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For those of you who don't know me, my name is Kandi and I would like to work with/in movies someday, whether that be acting/screenwriting or even writing novels. That is the whole reason I started this account, to broaden my writings and get feedback and constructive criticism. Recently, I have found even more inspiration for all of these things but I am not sure how to go about this all.
Like many people I watched Gladiator II shortly after it came out and became infatuated with the characters. I envied them, wanted to be them, in their places. I've always wanted to act, do something creative with my life. When I was younger my brother and I would pretend and make-believe he craziest most detailed stories. I've written little stories and essays for years, since I was in elementary school. I always loved when the young-authors competitions would come around, and when we were assigned long writing pieces for my classes later on in high school I was ecstatic. My senior year English teacher continuously told me to never stop writing, that she loved everything I came up with. Her class was one of the only ones that my grade never dropped in. It's because of her that I decided to try and make a career for myself with my stories that I hope will soon turn into novels or screenplays. As for the acting, my mother was raising my brother and me by herself and hadn't wanted us to get jobs until we graduated from school. Our education was more important. While other kids got to join the drama club and participate in all of these cool plays, and even those who weren't in drama club and auditioned for parts, I was never able to at all. My mother wasn't going to be able to take me to any of the rehearsals or anything. It would be useless to sign up if I couldn't do anything.
These dreams of mine dimmed severely after I graduated and even more so once my brother did. I moved in with my boyfriend against my mother's wishes and dipped down into a horrible, severe depression. I don't remember a good chunk of that time, even though this was only in 2023. He messed me up so bad that I was in the psych ward for 3 weeks. My dreams pretty much ceased to exist until the summer of 2024.
I spent more time with my family, who supported all of my dreams. I will forever call my brother my biggest supporter as well as my biggest hater. He's brutally honest which helps a lot with where I want to go. He's another one of my inspirations. A very big one.
Now this may sound odd or maybe even excessive to a point, but I also dedicate a part of my inspiration to Fred Hechinger. When I saw him in Gladiator II I realized that I recognized him from Fear Street, and upon further investigation found out that he is only 4 1/2 years older than I am, making him around my age in the trilogy. Before knowing this I was convinced that it was too late for me to start an acting career now. I didn't go to any special school or anything; I was/am poor. After my little bout of research I came to the conclusion that you're never too old to get into the acting business. You're never too old to do anything really.
My doubts however are still getting to me though, because I have no clue how to go about any of my dreams. I don't know what to do if I want my novel published. I don't know how to go about getting headshots or finding auditions around where I live (a small town in West Virginia) when I have no money at all. I don't know anything. So if anyone has actually read this far, could you please help me out in some way? Please reblog this post/leave your own comments so other people can see and also give their input.
Thank you so much!