threw his head back and screamed with laughter. âI added more pressure, yet this still seems toââ
âSTAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAP!!â Todoroki begged, completely helpless and lost to his mirth at this point. He pounded the bed desperately, nearly falling off once or twice in his attempts to escape. âSTOP, PLEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEASE!! BAHAHAHAHAHAHAKUGOU!! I CAHAHAHAHAHAHANâT TAHAHAHAHAKE IT!!â
âHmm. Good spot, huh?â Bakugou scribbled wildly for several more seconds, then finally stopped and climbed off of his classmate, who instantly curled into a ball of giggles, gasping for breath. The blonde smirked. âOh, yeah. Iâm going to have a lot of fun with this, Icy-Hot.â
Todoroki covered his face with his hands, but Bakugou still noticed how his blush spread to his ears as he said, âYeah, me too.â
âWhat was that?â
âNothing.â
Bakugou grabbed Todorokiâs ankle and started scribbling again. âI said, what was that?â
âGAH!! Bakugou, nohohoHOHOHOHO!!â Todoroki screeched, trying to sit up enough to push him away and failing miserably.
âBetter tell me what you said.â
âME TOO!! I SAHAHAHAHAHAID ME TOO!!â
Bakugou let his foot go, but dove for his sides, pinning his legs to the bed in the process. âYou looking forward to getting wrecked by me again in the future? Youâre just like Deku.â
âEhehehehehehehehehe!â Now that it wasnât his feet being tickled, Todoroki didnât seem to mind that heâd been thrust back into a giggling fit again. âPlehehehehehease, Bakugou!â
âPlease what?â
âDohohohohohohohonât!â
âDonât what?â
âDonât tehehehehehehehease me like thahahahahat!â
Bakugouâs grin became pure evil. âOh, donât tell me teasing gets you, too? Tickle, tickle, tickle!â
Where Dekuâs laugh would have either grown more frantic or gone silent entirely, Todorokiâs laughter remained the same while his attempts to escape doubled and his blush darkened about ten shades. âI see. Strong, silent Todoroki isnât used to getting teased like this, huh? Too bad for you Iâm not very merciful when it comes to fighting with words.â
âPlehehehehehehease!â
âYou seem to like this a lot for someone who didnât even know if he was ticklish five minutes ago.â
âAgh, stahahahahahahahahap!â
âI will not stop.â Bakugou chuckled at the distressed noise Todoroki made. He shoved his hands back up into his underarms, grinning at the shriek that ripped from his friendâs throat. âTickle, tickle, tickle~ Poor, ticklish Todoroki~ Canât get away from me now, can you?â
Todoroki squealed. âPLEASE, OH MY GOHOHOHOHOHOD!! NO MOHOHOHOHORE!! MEHEHEHEHEHERCY!!â
âIf you beg real nice for me, I might consider it.â
âYOUâRE THE WOHOHOHOHOHOHORST!!â
âThe worst?â Bakugou laughed outright now, leaning down so he was speaking directly into Todorokiâs ear. âYou like it.â
âSTAHAHAHAHAHAP!! PLEHEHEHEHEHEASE, I GIHIHIHIHIHIHIHIVE!! STOP, BAKUGOHOHOHOU, PLEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEASE!!â
âFine.â Bakugou relented at last, releasing his hold on Todoroki and sitting up again. âGood thing youâve stopped when I needed you to, otherwise I wouldnât be showing you any mercy now.â
Todoroki spent a couple of minutes catching his breath, trying to regain some kind of composure but ultimately giving up and letting out another giggle. âI really am ticklish.â
Bakugou smirked. âYeah, you are.â
âIâm glad,â the half-and-half hero admitted, finally pushing himself into a sitting position beside his friend. âI was kind of afraid I wouldnât be, and then Iâd be the silent, stoic guy that nobody could break.â
âYou want people to break you?â
âWellâŠI enjoy tickling people Iâm friends with. It didnât seem fair if they had no way to get back at me, or just help me cheer up and relax.â
âSo, what? You want me to go tell everyone I found out youâre extremely ticklish? You know theyâll come at you like a pack of wolves.â
Todorokiâs blush returned, so red it matched the scar on his face. He struggled to hold back a smile.
Bakugou stared at him, then grinned evilly. âOh, you do want me to? Tch, donât have to tell me twice!â With that, he leapt off of the bed, bolted to the door, and flew down the hall. âHey, idiots! Youâll never believe this!â
Todoroki, meanwhile, felt his heartrate kick into overdrive, and the smile heâd been hiding broke out on his face in full force. He giggled again, then slapped a hand over his mouth to stifle it. He didnât know what heâd just gotten into, but he had a feeling the next few days were going to be exciting, full of new experiences and lots and lots of laughter.
he came in for a piercing. what he didnât expect was the artist behind the glovesâsharp-eyed, quick-witted, and maybe his new favorite reason to come back. (987 words)
your shop sat just off the main streetâhalf tattoo studio, half piercing parlor, with walls that held a little bit of grit and a whole lot of story. incense burned low in the corner, masking the sharp scent of disinfectant, and the constant hum of fluorescent lights buzzed beneath the soft thud of bass-heavy music filtering in from the back room. framed flash sheets covered the walls, inked with dragons, snakes, roses, and teeth. some were faded from sun, some fresh, some yours. all of them meant something to someone.
you leaned over the front desk, chin in your palm, scrolling idly through a list of upcoming appointments when the door chimed. you didn't look up right awayâit wasn't rare to get walk-insâbut something about the shift in the room made your hand pause over the mouse.
he stepped inside like he wasnât sure how loud to be. tall, square-shouldered, all muscle and nervous momentum. red hair pulled back in a headband that didnât quite tame it, and eyesâbright, dark-lashed, darting around the space like they were trying to memorize it before it could change.
"uhâhi," he said. his voice cracked slightly on the first syllable, too loud for the low hum of the shop. "iâve got an appointment?"
you looked up and found a boy who seemed more like a mountain in training. his cheeks flushed deeper when your gaze caught him.
"eyebrow at three?"
"yeah." he nodded, breath like it had been held since the sidewalk. "thatâs me."
"cool. iâm your piercer today," you said, stepping out from behind the desk and gesturing toward the back. "iâm y/n."
he blinked, then smiled like he hadnât expected introductions to be part of this. "eijiro. kirishima eijiro."
you gave him a nod and a smirk. "nice to meet you, eijiro. letâs make you bleed a little."
he trailed behind as you led him through the studio, past tattoo chairs draped in black leather and chrome trays lined with freshly sterilized tools. his eyes lingered on the art pinned above each station, pausing longer at a piece you'd done last weekâthree snakes coiled through the jaw of a skull.
"first piercing?" you asked, tugging on gloves.
"yeah." he scratched the back of his neck, sheepish. "figured it was time. always thought about it but... i dunno. guess i needed a push."
"itâs a good pick," you said, voice easy, hands already arranging your tray. "subtle. sharp. very you."
he blinked, then smiled. "you donât even know me."
"donât need to. i read people."
he laughed, louder this time. "and what do i read like?"
"someone who talks a big game and still gets nervous walking into places like this."
he opened his mouth, then closed it with a grin. "fair enough."
you motioned to the chair. "youâll feel a quick pinch and then a little pressure. itâs not that bad. just donât flinch."
"i wonât. promise." he slid into the chair like it was a test. his hands settled in his lap, though you could see the way he kept flexing his fingers.
you moved around him with steady precision. sterilized clamp. single-use needle in its packaging. mirror nearby. you sprayed his brow with antiseptic and caught his flinch out of the corner of your eyeânot from pain, but from cold.
he glanced at you. "you do tattoos too?"
"yep. mostly blackwork. fine line, sometimes flash. i draw all my own sheets."
"that snake piece on the way inâthat was yours?"
you nodded. "you've got a good eye."
he flushed again, red creeping across his ears now. "guess iâm just a fan of good linework."
you leaned in close, brushing his hair from his temple. his skin was warm under your gloves. close like this, he smelled like clean laundry and just a little sweat, like maybe heâd psyched himself up before walking through the door.
"keep your head still. iâm gonna mark you."
you felt his breath hitch as you pressed the pen lightly to his skin. you could feel the tension in his shouldersânot fear, exactly. more like anticipation wound tight beneath muscle.
"you alright?"
he nodded. "just thinking."
"about what?"
"if this actually makes me cooler or if iâll just look like i lost a bet."
you smiled. "only one way to find out."
you lined the clamp up gently. "deep breath in."
he inhaled, and you pierced through his skin.
a second passed. then two.
you pulled the needle through, swapped it for the jewelry, and clipped the hoop into place. he didnât move, not even when you wiped away the smallest dot of blood.
"thatâs it?" he blinked at you, like he expected to be bleeding out.
"thatâs it."
he touched the edge of the new ring, careful, like it might still sting.
"damn. kinda expected to cry or something."
"give it five hours. you might regret it."
he laughed and stood, slowly, adjusting to the sudden lightness in his posture.
you peeled your gloves off with a soft snap, tossed them in the bin, and reached for the aftercare sheet. when you turned back around, he was holding something in his hand.
a post-it. yellow. handwriting a little slanted, a little rushed.
he stuck it to the counter next to the tip jar. his number written in black ink on the paper.
"in case i want the other side done," he said casually. "or, you know, maybe a snake tattoo. or maybe coffee."
you tilted your head, one eyebrow raised. "you just hand out your number to everyone you meet under bright lights and sharp metal?"
he grinned, sheepish and bold all at once. "only when theyâre the prettiest person iâve ever met."
he waved over his shoulder, and the bell above the door chimed as he left, hair catching the light like a flame, and you were still staring at the post-it noteâstill smilingâwhen the door eased shut behind him.
HII!!!
i loveloveLOVE ur smauâs, could u do one for katsuki bakugo? enemies to lovers ?? the storyline and stuff can be anything u want.
pls feel free to add any details u want đđ
and no pressure !!!
you're vice captain to his captain on the soccer team. working together was never the problem. staying out of each other's way was.
aizawa with a pro hero that always get paired up together (did i mention they hate eachother to the point they cant stand eachother)
you and aizawa constantly get partnered for fieldwork. the job is clean. the dynamic, not so much.
Please bakugo friends to lover! User and him started texting bc of a group project then it goes from there when he texts them constantly if they are missing class or didnât show up to school at all
the plan was to finish the slides and turn in your project. not get used to talking every night.
hi cool person!!! i was wondering if you could do texting iida? like any context, but just make it iida as our bf or friends to lovers or something. thankss
dating tenya iida is like loving a perfectly alphabetized fire drillâstructured, intense, and somehow exactly what you needed.
MORE TOMU SMAUS PLEASEEEE đŒ
you let him crash for a week. it's been three months and you're starting to miss him when he's not on the couch.
OBVIOUSLY NOT FORCING BUT MORE SERO HANTA SMAUS PLEASE YOU SMAUS ARE SO GOOD I NEED MORE AND SERO IS HUZZđđ€
in which you didn't expect to like your dealer, but he keeps replying to your overly enthusiastic texts like it's normal.
DEKU ACADEMIC RIVALS TO LOVERS WITH READERđđđđđPLSOLSOKS
you're tied at the top of the class, stuck in a group project, and ignoring the fact that midoriya looks really good in library lighting.
Hiii so I was wondering if MAYBE you could do a smau with Denki abt reader being jealous of Jiro (Denki x reader/friend to lovers ?) (Pls pls pls)
you and denki are coworkers, best friends, and almost something moreâuntil he starts spending all his time with jirou. now you're just trying your best to not care.
you and izuku midoriya have been best friends forever. he's busy, responsible, always on scheduleâyou're not. but when your night goes sideways, he drops everything to come get you. you say something you might not remember. he hopes you do.
the music inside is muffled nowâblurry thudding base pressed against the walls like it's trying to escape. your phone glows in your palm for a few seconds longer, until izukuâs "i'm on my way" disappears. you blink, feel the chill air wrap around your shoulders, and finally set it down beside you on the grass.
the night air is cool against your skin, a little too cool for how flushed your face feels. you're barefoot, or at least... one shoe is definitely missing. whatever. it's fine.
you curl your arms around your knees and squint up at the stars, counting exactly none of them.
the front door opens behind you with a roar of noise and then shuts again. laughter spills out into the dark for a second, but it doesn't reach you. you sit there in a haze, cheek pressed against your arm, blinking slow. everything feels floaty. you're starting to regret that last drink.
when the familiar black car pulls up to the curb, headlights washing over the lawn, you sigh in relief. izuku parks in a weirdly straight line, like even now he needs to make sure he's perfectly aligned with the sidewalk. of course he does.
he's out of the car in a second, jogging around to you. "y/n?"
you lift your head and wave weakly, "heyyy, 'zuku."
he exhales through his nose, crouching diown. "are you okay?"
"mhm," you hum, then after a beat, "no."
he doesn't ask anything else. he helps you up with one arm around your shoulders, leading you gently to the car, careful not to rush you.
"you smell like cheap tequila and regret," he says as he buckles your seatbelt for you.
"mmm. that's just perfect."
the drive to your dorm is quiet at firstâuntil it's not.
"izuuukuuu," you sing, dragging out the vowels.
he glances at you, just long enough to check you haven't somehow turned into a puddle in his passenger seat. "yeah?"
"do you think that if trees could talk," you say, eyes glazed and face pressed against the window, "they'd be mad at us for always carving initials into them? like. what if that was their face?"
"...what?"
"likeâwhat ifâwhat if it's like if i just came up to you and went '<3 Y/N + I.M.' right across your cheek with a knife."
he blinks hard, struggling not to laugh. "okay. maybe no more frat parties for you."
"you're not even listening to the message, izuku," you pout.
"i think you should write a thesis on it. present it to the botany department."
"you're making fun of me," you say dramatically, eyes fluttering closed. "wow. and to think, i was gonna marry you."
he almost swerves. "what?"
"hmm?"
"...nevermind."
when he pulls up to your dorm and puts the car in park, you frown.
"shit," you mutter, blinking hard. "i don't have my key."
he turns to look at you. "what?"
"my roommates brought me. they were gonna unlock it when i got back. i didn't... i didn't think i'd need mine."
he lets his head fall back against the headrest, then sighs.
"...okay. you're coming back with me."
by the time you get to his apartment, you're half-asleep and still clinging to his arm like gravity doesn't apply to you anymore.
"okay, come on," he murmurs, locking his car and adjusting his grip around your waist. "let's get you inside."
the walk to his building is slow. you trip on the curb and immediately latch onto him with both arms, face smushed against his shoulder.
"you smell nice," you whisper.
"that'sâthank you," he says, trying to breathe through it.
he unlocks his door, nudges it open with his foot, and guides you in gently.
you kick kick off your lone shoe and immediately make a beeline for his bed, flopping face-first into the mattress. he sighs and tugs a blanket over you, tossing you a hoodie tooâjust in case.
he exits the bedroom and returns a few minutes later with a bottle of water, aspirin, and a small trash bin.
you've turned onto your side, face buried into his pillow.
"y/n," he says softly, kneeling beside the bed, "can you sit up for a second?"
"mm. no."
"i brought you water."
"...fine. if you insist," you grumble, lifting yourself up with all the grace of a wet noodle.
he hands you the bottle and the pills. you down them obediently.
then, after a long pause: "you're too nice to me."
"someone has to be," he replies, tucking the blanket around you. "your decision-making tonight was... not ideal."
"hey."
"you were drunk. by yourself. with nobody around that you knew."
you frown, suddenly more awake. "okay, wellâsorry my friends ditched me? that's not my fault."
he sighs, eyes soft. "i know. i'm not blaming you."
you grumble something incoherent and flop dramatically onto your side. "felt like you were."
"wasn't," he says gently. "just... worried."
you peek up at him, eyes squinted. "...i guess that's allowed."
"thanks for the permission," he says, and you swear you hear the tiniest smile in his voice.
he starts to stand, but your hand catches his wrist.
"hey, izuku?" he pauses, looking back at you.
you blink slowly. "you're my favorite person. like ever."
his eyes widen a little. he swallows. "...y/nâ"
"'s true. dunno when it happened but i love you."
he blinks.
you blink.
"...what?" "i love you," you repeat, like it's the most obvious thing in the world. "kinda figured you knew that already."
his mouth opens. nothing comes out.
it's not the first time you've told him that.
you've said it before, offhandedlyâover childhood goodbyes, late-night calls, after especially rough days. but something aboiut the way you say it now is different.
it doesn't sound like a best friend.
it sounds like everything else.
"i mean," you continue, voice soft and sleepy," why else would i always call you first? or wait for you to text back before i do anything. or remember your whole ass schedule even though i don't even know mine."
he looks like he's buffering. you broke izuku midoriya.
which means the only plausible thing to do here is keep going.
"oh," you add suddenly, "and you're, like, insanely hot. in a shy, rule-following, chronic overachiever kinda way."
"y/n."
"what?"
"you're drunk."
"yeah," you agree, "but i'm also right."
he laughs under his breath, eyes warm even in the dim light. and then, gently:
"yeah. i... love you too."
your eyes widen just slightly, and he adds, a little quieter, "i just want you to say it again when you mean it sober. so i can believe it's real."
you grin, eyes fluttering shut. "i'll tell you first thing in the morning, then."
he lingers there a second longer, like he's about to say something elseâbut he doesn't.
just pulls the blanket over your shoulder a little higher.
and softly, almost too softly: "okay. morning, then."
he turns off the light and closes the door behind him.
Need... Worried asf monoma x barely alive reader who got their ass sent to the hospital... Shit ton of angst and a fluffy ending and my life is yours unc đđ
the mission went wrong. she didn't make it out whole. he held what was left, whispering promises and apologies into bloodstained skin, praying she'd come back just once more. (2407 words)
neito monoma had always been a figure sculpted from layers of meticulous deflection and purposeful arrogance, a carefully constructed image designed to repel rather than invite closeness. beneath that armor, however, lay an earnestness few had glimpsed, an admiration that had quietly rooted itself deep within him, growing stronger with every interaction he had shared with youâan admiration he kept stubbornly hidden behind sarcasm and rivalry.
but now, standing rigid and hollow-eyed before the stark hospital window separating him from your battered form, monoma felt every carefully laid barrier crumble beneath the weight of profound fear. the clinical white lights cast sharp, unforgiving reflections across the polished floors, illuminating your frail, unmoving figure beneath the sterile sheets. the stark contrast between your vibrant spiritâonce so full of stubborn resolveâand the battered body now sustained by machines cut deep into his consciousness, a visceral pain he'd never known before.
your body was a ruin.
blood still crusted around the stitches at your temple, a wound that split your skin down to the bone. your left eye, swollen shut, was purpled nearly black. dried blood rimmed your nostrils. deep bruises bloomed across your collarbone and arms, fingerprints in violent shades of plum and yellow. a jagged gash peeked from beneath the gauze on your abdomen, where they'd reopened you twice due to internal bleeding. a rib had pierced your lung. he'd overheard the doctors say it was a miracle you'd made it to the hospital at all.
inside the room, it was too quiet.
the low whir of the oxygen machine, the faint hiss of air being pushed into your lungs, the soft, consistent beeping of the heart monitorâit should have been reassuring. instead, it felt like a countdown, like a fragile metronome ticking away the seconds you might have left. monoma sat motionless in the corner of your room, the plastic chair beneath him stiff and biting. the rhythmic tick of the wall clock carved into his skull with every passing second, each one sounding louder than the last.
he hated it. hated the silence. hated the way it filled his ears and forced him to listen to the slow, labored breaths you weren't taking on your own. hated the sterility, the scent of antiseptic that clung to the air like guilt. he wanted to scream, but the moment he opened his mouth, nothing came. just the sound of that damned beeping.
monoma sat in rigid silence, watching as your chest rose with the help of the machines, not strength. not anymore. all he could do was sit there and remember. not the good memories. noâthe last thing he wanted, the thing he couldn't stop seeing, was how it happened. how you ended up like this. how he let you end up like this.
and then he was back there.
âč àŁȘ Ë
the air was thick with smoke and ash, turning daylight into a choking haze that painted the battlefield in bruised, sickly hues. rubble littered the ground, the shattered remains of buildings cracked open like bone, and the screams of distant civilians echoed behind the veil of destruction. fires burned unchecked, consuming what little structure remained. it was the kind of scene that stripped away any illusion of heroismâjust ruin, blood, and the desperate need to survive.
monoma was bleeding.
he stumbled behind a half-collapsed wall, hand pressed tightly against his ribs, where something inside cracked with every breath. he had copied a quirk minutes agoâstrength, maybe, or speedâbut the user had gone down too fast, and now the power was bleeding out of him like the rest of his strength. he was running on fumes. his vision was doubled. he was useless.
he was alone.
except for you.
you were still standing. just barely.
ahead of him, through the smoke and flame, you faced the villain who had carved through half your team like wet paper. their quirk was monstrousâpure kinetic manipulation, an ability that turned every limb into a wrecking ball. every punch split concrete. every kick ruptured the earth. the sheer pressure rolling off their body was suffocating.
and you stood in front of it.
you were a wreck. blood soaked your shirt, a dark patch blooming from your side where a rebar had grazed your abdomen. one of your arms dangled slightly off-kilterâdislocated or broken, monoma couldn't tell. your face was almost unrecognizable: your cheek had split open, swollen to the size of your fist, and one eye had completely shut from the bruising. blood matted your hair and dried at the corners of your mouth. your jaw trembled with exhaustion.
but your legs held. barely.
"stay down," the villain growled, voice grating through clenched teeth. "i'll make it quick."
you spat blood at their feet. "you first."
monoma wanted to scream.
you moved first.
you ducked under the first blow. the wind it produced nearly knocked you off balance. you countered, striking fastâa jab to the ribs, a glowing blast of energy from your fingertipsâbut it only staggered them.
then they retaliated.
their elbow cracked against your jaw with the force of a sledgehammer. monoma saw your teeth snap together hard, blood spraying as your head snapped to the side. you crumpled against a lamppost, rebounded, and charged again with reckless, suicidal momentum.
he wanted to stop you. he wanted to grab your wrist and scream that it wasn't worth it.
but he couldn't even stand.
the villain slammed their foot into your stomach, lifting you off the ground. you flew ten feet and landed with a sound that monoma never wanted to hear againâflesh hitting stone, followed by silence. a wheeze escaped you, thin and wet.
you pushed up on shaking elbows, coughing violently. blood spilled from your mouth. you were wheezing, your breath broken like cracked glass. you reached for the pavement, tried to draw strength into your limbs, but your knees collapsed.
still, you got up.
monoma watched in horror as the villain lunged again.
they grabbed you by the throat and lifted you from the ground. your legs kicked weakly, a final show of resistance. your fingers clawed at their wrist, tearing at the skin, but you couldn't breathe.
they slammed you into a wall.
then the ground.
then again.
you weren't even screaming anymore. just hoarse, rasping gasps.
they punched you in the stomach. once. twice. three times. each hit echoed with a sickening crush. blood streamed freely from your mouth and nose. your arms dropped. your eyes rolled. your head lolled.
monoma could barely see. he was crawlingâliterally dragging himself across the pavement, nails scraping along the broken asphalt. he left a trail of blood behind him, from his own split skin, from your splattered remains.
you made a noise. it wasn't a word. just something small. a protest. a whimper.
the villain dropped you like a broken doll.
you didn't move.
monoma reached you in time to catch your head before it hit the ground. your face was slack, your eyes glassy. blood bubbled at your lips. he could feel the broken ribs beneath your skin, the sick heat of internal bleeding pressing against your side.
your chest fluttered. barely breathing.
your lips moved.
he leaned in. "don'tâdon't talk. you're okay. you're okay, just hold on."
your fingers twitched. you tried to raise your arm, but it fell uselessly.
and then, the villain turned.
monoma looked up. he met their eyesâcalm, detached, like they were already moving past this scene.
he didn't have the strength to fight. he didn't even have the strength to stand.
but he spread himself over your body anyway, shielding what little was left of you.
sirens in the distance. voices. shouting. too far. too late.
he screamed your name. screamed for help until his voice cracked.
when the others finally arrived, they had to pry his fingers off you. he was still trying to hold your head. still whispering, "she's still breathing," even though you weren't.
they started cpr before they got you on the gurney.
monoma watched the chest compressions. the blood that seeped through the gauze. the oxygen mask they fitted over your mouth. the way your body jolted with every push.
he saw them restart your heart.
twice.
he saw the paramedic shake their head.
he rode in the ambulance. he held your hand the entire way.
and he didn't realize he was still whispering your name until they pulled him off at the er doors, dragging him back as the double doors slammed shut between you.
and he stood there, hands shaking, blood everywhere, not knowing if you were alive or already gone.
and in that moment, monoma broke.
âč àŁȘ Ë
his body jolted forward, dragged violently back into the present. the smell of blood still clung to his nose, phantom pain still pulsed in his chest where he'd slammed against the pavement. but your hand was still there. still in his. and barelyâjust barelyâyou were still breathing.
he stood up suddenly and crossed to your bedside, dragging the chair behind him, the legs screeching softly against the floor. he took your hand into both of his, warming it with his touch, rubbing gently like he could coax life back into you through sheer willpower. his thumbs traced the bones beneath your skin, too sharp now, too still.
"you always did chase trouble," he whispered again, throat raw. "always leaping into things like you were invincible. i admired it, you know. even when i mocked you, i admired it."
he swallowed, breath shaking. "you make people braver just by standing beside them. you make me braver. and i hate how much i didn't say it before."
his voice wavered as he leaned forward. "you have to wake up. i need you to wake up."
the monitor continued its measured beeping.
and then, in an instant, that beeping stuttered. changed. slowed.
it was like watching a glass fall from a ledge. monoma's head snapped toward the monitor.
then the alarm.
the shrill wail of the machines filled the room, loud and final. flatline.
"code blue! room 308!"
monoma stumbled back as a tidal wave of medical staff poured into the room. hands gripped his arms, pulling him away, guiding him to the wall.
your body convulsed once under the defibrillator's shock. a nurse straddled the bed, counting out compressions as another prepared the next jolt. the beeping was gone. it had been replaced by that long, singular toneâflat and cruel.
he could see the color draining from your face. could see how your limbs had fallen loose, like strings cut from a marionette. you weren't breathing. your chest didn't rise. and he felt something inside him crack wide open.
the compressions were brutal. blood bubbled at your lips from the force of them, smeared across your cheek as your head lolled uselessly to the side. the nurse's hands were slicked in it. every thrust against your sternum echoed in monoma's ribs like he was being punched himself.
"again! clear!"
the jolt lifted your chest off the bed. still nothing.
one of the nurses looked up at another, eyes wide. "her vitals are too unstable. iâi don't know if we're going to get her back."
"we keep going!" another shouted, voice fraying at the edges. "she's young. she can still fight."
but doubt was a living thing in the room now. it crept through the gaping silence between the shocks, through the gory mess staining your gown, through the flatness of your chest.
monoma shoved against the arm trying to steady him. "please," he said, voice low and strangled. "please justâjust do something. don't let herâdon't let her die."
he was shoved back as they resumed cpr. he could hear bones breaking. could hear his own blood in his ears, roaring.
he was watching you die.
and then.
a single, weak beep.
then another.
the line began to flutter, erratic but blessedly alive. the flat tone faded into silence.
"we have a pulse!"
monoma collapsed into the nearest chair like a marionette cut loose. his hands were shaking violently. he reached for your hand againâstill cold, still limpâbut now, thankfully, attached to something living.
he didn't speak for hours. couldn't. his voice felt locked somewhere deep in his chest, behind the weight of what he'd seen. what he'd almost lost.
â
days passed in a haze.
he hardly left the room. ate only when someone forced him. he sat beside you, head bowed, whispering things you couldn't hear but said anyway. apologies. promises. secrets.
he memorized the peaks and valleys of the monitor's readout, flinched at every hiccup in the rhythm. he learned the shift rotations of the nurses, knew which ones brought your meds, which one checked the iv. he hated all of them for seeing you like this.
when your fingers twitched, he almost didn't notice.
then, they moved again.
he sat bolt upright. "y/n?"
your eyes fluttered, unfocused. your lips parted. "neito..?"
the breath he exhaled was more like a sob. "you're awake. you're really awake."
you tried to smile. "i feel like i got hit by a truck."
he laughed, broken and soft. "you look like it too. but you're here."
silence stretched between you again. but this time, it was the kind that held weight.
there were things in the airâthings he had left unsaid. things you'd never had the chance to hear.
monoma reached out, brushing a strand of hair away from your forehead. "there's something i have to tell you."
you blinked slowly, but your gaze was steady. "okay."
"i can't... i can't keep pretending i don't care. you've always meant more to me than i let on. i admire you. i rely on youâ" he paused, breath catching. "i love you. i didn't know how badly until i thought you were gone."
your breath caught tooâbut not from weakness. your eyes softened, a glint of warmth returning to your face.
"i think i've been waiting to hear that for a long time."
monoma swallowed hard, trying and failing to suppress the tremor in his hands. "then i'm sorry it took almost losing you to say it."
you smiled, slow and tired. "i forgive you. but you're not getting rid of me that easily."
he leaned forward, resting his forehead gently against yours. the machines continued to beep, slow and steady. for the first time in days, monoma let himself close his eyes.
"then i'm not going anywhere. ever."
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE ON MY KNEES FOR AN IZUKU SMAU WITH HIM AND MC CRUSHING ON EACH OTHER SOOO BAD BUT THEY'RE TWO IDIOTS WHO GO: "oh they wanna hang out one on one? Damn we're such good friends"
just two best friends hanging out one-on-one every weekend, doing couple things, and totally not dating (yet)
ur so funny plsđđđ plsplsplspls more shiggy and tamaki BLESS UP
you work the graveyard shift at a 24/7 convenience store. unfortunately, so does he.
Hey, I love all your SMAUâs so much, I was wondering if maybe you could do one thatâs Aizawa x reader and they have a kid together?
I think it would be so cute, if not thatâs ok, I love your smauâs so much
co-parenting with aizawa was already hard enough. now you're doing it in the middle of the ua dorms.
you know he's not yours, but you'd still pick him in every lifetime. the worst part? he'd let you. (2785 words)
you never meant to fall into it.
and maybe that's the problem.
because things that fall tend to break, and you? you've never been particularly good at knowing when to catch yourself.
it starts with nothing. not even a spark, not a clear moment. no dramatic beginning. no pivotal shift in atmosphere. he just... shows up one night. stands in the doorway of your apartment with wind in his hair and fatigue under his eyes and a grin that looks like it's trying to apologize for both.
you don't remember who invited him. maybe he just appeared. you wouldn't put it past him.
you only remember letting him in.
he takes up space easily. like he's always belonged there. like the couch remembers his weight. like your walls never had a choice in loving the sound of his voice.
he doesn't say much. he never really has to.
he leans against the kitchen counter while you make tea, not even asking what kind, just accepting the mug with his usual crooked smile and a quiet, "you're a saint."
he doesn't drink it.
he just holds it between his hands, steam rising between his fingers like an offering he doesn't quite believe he deserves.
you sit in silence for a while. the kind of silence that feels earned. he doesn't fill it with nonsense. he lets it exist between you, thick and soft and settled like dust on a bookshelf no one has the heart to clean.
"you don't sleep much, huh?" he says eventually, with the kind of voice that makes the night lean in to listen.
you shrug. "not when the world's this loud."
he nods like he understands. like he feels it too. maybe he does.
he spends the nightânot in your bed, never in your bedâbut on the couch. boots off, one arm lazily thrown over his eyes like the darkness is too much. there's tension in his shoulders even when he sleeps.
you watch him from the doorway longer than you should. tell yourself it's because he's in your home. that you're being cautious.
it's not that.
it's never that.
âËâč á°
he returns three nights later.
you don't ask why.
he starts showing up regularly. not every night, but often enough that you start leaving the door unlocked out of habit. he never uses a key. he always knocks, even when it's past midnight, even when you're both pretending he hasn't been there three times this week.
he doesn't talk about work. never talks about heroes or headlines or what happens after he walks out of your door and lets the world chew him up again.
you don't ask.
you offer him a space. warmth. the silence he pretends not to need.
he offers... something else. something half-shaped. a hand on your back when you pass each other in the kitchen. a smirk when you call him out on it. snacks left on the counter. a blanket draped over your shoulders when you fall asleep on the couch, though he'll swear it wasn't him.
and one night, when you're both sitting cross-legged on the kitchen floor with half a bottle of something nameless between you, he leans in and kisses you.
it's not hungry. not sharp. not even all that deep.
it's lazy. gentle. like he forgot himself and remembered you in the same breath.
when he pulls back, he just grins. "nice lips," he murmurs. "don't let anyone tell you different."
and then he's gone.
you press your fingers to your mouth and pretend it didn't mean anything. pretend it was just a drunk impulse. a thing he does. a fluke.
you tell yourself it won't happen again.
it does.
not the kissâbut the weight of it. the imprint.
the moments start to blur together. late night dinners. half-slept mornings. you learn the exact sound his jacket makes when it hits your couch. the rhythm of his breath when he falls asleep sitting up. the way his voice drops when he's tired, softening like he's forgotten he's not supposed to be real around you.
you learn how to love him without touching him.
he makes it easy.
âËâč á°
you don't talk about what this is.
not once.
not when he brings you takeout and eats with you in silence. not when he falls asleep with his head on your shoulder. not when he disappears for four days and comes back without a word and looks at you like he never left.
you tell yourself it doesn't matter.
because he's not cruel.
he never leads you onânot really. never calls you his. never asks you to stay. never says he loves you.
he just makes it feel like he does.
and maybe that's worse.
maybe if he'd been colder, you would've walked away by now. maybe if he'd kissed you like he didn't mean it, you wouldn't still taste him in your coffee. maybe if he didn't smile like you were the only person in the roomâmaybe then you'd be able to sleep at night without checking your phone for his name.
but he does. and you can't.
you try to pretend it's fine.
you're adults. capable of detachment. you know how this goes. some people just need somewhere to land. someone who doesn't ask questions. someone who lets them rest.
you can be that.
and for a while, you convince yourself you're okay with it.
because sometimes he looks at you and you thinkâmaybe.
maybe this could be something.
maybe he just needs time.
maybe you're the only one who sees him like thisâtired and soft and human.
maybe that matters.
âËâč á°
one night, he cooks for you.
it's a disaster. the pasta overboils, the sauce burns, and he sets off your smoke alarm because he forgets how sensitive it is.
you sit on the floor with him, coughing and laughing, fanning smoke with a magazine while he yells at your ceiling.
when it finally clears, he sits beside you. knees touching. arms brushing. smelling like burnt garlic and relief.
he doesn't kiss you that night.
but he falls asleep in your lap, and you thread your fingers through his hair and pretend he's yours.
he's not.
but he lets you pretend.
âËâč á°
"you're good at this," he says once, curled up in your blanket, the ends of his hair brushing your collarbone.
"what?"
"letting me stay."
you don't answer.
he doesn't expect you to.
Ëâč á°
you kiss again, weeks later.
it's different.
it's not light or easy or careless. it's slow. warm. aching.
he holds your face like it's glass. kisses you like he's afraid to stop. touches you like he's saying something he doesn't have the words for.
and afterward, he rests his forehead against yours and murmurs, "you always feel like home."
and you wonder if maybe this is something.
maybe this is real.
but then he gets up. leaves without looking back. and you stay awake all night, staring at the ceiling, wondering what you did wrong.
Ëâč á°
your friends start to notice.
"you've been distracted," one of them says.
"i'm fine," you lie.
they don't press. but they look at you like they know.
you delete the messages you want to send him. never hit call. never ask where he is when he disappears for days, weeks, reappears with new bruises and an easy smile and nothing in his eyes.
you pretend not to care.
but your hands shake when you wash his mug.
Ëâč á°
he shows up again.
you open the door. he looks tired.
you don't ask why.
he leans against the frame like he belongs there. like he knows you'll let him in.
and you do.
he doesn't kiss you this time. doesn't speak.
he just lays beside you on the couch. not touching. not sleeping. just breathing.
you turn your head.
he doesn't look at you.
you wonder if he's already left.
Ëâč á°
you don't remember the last time he said your name.
you don't remember the last time you said no.
Ëâč á°
there's no end. not yet.
there's just the quiet stretch of something wearing thin. the slow suffocation of wanting too much from someone who never offered you anything in the first place.
you tell yourself it's fine.
you knew what this was.
he never said it would be more.
but you wishâgod, you wishâhe hadn't made it feel so much like love.
because now, you don't know how to unfeel it.
you don't know how to stop opening the door when he knocks. how to stop hearing your name in the silence between his sentences. how to stop hoping.
and worst of all?
you don't want to.
not yet.
maybe not ever.
Ëâč á°
you don't talk about it.
the situation. the dynamic. the... thing between you.
there's no language for it. not really.
it's not a relationship. not a friendship. not even a fling.
but it's something. it has weight. it has presence. it takes up room in your life and your chest and your plans and your future in the way real things are supposed to. only it doesn't behave like something real. it behaves like a ghost with too much nerve. a shadow that leaves fingerprints on your heart but disappears when the light comes on.
you try to explain it to a friend once. someone who notices the way you pause when your phone buzzes. the way your smile flickers when it doesn't.
"is it serious?" they ask.
you open your mouth, but nothing comes out.
because how do you explain it? how do you articulate the emotional toll of being almost loved?
so you shrug. "it's nothing."
you lie.
but you shouldn't have to.
Ëâč á°
hawksâno, keigo, because he insists you call him that when you're alone, like that somehow makes him more honestâisn't cruel.
that's what you keep coming back to.
he never promises you anything. never strings you along with declarations or dates or matching mugs in the cupboard. he doesn't label this. doesn't even try.
but he lets you sit close. lets you hold his wrist when he's pacing and won't tell you what's wrong. lets you run your fingers through his hair when he comes back with blood under his nails.
he lets you treat him like someone you love.
and in return?
he lets you pretend he loves you back.
Ëâč á°
you try to find clarity in the small things.
like in the way he leans toward you in crowds. the way his eyes soften when he hands you a drink. the way he listens when you talk about things that don't matter.
but the truth is, affection doesn't equal intention.
and you're tired of translating his silence into possibility.
Ëâč á°
he disappears for two weeks.
no warning. no explanation. just gone.
the first few days you check your phone constantly. reread old messages. try to remember if you said something wrong. if you asked for too much. if he finally got bored of the emotional middle ground you let him live in.
the silence grows louder.
by the time the seventh day passes, it becomes a roar in your head.
you don't call. you don't text.
you tell yourself it's a boundary.
it's not. it's fear.
because if you reach out first, you won't like the answer.
Ëâč á°
he shows up on a tuesday.
doesn't knock. just opens your door like nothing's happened. like it hasn't been days since he last looked at you. like he didn't vanish into the wind and leave you to rot in your own expectations.
he drops his bag by the couch. throws himself down and stretches like a cat, muscles flexing under his shirt, wings shifting slightly.
"miss me?" he says with a grin.
your heart cracks. so quietly, so precisely, you barely feel it.
you sit beside him. don't say anything.
he throws an arm around your shoulder like this is normal. like you're normal.
"sorry," he says casually. "work stuff."
you nod.
he doesn't elaborate.
you don't ask.
and the silence between you stops being safe. it becomes suffocating.
Ëâč á°
you start pulling away in increments.
you don't make him tea anymore when he shows up. you don't wait for him to call. you stop folding his jacket when he leaves it draped over your chair. you stop making room in your drawer for the little things he forgets behind.
and he notices. of course he does.
he notices the tension in your jaw when he touches you. the fact that you turn your face away when he leans in like he might kiss you. the way you no longer meet his eyes when you say goodnight.
he doesn't say anything.
but one night, when you're both watching some movie neither of you are paying attention to, he speaks into the dark.
"you okay?"
you hesitate.
then: "i'm tired."
he hums. "long day?"
you don't answer, and he doesn't ask again.
Ëâč á°
your friends start asking questions. real ones.
"is this working for you?" "what do you want out of this?" "are you happy?"
you laugh them off.
but the ache in your chest lingers.
because no. you're not happy. not really.
you're in love with someone who only shows up when it's convenient. who never shares the parts of himself that matter. who touches you with familiar hands but guards his heart like it's state property.
and you? you've built a home out of his shadows. you've memorized a version of him that doesn't even belong to you.
you don't want to do this anymore.
Ëâč á°
but you still do.
because it's better than nothing.
because the alternative is letting him go.
and that feels like losing something you never got to keep in the first place.
Ëâč á°
then one night, it changes.
not loudly. not dramatically.
just... changes.
you're sitting on the floor again, legs stretched in front of you, a blanket around your shoulders and the tv on low. keigo's beside you, but not touching. for once, there's real distance.
you glance at him.
he's staring at the screen, eyes unfocused.
you don't recognize his expression.
you whisper, "why do you keep coming here?"
he blinks. looks at you. "what do you mean?"
you shrug. "i mean... you never talk. you disappear. you show up without warning. and i let you. every time. i don't ask for anything, and you know that."
he stays quiet.
"so why do you keep coming back?"
the silence stretches. you think maybe he won't answer.
then he says, soft: "because you're the only place i don't have to lie."
your stomach twists.
because that should mean something. it almost does.
but then you realizeâ
he's not saying he wants you. he's saying he likes what you give him.
peace. comfort. quiet.
you're not a person to him. you're a haven.
and he never had any intention of staying.
you breathe in, slowly, and nod.
"okay."
he looks at you, confused. "okay?"
you stand. your knees ache. your chest does too.
"you can go now."
he rises slowly, uncertainty flickering across his face for the first time. "what?"
you repeat it. "you can go."
he studies you. then smiles, like it's a joke. "don't be dramatic."
you stare at him. "i'm not."
something in his expression falters. "look," he says. "i didn't mean toâ"
"i know," you say. "that's the problem."
he goes quiet again.
you continue, softer now. "you didn't mean to kiss me. or stay. or sleep here. or come back. or look at me like that. or make me feel like you wanted something real. and you think that's enough. that because you never said you cared, you didn't have to."
his mouth opens, then closes.
you're tired. so, so tired.
"you never had to lie to hurt me, keigo," you whisper. "you just had to let me believe you wanted me here."
he doesn't argue. he doesn't reach for you. he just stands there.
quiet.
just like always.
you don't ask him again to leave.
he just does. eventually.
without slamming the door. without saying goodbye.
and maybe that's what breaks you.
because there's nothing dramatic to hold on to. no final fight. no angry words. no declarations.
just absence.
and that hurts more than anything else.
Ëâč á°
you sit in the quiet after he's gone. your blanket falls off your shoulders and you don't pick it up. you sit there until the sun starts to rise.
and when your phone buzzes hours later, you don't check it.
because you already knowâ
it's not him.
it never really was.
hiii! dk if ur taking requests or not buttt i have to ask could u mayhaps do a kiri smau!! likeeee kiri x shy reader who's alternative, mayb like he thinks she's so cool and wants to get to know her more but she comes off as kinda odd or what not (weird girl) type thing and they eventually get tg (sorry if this is 2 many details or what not) BUTTT JUS KINDA DO IT HOWEVER U WANT !!!
kirishima finds himself drawn to your mildly peculiar personality and style, but it works for you.
a/n: for some reason i struggled with this one a little bit. i tried to get alternative right without being to stereotypically cliche with it. i hope it serves well oomf!
a short, slow-burn library romance, ft. one blueberry muffin, exactly zero jokes, and a boy who takes flashcards way too seriously. (4597 words)
you meet tenya iida under circumstances that can only be described as tragically collegiate: a peer-led study group in the furthest, quietest corner of the campus library, surrounded by half-dead fluorescent bulbs and the palpable despair of students on the brink of burnout.
it's the third week of the semester, and you're already floundering.
you hadn't intended to be. in theory, you were going to stay on top of thingsâread the chapters early, color-code your notes, maybe even start a study group of your own. but somewhere between sleep deprivation, an avalanche of discussion posts, and the mysterious black hole that is the university's online portal, you fell behind. hard.
introduction to public policy has been your academic nemesis from the start. the textbook reads like legal jargon swallowed a thesaurus. the professor talks in dense, circular metaphors. every quiz is a minefield of trick questions and ambiguous phrasing. you are, in every sense of the word, academically drowning.
so when a brightly colored flyer promising a "collaborative review session" caught your eye on the bulletin board outside the lecture hall, you didn't think twice. you showed up. desperate. caffeinated. terminally underprepared.
and now you regret everything.
the room smells like dry-erase markers and nervous sweat. a whiteboard at the front is covered in illegible graphs. someone has already spilled a latte on the floor. the guy leading the group talks fast and loud, his explanations full of buzzwords and gestures but lacking anything remotely useful. you suspect he's just regurgitating the study guide at a slightly faster pace.
the other students seem to agree.
one by one, they start to trickle out. a girl leaves with the excuse of "office hours." a guy mutters something about dinner. another just quietly packs up and disappears, not even bothering with a pretense.
by the end of the hour, only two people remain: you, clinging to a futile hope of salvaging your gpa... and him.
he sits across from you with the kind of posture that makes your back ache just looking at him. tall, composed, and absurdly polishedâlike someone who writes essays three days early and carries a spare pen in case someone forgets theirs. his navy-blue sweater is wrinkle-free. his glasses catch the dim library light. his notes are not just color-codedâthey're thematically organized, annotated with footnotes and marginalia in tiny, immaculate handwriting.
he hasn't spoken once. he hasn't needed to.
he radiates competence like it's a moral obligation.
"you're still here?" you ask, more surprise than judgment.
the boy looks up, blinking as if surfacing from a well of deep concentration. he adjusts his glasses with a practiced motion.
"yes," he says, voice clipped and oddly formal. "you are as well."
you arch an eyebrow. "no offense, but... are you actually getting something out of this?"
his expression doesn't change, but he tilts his head slightlyâalmost like he's assessing you.
"of course," he replies. "engaging in structured group review enhances cognitive retention and contextual understanding. it's an effective method for consolidating knowledge prior to a high-stakes assessment."
you blink. "so... yes?"
he doesn't hesitate. "yes."
you snortâaudibly. it escapes before you can stop it. and to your surprise, a faint smile flickers across his mouth.
"i'm tenya iida," he says, extending a hand across the table with the kind of precision reserved for formal introductions at university mixers.
you stare at his hand for a moment, then take it. his grip is warm. steady. confident in a way that makes you sit up a little straighter.
"y/n," you say.
his smile grows just slightly. "it's a pleasure to meet you, y/n."
he releases your hand and immediately pulls out a second set of flashcards from his folder. of course he has a second set.
"would you like to quiz each other?" he asks, dead serious. "alternating questions could be a mutually beneficial method of review."
you stare at him.
he stares back.
something about himâthe earnestness, the posture, the complete and utter lack of sarcasmâdisarms you. it's like he's the living embodiment of academic sincerity. you're not sure whether to laugh or agree.
you do both.
"...sure."
you don't know it yet, but that's the beginning.
âËâżË°
you don't plan on seeing him again.
it's not personal. it's just that study groups are the social equivalent of jury dutyâtemporary, miserable, and best forgotten. you assume tenya iida is one of those hyper-dedicated overachievers who only exist within the academic ecosystem. he probably recedes into a cloud of flashcards and moral fiber as soon as the library closes.
you are, however, proven categorically wrong the following wednesday at exactly 8:03 a.m.
you enter the campus café half-awake, mildly hostile, and fully dependent on the idea of caffeine as a substitute for sleep. the plan is simple: grab something with enough espresso to make your eye twitch, stare blankly at your phone for fifteen minutes, and pretend the crushing weight of institutional learning isn't slowly hollowing you out from the inside.
but fateâor perhaps syllabus-based divine interventionâhas other plans.
because when you step inside, there he is.
same posture. same glasses. same stupidly crisp button-down like it didn't just come out of someone's laundry but graduated magna cum laude from it. he's seated at a table by the window, surrounded by highlighters arranged like soldiers, reading the textbook that has been your personal tormentor since week one.
and next to his coffee?
a single blueberry muffin.
you hesitate, caught in that weird space where it's too late to pretend you didn't see him, but also too awkward to walk past without acknowledging him.
before you can make a decision, he looks upâand smiles.
not just a polite, "ah yes, i recognize you" smile.
a real smile. brief, but sincere. like he's actually glad you're here.
he waves you over.
you hate how quickly your legs respond.
"didn't expect to see you here," you say as you slide into the seat across from him, instantly aware of how tired you look in comparison to his perfectly combed hair and terrifying punctuality.
"i study here most mornings," he replies. "the ambient noise level is consistent, and the natural lighting is optimal for focus."
you blink. "that is... alarmingly specific."
he inclines his head. "i find that consistency breeds productivity."
you want to tease him, but the truth is, it's kind of admirable. alarming. but admirable.
he gestures to the pastry between you.
"would you like half?" he asks. "it's fresh. and i believe we have, at this point, established a cordial enough rapport to justify the sharing of breakfast items."
you stare at him.
"do you always offer muffins to people you've only studied with once?"
he doesn't even flinch. "only when they look tired enough to deserve one."
your mouth twitches.
"you've been saving that line, haven't you."
he looks mildly offended. "no. though i could annotate it in my planner if you'd like."
you laughâgenuinely this timeâand accept the muffin. it's warm, sweet, and annoyingly perfect. just like him.
you don't pull out your flashcards. not immediately. you sit there in companionable silence, splitting the muffin and sipping your drinks like it's something you've always done. like this is normal.
you tell yourself this isn't a date. obviously.
it's too early in the day for romance. you're both clutching textbooks like weapons. he hasn't even made a single joke. (you're not sure he knows how.)
and yetâ
when he leans in to show you a section he highlightedâcarefully annotated with footnotes and marginal notes that are somehow neater than your typed essaysâyour shoulders brush. you don't pull away.
he doesn't, either.
later, you realize that you don't even remember what chapter you reviewed.
but you remember the sound of his voice as he quietly explained it. the way he passed you the last bite of muffin without saying anything. the way his fingers curled ever so slightly when he set his pen down between you.
you remember thinking, with a strange flutter in your chest: this could be something.
not yet.
but maybe.
âËâżË°
you tell yourself this is still just about school.
you repeat it like a mantra as you meet him at the library every tuesday and thursday without fail, settling into your now-permanent seats by the windows like assigned partners in some ongoing group project that no one else remembers being assigned to. his bag always lands on the table first, followed by a reusable water bottle the size of your emotional baggage. he brings extra highlighters nowâpluralâand starts leaving a green one near your elbow like heâs not even thinking about it.
you, in turn, stop pretending to study anywhere else.
because the truth is, you donât concentrate better when heâs aroundânot even a little. heâs distracting in the worst possible way: tall and tidy and terminally composed, with a voice like a podcast host and a smile that you pretend not to notice every time he glances over at you with something like pride in his eyes.
and the worst part?
itâs working.
your grades are going up. you understand policy terminology now. you caught yourself referencing a case study unprompted in another class, and the look your professor gave you made it feel like youâd just been knighted.
youâd thank him for itâsincerelyâif he didnât look so smug every time you nailed a quiz.
âyouâve clearly been applying yourself,â he says one evening, looking over your annotated notes like theyâre some kind of sacred text.
âiâve been applying your study methods,â you reply, then instantly regret it, because the smile he gives you in return is devastating.
and that would be fineâannoying, but fineâif it werenât for the fact that heâs started sitting closer.
not drastically. not inappropriately. just... close.
close enough that when you both lean in to look at something on the same page, your shoulders brush. your knees knock. his hand lingers near yours when he passes you a pen, and he doesnât move away quickly. sometimesâand this is particularly evilâhis thigh rests against yours under the table for minutes at a time, and youâre too proud (and too panicked) to say anything.
youâre not flirting. not really.
youâre both too stubborn for that.
but something is happening. you just donât know what to call it.
one thursday afternoon, the sky is gray and heavy with the threat of rain. the windows in the library fog up slightly, making the whole room feel smaller, softer, somehow more intimate. your shoes are damp. your brain is fried. youâre barely holding onto your focus.
but heâs already there, sitting at your usual table with a mug from the downstairs cafĂ© and a folder labeled âlegislation review: week 5.â thereâs a muffin. of course thereâs a muffin.
he looks up as you approach. smiles. âyouâre early.â
you blink. âso are you.â
he shrugs. âanticipation is efficient.â
âwhat does that even mean?â
he hesitates, like heâs genuinely considering it. âit means i enjoy this.â
your heart does something stupid.
you take your seat before your face can give you away.
thirty minutes in, your brain stops processing information entirely.
youâre trying to focus. really, you are. but his leg is pressed against yours and you swear itâs getting closer every time he shifts. itâs not even the contact itself thatâs distractingâitâs the fact that he doesnât seem to notice. like itâs just normal. like this is how he always studies with people.
(does he?)
(no. he canât.)
ây/n?â he says, and you jolt like youâve been electrocuted.
âhm?â
âi asked if youâd like to walk through the case brief again. you seem... distant.â
you clear your throat and try not to sound like someone whose brain has just been wiped by a thigh. âyeah, no, iâm fine. just tired.â
he nods solemnly. âunderstandable. your coursework has been particularly intensive.â
he says it like he knows your schedule better than you doâwhich he might. youâve seen his planner. youâre pretty sure heâs memorized the entire academic calendar, national holidays included.
you try to return to your notes.
you fail.
eventually, you lean back in your chair and exhale.
âokay,â you say. âi need to ask you something.â
he looks up, immediately attentive. âyes?â
you glance aroundâno oneâs within earshotâ and lean in slightly.
âthis thing we do.â
he blinks. âstudying?â
âno. i mean yes, but no.â you gesture vaguely between the two of you. âthis. the muffins. the flashcards. the... sitting so close i can smell your laundry detergent.â
he goes still.
âiâm just trying to understand if weâre, like...â you hesitate. âis this just a really intense academic friendship or are we... flirting?â
he doesnât speak for a long moment.
then, carefully: âi hadnât realized my proximity was making you uncomfortable.â
âitâs not!â you say, too quickly. âitâs just... confusing.â
âconfusing how?â
you fidget with the cap of your pen. âbecause we do things that feel... date-adjacent. and i donât know if thatâs just how you are with people or if iâmââ you stop yourself before you can say not imagining it.
his brows draw together, faintly perplexed. âi apologize. i didnât mean to cause confusion.â
you blink. âso you are flirting?â
his ears go pink. just slightly. âi wouldnât define it as flirting. but i do enjoy spending time with you.â
you squint at him. âthatâs not a no.â
he hesitates. then, quieter: âitâs not.â
oh.
you stare at him. he stares back.
and thenâlike the universe canât stand unresolved tensionâyour knees bump again.
but this time, he doesnât shift away.
and neither do you.
âËâżË°
you donât call it a date.
not out loud.
not even in your head, reallyânot technically. because youâre not dating. you havenât kissed. thereâs been no confession. thereâs been no moment of clarity where either of you has stood dramatically in the rain and said i think about you all the time, which, honestly, is a bit disappointing.
but you still change your outfit three times before meeting him for coffee on saturday.
you still hesitate in front of the mirror, adjusting your sleeves and second-guessing your hair, muttering get a grip under your breath like itâs a prayer.
you still pause at the door to the cafĂ©, one hand on the handle, and remind yourselfâagainâthat this isnât a date.
youâre just meeting up. casually. like friends.
friends who sometimes sit with their knees touching under library tables. friends who share muffins and steal glances and somehow always find reasons to linger a little too long in doorways.
friends who, if they werenât so emotionally constipated, mightâve figured this out already.
but you push the door open anyway, and the little bell overhead chimes bright and familiar.
heâs already there.
of course he is.
tenya iida is punctual to the point of pathology. if you told him to meet you in the afterlife at 3:00 p.m. sharp, heâd be there early, holding a clipboard and a fully prepared powerpoint.
heâs sitting near the window, back straight, hands folded politely in his lap. his hair is a little messy from the wind outside. his sweater is navyâclean, simple, a little oversized in a way that makes you stare longer than you should.
he sees you and stands immediately, which is both adorable and completely unnecessary.
âyouâre early,â he says, voice warm.
âso are you.â
he doesnât reply, but the smile he gives you is soft around the edges.
you order something with too much caffeine and not enough nutritional value. he offers to pay, like he always does. you decline, like you always do. itâs a silent tradition now, a ritual of stubbornness. he lets it go with a quiet nod, but not without giving you that lookâthe one that says i was raised right and this physically pains me.
you find a booth in the corner, a little more secluded than the rest. the sun spills in through the window in soft golden streaks, and for a moment, it feels like youâre somewhere outside of time.
âiâve never seen you wear that color,â he says as you sit down.
you glance at your shirt. âyeah? too much?â
he shakes his head immediately. âno. it suits you.â
your mouth goes a little dry.
you recover quickly, leaning back and sipping your drink like it doesnât mean anything. like the warmth crawling up your neck is from the coffee and not the compliment.
âso,â you say, clearing your throat. âwhatâs on the agenda for today? rigorous academic analysis? philosophical debates about economic ethics? impromptu pop quizzes?â
he tilts his head. âi thought we might take the day off.â
you blink. âfrom... studying?â
âfrom everything.â he shrugs, a little sheepishly. âi realized weâve never spent time together without a textbook between us.â
your heart does something strange.
âyou mean like... just hang out?â
âyes.â
âlike friends.â
he hesitates. just barely. âyes. like friends.â
the words hang in the air between youâawkward, uncertain, but not unkind.
you nod, slowly. âokay. yeah. we can do that.â
and you do.
you talk. not about school, not about deadlines or group projects or the upcoming midterm. you talk about dumb childhood stories and weird food preferences and the fact that he once tried to start a recycling initiative in his middle school and was very upset when no one followed the sorting chart correctly.
you tell him about your obsession with terrible reality TV. he listens with the seriousness of a man taking notes for a thesis.
he tells you about his older brother, and how much he looks up to him. you tell him about the stray cat that used to follow you home in high school, even though you never fed it.
he laughsâreally laughsâwhen you tell him about the time you broke your nose in gym class trying to dodge a volleyball and ran straight into a bleacher.
âiâm sorry,â he says between gasps. âi donât mean to laugh at your pain.â
âno, you do,â you say, grinning. âand itâs okay. i would too.â
at one point, your knees bump under the table again. this time, neither of you pulls away.
itâs later than you mean it to be when you finally leave the cafĂ©. the sun is dipping low, the sky tinged with lavender and orange. the street is quiet, and the wind bites just enough to make you zip your jacket up.
you walk together. not toward the library, not toward another classâjust aimlessly. like people who have nowhere else to be.
itâs peaceful.
and weirdly... intimate.
youâre not talking. not really. the silence between you is comfortable now, lived-in. every so often your hands brush, and you wonderâwildly, stupidly âwhat would happen if you just reached out.
but you donât.
because this isnât a date.
itâs not.
except maybe... it is.
âthis was nice,â you say, when you finally reach the crosswalk where youâll part ways.
he nods. âi enjoyed it.â
thereâs a beat of silence.
âwe should do it again,â you say. casually. like it doesnât mean anything.
but he looks at you like it does.
âiâd like that,â he says. and thenââyouâre very easy to be around.â
your breath catches.
you want to say something. youâre easy to be around too. i think about you when weâre not together. i donât know if iâm imagining this but i hope iâm not.
instead, you say, âyouâre weirdly charming, you know that?â
he blinks. âiâthank you?â
you grin. âitâs a compliment. mostly.â
he laughs. soft. pleased. âiâll take it.â
he takes a small step back, like heâs about to leave âbut then pauses.
ây/n?â
âyeah?â
âif this had been a date...â he clears his throat. âwould that have been... agreeable to you?â
you stare at him.
then, slowlyâcarefullyâyou nod.
âyeah,â you say. âi think it wouldâve been.â
he smiles. itâs small. tentative. but it lights up his whole face.
âthen maybe next time, we wonât pretend.â
you feel like youâre floating.
âdeal.â
he nods once. then, with a strange, lingering sort of hesitationâlike heâs not ready to go yetâhe turns to leave.
you watch him go.
and for the first time in a long time, you feel... hopeful.
âËâżË°
you don't know what you're expecting.
when he texts you the next morningâsame time tuesday? not for studying this time. if you're free.âyou stare at it for a good ten minutes before responding. not because youâre unsure of your answer (youâre not), but because the implication hits like a freight train.
not for studying.
not as friends.
just you. just him. again.
this time, itâs a little different.
this time, heâs calling it what it is.
you donât overthink your reply (for once). you just type yeah. iâm free and throw your phone face-down before your heart can beat out of your chest.
and when tuesday rolls around, you are twenty minutes early.
you tell yourself itâs because the weatherâs nice and the walk was shorter than usual and you didnât want to cut it close. but the truth is, youâve been ready since noon.
youâre wearing the sweater he said he liked once, months ago, after a study session where he handed you a highlighter and your fingers brushed and you both paused like the world might end. itâs not even your warmest or your nicest sweater. itâs just... the one he looked at a little too long.
you donât want to admit what that means.
you sit in your usual seat by the window. a small table, worn edges. your coffee in hand. no textbooks. no flashcards. just the sound of the café around you and the low simmer of anticipation in your chest.
he walks in three minutes early, which is basically scandalous by iida standards.
you glance up, and the second your eyes meet, he smiles.
itâs not his usual polite, committee-appropriate smile.
itâs something else.
something softer.
he sits down across from you like heâs been doing it his whole life.
you stare at him for a second too long.
âyouâre early,â he says, like itâs a fact worth noting. his voice is gentler than usual.
âso are you.â
âa rare occurrence.â
âshould i be concerned?â
he laughsâquietly, warmly. âi thought you might say that.â
you both go quiet.
not awkward quiet. just... full.
full of everything youâre not saying.
you sip your drink and hope your heart doesnât explode.
twenty minutes in, you realize youâve forgotten what time it is.
again.
youâre talking about something stupidâa professor you both silently hate but never speak ill of in classâand heâs mimicking their voice in a whisper, hand shielding his mouth, and youâre laughing.
like genuinely, honestly laughing.
like you donât have a hundred things weighing you down.
he always does that. makes everything feel easier. lighter.
itâs dangerous, how much you like it.
how much you like him.
you havenât said it. not out loud. not even to yourself.
but the truth is: youâre in trouble.
deep trouble.
because tenya iida has the power to wreck you in a way no one else ever has.
not because heâs dramatic. not because heâs charming (though he is, in that annoying, understated, golden-retriever-with-a-perfect-credit-score kind of way).
but because heâs steady.
because he means things.
because when he looks at you, itâs like youâre someone worth understanding.
and youâve never been loved gently before.
not like this.
you walk out together.
neither of you mentions how long you stayed. itâs dark out, but neither of you cares.
you walk close, side by side. your hands brush once, then again. his fingers twitch toward yours, and you pretend not to noticeânot because you donât want it, but because youâre not sure what happens if you reach back.
you talk about nothing. and everything.
he tells you about the time his older brother accidentally dyed his hair blue with a shampoo prank and how no one in their house was allowed to mention it for an entire year.
you tell him about the time you accidentally set off a fire alarm trying to microwave leftover curry in a dorm that very explicitly prohibited strong-smelling food.
âyouâre a menace,â he says, laughing.
you bump your shoulder into his. âyou say that like itâs a bad thing.â
he glances at you. âi didnât say that.â
you both stop at the crosswalkâthe same one where you stood days ago.
the same one where he asked if this had been a date...
youâre not pretending anymore.
and yet.
you donât know what to say.
you just look at him, the wind brushing through your sleeves, your fingers cold where theyâre shoved into your pockets.
he looks at you.
longer than before.
long enough that your heart stumbles.
and thenâquietlyâhe says, âcan i ask you something?â
you nod. âof course.â
his voice is softer than youâve ever heard it. careful.
âwhy me?â
you blink. âwhat?â
âwhy... this?â he gestures gently between you. âi know iâm not the most exciting person. iâm not particularly funny or... spontaneous.â
you frown. âiida.â
âiâm just trying to understand,â he says. âwhy you keep showing up.â
you want to say because i like the way you talk when youâre tired, or because your laugh makes me want to listen to every dumb story youâve ever told.
you want to say because iâve never felt so calm next to another person in my entire life.
instead, you say, âbecause when iâm with you, i donât feel like i have to be anyone else.â
his expression shifts.
his jaw tightens. his eyes soften.
he takes a step closer.
âi donât want to mess this up,â he says.
âyouâre not.â
âi donât want to misread it.â
you exhale, a laugh escaping despite yourself. âyouâre not.â
his hand lifts, hesitatesâthen lands gently against your cheek.
you stop breathing.
âmay i kiss you?â he asks.
you nod before your brain catches up.
âyeah,â you whisper. âyou may.â
and he does.
itâs not rushed.
itâs not fiery or desperate.
itâs patient. reverent. like heâs memorizing the feeling. like heâs been waiting for the right moment and this, finally, is it.
his lips press softly against yours, and your hands lift automatically to his jacket, holding on, grounding yourself.
when you part, he leans his forehead against yours.
youâre both quiet for a moment.
then he says, âiâve wanted to do that for a long time.â
you smile. âi could tell.â
âwas i too obvious?â
âpainfully.â
he laughs, arms sliding around your waist like itâs the most natural thing in the world.
âthis is still new,â he says. âi know that.â
you nod.
âbut iâm willing to take it slow.â
âokay.â
âiâll be patient.â
âokay.â
he pauses. âand iâd like to take you to dinner. an actual dinner. with reservations and menus and probably overpriced appetizers.â
you grin. âare you asking me on a real date?â
he lifts your hand and presses a kiss to your knuckles.
âyes,â he says. âiâm asking.â
âthen yes,â you reply. âiâm saying yes.â
you walk home hand-in-hand.
you donât have to say anything.
itâs not pretending anymore.
and for onceâfinallyâthat feels like enough.
texts from a relationship built on mutual annoyance, emotional damage, and sour gummies from 7/11
Hiii!! Hope ur having a good day/night!! I was wondering if u could mayhaps please do an smau with Izuku x grumpy!reader that doesnât really like interacting with anyone but him?? i mean major golden retriever x black cat dynamic vibes !! thank u and make sure to take care of urself !! <33
in which you hate everyoneâexcept izuku midoriya. unfortunately for you, he's also dangerously good at getting under your skin
Hi! đ I really like your SMAU stories/scenarios, i think they're so funny and I love reading through them. So with that, can you do another dadzawa one? I loved that one, I love dadzawa. Make it anything as long as it includes dadzawa and brainrot lol. And maaaybe also another part where they say 'I love you'? Just out of nowhere? Please? đ
being aizawa's daughter means sharing the house with a sleep-deprived cryptid and 3 cats (part ii to 'parental guidance')
in which your job is to manage keigo takami's modeling career, not his flirtation habitâbut unfortunately, he's extremely good at both.
More little brother Izuku please!! It was so funny
midoriya is a hero, a strategist, a prodigyâand a little brother who steals your leftovers and pisses you off. (part ii of 'ts pmo ong')
fake dating wasn't on your holiday to-do listâuntil sero invited you home for tamales and chaos (3525 words)
you regretted this the moment you stepped out of the dormitory and into the sharp chill of mid-december air, a duffel bag hanging off one shoulder and your dignity already teetering on the edge. trailing beside you was hanta sero, practically vibrating with the smug energy of a man who had just talked his best friend into making the worst decision of her academic career.
and technically, he had.
somewhere between his mother's increasingly invasive matchmaking attempts and his inability to say the word "no" like a normal person, he'd decided the solution was to invent a girlfriend. and of course, of course, he'd chosen you.
"come on," he said now, as a cab idled at the curb, white exhaust curling into the crisp air like smoke from a slow-burning disaster. "tell me this won't be fun. just a little bit."
"i think i'm too emotionally aware to find this fun," you muttered, hoisting your bag into the trunk as he leaned beside you with his usual careless grace.
sero grinnedâthat unbothered, insufferably pretty grin that always made it harder to stay annoyed with him for long. "emotionally aware, huh? sounds like you're already getting into character."
you leveled him with a look. "if i'm your girlfriend, you're going to need to stop flirting like a golden retriever with a god complex."
"babe," he said, slipping into the backseat beside you with the kind of unearned confidence that should have come with a warning label, "flirting is literally how i survive in social settings. don't take this from me."
you stared out the window, hoping the freezing glass would cool the creeping warmth crawling up your neck. "we're not actually dating, hanta."
"right," he said, and he sounded amused, not wounded. "but we could be really good at it."
you didn't answer. he didn't press.
the cab pulled away from the dorms, and for a moment the silence between you was companionable, like it always had been. you'd known sero for years nowâlong enough to understand that his laid-back demeanor was as real as it was performative. he was the kind of person who made a room feel lighter just by being in it, but who also knew the weight of silence better than most people ever would.
he didn't make you feel like you had to be anyone but yourself. and that, unfortunately, was the root of the problem.
somewhere along the road from "we're just friends" to "please pretend to be my girlfriend so my mom stops trying to marry me off," things had started to shift.
not all at once. not obviously.
but they shifted.
now he was dozing beside you, his head tilted toward your shoulder, and every bump in the road made him inch closer. you should have nudged him off. you should have drawn the line.
but you didn't.
instead, you studied the soft lines of his faceâthe relaxed set of his mouth, the faint crease between his brows like his dreams were just a little too fast for his thoughts to catchâand you wondered what the hell you'd gotten yourself into.
by the time the cab slowed, the sun had dipped low, casting golden light over a neighborhood that looked far too idyllic to be real. sero's house was two stories of warmth and welcome: string lights curled along the porch railing, a wreath hung slightly crooked on the front door, and smoke drifted lazily from a chimney that promised something warm inside.
standing at the threshold was a woman with sharp eyes, a kind smile, and the unmistakable aura of someone who could both bake you cookies and emotionally destroy you in the same breath.
sero's mother.
you froze.
he didn't.
without hesitation, sero leaned in, brushing your hair behind your ear like it was the most natural thing in the world. his voice dipped just low enough for only you to hear. "smile like you love me."
then he reached for your hand.
his fingers, long and warm, laced effortlessly through yours.
you didn't pull away.
and that was the momentâstanding at the edge of his childhood, your fingers locked in his, heart skipping in the kind of rhythm you weren't prepared forâthat you realized you were in far more danger than you thought.
because part of you didn't want to let go.
the cab hadn't even rolled to a full stop before sero's mom was standing in front of it, arms crossed, eyes already locked onto her target like a seasoned general. you had seen pictures, sureâsero had shown you a few over lunch one day, swiping through images of his mom with an almost reverent fondnessâbut none of them did her justice.
she was radiant. that was the first word that came to mind. not in some soft, dreamy way, but in the sharp, unmistakable warmth of someone who had mastered the art of existing unapologetically. she had a scarf looped carelessly around her neck, dark hair pinned up with wisps escaping, and that immediate, unnerving energy unique to mothers who know everything before you say a word.
"hanta," she said brightly as you approached. "you took forever, mijo. i was about to call."
and then her eyes slid to you.
her whole face changed.
"qué linda," she said, stepping down toward you without hesitation. "you're even prettier than the pictures."
you opened your mouth to answerâsay something polite, maybe even charmingâbut instead you were pulled into a hug so warm and familiar you forgot how to speak altogether.
she smelled like cinnamon and butter, like café and home. her arms wrapped around you without hesitation, solid and reassuring, and you blinked twice before realizing she wasn't letting go just yet.
she pulled back, hands on your shoulders, eyes scanning your face with curiosity. "how old are you, mija?"
"seventeen," you managed. "ua student. same class as hanta."
"top twenty," sero chimed from behind you, proud and useless.
his mom smiled wider. "good. you'll need that to keep up with him. he talks too much."
"i'm right here," sero said, offended.
"and what's your quirk, sweetheart?" she asked, guiding you inside like she owned every molecule of the houseâwhich she probably did.
"just a luck quirk," you replied. "it's not anything big or flashy."
"flashy's overrated," she said. "flashy gets you on magazine covers, but smart keeps you alive. hanta could use some of that balance."
sero made a wounded noise. "i'm right here."
you stepped into the house and tried not to gape. it was warm and lived-in, with mismatched furniture and soft lights, and framed photos in every direction. you passed at least three different versions of baby seroâone with cake on his face, one dressed as a shark, and one in a tiny suit looking like he'd lost a bet.
you were immediately ushered to the couch, where sero flopped down beside you like he'd done this a thousand times. his arm stretched along the back of the cushions behind you, easy and casual, but you felt the heat of it like a brand against your neck.
his mom sat in the armchair across from you, one leg crossed, hands folded, expression deceptively pleasant.
"so," she said. "how long have you two been together?"
"six months," you and sero answered in unison.
your eyes met. you both smiled.
it was practiced, but godâit didn't feel like a lie.
"how'd you meet?" she asked next.
sero leaned forward like he was telling a secret. "training. she beat up kaminari. i've never recovered."
you tried not to laugh. "he followed me around for a week."
"i was courting you."
"you were loitering near vending machines."
"i was being persistent," he corrected. "it worked, didn't it?"
his mom watched you both, eyes narrowed just enough to make you sweat.
"and what do you like about my son?" she asked you, suddenly.
your mouth went dry.
sero glanced sideways, surprised.
but the answer came easy.
"he's reliable. and funny. and he listensâreally listens. like you're the only person in the room."
you could feel sero's eyes on you, and the room felt warmer than it had a second ago.
"he's easy to be around," you said, a little softer now. "i feel like i can breathe near him."
a long silence stretched across the room.
then sero bumped your shoulder with his own, voice low. "you're not supposed to make me blush in front of my mom."
his mom smiled, pleased. "i like you."
you smiled back, because how could you not. "thank you."
"i made tamales," she said, rising to her feet. "sit tight. i'll get you a plate."
"do you need helpâ?" you started, half-standing.
"no, no. you're a guest. you sit and let yourself be adored."
she vanished into the kitchen with surprising speed.
the moment she was out of earshot, you collapsed sideways onto the couch.
"i blacked out," you whispered. "what did i even say?"
"that i'm amazing and you love being around me," sero said smugly.
you shot him a look.
he leaned a little closer, voice dropping. "also, you were adorable. you didn't have to go that hard. i almost forgot it was fake."
you didn't answer.
âč àŁȘ Ë
dinner came after a comfortable lull in the afternoonâjust enough time for you to grow used to the house's warmth, the quiet hum of kitchen sounds, and the sound of sero humming to himself as he helped his mom plate tamales. there was something undeniably domestic about itâwatching him lean over the counter, sleeves pushed up, swiping a bit of masa from the corner of a dish with a grin when he thought no one was watching.
you caught yourself watching.
a little too long.
and when he turned around and caught your eye, offering you a wink that made your stomach stutterâyou looked away, pretending to study the wall like it had secrets.
the house filled slowly with more noise, more feet, more voices. by the time dinner was ready, the table was surrounded by peopleâhis siblings, all younger, all chaos incarnate. there were five in total, ranging from what looked like barely ten to maybe sixteen. all of them clearly adored sero, and all of them clearly had a thousand questions about you.
"are you really his girlfriend?" one of the younger girls asked, blinking up at you from her seat at the far end of the table.
sero, already sitting beside you, reached for your hand under the table without hesitation. "of course she is," he said easily. "she puts up with me. that's gotta mean something."
you glanced sideways, surprised by the way his thumb started tracing circles into your palm. his fingers were warm, his grip relaxed, like this was a habit and not a performance. your first instinct was to pull awayâbut you didn't. you let him hold on.
"do you like him?" one of the boys asked bluntly, somewhere between a dare and a test.
you looked over at sero, who was already looking at you.
and the smile that spread across his face wasn't teasing. it wasn't even smug.
it was soft.
"i do," you said honestly. "he's easy to like."
one of his sisters actually swooned.
their mother returned from the kitchen, a stack of warm plates balanced in her arms. "aye, look at you two," she said fondly, setting down the food. "you look like you've been married five years already."
sero snorted. "that's because she already tells me what to do."
"someone has to," you said, nudging his leg under the table.
his knee pressed into yours and didn't move.
the meal began in full, voices rising over each other, stories flying back and forth like birds across the table. tamales were unwrapped, passed down, devoured. rice and beans steamed in bowls at the center. someone spilled horchata and got teased for it for fifteen minutes straight.
sero kept his hand under the table the entire time.
sometimes on your knee. sometimes brushing your fingers. once, briefly, resting on your thigh with a touch so casual and confident you forgot how to breathe for a second.
"so how did you know?" his mom asked halfway through the meal, raising an eyebrow. "that you liked each other, i mean."
you blinked. "um."
sero didn't miss a beat.
"she made this face at me once," he said, totally serious. "during training. right after i got my ass handed to me. and i thoughtâyeah. i'd let her ruin my life."
you choked on a sip of water. "that's not what happened."
"you raised your eyebrow," he insisted, "like i was both impressive and pathetic. it was very motivating."
"you were bleeding."
"romance is about timing."
the table erupted in laughter.
"you're ridiculous," you muttered, but there was no bite to it. you felt lightheaded from smiling too much.
his younger sister leaned over the table toward you. "you make him less annoying," she said seriously. "he's, like, way less weird with you here."
"he's still weird," someone else muttered.
"hey," sero said, deeply offended. "i'm the glue of this household."
"you're the glitter glue," one of the boys shot back. "unnecessary and all over everything."
the conversation swirled, but it was warm. easy. you felt like you'd slipped into a rhythm you hadn't known you were missing. sero's family didn't make you feel like an outsider. if anything, they treated you like a permanent fixtureâlike they already liked you, just because he did.
and seroâhe kept looking at you.
in the quiet moments between bites. when you laughed at something his brother said. when you wiped your fingers on your napkin and he passed you your drink like he'd already anticipated you'd reach for it.
"you're really good at this," you whispered during a lull, leaning in.
"at what?" he asked, voice low, chin tilted toward you.
"this," you said. "pretending."
his eyes flicked down to your mouth, just for a second.
"what can i say," he said quietly. "i'm something of an actor."
you snickered.
and then his mom called your name from across the table.
"you like dessert, mija?" she asked, already bringing out the plates.
you blinked twice before answering, forcing a smile. "of course. thank you."
sero didn't look away from you for a long time.
dinner had long ended. the noise had faded. sero's house, once pulsing with overlapping voices and clattering plates, now thrummed with a different kind of energyâlow, contented, quiet.
his siblings had scattered, full-bellied and sugar-sticky, off to bedrooms and couches and wherever else they disappeared to in the evening. someone had turned on a dusty old playlist in the den, and the soft hum of vintage boleros curled through the walls like warmth that refused to die.
you stood in the hallway between the dining room and the back door, hovering in the in-between of things: of conversations and thoughts, of what was real and what had only started out that way.
you weren't sure what to do with your hands.
or your heart.
sero appeared beside you like he always didâquiet-footed and comfortably close, smelling faintly of soap and masa and something sweet from dessert you hadn't caught the name of. his sleeves were still pushed up, revealing his forearms, and you hated that you were looking at them. not because they weren't worth looking atâthey wereâbut because it meant your guard was down. again.
"come on," he said softly. "balcony?"
you didn't answer. you just nodded and followed.
the air outside was sharp and clean. the kind of cold that wakes you up without being cruel. you wrapped your arms around yourself more out of instinct than discomfort. the balcony was small, with a windchime shaped like a lizard hanging from the overhang, and a view of soft suburban rooftops and yellow windows scattered like lanterns across the horizon.
you leaned against the wooden railing. he did the same.
neither of you spoke.
you were too full of the evening. of tamales and laughter. of too much touch under the table. of words you'd said with a smile that weren't liesâbut weren't supposed to be true either.
the problem wasn't pretending.
the problem was that pretending didn't feel like pretending anymore.
you didn't know when it had changed. maybe it was gradualâeach time he laced his fingers through yours without asking, or rested his hand on your thigh mid-story, or offered you a grin across the table that was so familiar, so soft, you forgot why you were here in the first place.
but it hit you now, standing beside him in the chillâthis unshakable, irreversible knowledge:
you were in love with him.
god, you were in love with hanta sero.
not just in a surface-level, crush-colored way. not just in the i-like-how-he-makes-me-laugh way. it was deeper than that. older. something that had snuck in when you weren't looking and taken root so quietly you hadn't noticed until it was everywhere.
you were in love with the way he held space. with the way he listened without trying to fix you. with the way he let the world land on him lightly, and still carried it in both hands when it mattered.
you were in love with someone who didn't even know you weren't faking anymore.
you exhaled.
"you're quiet," he said, not looking at you. "regretting it already?"
you shook your head. "no. it's just... weird how easy it was. with your family."
he hummed. "they like you."
"they liked that i made you less annoying."
"that is the highest compliment in my house."
you smiled, faint. "they're sweet. loud, but sweet."
"you kept up fine."
"i think i blacked out for half of it."
"you were golden," he said, softer now. "you always are."
you turned toward him slowly.
the lights from the kitchen spilled faintly through the curtains behind you, catching just enough of his face for you to see how relaxed he looked. how present. how close.
you swallowed.
"hanta?"
he looked over at you, brows raised. "yeah?"
there was a beat of silence.
"i don't know how to lie to you," you said.
he blinked once.
then again, slower.
"what?"
"i mean," you continued, hands curling around the edge of the railing. "i've been trying. all day. and i thought i could. i thought i could pull it offâplay the part, pretendâbut then we got here, and your mom hugged me, and you touched my hand under the table, and i just... i don't know when it stopped being a bit."
his eyes searched your face like he was looking for something he'd already lost.
"hanta," you said again. "i'm in love with you."
his face froze.
the air between you seemed to still. the windchime didn't move. the whole world narrowed into this one pinpoint moment, bright and fragile and terrifying.
he stepped backâjust barely.
"you don't have to keep pretending," he said. carefully. cautiously. "no one's watching anymore. you can drop it."
you stared at him.
"i'm not pretending," you said.
another beat. a sharp exhale.
his lips parted slightly. his brows furrowed, not in confusion, but in disbelief. in the kind of fear that came from wanting something too much and being afraid to reach for it.
"you're serious."
"i've never been more serious about anything in my life."
sero let out a long, shaky laugh. it cracked halfway through.
"say it again," he whispered.
"i'm in love with you."
and this time, you reached for him.
your fingers curled into the fabric of his hoodie, and you felt the moment he meltedâslow and overwhelmed, the way something melts that's been cold for too long.
"you've got to be kidding me," he muttered, leaning into your touch. "i thoughtâgod, i thought i was the only one losing my mind over this."
you smiled, eyes stinging.
"you weren't."
"i've been in love with you since second year," he admitted, voice breaking a little. "you kissed my cheek that one time after i carried your books back from the nurse's office, and i nearly died. like, actual cardiac arrest."
"that was a year ago."
"welcome to my long, slow descent into insanity."
you laughed, quiet and ridiculous.
and then he kissed you.
it wasn't rushed. wasn't showy. it wasn't a fireworks-and-credits-roll kiss.
it was the kind that happened in doorways, in hallways, in quiet rooms where hearts beat too loud. the kind that changed nothing and everything all at once.
he kissed you like he meant it.
you kissed him like you'd been waiting your whole life to.
when you finally pulled apart, his forehead rested against yours.
"you're real?" you whispered, breath catching.
"i better be," he said. "otherwise you've just confessed to a figment of your imagination."
you swallowed a grin.
his thumb traced your cheek.
"i thought this would end in disaster," he said quietly. "that pretending would ruin everything."
"and?"
"and now i don't want it to end at all."
you leaned in, bumping your nose against his.
"then it doesn't have to."
he smiled, and kissed you again.
not like he was pretending.
like he was home.
i beg pls do a shoto x reader smau just like cutesie things and theyre already dating i need it for my daily serotonin intake ^^ like where he just does the most boyfriend things without noticing...
w2e, the marias, beabadoobee, laufey typa romance i beg đ
in which loving you comes naturally to himâeven if he rarely says it out loud
Hihi!! U said ud like to start doing more writings rather than smaus, so I thought Iâd leave u a writing request this time! Okay so picture this, itâs post-war with bakugou x mia!reader who was presumed dead but apparently was just stranded in the middle of nowhere (this part is kind of a plothole but if u could figure out something that would be sososo amazing!!) and after like 6 months finally reunite post-war?? Ofc take ur time and stay healthy author !! Love ur work !!<3333
bakugo thought you were gone. for six months, he lived with that weight. but fate had other plansâand now, you're standing right in front of him.
bakugo had never been good at dealing with grief.
anger? sure. fear? he could mask it. pain? he lived with that shit daily. but grief? real, soul-crushing loss that settled deep in his bones and refused to leave? that was different.
and it was eating him alive.
you had been gone for six months.
the war ended, but not without casualties. the city was rebuilding, heroes stretched thin trying to repair the damage. civilians were starting to feel safe again. life was moving on.
but bakugo couldn't.
because you weren't there.
no body. no trace. no closure.
just... gone.
they'd looked for you. he'd looked for youârefused to stop even after the others tried to tell him it was no use. rescue teams had combed through the rubble, searching collapsed buildings and debris for any sign of you. but all they ever found were reminders of how brutal the battle had been.
a boot. blood on the pavement.
but never you.
bakugo had stood there, watching as they cleared the wreckage, hands clenched into fists so tight his nails left crescent moons in his palms. he didn't speak. didn't move.
he didn't cry.
because if he didâif he let that crack form even for a secondâhe wouldn't survive it.
he stopped saying your name after the first month.
it hurt too much.
everyone could see it. he wasn't the same.
bakugo still trained with the same intensity, still went through the motions of being a hero-in-training, but the fire was gone. his explosions felt duller. his anger, less controlled.
the dorms were quieter without you. your laugh used to echo through the hallways, bright and infectious. you'd tease him relentlessly, calling him out on his bullshit with that signature grin he pretended to hate.
now? silence.
even his friends had stopped trying to get him to talk about it. they didn't ask how he was doing anymoreâprobably because they knew the answer.
shitty.
he was doing shitty.
bakugo didn't sleep much anymore.
every time he closed his eyes, he saw you.
not the way he wanted to remember youâsmiling, happy, calling him an idiot when he tried to act cool.
no.
he saw you in that moment.
the war. the smoke. the chaos.
"get out of here!" you'd screamed, shoving him back, your eyes wide with desperation. "go, bakugo!"
he didn't listen. he never would.
but thenâthe explosion.
a flash of light. a deafening roar.
and you were gone.
bakugo woke up most nights with his heart pounding, breath ragged as he reached for somethingâsomeoneâwho wasn't there.
his bed was cold. the dorm was quiet.
and you were still gone.
he should've been there. should've done something. should've protected you.
bakugo had played that moment over in his head a thousand times, wondering where it went wrong. how he let you slip away. how heâof all peopleâhad failed to save the one person he couldn't live without.
six months. that's how long it had been.
life didn't wait for grief to pass. UA moved forward. class 1-a graduated and stayed on as provisional heroes to assist with the rebuilding efforts. the dorms weren't as chaotic anymore. they were quiet. colder. bakugo still trained like his life depended on it. he threw himself into work with relentless determination, trying to drown out the ache that never went away. his body was exhausted, but it was nothing compared to the emptiness that gnawed at him from the inside.
kirishima watched him with worried eyes. mina tried to get him to open up, but he brushed her off. kaminariâeven kaminariâstopped cracking jokes about "grumpy bakugo" because this... this wasn't just grumpiness. this was grief. and no one knew how to fix it.
bakugo didn't say it out loud, but he had given up. he stopped checking the reports. stopped listening when the search teams gave their updates. stopped hoping. because hoping hurt too much.
it was a random afternoon when everything changed. the sun was setting, casting long shadows over the UA campus. bakugo was heading back to the dorms after another grueling training session, his body sore and his mind numb. he was used to this feeling by nowâthe hollow ache in his chest that never fully went away.
but thenâ
"bakugo." the voice was soft. almost too soft. his brain didn't register it at first. it couldn't.
"katsuki."
that voice. his heart stopped.
slowly, like he was afraid moving too fast would break the fragile illusion, he turned around. and there you were. standing a few feet away, looking tired, worn, and a little worse for wear. but alive.
alive.
bakugo didn't move. didn't breathe.
"hey," you said, voice barely above a whisper, like you weren't sure he'd even want to see you.
bakugo's knees nearly gave out.
"holy shit," he breathed, his voice cracking as his feet finally moved. he stumbled forward like a man possessed, eyes locked on you as if he was afraid you'd disappear again if he blinked.
you didn't move. didn't speak. and thenâyou were in his arms.
bakugo crushed you against his chest, arms wrapped around you so tightly it was like he was trying to make sure this was realâthat you were real.
"you're..." his voice broke, and he buried his face in the crook of your neck, inhaling your scent like it would anchor him to reality. "you're real."
"i'm real," you murmured, your voice trembling as you clung to him just as desperately. "i'm here, katsuki."
bakugo's body shook. "where the fuck were you?" his voice was hoarse, barely above a whisper. "do you know how long iâ"
"i know," you whispered, pulling back just enough to cup his face in your hands. "i know. i'm so sorry, katsuki."
his eyes were glassy, filled with too many emotions to name. anger. relief. pain. love.
"i thought..." his voice trailed off, and his grip on you tightened. "i thought i lost you."
"you didn't," you smiled, pressing your forehead against his. "i'm here now. i'm not going anywhere."
"swear it." his voice was barely audible, but the desperation in it was palpable.
"i swear."
bakugo's lips crashed against yours. it wasn't gentle. it was raw, desperateâa collision of lips and teeth and everything he'd been holding back for six long months. he kissed you like he was trying to make up for every second you'd been gone, like he was terrified this was still a dream. but you kissed him back just as fiercely.
and for the first time in six months, bakugo katsuki could breathe again.
you didn't talk about it right away. the first night, you stayed curled up in his bed, wrapped in his arms like he was afraid to let go. bakugo didn't sleepâjust held you, his fingers tracing idle patterns on your skin, grounding himself in the steady rise and fall of your breathing. he didn't ask where you'd been. didn't ask how you survived. because right now? none of that mattered.
you were here. that was all that mattered.
days passed before you could bring yourself to tell him. about how the explosion had thrown you so far, so fast, that no one thought to look beyond the city. how you'd been buried under debris, barely clinging to life, until a group of villagers in a remote area found you and nursed you back to health.
how you'd spent every waking moment after that trying to get back to him.
"i tried, katsuki," you whispered, your voice barely audible as you sat on his bed, hands trembling in his. "i tried to come back."
"i know."
bakugo's thumb brushed over your knuckles, his touch gentle despite the storm in his eyes.
"i didn't mean to leave you."
"i know."
his jaw clenched, and he lifted your hand to his lips, pressing a soft kiss to your skin. "you're not leaving again."
"i'm not."
"swear it."
"i swear."
bakugo kissed you again, slower this time, softerâlike he was memorizing every inch of you all over again. and for the first time in six months, he wasn't holding onto a ghost.
you stayed by his side after that. bakugo didn't sleep alone anymore. every night, he fell asleep with his arms around you, grounding himself in the steady rhythm of your heartbeat. and every morning, when he woke up and saw you thereâhe let himself believe that maybe, just maybe, everything would be okay again.
it wasn't easy. some days were harder than others. but you were there.
and bakugo?
he wasn't letting go this time.
not now. not ever.
⚠in which a tired college professor starts texting his equally tired colleague
the five times he almost confessed (and the one time he did)
when you were laughing so hard you couldn't breathe
the common room was loud in that cozy, familiar wayâsomeone had turned on a movie, kaminari was yelling about the plot inconsistencies, and a half-empty popcorn bowl had already made two laps around the room. shoto wasn't really paying attention to the screen. he was sitting off to the side, legs folded neatly under him, arms resting on the back of the couch, his eyes on you.
you were laughing.
not the polite kind you gave during class or the half-hearted chuckle that came after a bad punâno, this was the full-body, head-thrown-back, tear-filled kind of laughter that made everyone around you start grinning too, even if they didn't know the joke.
and it was over something dumb. kaminari had tripped over mina's fuzzy slipper and face-planted into kirishima's protein shake. chaos followed. you were absolutely losing it.
shoto watched as you grabbed your stomach and gasped, "oh my godâthat was the dumbest thing i've ever seenâ" and wiped at your eyes like it hurt.
he felt something twist inside his chest. something warm and terrifying.
he should tell you. he should lean forward, tap your shoulder, and just say itâi like you. i think i like you more than i'm supposed to.
but then you turned to him, smile still wide, and said, "what? why are you looking at me like that?"
and he panicked.
shoto shook his head, lips twitching just slightly. "nothing. you look... happy."
you beamed at him.
and the moment passed.
2. when you fell asleep on his shoulder
it was movie night again. the common room was quieter this time. only you, him, and iida, who had already fallen asleep thirty minutes in, glasses askew and arms crossed like a disappointed father.
you had slowly started leaning on him as the night wore on, drifting closer each time you yawned. he didn't move. not when your head tilted, not when your hair brushed his collarbone, not even when your hand settled lightly over his.
eventually, you dozed off completely. he could feel the rise and fall of your breathing, soft and steady, against his side.
shoto stared straight ahead at the flickering screen, but his heart was slamming against his ribs like it was trying to break out.
"i love you," he whispered, so quiet he wasn't sure if he actually said it or just imagined the shape of the words in his mouth.
you shifted slightly, brow furrowed, murmuring something incoherent.
he froze. held his breath.
but you didn't wake up.
so he stayed still. and didn't say it again.
3. when you got your heart broken
it was raining. of course it was raining.
you showed up at his door soaked and shaking with the kind of smile that didn't reach your eyes. he opened it without a word and stepped aside to let you in. you toed off your shoes, jacket dripping on the mat, and mumbled, "sorry. i didn't know where else to go."
he handed you a towel. "you always know where to go."
you sat down on his bed, towel wrapped tightly around your shoulders, hair clinging to your face. he made tea. it was silent, but not the uncomfortable kind. it was the kind that let you breathe.
"he broke up with me," you said, finally. "said i was... 'too much.' whatever that means."
shoto sat beside you, mug in hand. "it means they're an idiot."
you laughed, but it sounded hollow.
he wanted to say more. he wanted to tell you that you were exactly enough. that your laugh made the world quieter in his head. that your presence was the one thing that didn't overwhelm him.
but instead, he said, "you deserve someone better."
you leaned your head against his shoulder.
and he didn't move.
4. when he thought you might be slipping away
training had been brutal. everyone was sore, tired, and half-dead by the time aizawa dismissed them. but you looked worse than tired. you looked distant.
you hadn't texted him back in two days. you missed lunch. you didn't sit with him during the bus ride back. and he noticedâevery bit of silence, every missed message, every glance that used to last longer.
so he waited outside the locker room, arms crossed, heart pacing faster than his footsteps ever could.
"hey," you said, blinking at him in surprise. you looked like you wanted to smile, but didn't quite manage it. "you okay?"
"i miss you," he said, too blunt, too honest.
your eyes widened a little. you laughed it off, but there was a crack in it. "i'm right here, shoto."
he looked at you. really looked. your hoodie sleeves pulled over your hands. your eyes tired. your mouth tugging into something that wasn't quite a smile.
"yeah," he said. "you are."
but he didn't believe it. you were standing in front of him, but you felt like you were disappearing by the second.
he thought about reaching for your hand. about saying the words out loud, finally. but instead, he shoved his hands into his pockets and watched you walk away.
and he didn't say what he meant.
5. when you almost died
the explosions echoed down the street like thunder.
shoto didn't wait. he was already moving, already tearing toward the smoke, already deaf to the ringing in his ears and the shouts behind him. his vision blurred. his heartbeat drowned everything else out.
they said you were last seen inside the collapsed building.
he didn't think. he didn't breathe. he just ran.
the debris was everywhere. the smell of ash, blood, and panic choked the air. he called your name once. twice. again.
and then he saw your hand.
half-buried. covered in dust and cuts. but moving.
he dropped to his knees and started digging, calling your name again, voice shaking. his fire flared too hot, too close, and he forced himself to calm itâyou couldn't get burned. not by him.
when he finally got to you, you were barely conscious, lips split, blood trickling down your temple.
"stay with me," he said, voice low and sharp with panic. "hey. look at me. you're okay. i've got you."
you mumbled his name. tried to smile.
he gathered you into his arms and held you like something sacred. he didn't let go until the medics forced him to.
that night he sat beside your hospital bed, fingers wrapped around yours, head bowed.
"i have to tell you," he whispered. "i have to. i almost didn't get to."
but your monitor beeped steadily, your face was still pale, and he couldn't bring himself to add anything more.
not yet.
so he waited.
+1. when you didn't let him walk away
it was late.
the dorms were quiet, shadows stretching across the hallway as he leaned against the railing outside. cold wind brushed against his cheek, but he didn't mind. he stood there, staring at nothing, waiting for the weight in his chest to go away. it didn't.
you found him like that, barefoot in socks, hoodie too big, voice small as you whispered, "you okay?"
he turned to look at you.
the wind caught your hair. the moonlight made your eyes look softer than usual. you looked tired, but more than that, you looked worried. for him.
he looked at you like he always didâwith something like awe, like fear, like you were the sun and he wasn't sure if he deserved the warmth.
"i keep trying to tell you something," he said.
you stepped closer. close enough that your shoulder brushed his.
"then just say it," you whispered.
he hesitated. how many times had he rehearsed it? how many times had the words caught in his throat, choked back by fear or timing or circumstance?
you didn't move.
"shoto," you said softly, eyes never leaving his, "if you don't say it now, i think i might."
his breath hitched, and for the first time, he didn't flinch.
"i love you," he said.
it came out quieter than he meant it to. barely a whisper. but it felt louder than any explosion.
you smiled.
"finally."
then, you leaned in and kissed him, slow and sure, like you'd been waiting forever. and maybe you had.
he kissed you back like he was making up for all the times he didn't say it.
and finally, finally, he didn't have to wait anymore.
âš he finally falls asleep, and there you areâagain. in his hoodie. in his head. his dream girl, literally.
hii!! i love ur smaus i read the shinso and dabi fatherhood ones and they were amazing đ©·đ©·
I wanted to request a fatherhood smau with either monoma or iida and ofc no pressure đ«¶đ»
tenya iida is doing his best. you're doing... something. your child is doing whatever they want