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This was for @foundouthatdabiistouyatodoroki the two characters are Fubuki and Kosaka both they’re OC’s for they’re story ‘Violet Blue’ (hope I’m not rong)

Anyway here Ya Go!!! @foundouthatdabiistouyatodoroki Hope it’s what you wanted I got a little confused at one point as to what you wanted sooo~ I’m not sure I hope it’s alright

loved drawing them! They have such fun designs!!! I especially like Fubuki! She’s so pretty! Oh and I like Kosaka’s outfit lil confusing at first but once I realized what was going on it was really cute!

sorry I didn’t shade anything! I just didn’t want to potentially ruin it! :<

over all I nice drawing to make!!! :> (weirdly enough her hair with the hat reminds me of an Octopus it’s cute)

07.29

Introduction ♱

This is a last resort.

I do not enjoy writing about myself; I may even hate it. My livelihood revolves around documenting the latest advancements in medicine and synthetic biology. Passions and aspirations were left behind long ago for a career and the promise of stability. As I set aside my desire to write my truths and quench my thirst, I defy the odds laid out by those before me.

It’s fucking exhausting.

Even in days past, I never wrote about myself. Instead, I immersed myself in the characters I read about or watched in the countless pieces of media I had the time to consume. I fell in love with their struggles, perhaps projecting myself onto them. I clung to these characters so tightly, devoting myself to these fictional beings, only to be disappointed by the reality beyond the page.

Sometimes I feel I am not meant for the real world.

Now, I am grown. Independence found me early, carrying me far and gifting me with early successes that impressed those who still had others to rely on. They don't understand the circumstances; I would be the same as them if given the opportunity. Desperately, I would cling to what they consider normal, let it nurture me, and bask in a newfound dependence. In an attempt to taste reliance, I took a lover—one who grew up properly loved and appreciated. This didn't do much for me; it only exposed the gaps left in my development from a lack of care. Strangely enough, it was humiliating.

Love is humiliating.

And though it is humiliating, it is stable. My relationship screams stability. Perhaps I am the most unstable piece in the puzzle of my love; I am the root of most of our quarrels. This is not my intent. This petulance and rage are not something to be proud of. Memories of the past fade into sunken emotions that surface at the slightest hint of criticism. Though unprovoked, these bursts of emotion are so powerful that even I am surprised. So, I suppose this is an attempt to confront these feelings, to reflect enough to quiet the nagging thoughts and let the past rest.

To those reading, I offer a warm welcome. May you find solidarity in these stupid and meaningless ramblings that I promise you I will never act on.

Listening to headlock, the wind is crazy here, and I can't go to the gym to work off the stuff I ate today :(((

in this essay I won’t-

bsd abilities are weird. like i get dazai or sigma but how did KAIJI find out he had an ability. WHAT WAS BRO DOING. DID HE SUDDENLY GET THE URGE TO CREATE A LEMON SHAPED BOMB AND THEN WHEN IT DIDNT KILL HIM HE WAS LIKE

"uhm actually 🤓☝ sigma is 3 years old so siglai is a proshi-" *gunshots*

If John and Arthur ever separated, I don't think they would ever be able to live without each other. The amount of codependency in their relationship is too much any human or now human to bear.

I see two possible outcomes, either way, one of them cracks and acts up on their desire to become whole again.

1: If John loses his mind first.

When he gets his new body and has already learned coordinating it, (it would take so much time and physical and emotional effort to do so, but that's another story) he would feel too alone even lost. His entire existence as we know now was with Arthur, at least in the human world. He was so afraid to go back to the dark world, he couldn't bear to be alone again. He couldn't hear Arthur's thoughts, nor could Arthur need his assistance anymore. He would be completely on his own. This is enough in itself to go mental, but what if he would feel so alone that he would see the only option to became happy as going back. But there is no going back. He would find a way: cutting open his soulmate's body and getting into him. Once again they'll be whole, and he would be inside him as he should.

2: Arthur looses is first.

When John gets a body, Arthur has to learn to be on his own again, either blind or with eyesight he would lose his guide. Even if he can see again, the world is not the same as John described it, it's different and less colorful.  If he can see again, he will see how much damage their adventure done to his body. He is half the man he was before, and no one ever in the whole world could see him and know what he feels other than John. His emotional support is gone, but that was the only thing that got his self-esteem going. He tried, or was on the edge of killing himself before, but now he is too close. He can't even bear to see John, with his new body; no scars, no damage. Not only that, but he had to go through so much, and only he stayed the same? He needs John back, but with a body he needs to put it back someway.

He eats him. Every little piece of him. The hair, the bones. Nothing can leave from him, so they can go back to normal, no John's body, he is John's body, and he is inside of him again.

I love speculating about medieval Welsh poetry! As a Cauldron Kids enthusiast, I'd like to elaborate a little about the poetic bit with Creirwy and Garwy Hir. Here it is in Welsh and English:

Whether Hywel ab Einion Llygliw (yes, a different Hywel) is drawing a parallel between his feelings for Myfanwy Fychan and Garwy's feelings for Creirwy or whether he's referencing two unconnected characters, one known for being beautiful and the other known for an unhappy love life or just a lot of generalized woes, is kind of ambiguous, so while I would be happy to have more Creirwy lore, unless there's some other source which mentions this, I don't think we can say that it's supposed to mean they were in a relationship for certain. There's also another Creirwy, daughter of Saint Gwen the Triple-Breasted, though I don't think she's as likely to be the one referenced here.

I'd also like to add that one really dubious Wikipedia entry claims Myfanwy married Goronwy ap Tudur Hen. This is a fun tidbit because he's yet another guy named Goronwy, though almost certainly not the "Cad Goddeu" poet's pal Goronwy, and because if it were true, that would make her a direct ancestor of the House of Tudor.

Hello, it's me. I am back again to bore you all to utter DEATH.

Okay, so I was doing some reading in my lil book nook and I came across this poem:

(Sorry it's sideways. I hate it too.)

It's Ode Five by Hywel ab Owain Gwynedd (who is awesome in his own right. Might do a post about him if anybody would like it.) Anyways, there are two (2) things that jumped out straight off that I have highlighted:

1. The reference to Ogrfan Fawr who is Gwenhwyfar's dad. It's super interesting to me that it reads a bit like Hywel (or whoever is narrating the poem) uses Ogrfan to imply that he's being kept apart from his lover. (Presumably the fair - pls remember Gwen is another word for fair, or white, in Welsh - shy girl lady he mentions in the second line.)

Who's got fair in their name? Gwenhwyfar. "Okay, Sarah," I imagine you're saying. "Cool stuff. But what the fuck does this have to do with a twelfth-century poet dude and a fictional queen?"

Ah, okay. WELL. LEMME REFER U TO GARWY HIR:

He's the father of Indeg who is one of Arthur's mistresses, AND lover of Creirwy, daughter of Cerridwen. Now, I find the author's insinuation that the poem is specifically about Garwy Hir to be a bit of a stretch, because why tf is Ogrfan mentioned in the same breath as Garwy? They have little connection to each other in all honesty. (And I have never heard of Ogrfan, Garwy, being Cerridwen being connected.)

Well, there's a Very Prominent Lad who is connected to both of those ladies.

ARTHUR!!!!!

Husband to Gwenhwyfar, lover of Indeg. The dumbass boi himself. (Respectfully. He is just... look, a lot of Welsh sources are mixed about him. Gildas has Proper Beef with Arthur cuz he killed his brother. Also, this is the same man who called Maelgwn Gwynedd, 'a sodomitical grape.' So. He's not fuckin about.)

It sounds like - to me - this Ode could be perceived as a quest - much like his quest to Annwfn (Not outside of Hywel's subject matter. Man LOVED to intertwine war and love. Read his Gorhoffedd. You'll see what I mean.) - that's been forgotten about over the intervening centuries. One that Arthur went on to get Gwenhwyfar from her father's hall. Perhaps this is also - maybe - a far older version of the Gwenhwyfar/Guinevere and Melwas/Melegaunt myth, but idk. I cannot say for certain.

Now. You can think that this is all a bit tenuous. It very much is, I grant you. In 'The Arthur of the Welsh,' O.J. Padel suggests that Hywel is imagining himself as a suitor for Gwenhwyfar's hand (entirely fair. Right there with you, fella. I too would want to be a suitor for Gwenhwyfar.) But I think it makes a little more sense for the Ode to be Arthur.

Also, yes, I admit the reference to Gwenhwyfar is an indirect one, and I am running on 12 cups of coffee, and this didn't go anywhere, but still. It's FUN.

Now, go read about Hywel ab Owain Gwynedd, pls!!!!! His dad, Owain Gwynedd, gets compared to Cai, Cynyr, Gwalchmai, and Dillus in an elegy by Cynddelw, while his court at Gwynedd is seen to be like Arthur's at Celli Wig. (Cynddelw did a praise poem about Hywel too, which also contains lots of Arthurian references.)

Every knife is a pocket knife if you have big enough pockets

Christmas kids.

you can never predict the actions of a desperate man (wanted chocolate so bad i ate a 3 month old bounty)

I would like to state that I can officially no longer differentiate between my own original thoughts and tumblr memes that I saw two years ago, so if y’all see a slightly mangled, badly regurgitated copy of a 2012 textpost, no you didn’t

What if Ultra Magnus' big ass shoulders are removable or retractable. Cuz ain't that shit uncomfortable???? Cuz I would find it so

I have recently come to the realization that I am going to be known for writng Alpha!Jason x Reader fanfics and I do not know how to feel about that lmao

(I don't even read omegaverse fanfics, HOW DID THIS HAPPEN?)

hi Tumblr people You You uhhh

expect art today because im rolling on the floor crying from pain and not going to school sadly leaving My poor wife alone(sorry Ven) so i will probably have time to draw tho first ill finally make sprites for a contest hosted by a friend over on cs

so yeah

um ouhhmmmmu uhhhhhhhh im reaaaaally in a Charju mood today……. yuri

so maybe ill draw those fucking lesbos

yippie!