Mel Yapping🃏 - Blog Posts

idk why yall would need this but

first time i read a loving and all that shit smut i cried. litereally busted into tears

'girl, you walk like a bitch' when i was 10, someone said that

and its just delf defence, until you're building a weapon

she belived my projection

and now i totally get it

forgot that inside that icon, there's still a young girl from essex

havent logged into wattpad for like a week and i have so much new chapters to read

can we organise a cult of worshiping me

(night thoughts are winning this time)

didnt relapsed after a fight with mom, im making progress

itty bitty teeny tiny little slutty skirt

i had a therapy session!! the new therapist is amaizinggg

okay i have like 2 hours until therapy

helrooo

hey hun

Everytime I see one of your post pop up on my feed I click right on your account and stalk you

i can tell, love

continue doing that

i just showered, im mentaly stable again

i just realized that a selfharm only because of my autism(and because people(my fucking family!!) totaly ignore my needs to do with it) thanku very much

i want to eat, i just can't.

i love this little tumblr fandom it feels special

my gay awakening was apple mother fucking jack. i still have a crush on her btw

skipping lessons together is another type of intimacy

no matter how many times id hug my friend it still feels like i need a hug. like i need to be held. i dont even know if i want it

honestly im willing to do a lobotomy if that shot will make ed disappear

im eatinggg

devil couldn't reach me so he gave me hypersexual disorder when i was goddamn 4yo

give me a damn cigaretteeeeeee

words are not enough to describe how bad i love her

ik im not right in the head but i just realized how dumb it actually is

like when its someone else stuggling i hope they get better n shit but when its me i think i deserve to get worser

that shit is so normalized in my brain idk

i havent sneaked my phone in school(exept from like 3 times to turn music/check messages) andd im eating

r yall proud of me

when you walk out the door, and leave me torn,

you're 'teaching me' to live without it

i keep on falling asleep in the afternoon but i cant sleep when i need to ughhhhh

i cant fall asleep ;((

everything gets so bad im sitting here and writing angst instead of sleeping(im gonna die if i will continue sleeping for 6-5 hours a day)

give me a cigarette please

okay fuck i cried cuz i got overwhelmed by things i cant control