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i love this stupid ass photo of him staring so much
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ugh nobody even tlak to me HIS SMIRK
IM GOING CRAZY
I went with my mom to the cinema yesterday to watch Deadpool & Wolverine and I can't stop thinking about the movie!! It was sooo goooodddd.
Send requests for Wade and Logan I'm begging-
Part I Part II
i'm so sorry it took so long for me to post this!! i've been drowning in work :,(
Logan/James Howlett x Reader
She/Her pronouns used!!
Summary: Logan struggles after seeing a person he loves alive. Will he be able to save her?
In the moments leading up to Logan's journey back in time, the Xavier Institute was a hub of frantic activity, a beacon of hope in the face of impending doom. The threat of the Sentinels loomed large, casting a shadow of fear and uncertainty over the mutant community.
Logan, haunted by the memory of Y/N's tragic death and driven by a desperate need to prevent further loss, had become the linchpin in a daring plan to alter the course of history. With the help of Professor Xavier and a handful of trusted allies, Logan prepared to embark on a mission that would defy the very fabric of time itself.
The decision to send Logan back in time was not made lightly. It required sacrifices â sacrifices that weighed heavily on the hearts of those left behind. Yet, in the face of imminent destruction, there was no room for hesitation.
As Logan stood before the makeshift time-travel device, his resolve hardened like steel. The weight of his mission bore down on him, a burden he carried with grim determination. He knew the risks â the possibility of altering the timeline, of facing enemies both old and new â but the chance to rewrite history and save those he loved was a gamble he was willing to take.
Before he could second-guess himself, Logan braced himself for the journey ahead. With a final glance at his comrades, a silent promise etched in his eyes, he stepped into the swirling vortex of energy, disappearing into the unknown depths of the past.
In that pivotal moment, the fate of the world hung in the balance. For Logan, it was a journey fraught with peril and uncertainty, but it was also a journey fueled by hope â hope for redemption, for a chance to right the wrongs of the past, and for a future where Y/N's death would be nothing more than a distant memory.
As Logan's consciousness shifted through time, propelled back to a pivotal moment before the devastation wrought by the Sentinels, a sense of urgency gripped him like a vice. His mission was clear: to prevent the cataclysmic events that had led to Y/N's tragic demise.
Arriving in the past, Logan found himself in a world that was both familiar and yet subtly different. The Xavier Institute bustled with life, its halls alive with the laughter of students and the gentle hum of telepathic conversations. But for Logan, it was a world tinged with sorrow, a reminder of the losses he had endured.
As he navigated the bustling corridors, searching for allies to aid him in his quest, Logan's heart quickened at the thought of encountering Y/N. She existed in this timeline, vibrant and alive, yet unaware of the role she would play in shaping their shared destiny.
When Logan finally came face to face with Y/N, his breath caught in his throat. She was different here â a younger version of the person he had known, her features softened by innocence and untainted by the scars of war. And yet, there was an undeniable familiarity in her presence, a connection that transcended the boundaries of time.
As their eyes met, Logan felt a surge of emotions wash over him â longing, regret, and a fierce determination to protect her at all costs. In that fleeting moment, he saw echoes of the Y/N he had lost, a reminder of the bond they had shared across time and space.
But for Y/N, Logan was a stranger â a mysterious figure with haunted eyes and a sense of purpose that seemed to emanate from his very being. And yet, there was something in his gaze, a depth of emotion that stirred something within her â a feeling she couldn't quite place.
As Logan reached out to Y/N, his hand trembling with the weight of unspoken truths, he knew that convincing her to join him would be no easy task. But for Y/N, Logan's presence ignited a spark of curiosity, a whisper of destiny that beckoned her towards a future she could not yet fathom.
As Logan stood before the younger version of Y/N, his heart clenched with a mixture of emotions â longing, regret, and an urgent sense of purpose. He knew that convincing her of the impending danger would be no easy task, especially considering she had no recollection of their shared history.
Y/N regarded him with a mixture of curiosity and suspicion, her brows furrowed in confusion. "Who are you?" she demanded, her voice tinged with a hint of defiance.
Logan took a deep breath, steeling himself for the difficult task ahead. "I know this is hard to believe, but you need to listen to me. I'm from the future, and I've seen what happens if we don't act now."
Y/N's eyes widened in disbelief, a scoff escaping her lips. "From the future? That's impossible. Why should I trust you?"
Logan knew he had to choose his words carefully, to break through the wall of skepticism that surrounded her. "I know this is a lot to take in, but I've seen the devastation caused by the Sentinels. They've hunted us down, taken everything from us. If we don't stop them now, there won't be a future for any of us."
Y/N's expression softened slightly, but her hesitation remained palpable. "And why should I believe you? You could be anyone, spinning tales to manipulate me."
Logan's jaw tightened with frustration, but he forced himself to remain calm. He understood her skepticism â after all, he was asking her to believe in the impossible. "I understand your doubts, but you have to trust me. Lives are at stake here, including yours. We need to work together to stop this."
Y/N's gaze flickered with uncertainty, torn between disbelief and a nagging sense of curiosity. She wanted to dismiss Logan's words as the ramblings of a madman, but there was something in his eyes â a depth of sincerity that gave her pause.
As Logan pleaded with her to heed his warning, Y/N felt a surge of conflicting emotions wash over her â fear, anger, and a flicker of hope. In that moment of uncertainty, she grappled with the weight of the decision before her, knowing that the fate of the world rested in her hands â and in the hands of the enigmatic stranger who claimed to hold the key to their salvation.
The moment hung suspended in time, a fragile balance between doubt and determination. Y/N stood before Logan, her gaze locked with his, uncertainty etched into the lines of her face. Logan's plea echoed in the air, a whispered promise of redemption and salvation, and for a fleeting instant, Y/N hesitated.
But then, something shifted within her â a spark of resolve that ignited in the depths of her soul. It was a quiet realization, born from the depths of her own courage and fueled by the unwavering belief that together, they could make a difference.
With a steadying breath, Y/N met Logan's gaze, her voice steady despite the turmoil raging within her. "Alright. I'll help you."
The words hung in the air like a beacon of hope, a testament to the strength of her conviction. In that moment, a weight lifted from Logan's shoulders, replaced by a surge of gratitude and relief. He had expected resistance, perhaps even outright rejection, but Y/N's willingness to trust him filled him with a sense of purpose unlike anything he had ever known.
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As the tension reached its peak in the crowded conference room, Logan and Y/N moved with precision and determination, their eyes locked in silent communication. They had trained for this moment, prepared for the pivotal role they would play in altering the course of history.
Amidst the chaos, Mystique, disguised as a government official, made her move, her gun trained on Trask, the architect of the Sentinel program. But before she could pull the trigger, Logan sprang into action, his instincts honed by years of combat.
With a swift motion, he intercepted Mystique's shot, deflecting the bullet away from its intended target. The room erupted into chaos as panic spread like wildfire, but Logan remained focused, his gaze never wavering from Mystique's determined form.
Beside him, Y/N moved with a grace and precision that belied her years, her powers weaving through the air like a symphony of light and shadow. With a flick of her wrist, she immobilized Mystique, her telekinetic abilities holding her captive in a shimmering cocoon of energy.
As the dust settled and order was restored, Logan and Y/N shared a fleeting glance, a silent acknowledgment of the pivotal role they had played in preventing catastrophe. In that moment, the bond between them deepened, forged in the crucible of adversity.
But as they stood amidst the aftermath of their actions, a sense of uncertainty lingered in the air. The future remains uncertain, and the threat of the Sentinels still loomed large. Yet, for the first time in a long time, Logan allowed himself to feel a glimmer of hope â a hope that with Y/N by his side, they could face whatever challenges lay ahead, together.
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As Logan's consciousness shifted back to the future, his senses reeled from the disorienting transition. The world around him was a blur of chaos and destruction, the aftermath of the battle against the Sentinels evident in the smoldering ruins that surrounded him. But amidst the devastation, one sight stood out like a beacon of light in the darkness.
There, among the ragged survivors, stood Y/N â her presence a ray of hope amidst the despair. For a moment, time seemed to stand still as Logan's gaze locked onto her familiar form, his heart swelling with a mixture of relief and gratitude.
Without hesitation, he moved towards her, his steps fueled by an overwhelming urge to reach her side. As he drew closer, their eyes met, and in that instant, a flood of emotions washed over him â longing, regret, and a fierce determination to protect her at all costs.
Unable to resist any longer, Logan closed the distance between them in a single stride, his arms enveloping Y/N in a tight embrace. It was a gesture born from the depths of his soul, a silent vow to never let her go again.
In that poignant moment, as Logan's arms enveloped Y/N in a tight embrace amidst the wreckage of their war-torn world, a whirlwind of emotions stirred within him, threatening to overwhelm his senses.
First and foremost was an overwhelming sense of relief â relief that Y/N was alive and standing before him, a beacon of hope amidst the devastation. The mere sight of her, her presence a comforting reminder of their shared history and the bond they had forged, filled his heart with a profound sense of gratitude.
But alongside relief, there was also a deep-seated longing â a longing for the lost time, for the moments they had shared before the world had descended into chaos. Seeing Y/N again awakened a flood of memories, memories of laughter and camaraderie, of unspoken connections and shared moments that now felt like distant echoes in the wake of tragedy.
Mixed with longing was a potent undercurrent of regret â regret for the pain and suffering they had endured, for the lives lost and the futures stolen. Logan couldn't help but wonder if there was more he could have done, if he could have somehow prevented the devastation that had torn them apart.
Yet, amidst the tumult of emotions, there was also a fierce determination â a determination to protect Y/N at all costs, to ensure that she would never again face the horrors of war alone. In that moment, as he held her close, Logan made a silent vow to do whatever it took to keep her safe, to carve out a future where they could finally find peace.
And underlying it all was a profound sense of love â a love that transcended time and space, a love that had endured despite the odds. In Y/N's arms, Logan found solace amidst the chaos, a glimmer of hope in a world consumed by darkness.
After the embrace had ended, Logan held onto Y/N's hands tightly, his gaze locking with hers with a newfound intensity. In that moment, the weight of his unspoken emotions pressed heavily upon him, urging him to finally lay bare the truth that had long been buried within his heart.
"Y/N," he began, his voice rough with emotion, "I⊠I need you to know something. I've been a fool, blind to what's been right in front of me all along."
Y/N's eyes widened in surprise, her heart fluttering with a mixture of anticipation and apprehension. She waited with bated breath as Logan continued, his words carrying the weight of a lifetime's worth of regrets.
"I love you, Y/N," Logan confessed, his voice barely above a whisper but filled with an undeniable sincerity. "I've loved you for longer than I care to admit, but I was too damn stubborn to see it. I let my fears and insecurities cloud my judgment, and for that, I'm sorry."
Tears welled in Y/N's eyes at Logan's confession, her heart swelling with a rush of emotions she could hardly comprehend. In that moment, the walls she had built around her heart crumbled, leaving her vulnerable but unafraid.
"Logan," she whispered, her voice trembling with emotion, "I love you too. I've loved you for as long as I can remember, but I was too afraid to say it. Too afraid of what it might mean, of what we might lose."
Their hands tightened around each other's, a silent vow passing between them. In that shared moment of vulnerability, Logan and Y/N laid bare their hearts, their love for each other a beacon of hope in a world shrouded in darkness.
And as they stood together, tears mingling with smiles, they knew that no matter what challenges lay ahead, as long as they were together, they would face them with unwavering courage and unyielding love. For in each other's arms, they had found a home â a sanctuary amidst the chaos, where their love could flourish and grow stronger with each passing day.
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again, i'm so sorry it took me so long!!! this term has been so exhausting :,(
i really hope you guys liked the final part!! i hadn't meant to make it this long but i got a little carried away lol. i know it's not fully canon to the movies, sorry bout that.
Part I Part II
Logan/James Howlett x Reader
She/Her Pronouns
Summary: The Sentinel battle takes a turn for the worst causing Logan to lose someone dear to him.
Before the Sentinels descended upon them, there had been a quiet undercurrent of tension between Logan and Y/N, an unspoken dynamic that lingered beneath the surface of their friendship. The Xavier Institute, a haven for mutants, had become a place where emotions and connections were heightened, but not always openly acknowledged.
Logan and Y/N had shared moments of camaraderie, their friendship deepening over time. Yet, a subtle dance of longing and hesitation played out between them, unnoticed by others but felt in the quiet glances and stolen smiles. Each held a key to the other's heart, but the lock remained unturned.
In the tranquil moments before the storm, Y/N often found herself stealing glances at Logan, a flutter of uncertainty in her chest. She admired his strength, both physical and emotional, and valued the camaraderie they shared. Yet, there was an unspoken desire for something more, a connection that hovered in the uncharted territory between friendship and something deeper.
Logan, too, grappled with his own conflicting emotions. He had always been a lone wolf, accustomed to the solitude of his own thoughts. However, Y/N's presence had become a soothing balm to his restless soul. There were times when he caught himself staring at her, a vulnerability in his gaze that betrayed the unspoken depths of his feelings.
Their interactions were laced with a delicate balance, a dance around unexplored territories. A brush of hands during training, a shared moment of laughter by the fireplace â each encounter left an indelible mark on their hearts, pushing them closer to a truth neither was ready to confront.
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The battle with the Sentinels unfolded in a crescendo of chaos and destruction. The ominous hum of their massive metal bodies echoed through the war-torn landscape as the mutants of the Xavier Institute rallied to fend off the relentless onslaught.
The sky crackled with energy as Storm unleashed her powers, attempting to create a barrier against the relentless advance of the towering machines. Colossus, his metallic form glinting in the harsh light, clashed with the Sentinels in a display of brute strength. Cyclops fired optic blasts with precision, desperately trying to hold the line.
Amidst the chaos, Logan moved like a feral blur, his adamantium claws slicing through the mechanical monstrosities with unmatched ferocity. The air was filled with the acrid scent of burning metal and the distant cries of mutants in peril.
Y/N fought valiantly alongside the team, her powers contributing to the defense, but the fear of being overshadowed by the more powerful mutants gnawed at her. In the midst of the mayhem, she kept glancing towards Logan, seeking reassurance, but his attention was consumed by the battle.
As the Sentinels closed in, a momentary distraction led to a tragic turn of events. Y/N found herself isolated for a brief second, and in that moment of vulnerability, a Sentinel seized the opportunity. A deafening scream pierced the air as Y/N was ensnared in its metallic grip.
Logan, several yards away, sensed the danger too late. His instincts kicked in, and he sprinted towards Y/N with an urgency that defied the chaos around him. With a primal roar, he lunged at the Sentinel, claws slashing through its armored exterior. The metallic giant released its grip, but the damage was done.
Time seemed to slow as Y/N crumpled to the ground, Logan catching her in his arms. The battle raged on, but in that harrowing moment, everything faded into the background. Logan's heart pounded as he held Y/N, the world collapsing around them as her life slipped away.
Logan's world shattered as he held Y/N's lifeless form in his arms. Time seemed to freeze, and the chaos of the battle faded into a distant murmur. The weight of grief pressed down on him like an unrelenting force, threatening to consume him whole.
In that agonizing moment, Logan's senses, normally keen and alert, dulled to the outside world. The smell of burning metal, the distant clashes of mutant powers, and the acrid taste of despair in the air became distant echoes. All that remained was the profound silence that accompanied Y/N's departure from the living.
Logan's heart, usually a steady rhythm amidst the storm, now pounded with a raw, aching intensity. His hands trembled as he cradled Y/N's lifeless body, unable to comprehend the reality of her absence. The world around him blurred, and tears â a rare expression of vulnerability â welled up in his eyes.
Regret and guilt gnawed at Logan's soul. If only he had been quicker, more vigilant. If only he had protected her better. The weight of responsibility bore down on him, and he couldn't shake the feeling that he had failed the one person who had silently meant more to him than he had ever admitted.
A guttural, primal scream tore from Logan's throat, reverberating through the battlefield. It was a scream of anguish, of a grief so profound that it echoed the depths of his soul. In that moment, the Wolverine, known for his stoic demeanor and unyielding strength, crumbled under the weight of loss.
As Logan clung to Y/N's lifeless body, the reality of her absence sank in, leaving him stranded in a sea of sorrow. The battlefield continued to rage around him, but in his world, everything had come to a standstill. The connection he had shared with Y/N, the unspoken bond that had grown between them, was now a painful void that threatened to engulf him entirely.
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ahhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!! this made my heart break :,( i just wanna give him a real big hug now
Part II Part III
Requested by Anon!!!
Logan Howlett x fem!Reader
She/Her pronouns used
Summary: On two separate occasions, both Y/N and Logan find jealousy within their friendship.
Y/N couldn't shake the feeling of unease that crept up whenever she saw Logan and Jean together. Jean Grey, with her fiery red hair and telepathic abilities, had a magnetic presence that drew people in â including Logan. Y/N had always considered Logan a close friend, but the way he and Jean interacted left her grappling with an unfamiliar emotion: jealousy.
One day, the three of them found themselves in the mansion's kitchen, preparing a meal together. As they chopped vegetables and exchanged banter, Y/N couldn't help but notice the way Logan's eyes lingered on Jean. The easy camaraderie between them felt like a barrier, and Y/N struggled to find her place in their dynamic.
"What do you think, Y/N?" Jean asked, breaking into Y/N's thoughts.
"Huh? Oh, yeah, sounds good," Y/N replied, forcing a smile. She busied herself with the task at hand, trying to push away the irrational feeling of jealousy that clawed at her insides.
Logan noticed her distant expression and furrowed his brow. "Somethin' on your mind, kid?"
Y/N hesitated, then decided to be honest. "It's just⊠I sometimes feel like I'm the third wheel when you two are together."
Logan glanced at Jean, then back at Y/N, a hint of realization in his eyes. "We're just friends, Y/N. You know that, right?"
Y/N nodded, but the knot of jealousy persisted. It wasn't about doubting their friendship; it was about grappling with a longing she couldn't quite put into words. As days passed, the tension lingered, and Y/N found herself withdrawing, avoiding situations where she might witness Logan and Jean's closeness.
One evening, Y/N sat alone in the garden, contemplating her feelings. Storm, sensing her distress, approached and took a seat beside her. "You seem troubled, Y/N. Care to share?"
Y/N sighed, looking up at the stars. "I don't know, Storm. It's just⊠Logan and Jean, they have this connection. I can't help feeling like I'm on the outside."
Storm placed a comforting hand on Y/N's shoulder. "Sometimes, we create our own barriers. Have you talked to Logan about how you feel?"
Y/N shook her head. "I don't want to cause any problems. They're happy together, and I'm just the friend."
Storm smiled gently. "Communication is the key. You may be surprised at what you find."
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Logan clenched his jaw as he watched Y/N and Hank engage in a lively conversation across the lab. The two shared a camaraderie that went beyond mere friendship, and it left a bitter taste in Logan's mouth. He had never been one to easily admit his feelings, especially when it came to matters of the heart, but the sight of Y/N and Hank together stirred a deep-seated jealousy within him.
It wasn't that Logan doubted Y/N's friendship or loyalty. Hank was a brilliant scientist, and they often found common ground in their discussions about mutations and experiments. Yet, there was an intimacy in the way Y/N laughed at Hank's jokes and the ease with which they collaborated on various projects that struck a nerve with Logan.
One evening, as the sun dipped below the horizon, casting long shadows across the Xavier Institute, Logan found himself nursing a drink at the mansion's makeshift bar. Y/N and Hank were engrossed in a lively debate in the corner, their laughter rising above the low hum of conversations.
Storm, sensing Logan's unease, joined him at the bar. "Something on your mind, Logan?" she asked, her keen eyes noting the tension in his posture.
Logan grunted, taking a swig of his drink. "Just ain't sittin' right with me, that's all."
Storm followed his gaze to where Y/N and Hank were still deep in conversation. "Y/N values her connections with all of us. Hank is a friend, nothing more."
Logan's gaze hardened, his knuckles white around the glass. "I know that, Storm. It's justâŠdamn it, I can't help feelin' like I'm playin' second fiddle to that furball."
Storm raised an eyebrow, her expression softening. "Jealousy, Logan?"
He scoffed, avoiding eye contact. "Ain't my style."
But Storm saw through the facade. "Maybe it's time to talk to Y/N. Let her know how you feel. Communication can clear the air, my friend."
Logan grunted again, mulling over Storm's words. As the night wore on, the tension between him and Hank remained unspoken, simmering beneath the surface. Little did Logan know that the impending tragedy on the horizon would soon force him to confront his feelings, revealing the depth of his emotions in a way he had never anticipated.
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second part should be out tomorrow!! thank you again to the Anon that requested this đ i hope you don't mind that i'm including both of the requests into one fic!
Dean Winchester x Reader
Summary: Dean and the reader are baking Christmas treats at the bunker while Sam is on a hunt. Amidst the festive chaos, Dean cracks an egg on the reader's head, leading to a playful flour fight. Dean then picks the reader up over his shoulder, and they share a laughter-filled moment. Sam returns, finding the kitchen in disarray, and discovers Dean and the reader surrounded by flour and baking ingredients. The messy holiday surprise becomes a memorable Christmas memory for the Winchester trio.
Sam Winchester x Reader
Summary: Sam Winchester surprises the reader with a heartfelt gift and invites them to share a quiet and cozy night together away from hunting. The two exchange stories, laughter, and meaningful glances. As snow falls outside, they find a moment of respite and connection, sealed with a sweet kiss under the mistletoe.
Castiel Novak x Reader
Summary: Castiel experiences Christmas traditions for the first time with the Winchester brothers and the reader. As they decorate the tree and exchange gifts, Castiel learns about the holiday spirit. The story culminates in a magical moment under the mistletoe, where Castiel and the reader share a sweet kiss, making it a Christmas to remember for everyone involved.
Jack Kline x Reader
Summary: As the holiday season wraps its magic around the bunker, Jack Kline finds himself intrigued by the mysterious allure of mistletoe. Little does he know that this Christmas will bring about more than just festive decorations.
Rowena MacLeod x Reader
Summary: Rowena, the enchanting witch, confesses to the reader that the holiday season has awakened new emotions within her. The two share a magical moment, culminating in a kiss that transcends the ordinary. As they celebrate the festive season together, they discover the unexpected joy of love in the midst of holiday magic.
Logan/James Howlett x Reader
Summary: Y/N buys a gift for Logan, but he isn't too keen on receiving it.
we all know Logan would be a grinch during the holidays! also, i know this one is a bit short but i kinda rushed it-
Logan/James Howlett x Reader
No pronouns used!!
Summary: Y/N buys a gift for Logan, but he isn't too keen on receiving it.
Christmas morning at the X-Mansion was filled with festive decorations, laughter, and the scent of holiday treats wafting through the halls. However, Logan Howlett, known as Wolverine, wasn't a fan of the decorations. He grumbled to himself as he wandered through the festively adorned hallways, muttering about the unnecessary fuss.
Meanwhile, you had just woken up and decided to seek out Logan. Holding a nicely wrapped gift in your hand, you ventured through the mansion until you found him, scowling at a wreath hanging on the wall.
"Hey, Logan," you greeted, a soft smile on your face. "Merry Christmas."
"I told you not to get me anything," Logan grumbled without turning around, continuing his walk down the hallway.
You followed him, hurt by his dismissive tone. "Please, just take it. Whether you open it or not is up to you."
Hesitantly, Logan accepted the gift, looking down at it with a raised eyebrow.
"I know you said not to get you anything, but⊠no one else got you anything, and I didn't think it was fair," you explained, your voice quiet as you stared at the ground.
After a few moments of contemplation, Logan started tearing the paper. Your excitement grew as he unveiled a black leather jacket with two yellow stripes on each arm, reminiscent of his old one that he had lost a while back.
"I know you loved that jacket, so Iâ" you began, but Logan unexpectedly cut you off by hugging you. The shock quickly gave way to happiness as you hugged him back.
"You had to be the good one, huh?" Logan said, a rare warmth in his voice as he pulled away slightly.
"What can I say? It's my specialty," you joked, still hugging him with a large smile.
In the end, Logan couldn't resist your enthusiasm about the gift. As you continued excitedly talking about it, he kissed you, a way to shut you up but also an acknowledgment of the gratitude and affection he felt in that moment. The unexpected Christmas gift had managed to thaw the gruff exterior of Wolverine, leaving both of you with a holiday memory to cherish.
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i couldn't resist writing a christmas story for him!
i may be in my logan howlett era right now, but it's fine! just means some nice little fics for my fav X-Man!
Logan/James Howlett x Reader
They/them pronouns used!!
Summary: While on a mission with Logan, Y/N gets seriously hurt, leading to them being in the medical bay for several days as Hank helps them recover. Although Y/N and Logan had never gotten along, Y/N is surprised when Logan sticks by their side throughout their entire recovery. This ends in a heartfelt, sweet and loving kiss shared by the two!
Logan Howlett, better known as Wolverine, grumbled under his breath as he and Y/N made their way through the dense forest. The tension between them was palpable, and it seemed like sparks could fly any moment. They had despised each other from day one, an inexplicable clash of personalities that neither could overcome.
Little did they know, a deeper connection existed beneath the surface. Y/N had a mutant ability akin to Charles Xavier's, but instead of delving into the thoughts of others, they could sense emotions. Logan, however, had mastered the art of keeping his feelings locked away, a shield that even Y/N couldn't penetrate.
The mission they were on required stealth and precision, a trait Logan excelled in. He led the way, his adamantium claws unsheathed, eyes scanning the surroundings with uncanny precision. Y/N followed, their senses alert but wary of the man they begrudgingly worked alongside.
As they moved deeper into the mission, the unexpected happened. A sudden ambush from an unforeseen enemy left Y/N injured and struggling. Logan's fierce protective instincts kicked in, and he fought with a newfound intensity to ensure Y/N's safety. In the midst of the chaos, a blade grazed Y/N's side, leaving them incapacitated.
The pain hit Y/N like a tidal wave, and Logan's gruff voice called out their name in concern. The world around them blurred as consciousness slipped away.
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When Y/N awoke, the sterile scent of the X-Men's medical facility filled their senses. The pain in their side was dulled, thanks to the advanced healing technology. Blinking against the harsh lights, they groggily turned their head to find Logan sitting nearby, his expression etched with worry.
"Finally awake, huh?" Logan's tone was gruff, but Y/N caught a glimmer of concern in his eyes.
"What happened?" Y/N asked, feigning ignorance to the emotions swirling around them.
Logan hesitated, his usual tough exterior momentarily softened. "You got yourself hurt. It was touch and go for a bit, but Hank patched you up."
Despite the pain, Y/N couldn't help but notice the sincerity in Logan's voice. Their ability to sense emotions hinted at something more, something beyond the animosity that had defined their relationship.
"You were worried about me," Y/N stated, almost as if testing the waters.
Logan grunted, looking away as if annoyed by the revelation. "Don't get used to it. I just didn't want to babysit a rookie."
Y/N smirked, realizing that perhaps there was more to Logan Howlett than met the eye. As they lay in the medical bay, recovering from their injuries, the unspoken connection between them began to unravel. Maybe, just maybe, beneath the layers of resentment, there was a flicker of something elseâan understanding that transcended words.
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The days in the medical bay blurred together for Y/N. Their injuries were healing, but what surprised them even more was Logan's constant presence. He would leave only to return with food, grumbling about the lack of decent grub around the X-Mansion. As much as Logan tried to maintain his tough exterior, there was an unspoken tenderness in the way he cared for Y/N.
As Y/N lay on the medical bay bed on the third day, a subtle shift in the air caught their attention. It wasn't the usual mix of irritation and restraint that emanated from Logan. Instead, an overwhelming sense of love and concern filled the room. Y/N furrowed their brow, confused by this unexpected surge of emotion.
Logan entered the room, carrying a tray of food. His eyes met Y/N's, and for a moment, the gruff exterior wavered. It was as if a floodgate had opened, allowing Y/N to sense the depth of Logan's emotions.
"What's with the sudden outpouring of affection, Howlett?" Y/N teased, trying to hide the vulnerability that was bubbling up within them.
Logan scowled, seemingly caught off guard by the question. "I ain't showin' affection. Just making sure you don't die on us."
Y/N chuckled, but there was a knowing glint in their eyes. "You can't fool me, Logan. I can feel it, you know. The concern, the⊠love."
Logan's expression tightened, and he looked away. The barrier he had meticulously built around his emotions had crumbled, and there was no denying the truth anymore.
"I don't do this mushy crap," Logan grumbled, but his voice lacked the usual conviction.
Y/N sat up, a determination in their eyes. "Logan, you can't hide from me anymore. I can feel what you're feeling, and it's okay. More than okay."
Logan sighed, a rare vulnerability surfacing in his gaze. "Damn it, kid. You're messin' with my head."
Y/N reached out, gently cupping Logan's face. "Maybe it's time we stop fighting each other and admit what's been staring us in the face all along."
Logan's defenses crumbled further as Y/N closed the distance between them. Their lips met in a sweet, lingering kiss, a silent acknowledgment of the emotions that had been hidden for too long. In that moment, the unspoken bond between them deepened, transcending the animosity that had defined their relationship.
As they pulled away, Logan's gruff exterior softened, and Y/N couldn't help but smile. Sometimes, it took a brush with vulnerability to uncover the hidden truths. Love had a way of breaking through even the toughest of walls, and for Logan and Y/N, it was the beginning of a new chapterâone filled with understanding, acceptance, and a love that had finally been acknowledged.
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i'm pretty sure i'm in love with him.... but that's okay! also, i love how Logan is also an Albertan đđȘ
A Spell Gone Awry:
Summary: In "A Spell Gone Awry," the reader finds themselves at the Sanctum Sanctorum seeking help from Doctor Stephen Strange after a magical mishap. Despite Stephen's initial annoyance, he agrees to assist the reader in fixing the botched spell. As they work together, their relationship deepens, and the initial annoyance transforms into affection. The story is a blend of magical mishaps, romance, and personal growth, culminating in a heartwarming moment that highlights the power of love and support in the face of challenges.
The Bed Argument - Part I:
Summary: Stephen and the reader themselves in Ireland on a mission, where their constant bickering and clashing personalities have become a prominent feature of their interactions. Exhausted and in need of rest, they book a hotel room with only one bed. The story revolves around their argument about who should take the bed, with both of them adamantly refusing to sleep on the floor. After a heated exchange, they reluctantly agree to share the bed but remain distant from each other. As they lie side by side, their tension gradually subsides, and they begin to find a new understanding between them. The story ends with a subtle shift in their relationship, suggesting the possibility of change and a truce.
The Bed Argument - Part II:
Summary: Stephen and the reader wake up in a compromising position with Stephen's arm draped over Y/N. After Stephen apologizes profusely, Y/N becomes fed up with his constant apologies and decides to take matters into their own hands. They share an unexpected and sweet kiss that marks a shift in their relationship.
The Bed Argument - Part III:
Summary : Stephen and Y/N return to the Sanctum Sanctorum in New York after their mission in Ireland. The awkwardness between them has transformed into a newfound understanding, and a deeper connection is forged through shared vulnerabilities and complementary strengths. The rooftop of the Sanctum becomes a sanctuary for shared moments, and Stephen and Y/N find themselves acknowledging the evolving nature of their relationship. As they watch the city below, hand in hand, they recognize the magic in the unexpected, embracing change and the unspoken promises that come with it.
A Hearts Misunderstanding:
Summary: The reader, accompanied by their best friend Thor, visits the grand realm of Asgard. Little do they know, Loki, the enigmatic prince of Asgard, has always had a not-so-secret crush on the reader, who had been rather rude to him in the past. As Thor shows the reader around and makes them laugh, Loki's jealousy reaches its breaking point, leading to a heated argument. In a burst of anger, Loki confesses his feelings, leaving the reader surprised and speechless.
Unforeseen Love:
Summary: While on a mission with Logan, Y/N gets seriously hurt, leading to them being in the medical bay for several days as Hank helps them recover. Although Y/N and Logan had never gotten along, Y/N is surprised when Logan sticks by their side throughout their entire recovery. This ends in a heartfelt, sweet and loving kiss shared by the two!
The Grinchy Christmas Surprise:
Summary: Y/N buys a gift for Logan, but he isn't too keen on receiving it.
the Logan x reader was very nice! can u do one where they kiss?
Logan Howlett X GN!Reader
(warning, because it wasn't stated, I did make this angst, so be prepared for that)
You were packing when he found you.
Your bag was half-zipped, clothes shoved inside without care. The mission was over. The damage was done. You werenât staying at the mansionânot after what happened. Not after what they lost.
Not after what you lost.
Logan stood in the doorway, silent for a long time.
âYou donât have to run,â he finally said.
You didnât look at him. âIâm not running. Iâm leaving.â
âThatâs what running is.â
You zipped the bag all the way and threw your jacket over your shoulder. âNot everyone can heal from everything, Logan.â
That made him flinch, just barely. But you saw it.
âI know,â he said quietly. âI know youâre hurt.â
You turned, finally facing him, and godâyou hated how tired he looked. Like he hadnât slept since the explosion. Like he hadnât stopped blaming himself since the moment you pulled yourself out of the rubble with blood on your hands and someone elseâs name on your lips.
âYou werenât the one who died,â you whispered. âBut you act like you were.â
âBecause it shouldâve been me.â
That stopped you cold.
His eyes locked with yoursâhaunted, full of all the things he never said.
âIâve lost people,â he rasped, voice breaking. âMore than I can count. But watching you walk out that door? Thatâs a different kind of hell.â
Your fingers clenched around your jacket.
âDonât do this now,â you said. âNot when Iâm finally strong enough to leave.â
âI shouldâve told you sooner,â he said, stepping forward. âI shouldâve told you when we had time.â
Your throat tightened. âBut you didnât.â
Silence.
Then, like it was the only thing that made sense, he reached for youâslow, gentle. His hand cradled your face, calloused thumb brushing your cheek. And you didnât stop him.
You couldnât stop him.
The kiss was desperate. Not soft. Not romantic. It was years of grief, guilt, longing, and what-ifs poured into one stolen moment neither of you had the right to ask for.
When it broke, you rested your forehead against his, both of you breathing like you were drowning.
âI loved you,â you whispered.
âI still do,â he said.
And then you stepped back, picked up your bag, and walked outâbecause love wasnât always enough, and this time?
It was too late.
You walked out.
You had to.
But the moment the mansion's front doors shut behind you, the cold hit harder than it shouldâve. Not just the weatherâLoganâs absence clung to you like fog, sinking deep into your lungs.
The kiss still burned on your lips. Not gentle, not sweetâbut real. And it lingered.
You didnât look back. Not when you stepped into the snow. Not when the trees swallowed you whole.
But Logan did.
He stood at the window long after your silhouette vanished behind the white, jaw clenched like he could hold the pain in his teeth.
âIâm not gonna chase you,â he muttered to himself. âYou said you needed space. Youâll get it.â
His hands curled into fists.
âBut Iâm not done.â
He turned away from the window, jaw set.
He didnât know how, and he didnât know when, but he would see you again.
Because some people you fight forâquietly, steadily, without a deadline.
And some loves donât end at goodbye.
They wait.
Omfg this is SO GOOD JESUS CHRIST
Pairing: Logan Howlett ("Worst" Wolverine) x f!reader
Rating: Explicit (for themes and smut).
Word count: 16.6k
Summary: At the edge of the world, someone from another keeps you from stepping off.
Tags/Warnings (Please, read the warnings!!): Post-Deadpool & Wolverine, female reader (female anatomy etc + 2 mentions of hair long enough to fall into your eyes), strangers-to-lovers, depression, suicidal ideations, suicide attempt and mentions thereof, addiction, drinking alcohol, drugs (mentioned not used), panic attacks, sobriety meetings, anxiety, recovery, co-dependency vibes, sprinkles of soulmateism, explicit smut (oral and unprotected PIV), happy ending (yay!!). If I forgot anything, please let me know!
Notes: Deadpool and Wolverine re-triggered my X-Men obsession and what started as a means to write some smut actually became this idea about two broken people who shouldn't even have met in the first place finding each other. There's a lot of me in this story, more than there's ever been I think. I'm sorry for this glimpse into my head, and I'm sorry if this isn't as Reader-insert as it should be, but... I'm not that sorry, you know. Huge thanks to @javier-pena , for not only reading this over and fixing so many embarrassing mistakes, but also for saying she'd read this even if it was 20k words and always believing in my abilities as a writer, even when I sometimes didn't.
If you want to read the smut as a standalone, you can! Just CTRL + F (or search in page) for 'Logan reaches for' and read away.
THE LOOKOUT
With closed eyes, you inhale the cool, December air, before looking down at your feet. Here, at the edge of the lookout, the grass has been trampled. You imagine friends taking bets on who dares get closest to the edge, lovers making memories, families taking pictures. Itâs strangely soothing that maybe youâre not the first to stand here to do this.Â
Far below your feet, the water laps at the rocks. The force of it depends on the weather and tonight itâs violent, with big splashes and crashing sounds. The wind tugs at your coat, pulling you towards the water as if to help you along, making you look up again as you hold your balance. In front of you, the line of the horizon is dark but visible â it would have been impossible to make out if the moon hadnât been as bright as it is.
Itâs like youâre looking at the edge of the world.
During the weeks that fall had made way for winter, you scoped the place out a couple times. The first time you stood at this cliffâs edge, the place it took you to mentally scared you so much that you got back into your car and broke down in tears. The next couple times, things became more and more serious, as your life crumbled around you, and your feelings numbed, and nothing seemed to matter anymore.
Something had crept in while you werenât looking, settling somewhere behind your eyes and spreading out to make a home behind your ribs, slowly but surely changing you. And once you realized it, it was already too late. It had grown large, became jilted and jealous, like it wanted all of you. It pushed away everyone and everything you held dear, until it was just you and that⊠something.
Especially during the quiet of the night, the lookout became soothing, a strange sense of familiarity enveloping you each time you were here. It was addictive and pretty soon, it became a daily routine to visit. But lately itâs been losing its shine, your feelings here dulling and darkening too. Youâre exhausted, fed up, tired of giving it more of you.
Today you want it to be your last time here.Â
Youâve had countless hours to contemplate what it would be like, imagined â all but romanticised â how the cold water would paralyse your limbs if the impact wouldn't do the trick. You read somewhere that itâs apparently like falling asleep when the water finally fills your lungs. Youâll be gone, but the thing will be too.
The thought makes your eyes fill with tears, but not from fear. All you feel is relief, like itâs right, how itâs supposed to be. It makes you smile despite everything, andâ
âHey, stop!â
A voice behind you thunders through the silence and makes you shriek into the night, dirt toppling over the edge of the lookout below the shuffle of your foot. A string of curses follows, heavy footfalls behind you indicating that the intruder is approaching you.
âFuck off!â you throw over your shoulder, your voice a roar with how itâs amplified by the wind.Â
After, your throat closes up, fighting the angry tears over the fact that you canât even fucking kill yourself in peace. Never have you seen anyone here at night, never. What you hate even more is how it breaks your momentum. The haze that was surrounding you is pierced, and your bodyâs baser instincts kick in. Adrenaline suddenly pumps through your veins, making your legs tremble, your heart hammer, your body scream for you to step back from where youâre standing. Your anger, however, has you nailed to the floor.Â
You almost miss the much softer, âHey,â as a man steps into your peripheral vision. You pretend like you donât hear him, or see him â you simply pretend he isnât there, focussing on getting back into your previous mindset.Â
But then he takes his hands out of his pockets.
âDonât fucking touch me,â you warn, hating how your voice comes out trembling â weak.
âEasy.â He holds his hands up in surrender. âWasnât planning on it.â
You stand there together for what feels like hours. You will yourself to not let it affect you, setting your jaw to keep your teeth from clattering on account of the cold, allow the wind to blow your hair into your eyes without brushing it away. Even when it begins to rain, you donât move, donât blink even once more than you need to. From the corner of your eye you watch the man shove his hands back in the pockets of the brown leather jacket heâs wearing, and you quietly celebrate that your surroundings are fazing him more than they are you.
âYou knowââ he begins.
âIâm not really looking for a conversation.â
âMe neither,â he immediately counters, suddenly impatient, âso Iâll get right to it: You planning on jumping? Because if you think the waterâs gonna be nice to you, youâve got that wrong. Youâll end up in there feeling everything, that fall isnât gonna do shit.â
Having expected a gentle approach, his bluntness and his tone knock the wind out of you. You cock your jaw, the shame creeping up your body the first bit of warmth youâve felt in a while. Your cold fingers ball to fists as you will yourself not to care. Yes, his words and the way he's shatterĂng your expectations with them sting, but you donât even know this guyâ
âAnd thereâs nothing fuckinâ peaceful about it, itâs just panic. Right before you go too farâŠâ He raises a fist and holds it against the center of his chest, â...thereâs this burning right here thatâs hell.â
âAnd what makes you such an expert?â you finally spit out.
âDied like that a couple times,â he says without waiting a beat.
The casual statement of something so bizarre beats your resolve before you know it, your head turning in his direction. ââA couple timesâ?â
âI, uhâŠâ You watch him hesitate, the moonlight illuminating the tick of his jaw, the bob of his throat as he swallows, the way his chest falls as he sighs, âLetâs just say I canât die.â
Before you can stop yourself, you snort at that. âThat must fucking suck.â
He barks out a laugh, âGot that right.â It startles you when his head suddenly turns to you, when he looks you in the eye for the first time. âBut trust me, being down there isnât much better.â
Thereâs something in the way he looks at you that makes you waver. You canât really place it, or decipher why it makes you want to open up to him. Maybe itâs because youâre freezing and itâs your body betraying you, tricking you into moving so you can generate some warmth, moving your lips to keep them from going blue. Or maybe itâs simply because heâs a stranger and itâs so much easier to be honest when there are no consequences.
âThings just feel soâŠ,â you begin, voice shaky. Every possible way to end the sentence crosses your mind, seemingly all wrong, before you settle on whatâs closest to how you feel, âendless.â
To your relief, he doesnât say anything. Doesnât tell you to give it time that it will get better, or any of the other bullshit youâve heard from all the other people that had been in your life and left a long time ago. You do find something else in the shift in his eyes, something you havenât encountered before.
Understanding.
It might be worse. If anything, itâs overwhelming, making your eyes dart away from his as you sniff.Â
The wind still tugs at you, the waves still hit the rocks, but your moment seems to have passed. Itâs a sobering conclusion, a twisted version of wrong place, wrong time. Or maybe it was him who was at the wrong place at the wrong time. Either way, the outcome is the same.
You take a step back, and another, but it takes considerable effort; you hadnât taken your numb legs into consideration. You stumble, falling back on the dewy, cold grass, not quick enough to catch yourself on your hands. With a groan, you move to sit upright.
âShit. Hey, you still with me?â The stranger kneels next to you, fingers lifting your chin to look into your eyes. âJesus, youâre fucking freezing.â
âNo s-sh-hit,â you retort.
He sighs, offering you a hand so he can pull you up. âCâmon, let's get you warmed up.â
â â â â â
Logan.
Thatâs his name.Â
Itâs how he introduced himself, anyway, after he suggested you follow him. To his credit, he did offer to drive you, but you didnât want to leave your car in the parking lot of the lookout. Logan waited 15 minutes for you while you put the blowers on the highest, warmest setting and waited for the feeling to return to your limbs. After, his brown truck led the way here â here being some hole in the wall, 24 hour diner. You could have not followed, but the drive was kind of mesmerizing; the night seemed darker than usual, and Loganâs tail lights served as a lighthouse.
Outside, the diner is all Christmas lights and flashing signs, but the interior is like something straight out of Twin Peaks; booths to the left, red barstools to the right, a girl that looks too pretty and too young to be here standing behind the counter. There were two other patrons you spotted along the way as Logan led you to one of the back booths. Once seated, Logan studied the pamphletsâor pretended to, more like, because as soon as the waitress came up he ordered two whiskeys and nothing else.
Between then and now, as you nursed your drink sip by careful sip, you hadnât learned much more about him other than that he could knock back a glass of whiskey like he got paid to do so. And in truth, you like it this way; preferring silent company, the droning of the machinery behind the counter and the quiet hum of a song on the jukebox next to the entrance. The white noise helps to distract from the white noise in your head. Settling back into the leather cushions of the booth, you let some warmth seep back into your body. Opposite you, Logan does the same.Â
Some moments after you finish your drink, one of the waitresses walks up to your booth to ask you about a refill, like sheâs asked Logan twice now. Youâre handing her the glass when Logan says, âSheâs had enough.â
Your head whips from her to him. âExcuse me?â
He doesnât say anything, and from the corner of your eye, you see the girl leave. With your glass. Loganâs is on his lips, his eyes observing you over the rim, looking at you like heâ Dammit. You sigh deeply, a sense of anger filling you. You donât need this, least of all from him. When you stand from the booth, those eyes follow you, making you voice your observations,
âQuit pitying me, Logan.â
âIâm not,â he says before taking another sip. âYou still have to drive.â
You quirk an eyebrow at him. âAnd you donât?â
Logan shrugs. âItâs different for me.â
Anger is still prevalent in your voice when you ask, âWell, let me guess, itâs another case of âI died like that a couple timesâ?âÂ
He hums.
âAnd how does that work?â
âRegenerative ability,â he sighs. Another sip before he elaborates, âX-Gene.âÂ
The admission makes you plop back down in your seat. Well, that explains things â heâs a mutant. Youâre not familiar with that world, but you know enough to know it meant that. It isnât like you couldnât have deduced it before, but truthfully, you kind of thought he was bullshiting you as part of some tactic. Now, his actions and words make more sense: He really knows what itâs like to... Thatâs why he had that look on his face. Suddenly, you see him in a different lightâ
âNow whoâs pitying who, hmm?â Logan asks, giving you a thin-lipped smile that doesn't reach his eyes as he sets his glass down on the table.
âIâm not, Iâm just⊠processing. So this...â you lift his glass, swirl the contents around, â...doesnât even affect you?â
âIt does. For a few seconds.â He plucks the glass back from your hand, and throws the whiskey back with one gulp. His pupils dilate, pushing the hazel of his irises out until his eyes are almost black for a second, two⊠before going back to normal. âBut if I chugged the bottle, Iâd pass out.â
âWell, so would I,â you say with a chuckle. âSo maybe weâre not that different after all.â
Just as the corner of his mouth lifts, your smile falls, because⊠it isnât true; youâre very different. Youâre pretty sure you donât have what it takes to do what he did tonight. To care enough to do it. To sit with a stranger and hear them bitch and moan about being denied a drink. A feeling creeps up on you, sticky and uncomfortable, like youâve overstayed your welcomeâburdened him.
âI should head home,â you say, standing again.
Lightning fast, Loganâs hand shoots out to close around your wrist. âThat really where youâre going?â
âYes,â you reply. When you pull your hand back, he doesnât let up. You fish your car key out of your pocket with your free hand, voice tighter when you say, âLet me go.â
âJust promise me something,â he says, eyes as dark as theyâd been earlier, yet his drink has gone untouched since. âDonât go back there again.â
âNot making promises I canât keep,â you say, giving him a wry smile. âTo strangers, but least of all to myself.â
He sighs, and lets you pull yourself from his hold.
THE CRAVING
New Years comes and goes, and you quickly discover that it was foolish superstition to think that it might change how you feel.
You find yourself in some club, a drink in each hand. You hate to admit it, but Loganâs words scared you out of your original idea and the only time you can bear to think of how to move on from it is when alcohol soothes the embarrassing grief of your shattered, macabre fantasy. Itâs not a good way to deal with things, but it works.
Thereâs a part of you that welcomes feeling anything at all, but that⊠something inside you is busy trying to squash it.Â
Itâs getting somewhere, because you have no idea how much youâve already had to drink, but youâre buzzing pleasantly. Adding to it, you knock both drinks back, slamming the glasses on the bar before spinning around and facing the crowd of dancing bodies. The music sucks, the dance floor is cramped, youâre tired⊠The truth is that youâre too old for this, but itâs easy to escape here, surrounded by strangers. You clumsily drag the back of your hand over your wet mouth, push your sweaty hair from your eyes, and join them.
The past couple weeks, you found yourself craving something. Contact. And here is where you can get your fill; a hand on your waist, lips on your ear, the music too loud and yourself too drunk to even comprehend whatâs being said, but never more. You want them to get close, but never too close.
After some time â could be an hour, could be 10 minutes â you make your way to the bathroom. Itâs quieter here, the dulled thump of the music making the time you spend there feel slow and syrupy.Â
When you exit the stall, you bump into someone.
Itâs a man. The dark hood over his head obscures his eyes, but you canât help but think heâs looking right at you when a bright, almost unnatural grin appears on his face. It draws you in like a magnet, more so when he says, âNeed something to take the edge off?âÂ
Curiously, you watch as he opens his palm, long fingers unfurling slowly until they reveal a small plastic bag in his hand.Â
âFirst timeâs on the house.â
You have no idea what it is exactly, but your eyes widen. This is new territory for you, and all the possibilities it opens up are suddenly invading your mind. As if on auto-pilot, you reach for the place where you keep your money, the sound of the door opening completely lost on you.
A hand closes around your bicep, pulling you aside with a quick yank of an arm.
âShe isnât interested, pal.âÂ
Itâs another man, who effortlessly tucks you half behind him. Before you can protest beyond an indignant huff, thereâs a sound, like a sword being unsheathed, and you catch a flash of red, and of knives. Frowning, you try to get a better look, but your view is obscured by the manâs shoulder. The hooded man seems undeterred, regarding the weapons with the same sickening grin, before leaving the bathroom, muttering something that you donât understand on the way out. The sword sound returns, the man twists around, andâ
âLogan?â you slur in disbelief.Â
Logan doesnât reply, instead takes hold of your arm again, making you follow him out of the bathroom. There he stops the two of you to murmur something to a woman wearing the same clothes as him, before tugging you along again. Youâre stumbling after him on account of his pace and the iron grip he has on you as he leads you to the back door. He pushes it open with enough force to make the hinges creak, a gust of wind blowing in your face. Itâs a contrast to go from the crowded, sweaty club to the silent, cold back-alley where tall brick walls and employee cars cage you in. You shake your arm and Loganâs grip loosens â another and he lets you go.
âHow did you even findââ You cut yourself off, eyes widening, âOh, my god, are you following me?â
Logan scoffs, narrowing his eyes. âOh, please, do you think I have time to follow you around all day?â
âYouâre here, arenât you? You and your fuckingâŠ,â you gesture wildly into the air at him, âsavior complex.â
âI work here,â he growls. When you give him a look, he adds, âItâs temporary. âSides, me and my savior complex are the reason that creep isnât selling god knows what to you in that bathroom right now!â His voice is a roar, echoing off the walls around you.
âMaybe I wanted that creep to sell god knows what to me in that bathroom,â you say, doing a poor impression of his voice, before turning and walking away from him.
Logan sighs. âWhere are you going?â
âIâm leaving.â
âAnd then what, huh?â
âI donât fucking know, Logan,â you say, twisting around to face him again, arms spread out by your side. âFigure out a new way out of this.â
âYeah? Third timeâs the charm?â
âWhy do you even care, huh? You donât even know me,â you say. Almost immediately, you let out a bitter laugh as your own words hit your ears, a sad realization dawning on you. âBut I guess that makes two of us.â
Itâs not like you expected him to, but he doesnât answer.
âYou know I used to like myself? I used to smile, I used to have friends, I used to be more sober than drunk. But this feeling, it takes⊠everything.â You raise a fist, hold it to the center of your chest. âIt takes everything I love, pushes away everyone I love, including myself. It eats me up, and wants more and more, until Iâm something Iâm not and until Iâm so far away from that version of myself, my old self, that it feels easier to just fuckingââ you pause with a wet gasp for air.
âDestroy yourself,â Logan finishes for you.
Your chest heaves, an unshed tear clings to your lash line. âExactly.â
He takes a step closer to you. âLet me take you home,â he says, voice gentle.Â
You should hate the implications of that gentleness, but you donât. In your drunk state of mind, itâs easier to admit itâs nice that someone understands, that someoneâs there to stop you from going too farâŠÂ
Tomorrow, when some of your pragmatism returns, youâll deny this embarrassing thought ever occurred; if relying on other people worked, it would have worked a long time ago, and you wouldnât be standing here with him. If youâre lucky, you might even forget this entirely, and wake up with a hangover that youâll enjoy a little too much because it feels like a punishmentâ
âWhat about your job?â you ask with a sniff.
Loganâs palm finds the space between your shoulder blades with a gentle push, the warmth of it seeping in through your clothes, and he leads you to his truck. âTheyâll manage without me.â
â â â â â
When you wake, your world is tilted sideways, a blanket is pulled up to your chin and there's a pillow under your head. Theyâre not your own; the blanket is itchy and the pillowâs too small. When you try to move your legs, they stick uncomfortably to the material below them, and you realize youâre on a leather couch. You squint at the light that comes in from a window across from youâ
âMorninâ, sunshine.â
The voice startles you, eyes shifting to focus on the source: A man lying on his front on the floor, chin in his hands as he kicks his feet back and forth in the air.Â
âWish I could say itâs a pleasure, but it hasnât been very pleasurable. Youâve been barfing up the place since the moment you stepped inside. Kept poor Al up all night. Her ears are sensitive,â he adds with a whisper. âBut donât worry, she left about an hour ago.â
âWho are you?â you slur, blinking against the light.
âLogan.â He sighs when you frown. âI know, not how you remember. This is what I look like during the day; blessed with incredible good looks at night and, well,â he gestures at his face thatâs covered in scars, "this, during the day. Bit of a reverse Princess Fiona situationââ
âCut it out, Wade,â comes the sharp protest from next to you. With considerable effort, you turn your head and see the actual Logan, slumped back in a recliner next to the couch, rubbing some sleep out of his eyes while motioning for the other man to go.
âIâll let you two talk.â Wade winks.
Logan stands when Wade does, walking from your field of view. Your head is scrambling to catch up, trying to piece together what happened last night, but only coming up with bits and pieces.
âHow are you feeling?â Logan asks as he makes his way back to you, handing you a glass of water.
You flinch when the front door closes behind Wade with a bang, before taking the glass from Logan and taking a few thankful sips. âLike shit.â
âYeah,â is all he says as he sits back down.
âWhatââ
âYou fell asleep in the car. Didnât know where to take you, figured the couch was the safest place.â
âOhâŠ,â you say, voice small.Â
You try not to think about being so wasted that you had to be carried out of Loganâs car, or about what Wade said earlier about the things that happened as soon as you stepped inside the apartment. During your silence, Loganâs fingers fiddle with the armrest, before his hand balls into a fist, and it unlocks something in your hazy memory.
âI have the weirdest memory of you having⊠a sword?â
You watch as Loganâs lips purse in amusement. His tongue rolls around in his mouth, seemingly contemplating something, before saying, âYou probably saw these.â He holds up his fist, flexing his forearm before three blades shoot from between his knuckles like claws, accompanied by a shing!
âJesus fucking Christ,â you startle, spilling some water on your blanket. Your head spins with your hangover and the bizarity of the situation. If it didnât sound so much like how it did in your memory, you might think you were still drunk.Â
Thereâs so many things you want to ask, your intrigue almost winning out over your hangover until the sharp start of a headache gives you pause. Instead, you take another sip of water before rubbing your temple.
âItâs a story for another time,â Logan says, like he can read your mind, and you want to ask him that, too. His claws retreat, the cuts they leave between his knuckles immediately smoothing over until theyâre gone. âI gotta go check if I still have a job.â
The words make you feel warm all over, the memory of your back-alley conversation coming back in full force. The thought of the things you admitted to him and that you put him in the position that he had to risk his job for you make you feel even warmer, your gaze no doubt laced with embarrassment and worry when you look at him.
ââS not your fault,â Logan assures, standing and fishing his car key from the pocket of his jeans. âYou donât have to rush but um, make sure you close the door behind you on the way out. Gets jammed sometimes.â
âYeah, okay,â you say, watching as he makes his way to the front door.Â
He takes a final glance at you over his shoulder, then leaves, accompanied by a bang.
THE PUZZLE
It takes you a little over a week to muster up the courage to go back. Admittedly, your courage is aided by another, foreign feeling. You donât have a name for it yet, or maybe youâre afraid to call it what it is, but somewhere along the week, you became consumed with the thought that feeling like you did wasnât all there was. That there is something beyond this.Â
Perhaps foreign wasnât the right way to describe it, because it is something youâve felt before â itâs just been long dormant. The last time, it lasted about a month before it all came crashing down, and you swore you wouldnât fall for it again, but you canât help it. The feelingâs too sweet, and the idea that thereâs still some baser instinct willing you to keep fighting for yourself makes you feel like the sun is shining on you.Â
So yeah, maybe youâre just having one of your good weeks, where the thing sleeps â quiet while its presence still simmers. But you figured nowâs your chance to take advantage of its unguarded moment.
Sneaking into the building is surprisingly easy. It helps that it isnât anything fancy. You wanted to forego the humiliation of ringing the bell and him not letting you in, but standing in front of the door now, panting after climbing three flights of stairs, you donât know if this is much better.Â
Just when youâre about to knock, the door swings open. In the opening, Logan has one arm in his jacket, head twisted to watch the other thatâs caught halfway in the sleeve. It takes him almost bumping into you to realize your presence. âShit, sorry.â He steadies himself with a hand on your arm, the touch leaving you as fast as it appeared.
âHi,â you breathe, taking a step back to give him a little more space.
He nods in greeting. âBrings you here?â
It takes you a moment, caught off guard by him skipping over pleasantries and cutting right to the chase, despite your best intentions; itâs not that heâs ever been any different in his interactions with you.
âI came by because I, um, owe you an apology, for my behavior at your workplace and for, you knowâŠ,â you trail off, gesturing at the door.
âBarfing up the place!â comes a shout from inside the apartment.Â
Loganâs eyes close with a sigh, before he steps into the hallway with you and closes the door with a bang.Â
âThat,â you finish sheepishly. âIâm really sorry.â
He nods in acknowledgement.
âI also wanted to ask, um, if you want to come with me to get a coffee. To make it up to you.â
Logan just looks at you, the leather of his jacket creaking as he crosses his thick arms in front of his chest. He raises an eyebrow at you expectantly. You hate how he somehow can see right through you, how he makes you elaborate, and honest.
âI want to quit drinking,â you say, fiddling with the sleeve of your coat. âIt doesnât make me better, and when I donât do it I finally feel a little⊠normal. Maybe coffeeâs technically just as bad, but itâs the only thing thatâs currently acting like⊠like a reverse gateway drink? And I feel like youâre the only person I know that might get that feeling ofââ
âI do,â Logan cuts in, voice softer than before â assuring. His arms drop from where theyâre crossed and he starts making his way to the stairs. âLetâs go.â
â â â â â
You donât know this coffee place, and from the way he looks around and shifts around in a chair that might be a bit too small for him, neither does Logan. Main reason you picked it is because the booths remind you a little too much of a bar â and you like the tall windows. The coffeeâs pretty decent.
âDid they fire you?â you ask, picking at a loose corner of one of the laminated menus before setting it back in its holder.
âBoss commended me for helping a customer, but not so much for leaving before my shift ended,â Logan replies. âGot off with a warning.â
âIâm sorry.â
âSaid that already, and I accepted,â he says. When he takes a sip of the coffee, he winces. âNo need to worry about it anymore, okay? I would do it again.â
You nod, folding your hands around the warm cup in front of you.
âBut, um, Wade hasnât shut up about⊠the incident.â Thereâs a different tone to his voice, like heâs trying to lighten the mood. âHis words.â
âYou know, I kind of get the feeling that Wade doesnât shut up about a lot of things.â It comes out a little meaner than you intend, but it makes Logan laugh and finally slump back in his chair a little.Â
âYouâre a quick study.â
Offering him a short smile in return, you continue with the other real reason you came to see him, before you chicken out. âI also stopped by because I wanted to, uh⊠because I realized I never really⊠I never⊠I never thanked you, for um⊠Andââ
With a shake of his head, Logan sits upright. âYâdonâtââ
To your horror, your eyes brim with tears, âLogan, Iâm supposed to be deadââ
âSo am I,â he counters. He lets the words hang between the two of you for a moment, until you look at him, before he continues, âIâve been where you are. Past it, even.â
You donât know what to say to that, if the lump in your throat will even permit you to speak, but itâs impossible to look away from him. Loganâs gaze is piercing, frown ever present, but itâs not from anger. Instead, itâs like heâs searching for something, the right thing, to say. The silence doesnât bother you; if anything, it makes his words seem more genuine when he does speak,
âI had someone who was annoying enough to not give up on me when I could really use it. If getting a coffee with you thatâs, franklyâŠ,â he makes a face as he pauses, âa horrible excuse for a coffee, helps⊠I can do that. I want to do that.â
The corner of your mouth lifts as you blink away your tears. âWas it Wade?â
Logan lets out a chuckle, and itâs honest â fond. âYeah.â
âFigured,â you say. âHow did you meet him?â
Across from you, Logan stills. You swallow thickly, adjusting yourself in your chair. Itâs an innocent question, but maybe it isnât something heâd like to revisit right now. Loganâs mug squeaks when he grips it tighter, and he looks at you with something like defeatâÂ
It makes you deflate. This must be what you looked like the night you metâŠ
Thereâs no way to have prepared for what he tells you next: That he came from another timeline about three months ago, that he and Wade saved this one from being destroyed and almost got killed in the process, that he has nothing to go back to after the death of his team, so he stayed here.Â
Thereâs hesitation in it, like he isnât telling you the whole story, though you donât comment on it. He doesnât owe you anything and youâre too busy putting all the pieces in the Logan-shaped puzzle in your mind together; his words and actions towards you are starting to make more and more sense.
âItâs a very brave thing the two of you did,â you say when heâs finished.
âHmm, it was all Wade,â Logan muses. âHe did it all for the people he cares about.â
âIâm sure you would have done the same if you were in his place.â
At that, he lets out a dry laugh with absolutely no joy behind it. âDo me a favor, donât put me on a pedestal.â
You frown, but before you can comment, he stands. A knot forms in your stomach, worried youâve offended him, but he clears up the uncertainty immediately.
âI gotta go but um, Wadeâs friendsâ,â he stops himself, correcting, âour friends are coming over to watch a movie, next week, 7:30. I have no idea what crap theyâre going to be watching but⊠itâs nice. Itâll be nice to be around good people.â Logan doesnât wait for your answer, simply takes his wallet from his pocket and leaves enough money to cover the bill.
âWait, no, I invited you,â you protest. âI shouldââ
âYou can pay next time.âÂ
When you nod, he says his goodbyes with a jerk of his head and makes his way to the door.
â â â â â
You see Logan two more times for coffee that week. He never lets you pay.
THE PANTRY
ââbut itâs the best one!â Wade protests, DVD in hand.
âThey fly a car into space, Wade,â Laura sighs.
âLaunched off a jet,â he corrects. Like it helps.
You cover your mouth with the back of your hand, hiding the smile that appears at everyoneâs babbling. Unbeknownst to you, you had found yourself invited to a double feature night, with Wade as the self proclaimed DVDJ. The credits had barely started rolling on A Good Day To Die Hard, or Wade had another DVD at the ready. It was met with the same amount of enthusiasm as when he presented the first.
It hadnât been easy to make yourself go to this tonight. On your way, youâd thought of turning around at almost every step. Of course, that was all before you knew it would be this fun, and that youâd be relieved you hadnât canceled last minute. Even meeting everyone hadnât been as bad as you feared.Â
Thereâs Peter, Wadeâs friend. Ellie, another one of Wadeâs friends. Yukio, Ellieâs girlfriend. Laura, Loganâs daughter. Mary Puppins, Wadeâs small, disgusting but adorable dog, who had greeted you with equal amounts saliva and enthusiasm, before falling asleep next to the TV, completely unbothered by the commotion. Unlike Althea, Logan and Wadeâs blind roommate, who had taken one listen to the gaggle of voices and left. The elusive Vanessa, Wadeâs ex-but-we-might-get-back-together you heard about a couple times, wasnât there.
Logan had been right, it was nice to be surrounded by good people. Especially good people who were⊠unconventional. It made joining them less complicated, less performative, and as the evening progressed it made you a participant instead of a silent observer. Wade even called you, âgood for the group dynamic,â and it made you beam with pride.
âDonât they have like, rockets attached to the car?â Ellie questions, to which Yukioâs eyebrows knit together.
âExactly!â Wade exclaims, mistaking her confusion for enthusiasm. âCitizen Kane wishes.â
Thereâs more grumbling from everyone when Wade pops the DVD into the player, and he grumbles something back about how Logan would back him up if he wasnât in the bathroom because he, quote unquote, goes way back with some of these dudes.
Youâre pretty sure heâs the only one who knows what heâs even talking about.
An empty bowl of popcorn rests in your lap, and as you put it on the table, you notice how sticky and greasy your fingers and palms are. When the opening credits begin to roll, you get up to wash your hands, assuring Wade he doesnât need to pause the movie before you go.
The apartmentâs small, so it isnât far to the kitchen, but itâs nice to stretch your legs. You can still hear the sounds from movie night; tell-tale action movie music, comments of disbelief and Wade shutting them down. Theyâre more faint, though, more so when you turn the tap on and wash your hands.
Right as youâre finished, you hear a dull thud. You turn the water off, head tilted and at attention while you dry your hands. Thereâs another sound, like a muffled groan. Itâs coming from the pantry, you realize, noting that the door is slightly ajar. Thereâs a shing! sound followed by a distressed grunt, and before you know it youâre walking over, wrapping your fingers around the door to pull it openâ
Youâre not sure what it was you were expecting, but it wasnât this. Loganâs sitting on the floor, uncharacteristically small, curled up against one of the walls. His chest is heaving, shoulders all but going up to his ears with how heâs trying to draw in breaths. Next to him, his fist is balled against the hardwood, claws buried in the floor.
Fuck.
Dropping to your knees, you wedge yourself between his. âItâs okay, youâre having a panic attack,â you explain, your hands landing on his shoulders with a light shake. âYou need to breathe. Iâll help you, just look at me.â
Loganâs head stays tipped down, a deep, rattling breath sailing from his mouth as he curls further in on himself.
âHey!â you say sharply, cupping his jaw with two hands and tilting his face up, âLook at me.âÂ
Loganâs eyes are wet when they meet yours, moving frantically as they search your face, tears spilling over when he blinks. Something changes in his gaze, like he finally sees itâs you, and his bottom lip begins to tremble. His hand lifts from where itâs buried in the floor, clutching onto your wrist like a lifeline.
âBreathe,â you instruct, trying not to flinch at the sharp claws in front of you. He doesnât catch on immediately, so you overdo the purse of your lips when you blow out a breath before exaggerating an inhale through your nose, showing him what to do. It starts off shaky, a fresh set of tears falling from Loganâs eyes as he does as you instruct, but after a couple of times you find a rhythm together. The silver between his knuckles slowly disappears. âThere you go, good job. Keep going.â
You sit like that, until the wild shift of his eyes stops, his pulse steadies beneath your fingertips, and eventually his eyes close with a deep exhale. His grip on you loosens and you take it as your cue to let go of him, slumping back against the wall opposite him with a sigh of relief. The both of you catch your breath, sitting together in silence until Logan breaks it.
âCame outta nowhere⊠suddenly I was back there⊠letting them down.â
âIt caught you off guard, it happensââ
âI let them get killed,â he says, voice raw. âThey were likeâ They were my family, they trusted me to be there for them and I⊠I was too caught up in my own bullshit. I should have been with them, I should be dead with them.â
Loganâs tears still come, but the words almost sound reverent; as if saying them out loud just to punish himself with his own shortcomings is a balm. Heâs talking about his team from there, you realize, and something clicks. All this time, you thought this was about him being unable to die due to his mutation, but itâs more than that. Itâs shame, remorse, grief, survivorâs guilt, all wrapped into one.
Itâs the final piece of your mind puzzle that makes his picture appear.
âHowâ How can I ever atone for that?â he asks. âHow can I everââ
âLogan, you can't change your past,â you interrupt carefully. âYou made your choices and they made theirs, and you honored them byâ byâŠstepping up to the task, by doing what you did with Wade.â
âWhat if it wasnât enough?â
âWhat if it was?â you counter. Your hand finds his knee with a squeeze, before adding, âYou did what they would have done. And now you⊠you need to allow yourself to honor their memory without feeling like you have to destroy yourself to do it. You deserve that.â
Logan blinks at you, eyes still glossy. He looks devastated yet calmer than before, like the emotion is still there, but displaced. For a good while, you sit with him like that while his sniffles lessen and his breathing returns to normal⊠until thereâs a loud explosion coming from the living room. Itâs followed by cheers and hollers, and youâre both suddenly reminded of where you are.Â
âCâmon,â you say, patting Loganâs knee before using it as leverage to haul yourself up with a groan. You give him room by holding the door open for him. âBetter get back before we miss the good stuff.â
Still on the floor, Logan exhales heavily. âThink this was the good stuff.â
â â â â â
Three weeks later, on your way to your third movie night, you catch Wade and Vanessa making out in the building hallway.Â
It stops you dead in your tracks and makes for an awkward meeting with Wadeâs mystery woman, who is beautiful but very direct when she asks you what the fuck youâre staring at. Wade certainly has a type when it comes to the company he keeps⊠He quickly shushes the situation, introducing the two of you, and it immediately makes Vanessaâs expression twist into recognition.Â
âNice to meet you,â she says, followed by an apologetic smile.Â
You respond in kind.Â
When Wade tugs at her jacket impatiently, they brush past you and make their way to the exit. âSee you around!â she throws over her shoulder.
A grin forms on your lips, realizing what you just witnessed, and you race up the stairs. With Wade gone, youâre not sure if there will be a movie, but at least you have gossip to share with your friends.
THE MEETING
April flies by, rolls into May, and thingâs are⊠okay.
With some help, you find a therapist. Itâs good, sheâs good, but itâs difficult to be confronted with things that are painful, week after week, and to keep reminding yourself itâs all part of the process youâre going through.
Last week, after a particularly difficult session, youâd left her office being auto-piloted by dark feelings, like they knew exactly when to strike. You had turned corners and crossed streets, wandering as you stewed on everything youâd discussed â like your mind was playing a constant loop of your most painful moments. It was a small miracle you had heard your phone, and that you had the presence of mind to thumb the green button.
Youâd answered without saying a word.
âGot any plans?â Logan had asked on the other side of the line.
âNo,â youâd replied, coming back to yourself a little bit at the sound of his voice.
âAlâs making her meatballs â she and Wade canât agree on if theyâre famous or infamous. Thought you might like to come. If it tastes like shit, weâll order in.â
Youâd hummed, managing to ask, âWhat time?â
It had stayed quiet on the other end, and thatâs how youâd known he was onto you, could picture the pinch of his brows, his lips forming a thin line. For the first time, you welcomed itâwanted so badly to reach through the phone, shake his shoulders, ask for his help and accept it, like he had done with you weeks ago.Â
âSounds to me like now might be good.â
âYeah,â you had agreed, the constricting tightness in your chest easing up. âYeah, Iâll be there soon.â Youâd released a shuddering breath, ear still pressed to the phone as you took in your surroundings before you auto-piloted yourself to a different destination.Â
âLogan?â
âStill here.â
âThank you for calling.â
ââcourse. Get here soon, Iâll stay on the phone.â
The afternoon had ended with Logan and yourself allowing Althea to boss you around in the small apartmentâs kitchen, rolling meatballs, sharing stories â Altheaâs recollection of something that happened to her in her 20s that involved her stealing a police horse while wearing nothing but a thong, made you cry from laughing.
The meatballs were the best you ever had, though you couldnât be sure if they actually were, or if it was just the taste of the moment that was better than anything had been that day.Â
Sometime after dinner, Logan had nudged your shoulder to show you a little plastic chip. He flashed it at you long enough that you could read the words one month, before he pocketed it again. Then he suggested you come with him next week.Â
âI thought it was bullshit too, but it helps,â heâd explained. âFigured I couldnât continue to drink whatever that stuff is you call coffee to⊠avoid my problems.â
You contemplated his suggestion. Things were going well for you in that regard, but your therapist had also recommended you go to one of these things, even if it was just for the community aspect of it. It just made it so⊠official. Your problems, but most of all, your recovery. You werenât good at keeping promises to yourself, and this felt like a big commitment. Not to mention the speeches and other peopleâs problems...
But as Logan told you more about it, the location, how it had been for him, you sensed something else between the lines: He wasnât just asking for you, he was also asking for himself. Maybe⊠this was his way of telling you he needed some support.Â
Thatâs how you find yourself inside a high school gymnasium a week later. Itâs as gloomy as you expected. Slick floors, gray fold-out chairs set in neat rows, buzzing lights in a high ceiling, and a slightly raised podium with a whiteboard that reads a welcome message in capital letters.Â
Unsure of what to do, you follow Logan as he weaves through the crowd to find a seat. As you do, it strikes you that thereâs a pretty even distribution of people, with many genders, ages and lifestyles represented. Eventually you take a seat; not quite in the back, but definitely not in the front.Â
The whole thing goes by in a blur, but where you expected to be overwhelmed, you feel⊠connected. Here you are, surrounded by people with different backgrounds, different lives, but all their stories have something you can relate to. Where you thought addiction was the common denominator, itâs actually the desire to turn your lives around that unites you the most.
âBefore we end the night I want to circle back to last week, when we spoke about goals, or things we want to work towards,â says the woman leading the meeting â youâre ashamed to admit you already forgot her name. âDoes anyone want to share something about that?â
It takes a lot to hide your surprise when Logan raises his hand.Â
âLogan! Come on up!â She sounds as surprised as you feel, beckoning him to her.
The plastic chair he sits on creaks when he stands and his boots squeak against the shiny floor as he does as she asks. He looks so out of place on a podium; both larger than life behind the lectern and lost to the space of the stage. He clears his throat as he retrieves a paper from his pocket and unfolds it while his eyes scan the room until they land on yours. You give him a little nod of encouragement, and it kicks him into gear.
âNot good at this stuff, so Iâm going to keep it brief,â he starts.Â
It earns him a chuckle or two from the other attendees, and you can tell he doesnât expect it when he looks up from his paper. Your hands clasp together with nerves as you watch him divide his weight from one leg to another, before focussing his gaze back down.
âMy life has changed a lot over the past few months. For the first time in a long time, itâs not all bad. Coming here has been good. Iâm starting to feel more like I did beforeââÂ
He stops his monotonous droning with a frustrated sigh, stuffing the piece of paper in his pocket and sounding considerably more lively after.Â
âI have people I care about again, and um, it scares me. âCause I donât want to let them down, and every day I feel like I will because of all of my⊠past shit.â He pauses and swallows hard before he continues, âThey show me so much kindness and understanding, that⊠that even though itâs fucking hard, I want to be able to see myself the way they see me. And allow them to care about me without feeling like I⊠have to earn it all the time, without destroying myself to do it.âÂ
You exhale for what feels like the first time in an eternity.
âSo, thatâs what Iâm currently working on.â Logan sighs. âThatâs it. Thank you.â
A small applause follows, and you quickly unclasp your hands to join in.
Your palms hurt after.
â â â â â
âIt was really nice, what you said in there,â you say, fingers caressing a little plastic chip of your own that you keep safe in your coat pocket. You havenât felt proud of yourself in a while, but tonight you do.
The evening is nice, the setting sun bathing the city in hues of orange and pink. Your pace is slow and comfortable, your arm occasionally brushing Loganâs when you make room for all the other pedestrians. You didnât plan on him walking you home, but he insisted and you enjoy the company â it makes you a little sad when you turn onto your street.
Logan scoffs in reply.Â
âIâm being serious,â you say, knocking your elbow against his arm on purpose now. âIt was nice for people to hear a guy like you say those things. Iâm proud of you.â
You swear he blushes. âA guy like me, huh?â he asks, almost amused.
Itâs your turn to scoff. âYou know what I mean.âÂ
âA mutant?â He looks at you from the corner of his eye.
âNo,â you say, because itâs not what you meant, but the hint of seriousness in his voice and the fact heâs not entirely wrong make you track back. âWell, maybe that, too, but I meant someone who looks like you, allowing themselves to be vulnerable. Sets a nice example.â
Logan doesnât shoot your comments down like you expect. Instead, he seems to consider your words, maybe he even silently accepts the compliment. âThink you have some things to say that could set a nice example, too.â
âMaybe next time.â
During the comfortable silence that follows, youâre reminded of something youâve been considering for weeks now. You hadnât paid much attention to it since that night, but as you worked through the feelings that got you to that point, the question kept coming back.
âIâve been wondering something,â you begin. âThe night we met... What were you doing at the lookout?â
Logan glances at you, contemplating the question. âWhen I had just, um, gotten here, it wasnât always easy to adjust, you know? So I went to all these places that I knew from back there, to ground myself, to see that things may be different, but that theyâre not that different.â
âYou went there on your side?â
He hums.
âBy yourself?â
He hums again.
âDid youâŠâ You hesitate to finish your sentence, both because youâre not sure if you have any right to ask and because youâve reached your building. You stop walking, and Logan follows your lead.Â
âNo, no, no, I⊠I canât explain it, itâs just one of those places I was always drawn to,â Logan says, shoving his hands in the pockets of his jeans with a shrug. His brows furrow suddenly, his mind seemingly lost in something before his eyes flick back to yours. âThink it took me coming over here to find reason in it.â
Itâs a thought thatâs equal parts sad and lovely.Â
The silence that follows hangs between you, thick with something you canât place, but Logan doesnât look away from you, eyes scanning your face before they land back on yours. You canât help thinking that maybe this is how he does it, and the question comes out before you can help it,
âIs mind reading part of the X-Gene thing?â
His eyes widen â amusement or surprise, you canât say. âIt can be.âÂ
âCan you do it?â
âNo,â he says. âAnd itâs for the best, fucking hurts when you canât control it.â Then the start of a smile begins to form on his lips. ââsides, I donât know if I would have a lot of⊠consideration for peopleâs boundaries.â
It makes you chuckle. âRight. Not to mention some minds are probably a lot â imagine reading Wadeâs mind.â
âHurts to even imagine,â Logan says, gesturing for you to be quiet as he winces, but a smile breaks through anyway. When your shared laughter dies down, he jerks his chin at the building behind you, âThis your place?â
âWhaâ?â Going home long forgotten in the moment, you glance over your shoulder. âOh! Yes.â
âAll right,â he nods. âSee you next week?â
âDefinitely,â you reply.
âOh,â Logan says right before you turn around. âBring coffee? You owe me.â
You make a face at him. âYou donât have toâ Iâll get you something else, I know you donât like it.â
âI like it when I drink it with you.â
Itâs incredibly hard to hide your grin. âOkay, Iâll bring coffee. See you next week, Logan.â
âSee you.âÂ
He lingers, watching you climb the steps, waiting until the door opens after you turn your key in the lock. Itâs not until you close the door, when you can only make out his silhouette through the patterned glass window in it, that he walks off.
THE SUMMER
Walking back from a very successful job interview, you find yourself on your way to your friends with a big, plastic bottle of coke under your arm. Itâs a warm feeling to know that youâll soon have a job that suits you and that you have people to celebrate with; you look forward to seeing them and sharing this with them.
Youâre invited inside with open arms, tight hugs, exclaimed praise and congratulations, and it makes you giddy, a feeling so foreign that you wish you could bottle it up right this instant. With a grin, you shake the Coca Cola bottle, before twisting the cap off. You let out an excited shout as you watch the foam shoot out from the top, bubbles and dark liquid pulsing down the neck of the bottle as cheers surround you.
Itâs not champagne, but Althea grumbles about the soda ruining her floors, Wade gets mismatched glasses from the cupboard, and Logan clinks his glass to yours and tells you heâs proud of you.
Itâs way better than champagne.
â â â â â
Youâre in serious, desperate need of a new placeâŠÂ
The August heat is relentless, and the entire buildingâs AC isnât working. Itâs with considerable effort that you manage to make your way to your friendsâ place, the promise of a constant, cold stream of wind the only thing that keeps you going. But when the front door opens, it isnât with the welcoming, cool waft of air you were hoping for. Instead, thereâs no temperature change, only Wade in his underwear.
âNo.â Itâs a little embarrassing how you literally pout, but these are desperate times. âHere, too?â
âIf it wasnât this fucking hot Iâd be offended by that greeting.â He sighs. âCome in.â
Slightly defeated, you shuffle past the threshold, while Wade lingers. Mary Puppins trots by, an ice-pack wrapped in a towel secured on her back, and you catch a glimpse of Logan exiting the bedroom. Heâs in black shorts and a ribbed, sleeveless shirt, and with a desperate groan, he lets himself fall back into the recliner in the living room.Â
âTried everything, thereâs no fixing that fucking thing.â
Wade makes a face, âListen, I know what youâre thinking: Wadeâs in his underwear, Loganâs emerging from the bedroom⊠But we didnât fuck, itâs not that kind of stââ
âWho are you talking to?â you ask from behind him, glancing over his shoulder into the empty hallway.
âNo oneâYou!â The door closes with a bang.
Confused, you walk further into the apartment. âWell, telling me you didnât is just going to make me think that you did.â Wade darts past you and takes a seat on the couch, but you hang back and lean against the kitchen table to avoid sitting on leather.
Wade suddenly turns to face you. âDid I ever tell you about our time in The Void?â
âWade,â Logan warns.
Wadeâs eyes are sparkling with mischief and you canât deny how fun it is to indulge the way he pushes Loganâs buttons. Itâs a good distraction from how youâre drenched in sweat. And youâre actually curious.
You play your part, letting out a faux-scandalised gasp. âDid you..?â
âOh, yeah, baby. Wolverine goes both ways. All the ways, really.â He grins. âWeâre so alike.â
âShut up. Both of you.â Logan groans, lacking any real threat as he adjusts in his seat and wipes some sweat off his brow. âItâs too fucking hot to be annoyed.â
It isnât lost on you he doesnât deny a thing.
â â â â â
Apartments look weird with nothing in them.
Itâs what crossed your mind after you finished packing up your place three days ago, and it crosses your mind now as you look into the open space of your new one from the doorway. Itâs a pleasant, late summer day; perfect weather to move, which was on your schedule for today.
âIncoming!â comes from behind you, followed by quick, heavy steps.
You jump aside as Ellie sails through the door, carefully setting a big box marked âKitchenâ down in its designated area, followed by Logan who is balancing three boxes at once. After a beat, Yukio follows, holding a single table lamp in her hand. It takes some effort not to laugh, not just because of how funny it looks, but also because you relate; after all the exhausting late nights you pulled packing up, thatâs also the kind of energy youâre bringing to this.
Itâs nice of them to help, and instead of shoving that feeling away in fear, you allow yourself to bask in it. You donât get long, however, because more help has just arrived.
Wade. With Vanessa. Hands interlocked.
It draws everyoneâs eyes to the doorway. Wade looks almost bashful, and it baffles you how someone who can say the most insane things unprompted, all without batting an eye, could blush while holding hands with a girl he likes. To his credit, he shakes it off quickly.
âAll right, all right,â he says. âStop ogling me and my girlfriend and get back to work everyone!â
â â â â â
âSo it was like an experiment?â you ask, stirring the pot on your stove before taking a careful bite of food off your wooden spoon.
Tonightâs your first night hosting at your new place â Family Dinner, Wade had dubbed it. With fall setting in, you had an idea of what to make, but it still made you nervous to have everyone in your space. Logan saw right through you, offering to come over early to help you prepare.Â
Once he had arrived, it hadnât taken long for him to admit he wasnât much of a cook, so he mainly chopped vegetables as you chatted; you about your new place, Logan about his new job as a boxing instructor, Laura going off to college. You donât remember exactly how the subject of his adamantium came up, but he was telling you freely about it.
âThey needed someone who could regenerate fast enough to bond with it,â he explains. âI was in a dark place. Figured I didnât have anything to lose if it didnât work.â
You nod in understanding. âDo you⊠remember much about it?â You put your spoon down, then put the lid back on the pan.Â
Loganâs knife stops hitting the cutting board. âYeah, I⊠I remember every second of it.â
You look at him then. His eyes are still cast down at his task. Unsure of what to say, you think about what youâd want to hear, and you find it might be best to say nothing at all. Instead, your hand finds his shoulder. Loganâs head turns to you, and you feel like the look you share is more important than anything you couldâve told him. His hand covers yours with an appreciative squeeze.Â
âBut Iâm trying to leave that there so I can focus on remembering what happens to me here.â As soon as heâs said it, his hand quickly slips off yours, adding, in a rush, âHere in this timeline, I mean.âÂ
You smile at him, but a strange feeling settles in the pit of your stomach. âThat sounds like a great idea.â
â â â â â
âI need your help with something,â you say, balancing your phone between your ear and your shoulder while you turn a birthday card over in your hand. Deciding you donât like it, you throw it back on the pile of cards and continue your grocery shopping.
âJust say the word,â comes Loganâs reply from the other end.
âI need you to steal something out of the apartment for me.â Thereâs a silence, and you purposely let the feeling of trepidation linger.
âAm gonna need you to say a little more than just that.â
You laugh, âWadeâs been talking about getting a little frame for his polaroid. You know, the polaroid that you held on to for him in The Void, after the two of you fuââ
âYes, I know the one,â he interjects with a huff. He pauses, sighs, then says, âConsider it done.â
THE PARTY
âThere you are!â Wade shouts after he opens the door. He pulls you into a hug that you return with a wide smile. Over his shoulder, you see that the apartmentâs crowded, bustling with people who are there for his birthday party.
âI got you something,â you say, offering the small package to him after you step inside and hang up your coat.
âWouldnât have let you in if you hadnât,â he admits as he closes the door behind you with a bang. Wade takes the package from your hand, shaking it next to his ear but hearing it make no sound in response. âIs it a cock ring?â
You canât help but laugh at that. âUnfortunately, they were all sold out.â
âThey always are,â he says, making a disappointed face. Bottom lip tucked between your teeth, you watch as he tears at the wrapping paper to reveal his gift. He makes another face when he sees it. âWell, now I feel like an asshole. This is really nice.â
âLogan helped me kidnap it,â you explain, pointing at the picture. âAnd the little red hearts on the frame, well, theyâre your color, but they also reminded me of how much you care about people.â
When he looks at you after, itâs with genuine emotion⊠but Wade is Wade. âNever thought Iâd say this, but Iâm kind of happy you walked in here barfing up the place.â
A strange mix of embarrassment and gratitude claws its way up your neck. âThank you.â
âWe should take a new one,â he decides suddenly, pointing at the picture. âYou both should be in it.â His head turns, watching as Logan approaches the two of you. âBut letâs be realistic, his shoulders are so broad he wouldnât even fit in the frame, much less his bulââ
âStop talking about my dick, Wade,â Logan snaps.
âI was saying only good things! Jeez, so sensitiveâŠâ Wade turns, putting the picture on the kitchen table behind him where it joins all the other gifts.
âDid he like it?â Logan asks, voice low.
âYeah,â you smile.
âGood,â he replies. âWas a nice idea.â
You eye all the other gifts, some clearer who they are from than others. âWhat did you get him?â
The corner of Loganâs mouth lifts as he points at a roll of silver duct tape with a small red bow on top, making you fix them both with a confused look.
âItâs an inside joke,â Logan shrugs.
Wadeâs eyes sparkle, but in a rare turn of events, he doesnât elaborate, only adds, âItâs classified. I could tell you, but then I'd have to kill you.âÂ
âAnd I have top level clearance, lieutenant,â you reply. You exhale through your nose in an amused laugh when Wade makes a surprised face that indicates youâve gotten the reference. âWhat, you thought a Tom Cruise impression could save you?â
âNo,â he grins, and as if on cue, the doorbell rings, âbut that can. Birthday Boy duty calls, but I want it on record that I could do Top Gun, easily, while Tom would never be able to pull off Deadpool.â
â â â â â
The party settles into something comfortable, soft music in the background of lively chatter. Yukio has just finished telling you about a Professor Layton cosplay sheâs doing when you excuse yourself, both your glass and your social battery empty enough to look for a momentary out. Finding your way through the crowd, you make it to the kitchen, filling your glass with water and taking a few sips.Â
While you do, the music suddenly gets louder, taking over for the steady chatter. You turn around, leaning back against the kitchen counter, and watch as Wade drags Vanessa to the middle of the apartment. People make room for them, exchanging looks while Wade wraps his arm around her waist, takes her hand in his and begins dancing with her. With a laugh, she slaps him on the chest, before settling into his embrace anyway. Some follow their lead, but your eyes stay glued to them. Wade spins Vanessa under his arm, the smile on her face bright enough to light up the entire room. In return, he looks at her with so much adoration heâs almost glowing himself. It fills you with warmth to see the both of them so happy.
It hits you how you havenât thought about this in a while. Youâd decided long ago that the future wasnât something you had to worry about, but suddenly youâve arrived, like youâre in some alternate reality where your future is now, and that it would be nice to share it with someone. The sting behind your eyes catches you a little off guard; mixed feelings of time that has been taken from you, but also of time youâre getting back with the life you now have.
For a while now, youâve suspected the thing inside you is gone, that there isnât much to feed off of anymore. If it is, it would make sense that thereâs room for something else.
Wade and Vanessa make it look easy, even though you know itâs been far from easy for them. You suppose thatâs what itâs like, especially as you get older. Itâs less about big gestures, more about small ones; someone to make you laugh, to spin you under their arm, who knows how to apologize, seeks you out during your quiet momentsâ
âDo you dance?â
You startle, head turning towards the voice next to youâÂ
âLogan,â you breathe.Â
Itâs like youâre seeing him for the very first time. Heâs standing so close, almost touching you but not quite, heat radiating off of him nonetheless. The plaid shirt heâs wearing isnât even buttoned and still the fabric is pulled taunt over his shoulders and the thick of his biceps. Heâs grinning, his nose pulled up in an adorable scrunch, the corner of his eyes crinkling - you never noticed before, but thereâs a hint of green between the hazel.
It hits you so suddenly that you have to grab the counter to keep your balance. Everything thatâs been happening, that youâve been feeling, all the times something happened between the two of you that you couldnât put your finger on⊠it falls into place with a well-timed, completely unrelated question and a glance at him.
You like him.
All you can do is blink at him, dazed, unable to speak, even more so when he leans in a little closer, mistaking your silence for misunderstanding. âI mean, not that Iâ You and Wade were doing a bit earlier, itâs a reference toââ Logan straightens suddenly, his expression slipping into concern as he watches you, âAre you okay?â
You feel warm, so aware of all his attention on you that youâre afraid he might be able to see your pulse blink rapidly below the angle of your jaw. âYeah,â you reply, voice hoarse, looking away from him to blink the leftover wetness from earlier out of your eyes.Â
Anxiety claws its way into your chest, your mind coming to terms with what itâs puzzled together at such a sickening pace that thereâs an immediate knot in your stomach. The party has instantly lost its shine, and you look down at the glass in your hand, gulping down its contents. You need to be alone with your thoughts, you need to think about this beforeâ
âI gotta go,â you say in such a rush that it almost sounds like one word while you set your glass on the kitchen counter.
Loganâs eyes follow you as you push past him, grab your coat and reach for the doorknob. âWaitââ
âBye, Logan.â
THE TABLE
Once at home, you change into something more comfortable, your mind racing while you peel your party clothes off, toss your bra aside, change into an oversized shirt and plop down on the couch after.
Despite having already established that your mind was occupied with other things for a very long time, itâs laughable in hindsight that you never noticed your feelings before. Itâs not like you donât know what Loganâs like; heâs kind, funny, supportiveâŠ
âŠbroad, handsome.
Shit.
Why did you have to come to your senses? Things were better before that moment. Loganâs your friend, whom you met in the most unconventional way possible. Itâs ridiculous to want more than what you have when what you have is good. Or to think that he would want more.
But he might.
Because you may have been occupied with depression, anxiety, recovery, and everything in between, but you were there; you remember the time you spent with him, the way he looks at you, drinks the coffee you like, laughs at your jokes, seems to know exactly when to call you, seeks you out in a crowd.
But it would change everythâÂ
Actually, not a whole lot would change, if you really think about it. You already see him all the time, youâve seen the very worst of each other, overcome a great deal of hardship together, you make each other better, his friends are yourâŠÂ
friends.Â
You didnât say goodbye to Wade.
The thought comes suddenly. It was his birthday party and you didnât even say goodbye to him before you left. Youâre a terrible friend. Dread sinks into your limbs, and you reach for your phone to type out a quick, apologetic message. Just as you hit send, thereâs a series of loud knocks on the door, and it makes you freeze up where youâre seated.
âAre you in there?â a muffled voice calls out.
Itâs Logan, you realize, and a plethora of fake excuses as to why you left the party early present themselves to your mind as you quickly make your way over to the door.
The first thing you notice when you open it is that heâs dripping wet from the rain, clothes soaked through and his hair flat. Thereâs a deep furrow in his brow, and itâs different from how he usually looks; he looks actually mad.
âLogan, is everythingââ you begin, concerned, but he cuts you off by pushing past you and letting himself inside, boots stomping against the wooden floor.Â
âJesus, here you are. Whyâd you leave like that, huh? Saying goodbye, your eyes all wet. I went after you and you were fucking gone, it scared the shit out of me. Didnât see the car at the lookout, but I went to look for you anyway, and you werenât in the water, thank fuckââ
âWait, you wentââ you pause, the mental image of Logan running out into the rain to the cliffside making your eyes widen. âDid you think..?â
âYeah,â he sighs, shoulders slumping.
âShit.â Your heart is racing when you step closer to him. âNo, I wasnât⊠I donât want that anymore.â
âThen what the fuck was that all about?â
The desperation and misunderstanding in his eyes is unmistakable, and you hate that you made him feel like that. âI was just⊠I needed a moment, after seeing Wade and Vanessa like that,â you say, trying to provide yourself with more time to think, unsure if you already want to broach the subject of why you really left.
âYou⊠like Wade?â Logan asks, his frown deepening.
You canât help the laugh that escapes you at the unexpected question. âNo. I mean, I adore Wade, but not like that. Heâs with Vanessa.â
The answer does nothing to change his expression. âAnd you want it to be different?â
His line of questioning confuses you. âIâ No. Logan, this isnât about Wade or Vanessa, but itâs about⊠what they have. Something thatâs real, but imperfect, and thatâs what actually makes it perfect, and I just⊠I was in a really bad place for such a long time, I didnât give myself time to even think about⊠I havenât felt myself wanting for so long,â your gaze flicks up to his. âSeeing them just made me realize thereâs so much left that I still want.âÂ
Internally, you curse the way he always makes you say too much, because you can see the understanding wash over his features. His expression softens, the balled fists by his side loosen, and his eyes search you, as if to see if that thing you want is him. Thereâs no doubt he finds his answer; youâre ever the open book when it comes to him, and your pulse quickens while he silently observes you.Â
Logan reaches for you so quickly that you can barely prepare for it, a hand on your waist to pull you in, another on your cheek to tip your face up and guide your mouth to his. A shaky breath sails out through your nose when your lips meet, your eyes fluttering shut and your palms sliding up his damp but warm chest to curl in the soaked fabric of his shirt. Itâs eager, and the angle is off, but itâs quickly adjusted with a brief parting and a near in-sync tilt of your heads in the other direction.Â
Logan pulls away, but stays close, and you almost feel his words before hearing them, âBeen⊠thinking about doing that.â
âReally?â you say, breathless and amused. âWhen did you, um, start wanting to do that?â
âFew weeks agoâFuck, no, more than that. Almost did, that day after your first meeting, after you told me you were proud of me,â he admits. âBut I wanted to give you time, space. Wasnât sure if you feltââ
âI do. Didnât realize it before, but I fucking do,â you assure him, another tug on his collar trying to pull him back to you. His admissions, knowing he wants you too, only make you want him more, like you have to make up for all the time you wasted not doing this sooner.
Loganâs hand on your waist holds you off. âI just donât know how to⊠how to be this,â he confesses softly.
âThatâs okay,â you say, your nose brushing against his. âI donât either.â
He inches forward like he intends to kiss you again, but seems to reconsider, swallowing hard before saying, âWouldnât be the first time we figure it out together, huh?â
The words make you surge forward to close the gap between you, your brows creasing, attempting to convey everything you feel with one press of your lips to his. Loganâs hand slides from your cheek to the back of your head, pulling you to him in a way that seems to mirror your efforts. Something lights up inside you, something you lost long ago, and it makes you bold, opening your mouth under his to get a taste of him.Â
His grip on you tightens with a groan, spurring him into action and walking you backwards into the dark kitchen, the only illumination the slivers of moonlight that come through the kitchen window. You jolt when the back of your thighs hit the table, before youâre scrambling to get on top of it, two hands at your waist helping to hoist you up. Your thighs widen to make room for Loganâs while you push the green flannel shirt off his shoulders, struggling to peel it off his arms to the point you have to break away with a laugh to really get it right. It lands on the floor with a wet sound, before he reaches for the back of his shirt, curling his fingers around the collar and pulling it over his head.
Loganâs sturdy, warm to the touch and surprisingly pliant when you canât help but let your fingers flit along the corded muscles and protruding veins while he toes off his shoes. His hand flies to the back of your head to fist the hair at the nape of your neck when your lips explore, find his jaw, and travel down his neck. A soft sound sails from his mouth, a barely audible moan that carries over into something deeper when your lips brush a spot just above his clavicle. Using the grip he has on you, he drags you back up to his mouth, doing some more of his own exploring when his warm tongue strokes against your own.Â
âYouâre so good to me,â he murmurs with a buck of his hips against yours. The thrill of having him pushed up against you, half-hard, warm, full of promise, makes you moan, teeth clacking against his when you do. âAlways so fucking good to me.â
It makes you want to protest, from the very moment you met, heâs the one always being that to you, but it dies on your tongue when Loganâs flicks over the tips of his fingers. His impatient hand finds its way between you, disappearing under the waistband of your underwear and stretching the material to make room. His name comes out as a whimper when his spit-slick fingers easily glide through the soft skin between your legs. He curses, another buck of his hips pressing his hand closer against you, and your kiss turns messy and uncoordinated when he dips one finger to touch your clit.Â
âThis okay?â Logan asks when you gasp, drawing languid circles between your legs.
âYeah, itâs justâ Oh, god.â Two thick fingers find your entrance, swirling the wetness there around. âBeen a while,â you manage to finish your sentence.
âIâll make it good for you,â he promises. âYou want that?â
All you can do is nod, and Logan presses a kiss to the corner of your mouth before he pulls his hand back. Itâs paired with a wet sound that makes your cheeks heat, more so when you watch him get on his knees and yank you to the edge of the table, the quick turn of events and the casual display of his strength making you a little dizzy. Loganâs nose presses into the fabric between your legs with a sharp inhale, before quick, practiced moves work your underwear down your legs. One eager hand places a thigh on his shoulder as another holds you at the bend of your knee. You lie back, arching as you hurriedly pull your t-shirt over your head, leaning up on your elbows just in time to watch him bend down.Â
The feeling of Loganâs hot breath sailing out over your sensitive skin alone is enough to make you gasp. He drags his lips and nose across your folds, easing you into it as much as his lack of patience will allow before tasting you with a swipe of his tongue. It isnât tentative or testing, but firm and sure, and clearly for his enjoyment as much as yours when he repeats his action and groans into you. The vibrations of it and the gentle scratch of his facial hair only add to the liquid feeling in the pit of your stomach. Letting go of your knee, he curls a strong arm around your thigh, spreading you open then pulling you flush against him while he sucks your clit into his mouth.
âOh, that feels really good,â you spur him on, your heel digging in between his shoulder blades. You watch him with hooded eyes, shifting your weight to one elbow so you can cup your breast with a whine.Â
Loganâs eyes slip shut in focus, working his tongue up and down your clit and making you arch into his mouth. Reaching for you blindly, he slides a hand over yours on your chest, fingers fitting between your own and squeezing while his tongue slides lower to lick over where youâre dripping for him. He lets out an appreciative hum as he repeats the move until your thighs clench and shake around his ears. His tongue dips inside you, curling up against the slick walls of your cunt, and his name tumbles from your mouth, soft, pleading, making his eyes shoot open to meet yours.
The sight of him looking up at you like that from between your thighs, with dark eyes, the tip of his nose glistening with your wetness, will probably haunt you for the rest of your life.Â
Logan shushes your begging, pulling away and watching as your pussy clenches at the sudden lack of attention. âLet me give you something to come on,â he murmurs, before fitting a finger at your entrance. It meets absolutely no resistance, a second finger sliding inside with just as much ease, and he sets a steady, deep rhythm before his mouth returns to your clit.
âOh, fuck, fuck, fuckââ Your head rolls back between your shoulder blades, mouth open on a silent gasp, but he draws your attention back to him with a curl of his fingers, finding a spot that makes you go rigid for a second. It all builds so fast, so suddenly. The hand on your chest shakes Loganâs off, finding the crown of his head and sliding your fingers into his hair. Heâs too strong to really make purchase, but you try anyway, using your grip to roll your hips against him. The sound of his groans, every flick of his tongue and every squelching, delicious curl of his fingers all send you closer and closer, until his hand presses down on your belly, andâŠ
âLogan,â you manage, voice sharp with a warning that comes too late when he makes you tumble over the edge.Â
Itâs so much after so long, the force of it making you fall back against the table, something between a gasp and a shout tearing from your throat. He holds you tighter, to keep you in place and guide the desperate roll of your hips against his face. Your orgasm quickly slips into something bordering on oversensitivity, and you let out a dry sob that makes you slap a hand over your mouth when Loganâs tongue travels a path from where his stilled fingers disappear inside you, up to your clit. He stays there, gentle, uncharacteristically patient as you slowly come to a twitching halt.Â
Heâs a blur when he comes back into your field of view after standing up, towering over you to watch as you come back down to earth. Becoming sharper with every heavy blink of your eyes, you notice the smile on his face is smug, that the hair surrounding it is a shade darker than the rest. You sigh softly when his fingers slip from you, the feeling of them sliding wetly over your clit making you tremble, but his touch doesnât leave you completely when he moves to stroke the outside of your thigh.
âHowâs that?â Logan dares to ask.
âHmm, no speaking yet,â you protest.
Reaching for him, you slide both of your arms up over his broad shoulders, wrists crossed in the nape of his neck to pull him in for another kiss. Itâs slow, and deep, the taste of yourself shared between the two of you as your tongue slides over his. The table protests with a creak when his hands land beside your head, more when his chest pushes down on yours and you wrap a leg around his waist to get him even closer. The hair scattered across his broad chest teases your nipples and the hard ridge of his cock strains against his jeans and presses up against your slick cunt. It makes your jaw go slack, stoking your desire and making you burn with the need to make him feel as good as he just made you feel.Â
With a push against his shoulders, you take him along as you sit upright again, accompanied by another creak of the table. Mouth still on his, you slide a hand down to cup him over his jeans, the weight of him against your wide open palm making you pulse. Logan grunts when your hand squeezes, and your mouth slides off his, kissing his jaw, sliding back down his neck. He cups your head, keeping you in place while watching your hand.
âFeels nice,â he husks, voice so deep it makes you want to push him aside and get on your knees for him, but then he asks, âAre you gonna let me fuck you?â
âGod, yeah,â you say with a nod, watching as the mark you just sucked into his neck disappears far too soon while you continue rubbing him over the denim. âWant you inside of me.â
âJesusâThen get it out,â he instructs, guiding your hand to his belt.Â
If you werenât so turned on you might wince at how eager you are, at how quickly you tug the buckle open and pull the leather free. Logan groans when it relieves some of the pressure, letting his forehead rest against yours. Together, you watch your hands make quick work of his zipper, your fist closing around his cock while your other hand works his pants down until he can kick it off and under the table.
He fits nicely in your palm, heavy and ready, sticky at the tip. With a purse of your lips, you let your spit trickle down in a straight line, and he hisses when it hits him. Your free hand flattens against his stomach, sliding down along the hard planes of his body and following the vein just below his belly button down, until it meets your other hand that loosely strokes up to the root of his cock. Logan arches into you when you stroke back up with a tighter grip, all but getting on his toes to chase your touch. Using both of your hands to get all of him, you twist your fists in opposite directions once, twice, before circling his tip with one thumb. Your other hand curls around the underside of him, dragging some of your spit down to his balls with the tips of your fingers.
âFâfuck,â Logan stutters when you play with him there, cupping him in your hand as well as you can and squeezing his shaft when it twitches in response. His eyes slip shut as his palms land on the outside of your thighs with a smack, fingertips digging into your soft skin.Â
It makes you jolt, then grin, giddy from the sharp sting and the power you have over his pleasure. âHowâs that?â you echo with a teasing lilt.
He does have the words to answer, albeit a little slurred, ââS good, sweetheart.â
The nickname tacked on at the end takes root in your chest, blooms bright and makes you ache. You translate your appreciation into tightening your strokes and spreading more of the precome that steadily leaks from his tip around.
âCâmere,â Logan says softly, taking over for you with one hand, giving himself a few strokes before pushing your thighs further apart and shuffling closer to line himself up with you.
Youâre so wet that the head of his cock is practically already slipping inside of you, but your hand clasps around his bicep when he really starts to breach you. After giving you a shallow little thrust, his hips draw back, before pushing a little further, gauging your reaction.
âJust like that,â you sigh, watching the careful slide of him in and out of you. âKeep going just like that.â
He gets you opened up like that, giving you a little more with each wind of his hips. Loganâs hand finds the back of your neck, his palm splaying out and keeping you close enough that youâre practically sharing air with each sigh and moan. Eventually, your knees have to draw up to his flanks in order for him to keep going and you wind a leg around his hip to close the final distance with a press of your heel into one of the firm cheeks of his ass. A long breath sails out from between your lips when you pulse around him, slowly adjusting to having all of him filling you up. You can tell he has to put considerable effort into letting you, wood groaning below you when he clutches onto the table.
âFuck, itâs a lot,â you say, and when he grins against your mouth you canât help but kiss him again â just a peck. The hand at the back of your neck squeezes in reassurance as he continues to let you lead, and itâs a small gesture, but it makes you feel warm all over. You melt into it his touch, your body relaxing as the pleasure of the stretch of him takes over. Â
âCan stay like this a little longer if you want,â he says, but the strain in his voice says something different.
âHmm, no, you can move.â Youâve barely said it, or his hips are drawing back, and it would have made you laugh if it didnât feel so fucking incredible. He almost slips from you completely, before sliding all the way back inside with a grunt. The table scrapes along the floor, and vaguely you register one of your chairs falling over in the process. When he repeats the action, the furniture squeaks again below you. âJust donât break my table.â
The sound he makes in response is non-commital, and when he fucks back into you and nudges against something wonderful, you canât say you disagree. Grabbing hold of his shoulder and using the leg you have wrapped around him, you roll your hips against his, and he begins to meet you halfway until you work up a rhythm together. The table protest further, a shrill sound filling the room after each slap of skinâ
With a frustrated groan and accompanied by a startled squeal from yourself, Logan lifts you. The surprised laugh that threatens to bubble up your throat quickly morphs into something heavier that comes out with a rasp when he makes it all look unusually effortless. Attempting to brace yourself, you sling one arm over his shoulders, the other winding around his neck so you can rake your fingers through the hair at the back of his head. Itâs a struggle to keep your balance, a helpless heel digging into the back of his thigh to keep yourself upright. Quick to aid, Logan slides an arm under you, fingers splayed across your ass as your knee hangs off the inside of his elbow. He turns a quarter, presses you up against the wall, and doesnât miss a beat as he continues fucking you.Â
âJesus, Logan,â you say, voice almost a growl and barely recognizable as your own.
With your new position, you can see him better, the both of you lit from the side with the window to your left. The moonlight paints him in a tapestry of light and shadows when the wind blows through the tree branches, momentarily amplifying the glint in his eyes and the flex of his chest and arms like a strobe light.
The different angle he finds with his cock is a little too good, the feeling of the thick base of him stretching you open with each thrust making you dazed and talkative, âItâs so deep like this, canâoh, my godâcan feel you everywhere.âÂ
Logan curses at your words, squeezing your waist and pushing you harder against the wall. Thereâs a deep-voiced appreciation of how good you feel in there too that doesnât quite make it from your ears to your brain because somehow heâs still speeding up. His head ducks down to your chest, mouthing at the soft skin of your breast before closing his lips around a nipple.Â
You whine, using the grip you have on him to roll your hips against the piston of his while you pant into his crown. Though the sound he makes against you when you do it makes you beam with pride, itâs not something you can keep up for very long, your hold on him slacking after a few thrust until you slip back against the wall.Â
Logan pulls back when you do, tightening his hold on you while his eyes glide from the bounce of your tits that glisten with his spit to down between your bodies.Â
âTouch yourself,â he instructs, grunting when you immediately do as he says by bringing a hand down between where youâre joined. Your fingers spread in a V-shape around where he fucks into you, collecting some of your mixed arousal before using it to rub your clit. âThatâs it, sweetheart, fuck, make yourself come.â
You nod, rapidly feeling everything zeroing in on the fingers that draw tight circles over your clit and that spot deep inside you that Loganâs finding with every thrust. âYeah, fuck, IâmâDonât stop, donât stop, pleaseââ
Heâs coming before you are, tucking his head below your chin to let out a deep, drawn out moan against your neck that ends with his teeth grazing your skin. Itâs so much, the pressure of him grinding himself into you with twitching, barely there thrusts, the heat of his release as it fills you where youâre gripping him like a vice, and as your fingers still twirl between your legs you come, and come, and come.Â
The leg you have wrapped around his hip slips off, but before your toes can even scrape the floor, he catches your thigh, cupping your ass with both hands now to keep you up, and close. With a soft, satisfied sound, you let your forehead fall against Loganâs shoulder, tasting the salt of his sweat with every light press of your lips there.
It takes you a moment to notice your back has come off the wall, that Logan is walking the both of you into your living room and to the couch. He bends his knees, dropping you between your pillows, where you land with as much grace as you can muster considering you feel like youâre made of lead. The soft couch is pleasant against your body, your sore limbs sinking into the cushions.Â
Logan fits himself between your legs again, widening them around his broad shoulders before his lips find your overstretched thighs, leaving marks and kisses up up up, until his tongue slips back into your pussy. Your back arches off the couch, hands shooting down to fist his hair with a whine while Loganâs hand fists his cock. As your eyes adjust to the darkness, you can tell heâs already getting hard again, and his tongue is making something swirl low in your belly thatâs making you pant, and...
Itâll be a long night.
THE PEARL
It had taken a lot of convincing and downright groveling, but Wade had allowed you to bring a movie for movie night. It wasnât that he didnât trust your taste in movies, his main gripe with your choice was that it wasnât a Christmas movie â mandatory for December. Wadeâs right, but after you explained that itâs the movie you always watch at the end of the year (and after Logan and yourself conceded that yes, his birthday was technically also your anniversary) heâd agreed.Â
Now that youâre actually watching it, you suspect heâs genuinely invested, because after a handful of comments about The Hulk, heâs been quiet for longer than youâve ever heard him be quiet.
In the scene on the screen, Mark Ruffaloâs character Dan and Keira Knightleyâs character Gretta are taking an evening walk around New York City, dancing, singing and sharing music with each other as they do. Eventually, they stop and sit next to each other on some steps, watching as the city continues to move without them.
â...the most banal scenes are suddenly invested with so much meaning, ya know? All these banalities, they're suddenly turned into these⊠these beautiful, effervescent pearls,â Dan says, wistfully looking on as New York bustles around him. âI gotta say, as I've gotten older these pearls are just⊠becoming increasingly more and more rare to me.â
The arm Logan has slung around your shoulder tightens, and the couch creaks softly as you lean further into his side, your cheek squishing against his warm chest.
âMore string than pearls?â Gretta inquires with a frown.
âYeah. You got to travel over a lot more string to get to the pearls.â Thereâs a pause as he turns to look at her, âThis moment is a pearl, Gretta.â
She gives him a hint of a smile. âIt sort of is, isn't it?â
âAll this has been a pearl,â he admits, sharing a look with her.
A finger curls under your chin, tipping your head up until your eyes meet Loganâs. He gives you the same look you just saw on the screen, his eyes soft as they take you in, the hint of green between the hazel illuminated by the light of the television. A thumb swipes over your bottom lip fondly, before he leans down to kiss you.
It takes a lot of string indeed.
Sometimes even interdimensional string.
â â â â â
(THE END)
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THIS, IM NOT EVEN LYING, IS THE BEST FANFIC IVE READ IN SUCH A LONG TIME OMFG
WORD COUNT â 15.4k SUMMARY â Reader gets roped into saving the timeline with ex-best friend Deadpool, coming face-to-face with a variant of Logan that uproots memories she'd long suppressed, only to find that this version of him lost her in his universe, too. TAGS/WARNINGS â she/her pronouns (minimal usage), female anatomy, flashbacks in italics, angst, enemies to lovers, alcoholism, smoking, arguments, canon typical violence, cursing/bad language, Deadpool breaks the fourth wall like twice, canon behaviour worst wolverine, religious trauma, honda odyssey scene self-insert, eventual smut, unprotected sex, multiple orgasms, dirty nasty talk (logan has a filthy mouth), mentions of cocaine literally once. smut is marked after last divider if you want to skip plot but i'll kiss you if you don't!
Youâre smoking a cigarette on your porch when the snowfall happens. It would be normal, you think, if it werenât for the fact that itâs dead in the middle of July. A group of nanas, elbow-deep in the community garden soil, glance up to the sky and begin muttering prayers amongst themselves.
Youâve lived in this safe house for a while now, up in the mid-west of the Appalachian mountains, surrounded by thickets of pine and opposite a bubbling creek. You grew up somewhere near here and the locals welcomed you back with open arms and a plateful of hot food when the humans started the cullingâ when the X-men fell apart.
It has plenty of benefits. The smell of lavender, for one, and your cat, Kevin, loves chasing the pigeons, even if heâs not the most successful hunter. The locally sourced produce means you can avoid the poisoned food theyâre distributing in supermarkets.
But, most importantly, the humans canât find you out here. Youâre lucky the gossip of your⊠genetics, so to speak, doesnât leave Sunday morning church.
Things have been different, lately. The trees are shedding down to dust, people are disappearing at an exponential rate, and there was a time when youâd be on the front lines helping them. Youâre on the edge of your seat waiting for the call â a learned habit â but itâs never coming. Charles is dead. Logan is dead. The X-men are dead.
The snow is warm when it lands on your skin. It feels like rot, and your solitude suddenly feels lonelier and more daunting than ever.
You reach to take a sip of your steaming coffee when you hear movement. A zipping strobe light crosses your vision and you flinch against the intrusion, but youâre not afraid. Youâve surely survived worse.
Stryker worse.
A comical and confused looking figure pops out from an orange portal, scratching the crown of his head over the red and black mask on his face. You sip your coffee as you observe him nonchalantly.
He notices you and approaches with a dainty point of his finger.
âUm, excuse me, maâam.â
âWell, well well,â you suck on your cigarette with a frown. âLook what the cat dragged in. Got a new suit, Red?â
âWhat, arenât you happy to see lilâ old me?â
âYouâre on my property,â you say matter-of-factually. You had a shotgun stowed away inside for emergencies, but frankly, you never had to use it. You were enough of a weapon yourself. Consider it insurance, if the corn-syrup theyâre poisoning ever finally makes it way to you.
You glance sidelong at the old ladies in their aprons, clutching one another with stern gazes in your direction. The deal was that you didnât bring trouble their way â but it looks like trouble found you. You narrow your eyes and silently hope that this doesnât turn messy, as it so usually does where heâs concerned.
He sighs heavily and continues approaching regardless. You analyse his stature and take notes of the weapons on his holsters and back. You reckon you could take him if it came down to it, but he didnât seem threatening.
You and Wade used to be friends, but after isolating yourself from grief, you donât necessarily consider yourselves to have a close relationship. More often than not he brought trouble; hence your defensive response.
âListen, ants in your pants, Iâve done this about a hundred times,â he huffs and places a hand on his hip, waving the device around in his hand. You take another drag of your cigarette and perk your brows before rising to your feet.
âIâve had my spleen shattered by the Hulk, about eighty stab woundsâŠâ
He rambles on about his collection of injuries and you tilt your head with amusement. Must be another one of his famous mental breakdowns. This might be entertaining, at the very least.
ââŠYouâve even killed me a few times in different universes!â He claps his hands together. âAnd frankly, I was just going to let you die here. Youâre not even canon, so you wonât be missed, but you appear to be of use to me. So I need you to come with me. Now. Please.â
What on Earth was he talking about? What on Earth was he ever talking about?
You bark a laugh. âI ainât going anywhere with you, Red and Black.â
âWill it change your mind if I add a cherry on top?â He asks with a dry laugh before nodding enthusiastically. Manically. âYouâre coming. Kevinâs life depends on it.â
âWhat are you talkinâ about? Are you threateninâ my cat? Thatâs a new low, Wade.â
âIs it? Is it really? I am certain that I can go unfathomably lower.â
You roll your eyes, half-way through turning your back on him.
âYou see this?â He holds out a gloved hand and catches some snowflakes. He rubs them between his fingers and they spark and fizzle before dusting away. âThatâs not snow. Thatâs time death. Our universe is dying, womp womp. Stay here, sure! By all means, butââ
Your cat launches out of the door behind you, chirping and meowing to himself before promptly dashing through the portal and disappearing into the blurry void on the other side.
âWell. Looks like he made his choice.â
He sighs and lets you process. You take the final swig of your coffee and huff a breath.
âYou literally have nothing left to lose. Trust me. I know. Iâve seen all kinds of you and, believe me when I say this, even though I love and cherish this version of you, thisââ he points two fingers at you and gestures towards you judgmentally. ââ isnât the best look on you, honey.â
You want to dismiss him. You want to turn him away, to tell him to get lost. Grief swallowed your heroism whole, turning it into a barren wasteland of bitter indifference. You used to be bright, full of light, love, and hope.
Fucking hope. Itâs the reason Logan left you to help Charles in the first place. You just wanted to settle down and disappear, to live a normal life. You lost an intrinsic part of your being when he died; you remember feeling it before you heard the news. Fucking hope.
Hope, hope, hope. Nana Rose chants on about it when she clasps your hands with her wrinkly ones, dragging you to church in spite of your atheism.
âAnd hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts,â she chants, basket of flowers on her hip. âRomans 5:5. Youâd do well to do your readinâ, tulip.â
You didnât and donât ever usually believe a word she says, but you can feel her faith. Itâs solid as steel, pouring out of her like blotting light through the gaps in the trees. Undying. And youâll be damned if you let anything happen to her.
A flicker remains. You imagine what Charles would say to you now, how youâd hang onto his every word and heâd bring out the better of you. You truly do have nothing left to lose, except maybe your cat. Over your dead body.
âCome ooon,â he pokes his fingers together. âFancy being a hero? One last time?â
You take the final drag before stubbing the cigarette out on your railing. âAlright, Red. Iâll bite.â
âThen suit up.â
Your friendship with Deadpool was a rocky one. There was a time you told him youâd be there for him through everything, and you technically owed him one for saving your life that one time even though your ego insists that, to this day, you couldâve taken the fight. Thatâs what heightened cellular control of your body is for, right? Accelerated healing? Empathetic abilities? Faster reactions, enhanced strengthâ you get the point.
Though you didnât realise that returning the favour meant following him through space, time and alternate dimensions, you were a person who stayed true to their word, and you hated being indebted to someone.
So, here you were, waking up in the middle of a barren wasteland that was seconded as a cocktail soup of abandoned universal relics and heroes ripped from their worlds, accompanying your ex-best friend to restore your timeline.
But, one thing about paying someone back, it doesnât technically count if they lie to you about the terms and conditions of the agreement. Only a few mere moments after you come to, dazed by the impact and the blaring wobbly heat of the sun, you rise to watch as Deadpool takes six blades of Wolverine to the chest.
Youâre still a little dizzy when you stagger to your feet, head throbbing, as youâre trying to process if, yes, thatâs exactly what you were witnessing.
âLetâs see you grow your fuckinâ head back!â Wolverine growls.
Deadpool holds his hands up in surrender. âWait, wait, wait! I can fix it! I can fix it!â
The man in yellow hesitates. âFix what?â
âWhatever it is that you did, whatever made you so badââ Wade pants, catching his breath. âThose pricks at the TVA, you heard âem. They have the power to end my universe, but they also have the power to change yours. We get back there, and we can fix your world! Together. I promise.â
You stumble from around a pile of debris, clutching your side as a rib pops back into place. Wolverine sniffs the air, face blanching as he snaps to look in your direction.
When you first make eye contact with him, it feels as though youâre resurfacing from water after being on the precipice of drowning. Your heart leaps into your throat, adrenaline boils your veins and your lungs burst with relief of breathing.
âTroubles always gonna find you, baby,â Logan murmurs, kissing his way up from the pulse in your throat as he rocks against you. âBut so am I.â
Youâve never loved him more, you think, than when he fucks you slow like this. A snowstorm rages outside the cabin, howling full of glass and needles and rattling the window frames. His skin against yours burns a fire within you, warming you to the bone. He sweeps hair away from your face before capturing your mouth in his, swallowing the sounds of your pants, threading his fingers between yours.
You could stay here forever, you think.
Your fingers shake from the whiplash of the memory. You instinctively reach towards him but you catch yourself. This was the husk of him, not your Logan. The realisation feels akin to ripping open a haphazardly sewn wound right down to the fatty yellow flesh, raw and needling and sore.
Heâs broader than you remember. Hair a little darker, wrinkles a little deeper. He smells of alcohol and cigars â that much is familiar. Thatâs him, flesh and adamantium bone, living, breathing. Alive. The physical shell of him prods alive parts of your inner circuitry that you werenât aware had fallen asleep, like intrinsic nerves untangling within you.
You can sense that he knows you, too, based on his emotional response. His noise is extremely loud, spilling out of the cracks of whatever wall he thought heâd successfully built up. This version of Logan certainly had a lot of secrets.
âYou,â he whisper-growls. Itâs almost intangible, leaving him like a breath. He pulls his blades promptly from Deadpoolâs chest and kicks him backwards.
Youâre starting to understand that faith thing that Nana Rose was knocking on about when he strides towards you, large and tall. You certainly werenât a believer by any means but youâre sure youâd be the picture of unbridled worship for the way youâd fall to your knees for him.
Your empathetic power lurches for him, seeking him out as you used to â like a flower to the sun â but it physically recoils from the aura that it touches. It was all your Logan but not in a familiar way. Itâs tainted, dark, and it tastes like copper and screams.
All colour melts from his face and his body shuffles in a way that indicates discomfort; a dry swallow, tense shoulders and flicking eyes that refuse to meet your gaze. He omits feelings of guilt and shame that linger on the tendrils of your empathetic powers where you connect with him.
You try to zone Wade out, squinting as you attempt to navigate through his cobweb of emotions (seriously, this guyâs aura could do with a cleanup) but itâs like wading through black-tar syrup, feelings negated by years of alcohol-abuse and avoidance. Eventually, you feel something that makes your guts twist and your legs shake: a version of romantic attraction and recognition so carnal and raw that you begin to blush, a warmth that creeps its way up from your belly. A breath escapes you like a punch.
âWell. This feels awkward.â Wade glances between you both and places his hands on his hips. âWhy do you both look like youâve seen a ghost? Do I need to call Egon Splegler and tell him to bring his ghost sucky-sucky vacuum? Oh my godââ He slaps his hands to his face and gasps sharply. âCross-Universal lovers?â
As inappropriately timed and tone-deaf his one-liners could be, youâd never been more appreciative of an icebreaker. You think you couldâve stood there for an hour, frozen in silence, staring at a reanimated corpse, basking in the noise of his emotional frequency like an addict finally getting another hit.
But then the noise stops, swallowed up like a heaving black hole had split and atomised the tension whole with its unforgiving jaws. He closes himself off from you. Connection severed. You reach out and feel a cold nothingness similar to how, on particularly rough nights, youâd try to reach out to him after his passing. Youâd clung onto his plaid shirts until the smell and emotional residue wore off of them.
âYou with the mouth? To fix things?â
You nod tightly. You donât think you can find your voice in front of him.
âLetâs just keep moving. And stay out of my head,â Logan grumbles, crossing you with a cold shoulder and mumbling something incoherent under his breath. When heâs made enough distance, you turn to your old friend with a cold glare.
âOoh, brr. Anybody else feel a chill?â
âWade.â
He twists towards you comically slow.
âYou. Motherfucker.â You begin approaching him. He backs up slowly and holds his hands up.
âI knew if I told you the plan you wouldnât have gone along with it!â
âAre you insane? You think multiversally grave-robbing my fucking dead ex-boyfriend is going to save our timelines?!â You yell.
âTechnically heâs not deadââ
You push him. âHe should be! He- he wasâ he is!â
âWell, this one isnât!â He pushes back. âAnd Iâm not sorry for finding a loophole in the plan to fry â not just mine, mind you â but both of our timelines! Did you happen to forget that? No multi-dimensional depressed Logan? Alright then! No more Kevin!â
Heâs talking about your cat. Anger flares.
âDonât you dare bring Kevin into this.â
âYou forced my hand!â He yells, mouth moving alien-like behind the mask on his face. âBesides, Iâm not doing this for meââ
You blink your eyes closed. You might reach the end of your tether if he said her name one more time. Youâve been in his company for approximately an hour, and heâs already drilled a hole into your brain with his incessant yapping about the âlove of his lifeâ.
âWade, you need to move on. She clearly has.â
âI will not move on from the only people I love in this fucked up dimension. This isnât just for Vanessa.â He shoves a glossy photograph in your face. âThis is for you and blind Al and even that shit-head teenager and her pinkie-pie girlfriend! They deserve their timeline!â
âI literally donât care about any of those people!â
Even yourself?
âWell, I do! I have people I care about! Arenât you supposed to be a hero? God, all of you X-men are so depressing. Is it the suits they make you wear? Is that it? Canât breathe in that thing?â He continues poking at you. âLoosen up a little!â
You straighten your posture and the black leather of your suit crackles. You swat his hands away as he continues poking. âAlright! Cut it out!â
âThink of Nana Rose.â He draws a heart with two fingers. âLittle old ladies like her deserve a chance, donât they?â
And even though humans had done nothing but wage war on your kind for simply existing, you still felt obliged to help them. Besides, the thought of other mutants â kid mutants â dying when you hold the chance to save them in the palm of your hand? You were hardly managing as you were now. Youâre not sure youâd be able to live with yourself if you kept going like this.
âAlright, alright!â You huff, heart pounding in your chest. You look over at where Wolverine kicks at rocks in the distance. âFucking hell, Red. Holy fuck.â
You say it again, only this time you scream it into your hands.
âYou shouldâve warned me.â
âAre we good?â
âAre we goââ You scoff. You kick his ankle, feel the bones shatter and crunch beneath your foot. He lets out a short, high-pitched yelp. âYou deserved that.â
âMotherfuckermotherfucker⊠oh youâre lucky I feel bad about lying to you or I wouldâve twisted your milk bags off for that I swear to God.â He sucks in a breath. âIâll allow it. Just this once.â
âMhm,â you murmur, walking forward. âThat doesnât sound like an apology.â
He limps after you, floppy ankle dragging a line in the sandy dirt. âIâll be dead before you ever get one of those out of me! And too bad I canât fucking die!â
The difference between this Logan and your Logan is stark, minus the uncanny resemblance. Your Logan was soft and gentle, but this version is sharper and blade-edged, and your fingers bleed when you try to touch him.
Staring at him feels like throwing up a mirror and analysing yourself, a picture of what happens to a person when they make all of the wrong choices. Youâre embarrassed, almost. This isnât a version of you that you ever want him to know, but at least you can say youâre trying.
Him, on the other handâŠ
âAre we going to keep up the awkward silence?â You snip, awkwardly adjusting the restraints on your wrist.
Youâve been in Loganâs company for all of an hour, and yet accompanying one another through literal time purgatory didnât seem to irk any feelings of obligation from his end. Heâd been cold-shouldering and ignoring you the entire time, even though you kept catching him staring.
âI have nothing to say to you,â he spits, wriggling uncomfortably against a very unconscious Deadpool. âYou got us into this mess.â
You frown, small. You can feel hatred pouring out from him, leaving a sickly bile taste in the back of your throat. Youâve lived through enough hate for being a mutant in your lifetime, enough that youâd become accustomed to tuning it out of your radio channel, so to speak, but something about it coming from the man you loved makes it a little harder to swallow.
Youâre quiet when you next speak. âDonât make this more difficult than it has to be.â
He shoots you an indistinguishable look and grunts to himself. Such a Libra.
âSo, whatâs the story here?â Johnny asks with a sly grin. He turns to you with a glimmer of mischief in his eye. âYou two know each other?â
You cringe. âSort of. Last I remember, he wasnât this much of a prick.â
âOh, trouble in paradise, huh?â His grin grows. âThatâs a shame. Not often we get girls like you in the void.â
âSeriously?â You say with a side-eye.
He shrugs, all blue-spandex biceps and charming smile. âNo harm in trying.â
Your breath hitches as Cassandra approaches, wide eyes and tilted head aiming for you purposefully. Logan swiftly angles his body so that heâs standing in front of you and she halts as a delighted, implicating smile stretches across her face. Your chest constricts, tendrils of yearning coiling tighter. It appeared to be muscle memory: his instinctual, protective flinch. Just like your Logan used to, despite how capable he knew you were.
âNow, Iâve always wanted a Wolverine.â Her finger moves along the crowd. âKnew Iâd get one eventually. But I never even dreamed of having you.â
Cassandra zips behind you and her slender fingers delve into the crevices and valleys of your brain, lips intimately close to your neck and ear. Wolverine snarls territoriality, but heâs unable to move. The urge to reach for him is overwhelming.
âDo you know that there are so few universes where you exist?â She whispers, caressing your deepest memories. âI even asked the TVA about you, in exchange for keeping the peace. I was disheartened when I found out one of you died. But youâre here! Now, I donât believe in fate, but this almost feels like it was meant to be.â
You flinch when she uncovers a particularly fond memory, one you hadnât been aware was so prominently in the forefront.
In the back of his truck, a cigar between his teeth, hands sliding under your shirt. In another world, he wouldâve taken the time to do this properly, but living in a school didnât exactly grant two consenting adults any privacy.
âWaited long enough for this.â
He kisses up from your bare foot to the sensitive skin of your inner knee, lips scorching against your skin.
âLoganâŠâ
âEasy,â he murmurs, leaning away for a moment to remove his plaid overshirt, leaving himself in that white vest you could eat him alive in. âStill wanna take my time with you.â
Youâre desperate, he can tellâ can probably smell it, too, but youâre far too humiliated to ask him if he can.
Logan wasnât your first by any means, but with the way you were near trembling for him truly felt like youâd be losing all of your innocence in the back seat. Youâre shy and quiet, everything he isnât. Youâre infatuated with him â have been since he burst out of the lab in his grey hoodie â and have daydreamed about what it would be like to have him. You certainly didnât let him know that right away, and with whatever shred of composure remained around his relentless flirting and teasing remarks, you tried to play hard to get.
Until you couldnât. Because you werenât. He had you, and with every fibre of your being, you wanted him to.
She pulls her hands from your brain with a shlick sound, rubbing her fingers together as if relishing in the produce of your memories. She grabs a rag from her pocket and smirks knowingly.
âYouâre thinking of that at a time like this?â She laughs all witch-like. âWorry not; your secretâs safe with me, naughty girl.â
Wade lowers his voice and leans towards Logan. âShe was thinking of me.â
âI can read between the lines, darling,â she potters on. âThis isnât about a sexual fantasy. Deep down, you just want to be wanted. To be loved.â
She steps back and extends her arms. âAfter all, youâll never amount to anything in your world. Itâs such a shame that your Logan left you so abruptly. Did he break your heart?â She giggles. âWhy suppress your powers in his name? For a level-five mutant, you certainly donât act like one. You can do that, here. Freely!â
Your worn thin tether creaks with exhaustion like a dilapidated bridge under pressure. There isnât a singular fibre of your being that desires to be stuck here, but the small, angry teenage voice in your head would love nothing more than to just let go. Youâd been containing your powers for as far as you can remember, and they'd always been as irresistible as the promise of Pandora's box.
But you know how that story ends.
You take a momentâs pause. âI have no interest in livinâ in a garbage dump.â
She tilts her head and neatly clasps her hands behind her back. âDo you forget where you come from? I think we both know who lives in a garbage dump.â
âYou motherfââ
Youâd just managed to escape Cassandraâs lair with Aliothâs foggy storm fangs nipping at your ankles when you ran across the abandoned diner.
Youâre ravenous, wrist aching from how you dig at the freezer-burned ice cream. Itâs your least favourite flavour but youâve been running on fumes for the past day or so, so youâll take what you can get, though you begin to lose your appetite when you remember Johnny, and how Cassandra had zipped the skin from him like popping a blood-filled water balloon.
Something is rumbling beneath your surface. A distinct, constant buzzing, like two atoms slowly building up radioactive energy. Youâd asked for none of this, and would certainly give Wade a talking to when the time called for it, but, for now, youâre trying your hardest to make this as easy a process as possible.
Your male counterpart, however, was doing exactly what men generally do. He was making this fucking unbearable.
Logan sits across from you, brooding, fingers gripping the medicinal bottle as if itâs anywhere near appropriate to be drinking. He throws you a particularly lingering glare when he notices you staring, but refuses to maintain eye contact when you look back at him
You toss the tub and spoon across the table with a sharp clatter, your patience collapsing.
âWhat? Canât even look at me?â You snap. His eyes look exhausted when they finally meet yours. Wade, being the characteristic little fucker he is, pulls a delighted, shit-stirring grin as he glances between the two of you as if watching a tennis match.
Logan gasps as he finishes taking a drink. âNot much to look at,â he says, wiping the back of his mouth.
The words twist like a fist in your gut. For a moment, youâre rendered too stunned to respond, like heâd tossed a flash-bang toward you. His casual cruelty digs deeper than you care to admitâ but youâve had far too much therapy, too much psychological training, to know heâs deflecting.
But you wouldnât doubt for a second that there was a more beautiful version of you somewhere.
âWhat, you comparinâ me to someone?â You ask. You can tell youâve struck a nerve by the way he goes for another sip. âThat it?â
He grimaces.
âDo I make you feel sick? Am I making you feel sick?â
He stares at you hard, but silently. He takes a long swig of the rubbing alcohol and you cringe as his throat bobs. His silence and feigned indifference light a fire of indignation.
âYou know, youâre not the only person whoâs suffered. Whoâs lost people.â
He laughs like what youâre saying is funny. âYeah, right, bub, you have got no idea what loss is.â
âOh, you are such a fucking cunt,â you spit, slamming your hands on the table as you rise to your feet. âYou know what, Wade? Youâre right. I canât do this. So fuck you and fuck his timeline and fuck every timeline that had anything to do with it! Iâm done.â
A wave of uncontrolled psionic energy born from your anger blasts from you upon your final words, slamming them back into their seats and sending the cutlery, nearby debris and weapons flying. The neighbouring windows smash, shattering explosively and sprinkling outside of the diner.
The simmering stops, replaced by a stifling emptiness.
âI wasnât finished with that!â Wade cries, crouching down to scoop up what remains of the gelatinous spam.
You pause for a moment, glance at your hands, and then grab your jacket in an aggressive fit.
Wade whines your name, halfway through gagging down a forkful of cold spam off of the floor (one of which resonates with a particularly distinct crunch, but you donât stay to find out whether or not he just truly ate glass), and he doesnât attempt to get up and follow you as you storm off.
You take a heaving breath of hot desert air when you leave the diner. The sandy breeze tousles your hair, and with the prickly energy of an incoming nervous breakdown, your legs kick and youâre running.
âStryker got you, too?â Logan asks, eyebrows flicking up.
You donât look him in the eye when you nod. You cross your arms and slouch a little, caging your heart in. Stryker â the ex-militant with a fetish for experimenting on mutants â had held you captive for several years. Heâd brainwashed you into using your empathetic abilities for nefarious purposes, like seducing other mutants, and sometimes important political and militant figures.
âYou like me?â He questions, quieter this time.
âNo⊠no, not like you,â you reply. âI donât have the fancy bones. I heal fast, but I wouldnât survive that kinda procedure.â
âAh.â
âI donât remember everything. Just bits and pieces. Feelings, mostly. Nightmares,â you explain. He nods understandingly. âIâm always on edge.â
âYou always seem so calm,â he observes. âNothing seems to phase you.â
âI have to be. It took a lot of pain and damage to get this level-headed,â you respond quickly. âIf I donât manage my emotions, all the emotions that I receive, touchâ it all comes out. Explosively. It has to come out somehow. I could hurt people.â
âFunny. School therapist ânâ youâve got the most issues,â he teases light-heartedly.
âYou got no idea, lumberjack.â
You hated killing.
Youâre on your knees, arms and hands and chest soaked crimson, sobbing. Theyâd come out of nowhere, the raiders, and they were hungry for something you couldnât quite put your finger on. All you know is that you felt their need, their desperation, their willingness to do anything to get it.
The flash of harrowing horror someone feels before they die isnât a unique experience. It simply varies in strength â sometimes itâs a feather-like touch that careens over you, a shuddering realisation that theyâre taking their last breath, and sometimes itâs like a crack of lightning. Bloodied hands gripping your biceps with fear in a final attempt to survive. Theyâd rather cling to you than die alone.
You hate killing. Especially this up close.
You donât cry for them. You donât even cry for yourself. Itâs a small emotional space where they cry vicariously through you.
You were black-out when it happened, you tell yourself, and suddenly regress to the student you used to be, sobbing on your knees in front of Charles as he tries to teach you serenity and control after an outburst had caused you to kill a nest of birds. Heâd done it for Magneto, he saidâ so he could certainly do it for you.
You should have meditated more.
The sound of a car gurgles somewhere behind you, but you havenât the energy to look or use your powers to seek out whoâs approaching and what their intent is. Youâre exhausted enough that whatever they wish to do with you â turn you to processed dog kibble, send you back into the jaws of Cassandraâs lair, kill you â whatever. Just let it happen.
A slamming car door and then the crunching of boots on gravel.
âYouâre easy to track.â A pause. âYou look pathetic. You done throwing your tantrum?â
Logan. Of course, itâs him.
âLeave me alone, prick.â
âAs much as Iâd like to, you and the Mouth still have to hold up your end of the bargain,â he quips, folding his arms across his broad chest. âNow get up.â
You glare up at him and his arms unfurl as he notices your tear-streaked face. His expression drops, softens, before it quickly ticks back up into an incredulous, irritated look.
âAre you crying?â He asks with a scoff. He pauses before dragging his hand down his face and rubbing his scruffy jaw. âJesus Christ. Get up. Get in the car.â
âI ainât fuckinâ around, Logan. Piss. Off.â
He mumbles a string of incoherent curses and turns on his heel. You think, for a moment and a breath of relief, that heâs truly going to give up on you and leave. He could finish this without you. Itâs easier this way.
Instead, a thick bicep wraps around your middle and youâre flung over his shoulder with a yelp.
âQuit your squirminâ.â
âThen put me down!â You yell, thrashing in his grasp. He promptly ignores you, unphased by the jabs you strike at his back. You quickly unsheath the small knife from your jacket sleeve, winding up your arm before you drive it into the muscly pocket by his kidneys.
âOw! Cheap shot, you little fucker!â
Wade sighs and clutches his hands in front of his chest romantically. âOh, the newlyweds.â
Logan dumps you into the front seat of the car carelessly, grumbling something as he slams the door shut and applies the child locks. Petty motherfucker.
You rub the sore spot on your tailbone where you landed on a seat buckle funny. You want to bite your tongue but youâre flared up.
âWe should switch places. Iâm a better driver than you are.â
Logan doesnât bother looking at you as he starts up the ignition. âJust shut up.â
âYou can go on ahead and smoke a cat turd in hell, then.â
âSo fuckinâ immature. Grow up.â
âMom and Dad can you please stop fighting!â Deadpool cries out from the backseats.
You just roll your eyes, resigning into your chair and folding your arms.
At some point along the ride, Wade falls asleep, snoring soundly to himself. Youâre silent in the front, drumming a beat on your knees, awkwardly thinking of something to say. You have the impulsive need to fill the silence, even if you were trapped in a crappy car with a man who had made it vehemently clear that he irrevocably hated you.
âSo, if they can fix your world, whatâs the first thing youâll do?â
Logan rips his eyes towards you. âWhat did you say?â
âI said when you get back, whatâs the first thingââ
âNo, no, noâ before that.â
You hesitate, wondering if youâd landed yourself in a trap based on the sharpness of his tone and the way that anger crackles off of him like static lightning.
âIf⊠they can fix your world?â
He slams his foot on the brake and you just about catch yourself before your nose goes flying into the dashboard. Wade is thrust out of the front window, smashing through and promptly falling unconscious underneath a tree, neck broken at an awkward angle.
Your eyes widen.
âWhat do you mean: if?â
âThatâs what Wade saidââ
âI donât give a fuck who said what. He promised me he would fix thingsââ
âWell, I didnât promise you shit!â
He laughs, low and devoid of humour. âYou donât have a clue if they can fix things, do you?â
Well, no. Youâve been operating on a hunch the entire time and had half come to accept that you might be stuck in the TVA void forever. Who knows how much time has passed elsewhere?
Regardless of the fact you truly had nothing to do with whatever came out of Wadeâs mouth, you werenât about to let Mr. Worst Wolverine shit all over him and his plan to save his friends.
âIs it really that far-fetched? We made an educated wish!â
Something dark flashes across his face. You can feel hate pulsing off of him in dizzying waves, doubling with each passing moment.
âYou made⊠an educated fucking wish?â
âWhatâs your problem with me, huh? Got a stick up your ass?â You reach for the car door handle, but he snaps up your wrist, holding it high. âYou better let go of me right now, old manââ
âOr what, huh? Gonna run away again?â He threatens.
âYou geriatric, alcoholic motherfucker. Iâve done nothinâ but try and be civil with you and you treat me like Iâm the one who ruined your life! I donât know what version of me you knew but you need to stop actinâ like I ainât worthy of being here because of what you did!â
âListen, Iâll tell you what my problem is with youââ he leans closer, eyes roving over you with a disgusted look on his face. âI mean, you are a ridiculous, emotional, immature crybaby. I have never met a sadder, more attention-seeking, foul-mouthed little bitch in my entire life and that says a lot because Iâve been alive for more than two hundred fuckinâ years.â
âAnd Iâll tell you, that bald chick was right about one thing: you will never amount to anything. Youâll never save the world. You couldnât even save a relationship with me. Iâd say you shouldâve died alone but itâs one of Godâs best jokes that in this universe you didnât seem to fuckinâ die, except that ones on the rest of all of us!â
He breathes heavily when his rant finishes. Youâre taken aback, jaw slack, eyes warm with the onset of tears born from shock.
âWhat, you got nothinâ to say, empath?â
You suck in a deep breath, blinking slowly as you flick the emotional switch off in your head.
âIâm going to hurt you now.â
He snorts. âOh, are you?â
In a swift manoeuvre, you raise your slap him around the face. You knew better than to punch a metal skull, but you still wanted him to sting. His eyes slit, nostrils flaring in challenge.
âThat all you got?â
âNot even close,â you snap back, knuckles whitening from the way you curl your fingers into your palm. âYou want to play this game, Logan? Fineâ but Iâm not gonna sit here and keep on provinâ myself to you. Iâve had enough of your Christ-born-again superiority complex. Did you forget that youâre the worst Wolverine?â
âOh, yeah? Well, at least Iâm honest about who I am. Look at youâ youâre a fuckinâ joke, pretending to be some hero in a suit made for a dead team,â he barks back, voice rising with each word. âI donât need your bullshit âwishesââ you should know, Iâve buried people for less.â
âYeah, because youâre so perfect, ainât that right?â You yell, voice cracking from the power of your anger. âThe almighty Wolverineâ the unkillable bastard who canât seem to hold onto anythinâ good in his life! Youâve had centuries to get your shit together, and look at youââ You look him up and down with disgust. ââstill just a bitter, lonely, broken man, takinâ it out on everyone else and a goddamn bottle.â
His eyes narrow, muscles in his jaw twitching as he appears to fight and keep his temper in check, but thereâs an obvious crack forming, the dam of his unbridled rage near overflowing.
âYou think you know me, huh?â He murmurs, voice a deadly whisper, the calm before the storm. âYou donât know a goddamn thing about what Iâve been through. Youâre nothing but a lost woman playing make-believe and hiding in the shadow of a fuckinâ merc. Youâre pathetic.â
Something inside of you breaks. âIâm pathetic? Look at yourself! Youâre so goddamn desperate to feel anythinâ that youâll lash out at everyone around you for some semblance of warmth. Thereâs a fine line between hate and love, after all! You think youâre so strong because you can heal, because youâve lived forever? Yeah, rightâ youâre the weakest, most cowardly man Iâve met in a loong time.â
The blades between his knuckles shoot out with a shink! For a moment, you think that heâs going to attack you. Hellâ you even hope that he will, just to diminish some of the unbearable, stifling tension. Instead, the blades retract with a deep breath, and he grabs you forcefully by the collar of your suit, yanking you so close that you can feel the heat of his breath on your face.
His voice is low and rough, each word dripping with venom. âGo on, keep psychoanalysing me. You wanna talk about cowardice? How about leaving people who need you, just because itâs easier to run? Better yet, how about the fact that you abandoned the X-men to hide away in the mountains, huh?â
Your eyes widen with recognition.
âYeah⊠Wadeâs got a big mouth. Told me everythinâ. Youâre no hero. Hell, youâre just a selfish, reckless hillbilly who failed at pretending to be human.â
Your heart palpitates in your chest, each word coiling and slicing like blades in your intestines, but you refuse to let him see how much it hurts. Instead, your lips curl into a cold, bitter smile, one that doesnât quite reach your eyes.
âAnd youâre just a sad, angry old man who canât handle the fact that heâs lost everythinâ. Go ahead: keep pushing people away! Keep hidinâ behind that anger oâ yours! Itâs got you this far, ainât it?! Iâve treated kids with trauma worth double yours and they were nothinâ but kind and selfless. I wonât let you project your failures onto me. Iâm done with this.â
âYeah, why donât you walk away!â
The argument reaches a fever pitch, tension sizzling in the air between you. Youâre so close, glaring at each other with so much anger, so much resonating heat, that it feels like somethingâs going to break. And then, suddenly, it does.
Before either of you can think, you close the gap between you, lips crashing against his. Itâs not gentle, itâs not softâ the kiss is rough, violent, a clash of lips and fury. His grip on your collar tightens, and for a moment, youâre both frozen, caught in the shock of whatâs happening.
But then something more fiery in nature than anger ignites, and he kisses you back just as fiercely, and maybe a little more desperateâ like heâs trying to pour out all of his pain and resentment, into this one moment. Your tongues slide against each other and his teeth catch against yours as he groans into your mouth. Your hands thread through his hair, yanking him closer as if trying to hold onto something real and tangible in the chaos of the kiss, reeling from the sudden spinning in your head. Itâs angry, raw, filled with all the things youâre not capable of verbalising: grief, love, yearning, reconciliation.
The result of a painful reunion.
The world falls away and all thatâs left is the taste of him, the feel of his lips against yours, rough and demanding. You hate him right nowâ hate him so much that you canât help but want him. The sheer intensity of it all overwhelms you and makes your fingers shake against the nape of his neck, but you canât pull awayâ not now, not when youâve tasted the wine. Youâre too far gone, caught up in the storm of his intoxication, fantasising about ripping that yellow and blue suit off of him and riding him until thereâs nothing left for him to regenerate.
And then, just as suddenly as it started, the bubble of the moment bursts with the sound of slow clapping coming from outside the car. You jerk back from Logan, breath coming in ragged gasps. Logan is equally as stunned, still tight-gripping your collar as if he doesnât know what else to do with his hands.
You both see Wade sitting up, hands together, eyes wide as saucers as he takes in the scene.
âWhoa, whoa, whoa. Did I just wake up in a telenovela?â His voice is laced with amusement. âI mean, I know you two clearly had some unresolved sexual tensionâ but this? Oh, this is gold. Please donât stop on my account, just let me get the camcorder first!â
Youâre too stun-locked to respond, lips parting and closing as your brain scrambles to formulate a response as youâre still reeling from what just happened. Logan (for once) seems equally as lost for words, his typical scowl replaced with a look of confusion.
âShut up, Mouth,â Logan barks, but thereâs no real heat behind it. There canât be, really, not when youâve both been caught red-handed. He releases your collar at once.
Wade, however, is having none of it. âOh, no, no, no! You donât just get to brush this off like itâs nothing! That was a full-on makeout session! I only interrupted because I thought you were about to rip each otherâs clothes off.â He sighs wistfully and crosses his legs. âHere I was thinking that you two hated each otherâ but I guess all that anger was just foreplay, huh?â
Your face burns with a mixture of shame and something else youâre not quite ready to admit. âWadeâ cut it out.â
He grins, not deterred in the least. âOh, but Iâm loving this. All that pent-up aggression finally coming to fruition. Itâs beautiful, truly.â
Logan shoots him a look that could melt iron, but Wade just simply shrugs, unfazed. âHey, Iâm just saying what everyoneâs thinking. Everyone being me.â
âWade,â you warn through gritted teeth.
âWell, unless you want me to watch (which I am not opposed to, by the way) maybe next time the two of you should get a room,â he tilts his head. âOr, you know, a couples therapist.â
He then turns to address Logan directly.
âAnd I mustâve missed the AO3 tags because I did not peg you for the enemies-to-lovers type, Mister. Who knew all it took was a bit of hate-kissing to get the sparks flying? Donât look so ashamed! Iâm just jealous I didnât get to you first.â
He stumbles towards the car and collapses into the back seat. âNext time you wanna bump uglies, just ask for some privacy! You can save me the broken neck!â He gets himself comfortable, man-spreading and laying his hands on both of your shoulders as you stare dead-forwards, unable to look at each other.
âGosh, youâre both so tense.â He begins massaging. âLookâ props to you both for not letting all that angst go to waste. This is a safe space, and thereâs no shame in a little hormone-inducedââ
âOh, for Godâs sake,â Logan interrupts, revving the car back to life and shoving his prodding hands away. âJust be quiet back there.â
âFine, fine. Iâll keep the commentary to myself. But just so you knowâ got that bad boy playing on repeat, right here.â He says, tapping the side of his head.
You bury your face in your hands. This was going to be a long car ride.
As the car starts moving again, you muster the bravery to risk a glance at Logan. His expression is hard to read but his energy thrums with uncertainty. The boiling hatred seems to have dialled down to a gentle simmer, mostly redirected towards himself rather than you. Thereâs something elseâ something that wasnât there before. You rip your eyes away quickly, mind racing.
For somebody so in tune with emotions and the literal ability to manipulate them if you so desired, you were horrendous at navigating your own. You donât know what this kiss meant, or if it even meant anything at all.
If thereâs anyone you didnât expect to come across in the void, itâs X-23â Laura. Sheâs taller, now, with hair down her back, but sheâs still got that stern, mean look on her face that intimidated you the first time you met her.
The weak front door squeaks when you open it a crack. A girl, maybe in her small teen years, blinks up at you.
âCan I help you?â You ask, wiping your flour-dusty hands down on the front of your cooking apron.
âAre youââ she says your name.
You attempt to swing the door shut, but she jams it with her boot. You flick your eyes up, glance around for any signs of threats, and then lower your gaze to her. You wrap your cardigan around your mid-section.
âI donât go by that name anymore. Who the Hell are you, kid, and what do you want?â
âIâm here about Logan,â she says, matter-of-factly.
Logan. A name followed by your own, both of which you hadnât heard in years.
âHeâs not here, kid. He died years ago.â
âI know,â she answers, unwavering. âI was there when it happened. Your name was the last thing he said.â
Youâd let her in for a glass of sugary sweet tea that day, but once stories were exchanged you told her not to come back. She respected your wishesâ she said she simply wanted to put a name to the face, to get closure, but youâd felt her desperation. Perhaps she was seeking out respite, or family, but you were in no position to be sharing your space with someone who could put another target on your back.
After introductions were made with the others who had been ripped from their timelines (Elektra, Blade and oh my god a Gambit variant with muscles so huge he could pop your head between his biceps) you excused yourself to sit outside. The buzzing emotional energy made your collar feel a little tight around the neck, your head a little fuzzy with noise, so you decided to reignite the small campfire a few yards away from the safe-house and rest there, instead.
You hadnât realised you were being followed.
âItâs not safe here.â
âItâs not safe anywhere, Logan.â
He looks defeated, raising and clasping his hands behind his head.
âI gotta leave, baby.â
âIf you leave, I ainât lettinâ you back,â you whisper. âYou donât heal the same anymore, Logan, and you promised meââ
âI know what I promised,â he rebuts, but not angrily. You can already see on his face that heâs made his choice. Heâs not coming to you to discuss it. âBut I owe it to him. To Charles. He gave me everything.â
âSo then what did I give you?â You ask. âNot a home, not my love, not everything?â You slam the tea towel down and turn away from him as the tears form. Heâs quiet, perhaps processing everything, but youâre too impatient.
âIf youâre just gonâ get up and leave, do it now. I wonât beg you to stay, Jimmy.â
âI love you.â
You donât say it back.
You wake up with a start, damp clinging to your forehead. You immediately sense another presence and glance over to see Logan watching you with a steady gaze. His expression is soft and almost reverent at first, but his facade hardens with a quick tick of his jaw.
âYou talk in your sleep.â The bottle in his hand sloshes as he takes a drink. âNightmare?â
You sigh frustratedly when you realise itâs him. Of course, itâs him â his energy reeks of whiskey and self-loathing. You prop yourself on your elbows, massaging the sore spots on your temples where sleep fog forms.
âI canât even get some rest without you botherinâ me? Youâre leakinâ self-hatred everywhere.â
âQuit hogging the fire then.â
âFuck you,â you murmur, but itâs without bite.
A moment passes before he fills the silence again. âWhat are you even doing out here, alone? Trying to get yourself killed? Pretty stupid.â
âDo you know how hard it is to sleep when nobody shuts up?â
His brows knit. âTheyâre all dead asleep.â
His hand runs up and down your back.
âCanât settle?â He asks after you sigh.
âNo.â You turn so youâre lying on your back, shoulder touching his, staring up at the ceiling. âEveryone is feeling so loud. Itâs like a frequency I canât turn off.â
He hums. âTheyâre grieving, I sâpose.â
âEven you and you always said you hated the guy.â You shuffle to lie on your side, facing him. You place a hand on his bare chest. âI can feel it, you know.â
âI didnât hate Scott. Just found him⊠obnoxiously irritating.â
âTough guy.â You giggle and stroke his cheek. âYouâre turninâ soft, old man.â
He pulls you flush against him and presses a kiss to your hairline. You lay in verbal silence for a while, soaking up his presence (god, you were so in love), but youâre interrupted when he abruptly sits up and grabs the white vest he discarded somewhere near the bed.
You lean on your elbows. âWhere you goinâ?â
âLetâs go for a ride.â
âWhat?â
âYou canât sleep here. Letâs go somewhere quieter.â
âBut Charles saidââ
âScrew Charles. You cominâ or what?â
He hadnât told you he loved you yet, but at that moment you felt it.
And so you do, clinging to his mid-section on his motorcycle, head stuffed into the helmet he affectionately forces you to wear. Itâs a warm night in New York, soupy with heat, but the further you get away from the compound with him by your side the more you feel you can breathe.
ââCourse, you donât understand.â
You reach for the small pouch on your hip and retrieve a cigarette. You light it between your lips, taking a seat a few paces away from him, hands still shaking a little with the aftershocks of the night terror.
âSince when did you start smoking?â
You perk a brow. âIâve always smoked.â
He seems to realise something and simply shakes his head before returning to the vice in his fist.
âRight.â
You stare at him for a long, passing moment, before pulling out your lighter again and offering it towards him. He perks a brow.
âI know you got a cigar in there somewhere,â you say. He pauses, sighs, and then retrieves a thick cigar from one of the pouches on his suit. You lean closer, flick the lighter, and cup your hand to protect it from the breeze, shamelessly glancing at the dancing glow that bathes his face amid the firelight. You feel the urge to kiss him again, and when his eyes flick up to yours, you think for the briefest second that he wants to kiss you, too.
Swallowing, you collapse your lighter and clear your throat. You sit quietly, smoking and drinking in a silence only negated by the distant sound of chittering bugs around you. Once youâre finished with your cigarette, you toss the butt into the fire.
âWeâre infiltrating tomorrow morning.â
He laughs dryly. âYeah, good luck with that.â
Your lips tighten into a thin line. âWe wonât make it without you.â
âSure you will. Iâm not him, you know,â Wolverine grumbles, slugging another shot of alcohol.
You scrutinise him from across the log. You wonder if he feels as pathetic as he looks.
âNoâ you got that right,â you answer. You pry the liquor from his hands but the grip he releases from the neck of the bottle must have been a mercy on his part because you knew he was extraordinarily stronger than you. âHe was much braver than you.â
His eyes flicker from the flames to you as you take a long swig.
âAlthough probably just as stupid.â
A pause. Crackling and popping firewood fills the silence.
âBut, he was a hero. And so are you.â
A beat before he spits a dry laugh, âwhat gave you that idea?â
You give him a once over and offer a half-smile. âThat suit, for starters.â
He looks down at himself like heâd forgotten he was wearing it and wipes away a stray speck of blood from the bright material that youâre sure you might be responsible for.
âWhat, you like it?â He grunts.
You canât help but smile. âYellow suits you.â
âThis is all I had left to remember youâ them by,â he says, tone turning more sombre as he reminisces.
You decide itâs not the time to make another jab, so, instead, you play back and forth with the bottle for a while until the alcohol stops stinging your throat.
Something small shatters inside of you when you watch him muster the strength to look into your eyes, and his look a little glassy.
âDid you love him?â
Woof, that needed a healthy drink of courage to answer. When you hold his gaze, thereâs a hollowness to his expressionâ an unasked question. Was there truly a version of him worth loving?
âYeah.â You wipe the back of your hand across your mouth to cover the crack in your voice. âYeah, I did.â
Heâd insisted he hadnât wanted you around yet heâd kissed you and now followed you to where youâd been sleeping. That had to count for something, so you extend your arm and gesture the bottle towards himâ an olive branch in the form of shitty Jack Daniels. Your fingers touch when he accepts it and the brief glimmer of eye contact you share sends shivery energy zipping between you.
âI loved him,â you repeat, as if convincing yourself. A repeated balm to soothe the pain of letting him leave.
âHeâs an idiot for leaving you.â
You bite back a sob-laugh, imagination caught somewhere between wondering who youâd rather beat up more: him, or yourself.
âMaybe Iâm an idiot for not followinâ him.â You sniff deeply to push back the incoming sob-induced mess. âNot that he woulda let me.â
He hums resignedly.
Clearing your throat, you tuck your hands between your thighs. Swiftly moving on. âWhat was Iâ she like?â
He takes a long drink and sighs thickly when he comes up for air. He looks down at his hands when he talks as if choosing his words thoughtfully and carefully.
âStrong, smart. Stubborn. Far too fuckinâ stubborn.â
You force a smile over the flinch of pain in your chest. âGuess we got that in common.â
You reach up and twist the dog tag around your neck, feeling for the ring youâd slipped around the chain. You were never married legally but were in all the ways that mattered. Your heart aches for the brief moment of domesticity you shared with him. You expect him to be finished, but he once laughs, a smile cracking on his face.
âShe loved kidsâ had a soft spot for the weird ones.â He squints and rubs at the flesh between his knuckles where the blades typically protrude. âPut me in my place. Stood up for what was right.â
His words strike a chord in your heart, playing the familiar tune of yearning and guilt and grief. A swelling sensation rises from your stomach and youâre not sure if youâre going to scream, cry or throw up.
âWere youâ?â
âIn love with her? What, like you canât tell?â He interrupts, face hardening. Another drink. âIt doesnât matter. We argued one night and I refused to follow her back to the school, âbout the same time the humans went mutant hunting.â
Logan takes a moment to catch himself.
âWhen I came back, shit-faced from the bar, I realised Iâd gotten my version of you murdered, along with the rest of them. Laid up like a fucking log pile. Thatâs what loving me got you.â
The gruesome imagery sours the liquor in your stomach. You push the nausea down with a hard swallow.
âIâm sorry.â
âWhââ He jolts back, face pinched. âI got you killed, and youâre fuckinâ sorry?â
âThereâs a world where you didnât make that choice. You know, Iâm not proud of who I am, either,â you answer, softly. âAfter you left and I lost you⊠I got bitter, stopped pulling my punches.â
âYou never liked hurting people.â
âI didnât.â You take a deep breath, willing away the warmth that pools behind your eyes. You quickly regain composure with a short cough. âWhatever woman youâre comparing me to, I stopped being her a long time ago. Like you told meâ Iâm no hero.â
He grunts, looking like he regrets saying that now. Checkmate. Youâre not what either of you expected or yearned for in one another, but maybe youâre exactly what you both need.
âYou know, your accents thicker.â
He says it as if to draw a line of separation, but you take it as an invitation. Your head swims from the alcohol, and against what probably is your better judgement, you inch closer to him until your knees bump against each other.
âThatâs what I get for hidinâ in the mountains. Got adopted by a scary old lady and her church friends. I reckon she rubbed off on me. Youâd like her, I think,â you tell him fondly. Thereâs something wistful about it, imagining a life with him. You grieve a life you never had but somehow, in his company, the melancholy loosens its grip.
âMaybe we got lucky,â you add flatly.
He lifts the bottle with a dry laugh. âYou have a very funny idea of what lucky means, bub.â
âWell, I wouldnât be so sure. Yâsee, they didnât get lucky. They died, ânâ we lost each other,â you explain, glancing up at the stars as if either version of you would ever be in heaven, as if it was as loving enough as a motherâs womb to stretch wide enough to allow space for mutants.
God probably hated you just as much as they did down here.
You lower your head onto his shoulder. âBut, weâre still here. Maybe there was always space in my universe for you.â
âYouâre drunk,â he observes flatly, but he doesnât move.
âA little.â You get more comfortable against his tense bicep and close your eyes. âHumour me, why donât you?â
He sighs, but itâs gentle. âJust for a while.â
âGood, because youâre not very good at keeping your feelings quiet. I know you like this.â
âKeep that to yourself.â
You sigh, eyes remaining closed. âWe ainât gonna talk about it, are we?â You ask, in reference to the kiss.
âNope.â
A high-pitched whine resonates in your ears, vision blurring as if lying underneath a rippling river current. Paradox has just explained the stakes to you â to stop Cassandra, somebody would have to lay down on the wire and make the sacrifice play. This wasnât a matter of regeneration anymoreâ it was being ripped apart from the seams, atomised.
It just so happens that your cat, Kevin, has been loving his little journey around the TVA. Cheater.
âYou wonât survive it,â is what you say in response to Logan offering himself up for the job. What you really meant was: I donât think I can survive losing you again.
âI know,â Logan answers. His eyes drip to where you palm at the slow-healing wound on your side, courtesy of the Lady Deadpool variant. Youâre winded, running on fumes, and know youâre in no position to start throwing yourself out there as a suicide volunteer. Youâd never make the journey, let alone succeed in your venture.
âThatâs why itâs gotta be me,â Deadpool interrupts, peeling the mask from his face to address you both. âNeither of you asked for any of this. You were right. I lied. I lied right to both of your faces â just to get you to help me, and you did.â
âYou didnât lie,â Logan replies, throwing you a glance. âYou made an educated wish.â
He reaches into his pocket and slaps the bloodied Polaroid of Deadpoolâs friends against Wadeâs chest. The gesture is a final, silent acknowledgement of why any of you are here in the first place, and everything thatâs led to this moment.
âI got nothinâ back in my world,â he explains, the sharp arrow of his words striking a sting straight through your heart. âLet me do this. For you.â
You could see that this meant more to him, that he would only deem himself worthy and die a peaceful death if he could do it knowing he saved at least one variant of you. This is more than just a mission. This is his only chance to redeem himself, and you know youâre in no position to start trying to convince him that youâd have him either way. Fuck redemption.
Youâre parallel from one another, standing just outside of touching distance. It was a cruel existenceâ reaching out and never quite being able to hold on. Itâs inevitable, the pull you feel. Youâre dictated by his gravity but cursed by the narrative.
Your chest rises and falls with shallow, laboured breaths as you attempt to process whatâs happening, what heâs asking you to let him do. The pain in your side ebbs only from the comparative pain of watching another version of the man you love sacrifice himself for you.
His voice is a quiet whisper. âGive me this.â
But I love you. The words are there, hiding behind your clenched teeth, gnawing at the bars like a feral animal caged in the reminder that this isnât â shouldnât be â the man that you love.
Something shifts and as youâre running on the delirium of your battery running low, healing resources drained, you decide that you donât actually care to make the distinction any more.
Youâre in no condition to fight; you barely had the energy to argue with him, let alone stop him. But you canât just let him go.
One wobbly step forward. You poke his chest, mustering whatever energy remains to express your feelings in the only true way you know how. âIâŠâ you stammer, but you suddenly canât find the words.
His hand reaches up and he splays yours flat against his chest. Faintly, buried deep behind the armoured layer of his suit, you feel the distinct thunk, thunk of his heart. He exhales deeply when your empathetic energy transmission reaches the other side. Your eyes connect, and even through the sharp whites of his mask, you can feel the psionic pulse resonating between you twoâ strong enough that the wound on your side begins to sew itself together.
âI know,â he whispers.
And you believe that he does.
He nods shortly, releases your hand, and turns on his heel. You collapse against the control centre, eyes needling through the camera footage, desperate to watch the final moments and know that his sacrifice was worth it.
Itâs about the same time that Deadpool yanks his mask back on and barrels down the hallway after him.
âWade!â
You glance back at the party as you creep towards the apartment door to leave. Your consciousness has only recently slipped back into place, having hovered somewhere above your body for the entire time you witnessed your friends atomically ripped apart, only for them to return mere moments later.
You think it mightâve been witnessing Wolverine sweaty and shirtless that was finally the last straw for you. Youâre not sure youâve recovered since.
You thought you were being sneaky about your departure, but a flat hand reaches from out of view, splays and then holds the door closed.
âYou sure I canât convince you to stay?â Logan asks, voice slow and tentative.
âI ainât runninâ this time, I promise,â you answer. He rests his arm on the beam above him, making him appear even taller and maybe even more imposing. Your pulse quickens as you look up at him, trying to find the right words, ones that you hope wonât give you away. You nearly squeak. âI umâ justââ
He arches a brow, a hint of a micro-smirk playing at the corner of his mouth. He shifts, getting closer by just a fraction. âYeah?â
Trying to keep your distance is proving to be immensely hard when heâs gotten himself this deliciously close. His energy tastes of confidence, a stark contrast to the self-loathing only a mere few days prior. Itâs magnetic. If you make eye contact now, youâre not sure youâll be able to control yourself.
The atmosphere crackles with tension, like the static energy right before lightning strikes. His gaze is intense when you look at him, and with the way his eyes glance purposefully down at your parted lipsâ
Jesus. Pull yourself together.
You gently pull away from him and feel the spell of the moment dissolve. âI just⊠need time.â
Recognition flashes on his face, as well as a tick of disappointment, but he seems to understand.
A beat, then he taps the door before stepping aside. âAlright. Donât be a stranger.â
Wade bursts around the corner, arms wide and voice booming. Vanessa hangs off of his arm, white teeth gleaming with mischievous joy.
âWhoa, hey there, lovebirds! Whatâs going on hereâ a secret rendezvous? Looking for somewhere to sneak off? Should I cue the romantic music or just give you two some privacy?â
You jump in surprise at his sudden entrance, flinching away from Logan as if youâd been caught doing something you shouldnât. Loganâs expression shifts from whatever tender moment was brewing, spell broken, to a mix of exasperation and resignation, jaw tightening.
âWade,â he grumbles, voice sharp, but you can acknowledge thereâs a level of begrudging affection beneath the steely surface. âTiming, as usual, is impeccable.â
âUm, actually, I was just leavinâ,â you answer, tugging on your bag.
âWHAT!â Wade exclaims, face dropping. âWe havenât even gotten to our favourite part yet!â
You tick a brow. âOur favourite part?â
âThe cocaine part,â he says, matter-of-factually.
âWade, that was one time,â you pinch the bridge of your nose. âIâm sorry. Thank you for inviting me. I just canât miss my flight.â
Dogpool jumps at your ankles, whimpering and chewing on the hem of your jeans. You give her a gentle scratch on her head, deftly avoiding the lick of her impressive tongue. Wade scoops her up, holding her against his shoulder and kissing her affectionately on her wet nose.
âYou, ah, need a ride?â Logan offers.
Your heart stutters at his chivalrous attempt. âOh, um. Thatâs okayâ I called a cab. So.â
That was a lie. You hadnâtâ not yet. You just werenât sure if you were going to make the right decisions if you were alone in his company for an hour. Probably wouldnât make it to the airport without fighting or crying or making stupid choices.
He rubs his jaw. âRight.â
âIâll⊠see you around?â
âI better!â Wade yells, using two fingers to gesture that heâs keeping his eye on you as Vanessa yanks him around the corner gleefully.
A magnetic tether â or red string, whatever you want to call it â seems to strain when you walk away from Logan. You feel the pull in your chest, a fluttering of electricity, but you swallow the urges and ignore the way they scratch like glass on the way down.
You call an Uber, squeezing your bag tightly for a source of comfort as you crowd yourself into the back seat. You spare one last glance at the apartment and think for a brief moment you see a silhouette of someone watching you from the balcony, but they slip away into the light before you can discern it.
You know, though. Of course, you know.
You expected relief when you arrived home, but, instead, the aching, gnawing black hole in your chest seems to grow exponentially. You go through the motionsâ feed your cat, tend to the garden, eat the food with no appetite, go to Church.
The fixture of Jesus pinned to the cross gives you pause for the first time. You wonder if he was a mutant.
You werenât sure how much of this âtimeâ thing you were going to need to heal or make a decision on where you and Logan stood after everything, but only after your second night, sleepless and alone, do you start to doubt that this will be an easy process. You communicate like you know what youâre doing, but you havenât stopped shaking since he kissed you, like a newborn foal traversing ice.
You want to do things right. Youâre not trying to replace any missing pieces or live up to any expectations he might have of you. The girl he knew seemed to be a softer, sweeter (less traumatised) version of you, and you worry that youâd be constantly comparing him to a ghost of himself.
The rain lulls you as it patters on the window by your bed, but sleep doesnât take you.
You hear thunder, you think, and wonder if the chickens are frightened in their coops. However, the distant grumble continues to grow, reverberating through the floorboards of your rickety cabin. As it creeps closer you discern that itâs not a brewing stormâ but the growling engine of a motorcycle.
Awash with a deep sense of knowing, you throw yourself out of bed and knot a silk robe around your middle. The sound of the engine dissipates, replaced only by the hammering rain and the rushing pulse in your ears when you tear your door open.
You see himâ all leather jacket slick with rainwater and tight jeans, brows pinched against the onslaught of the weather as he dismounts his bike.
Logan.
When your eyes meet, thereâs a palpable shift in the air, and the storm, angry as a howling spirit, mirrors the turbulent emotions within you. You donât speak, you donât think, you just act.
Barefoot, dressed in your slip of a robe, you race down the short path and meet him halfway.
âLogan? Logan?â You call out. âWhat are you doinâ here?!â
âHad to see you,â he calls out between strides, voice nonchalant as if what heâs said was obvious.
Youâre closing the distance. âThatâs a dayâs ride, and the weatherââ
Instead of letting you finish, he grasps your face, kissing you suddenly and with a reverence so sincere that your knees feel gelatinous and weak. His thumbs brush away the raindropsâ tears? âthat drip over your crystallised lashes. His touch is both grounding and electrifying; the warmth of him pressed against you is a stark contrast to the chilling downpour.
Your fingers curl against the front of his jacket, clinging with equal fervour as if itâs the only thing keeping you anchored from floating someplace else. The strength of his body crowds over you, arm sliding down to capture you by your waist as you lean into him, syrupy-decadent and entirely reliant on him to keep you upright.
The kiss deepens, his tongue sliding over yours tasting both bittersweet and intoxicating in equal measures, like cigar smoke and peppermint gum. Thereâs a distinct sharpness of liqour and you wonder if he had a shot (or bottle) of courage before coming here. You breathe deeply against his skin, smelling rainwater, musk and gunpowder; your senses are completely overwhelmed by him and youâre not sure that anything could pull you away.
The red string knots.
When you both eventually take pause, gasping for air as the rain continues to pelt, his eyes lock with yours. He radiates relief, desire, and a raw vulnerability that makes your heart ache.
âYouâre freezinâ,â he murmurs, peppering kisses against your lips, your cold nose, and pulling one of your hands to his face to peck along your palm. You feel dizzy in his embrace, drunk on his lips.
âYou should come inside,â you whisper, âbefore the neighbours start askinâ questions.â
He quietly nods, kissing your fingers before following you inside and ducking away from the rain.
Once inside, he shakes the rain from his hair with a flick, eyes immediately roaming around the innards of your respectable (tiny) house, the size of him immediately proportionally shrinking the interior. He absorbs your surroundings, chivalrously pretending like he canât see every curve of you in that wet material.
You lead him towards the heath, lighting a small fire to help dry you both off. You leave, pottering around to gather some towels for your hair, and arrive back to see heâs peeled off the top layer of his clothes, leaving him half-exposed, his back an impressive marvel of rippling muscle. He glances at you over his shoulder.
Youâre lost for words, but canât just stand there ogling him. âUm, I donât think I have any spare clothes thatâll⊠fitâŠâ
When he turns to face you, his rain-slick torso shines in the firelight, skin glistening on the taught muscles of his biceps as he accepts a towel from you. Your words lag, entirely distracted by the realisation of one thing when you glance down at his v-line and dark, coiling hair that creeps down into his jeans: youâre absolutely going to have sex with this man.
You mightâve decided that when you watched the way his jeans clung to him when he dismounted his motorcycle, but thatâs beside the point.
âThatâs alright,â he answers, towel slung over his shoulder, eyes roving shamelessly over the damp, silky robe that clings to your silhouette effortlessly. âDonât need âem.â
Your mouth dries when he steps closer to you, head angled, lips centimetres apart.
âLoganâŠâ you breathe, tone edging toward a warning.
He presses against you, tilting you back. âTell me you donât want this, and Iâll stop. Iâll get back on that bike and Iâll leave.â
You creep further away, trying to catch your breath. âIââ
The words donât manifest, simply because you donât have it in you to lieâ to deny yourself of this.
He cages you in against the wall, shrinking you underneath his frame, eyes narrowed and dark as they search for yours through lowered lashes. âTell me you donât feel somethinâ, and Iâll walk away. You wonât see me again.â
His bare-chested proximity was overwhelming you. Youâre acutely aware of every inch of his skin that touches yours, pebbled nipples hard against his warm flesh, stubbled jaw nuzzling against your neck.
Fuck, fuck, fuck. You feel like a teenager again, anxious and hormonal, a ball of puppy fat and unrequited crushes. The space between your thighs positively aches with heat, throbbing like a second heartbeat.
âI canât⊠I canât tell you that I feel something.â
He leans back, lips quirked with a flash of disappointment.
You blink up at him. âLet me show you instead.â
He ticks an eyebrow.
You use your empathetic influence to decrease his heartbeat, relaxing him down to the bone. He sighs, nosing against your shoulder, arms flexing as he holds himself up against you.
âJust with a little influenceâŠâ you stroke your way up from the slow pulse in his neck to his jaw, capturing him swiftly. You use your mutation to increase his heart rate this time, hiking it up to an excitable level. His cheeks begin to flush, pupils dilated, lips parted with the anticipation of your kiss. His eyes darken with something intrinsically primal and hungry.
âDoes it excite you?â You ask, innocently.
He shakes his head all dog-like as if to regain control, canine showing as his lips curl into a wolfish grin.
âYouâre not the only one with⊠tricks. I can do that, tooâ in other ways,â he says, tone low and suggestive. He lifts a hand, tracing a knuckle over your exposed collarbone, shifting the soft material of your robe just an inch. Your breath hitches.
âYou know I can hear your heartbeat, right?â
You blush. You hadnât known that.
You challenge his eye contact, feigning self-control and authority. The stare-down has your pulse spiking, arousal ricocheting down your spine and sitting low and syrupy in your belly.
âYour heartâs beating pretty fast, too.â
Oh, Hell. Heâs got you melted like butter in a pan.
You rest your head against the wall, breath quickening. âIf we do this, I donât think Iâll be able to stop.â
âGood,â he growls. âI donât like to stop.â
The teasing back-and-forth game of teetering towards nearly touching finally gets the better of you. Youâre weak, as malleable as soft dough, so you invite him against your mouth with a sigh-wine and a tug on the nape of his neck.
He positively devours you, a hand palming at your breast as you kiss desperately and feverishly. The shoulder of your robe slips and youâre half-exposed, the slip barely holding itself together by the loose knot on your waist. He pulls you impossibly closer, the skin of his chest flush against yours as he reaches and digs fingers into the globe of your ass, hips twitching together.
You fumble between your bodies, yanking on his belt buckle and zipper impatiently. He pulls backwards, a wet string of spit snapping between your lips as you separate, helping you with steadier fingers to remove his jeans. With equal passion, he swiftly tugs on the waist-tie of your robe and discards it somewhere on the floor.
When youâre both bare, nude silhouettes sharp and soft in the firelight, he stumbles you over to the plush rug in the centre of the room. He nods to the couch.
âLegs up.â
You obey without hesitation, taking your seat and spreading decadently for him. He kneels below you of you, hips between your ankles, and gazes at you like a hungry, stalking animal. You feel impossibly sexy and dangerous.
He peppers kisses along the bone of your ankle first, foot hiked up onto his shoulder, only breaking eye contact to flutter his eyes closed. He moves along the inner length of your leg, pausing keenly against the sensitive partsâ the thin stretch behind your knee, the soft plush of your thigh. He lowers himself, scruff tickling between your legs, and then licks a molten stroke between your folds, parting you with his tongue and burying his face deeper.
You clench around his skull, mindfulness of your heightened mutant abilities long forgotten. You canât crush metal between your thighs. Or can you?
He groans into you, varying suckling and kissing you on your clit with long strokes on the blade of his tongue to your hole, lapping up the nectar of your arousal, fingers digging bruisingly into your hips. The sting of his grip and the relentless lave of his tongue entice moans from you, fingers raking into his hair for some semblance of reality grounding in your pleasure-lapsed consciousness.
Jesus. With as filthy as his mouth was, you shouldâve known he would be this good at eating pussy.
You come quick, orgasm pulsing on his lips. The burn of overstimulation seizes your muscles, writhing against his onslaught, but he shoves your hips down.
âNot done with you yet,â he murmurs possessively, leaning back to wipe his chin. âOn all fours.â
You bite your lower lip, suppressing the humiliation of the intimacy (vulgarity) of it. You turn, belly still clenching with the aftershocks, arching with the anticipation, whining moments later when his mouth reconnects with you. His hands palm at your ass, spreading you wider, tongue slipping dangerously close to the tight ring of muscle.
He slides a finger knuckle-deep, miming fucking you in a rhythmic pulse. His other hand massages you, thumb sliding down until you jerk sensitively against his nudging intrusion.
You feel impossibly full and tingly, clenching around the burn of his thumb and the velvet of his finger, second orgasm surging and bubbling over with your face pressed against the couch cushion, lips agape. Youâre slick, drip-dropping onto his cupping palm, every nerve in your body burning raw as his wrist works you through the pulses.
You turn over, relishing in the sight of his scruff glistening with the aftermath of your orgasm, his eyes dark with lustâ a hellish man, seraphic on his knees for you. Your insides clench at the sight as he quite literally shatters and redefines what worship means to you.
âTired already?â He hums, massaging your hips.
You perk a challenging brow. âThat was just the warm-up, old man.â
âAlright,â he seethes, sucking on his lower lip as he lifts himself up to your level. âShow me what you got then, baby.â
When you kiss, his mouth slides against yours, drenched with the taste of yourself. His cock steels against your belly when you pull him close, tip pearl-smooth with precum when you reach down and grasp him with a hollowed fist. The feel of him, heavy and warm in your grip, fans to life the flames of your briefly quenched arousal, and you hungrily pull him down onto the couch beside you.
Moisture pools on your tongue as you rub him. You spit on your hand before stroking him from the base to tip, lathering him silky with your drool. You tuck your hair behind your ears, narrowing your cheeks as you slide your mouth up and down his length, fisting the inches that remain.
âChrist.â He twitches in your mouth as you gently massage the warm weight of his sac, lewd sounds emanating from where your lips and tongue meet him. âJust like that. Good fuckinâ girl,â he snarls, gripping your hair in a fist at the crown of your head. Your engine purrs with his encouragement, revving with newfound enthusiasm.
You always gave as good as you got, after all, and youâre certainly not one to back away from a challenge.
His head lolls onto the back of the couch, thighs tense beneath you, cock hot and hard on your tongue. He growls when he comes, pulsing strongly in your mouth as you lap up the produce of his orgasm, salty and molten down your throat.
âFuck, fuck, fuckââ
âPut those regenerative powers to good use, why donât you?â You ask, working him through the over-sensitivity with your wrist. His eyes donât once leave yours, even as they glaze over and flinch from the pleasure burn. Thereâs a sharp look of challenging determination on his faceâ a grit of his teeth, the furrow in his brow. He remains hard in your hands and you perk an impressed brow. Not bad for an old man.
Thereâs a sweet moment of vulnerability when you crawl over him, a brief sobering in the cloud of lust, a clarity of two not-quite strangers and their shared grief and yearning.
Youâre not sure where this moment will take you, but the love of somebody scraping together the shards of a shattered heart for a brief time, even as it cuts their hands, holds you with a semblance of human connection so sincere that youâll carry it with you for a lifetime.
His thighs spread to accommodate you. You hold your fingers against the thick chords in his neck for support as you fumble between your bodies, slotting him against the catch in your cunt before lowering yourself entirely.
You hiss against the intrusion and he steadies you with a hand on your hip.
âEasy. Donât hurt yourself.â
You laugh-moan, laying your palms against the coils of hair on his sweat-shimmering chest.
âI can take it.â
The fire, intended to help dry you off, creates a heated environment that beads sweat on his temple. The only brain cells that remain coherent bounce around on lust in your skull â so you lean forward, lick the salty droplet clean, and sigh-whine as you begin rocking against him.
You fall into sync quickly, a desperate rhythm of desperate bodies. The delicious ache of him inside you is a masochistic thrill, similar to the irresistible press on a day-old bruise. The squelching shlick between your bodies is an animalistic reminder of your flesh and blood as you chase the pleasure, bouncing with vigour.
âChristâ I can feel youâŠâ his jaw clenches with resolve, fingers digging into the meat of your ass. ââŠdripping all over me. You wanted this bad, huh?â
âWanted to ride you in that fuckinâ Honda,â you straighten your posture, leaning away from him to hold your breasts, panting words between bated breaths. âThought it might shut you up.â
His hand snaps up and grabs you roughly by the chin. âMm⊠mouthy, arenât ya?â
You grin. âYou got no idea, lumberjack.â
He pulls your face against him, meeting your mouth halfway in a sloppier, fever-driven kiss that shoots arousal to your core like a shot of his favourite whiskey. Something feral stirs within you: a primal, cellular-deep need to connect with him further. Your empathetic power roils off of you like steam on a hot spring, surging into and merging with him until thereâs nothing but one feeling, a black hole of unquenchable desire.
You suddenly feel as though you are him: navel-deep, a throbbing muscle with an aching desire to dive further into the serpent-clutch of your cunt, gliding through tingly, honey-silk velvet, blades hanging onto a tether of self-control as they threaten to slide out of your knuckles in ecstasy.
Well. This was certainly new. Add âvoodoo sex dollâ to your list of mutations.
You gasp, ripping away from the kiss, your powers recoiling back into you at whip-lash speed, dizzying in its ferocity. His eyes meet yours with darkened curiosity.
âDid youââ
âI felt that,â he grunts, tongue darting out to roll over his lips. âIt always like that for you? Feelinâ so fuckinâ full?â
You half-laugh blissfully. âOnly the good times.â
âIâll show you a good time, alright.â
He isnât gentle when he manhandles you, forcing you into an arch as he repositions and aligns himself behind your thighs, one foot planted firmly on the floor, the other bent to accommodate the new angle. He reinserts himself inside of you with ease, hands palming your hips and ass.
You feel him nudging cervix-deep and you reach out, clawing at the couch to hold your jerking body steady against the relentless slap of his hips. Thereâs no need to tell him faster or harder when you feel the metal plate of his adamantium hips pressing against your ass, pounding and vulgar with the sound of sweat-damp skin-on-skin.
Itâs involuntary, the way you pant and cry out, intoxicated by the relentless drag and pull of his cock. He says something to you but you either donât hear him or have enough conscious space in your sex-drunk fog to process words and respond. He slides a hand down your spine and pulls on your hair until youâre upright, breath hot when it fans against your neck.
âWhereâs that mouth gone?â
You lick the drool from your lip, throwing him a glance over your shoulder. âFuck you.â
The half-lidded up-and-down look he gives you as satisfaction grows slowly on his lips turns your bones to jelly. âThere she is,â he growls back, offering a sharp slap of encouragement on your ass as he drops you back onto your front. You involuntarily grip around him, puffy clit throbbing with the almost-but-not-quite-there anticipatory build. âYou gonna come for me? Yeah? I can fuckinâ feel it.â
You slide a hand underneath yourself, reaching for the swollen nub with two fingers. Youâre overwhelmed with kinetic energy akin to a fizzy champagne bottleâ two more shakes until youâre ready to pop.
You hear a Snikt! behind you, accompanied by a throat-caught groan, and then the distinct ripping shred of blades impaling your couch. You finally come, hard, when you feel him throbbing inside of you, followed by the decadent syrupy flood of his orgasm filling you up. He ruts into you one, two three more final times, milking himself dry, before collapsing over your body in a sweaty heap, sparing you the weight of his metal bones with a forearm propped next to you.
Shared fluids drip to the couch when he eventually pulls out of you, blades retreating into his clenched fists. The fluffy innards of the chair spill out beside you, and, while you were in no financial position to afford another, the sight entices a humoured smile from you.
âSorry,â he says with a wince, helping you sit up when your unreliable legs shake beneath you.
âThatâs alright. Itâll make for an interestinâ story,â you retort, fanning yourself with a hand. You both let out a shared laugh, mostly from the relieved delirium of it all. After a beat, you lean into him, massaging a hand across his belly. âSo. We really doinâ this?â
His face softens. âIf youâll have me.â
You cup his face and kiss his cheek. âIâd take any version of you I could get.â
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This was so cute I LOVVEEEE
Summary: Logan x Fe!Reader -> Times when people found evidence that you and Logan were possibly a couple, and the one time you both finally confirmed it.
Disclaimer: Mostly fluff, mentions/illusions to sex, Logan checking you out. Couple of swear words here and there. This has been unfinished in my drafts for at least a week so...yeah. This is finished. little Christmas at the end. Not Proof Read.
For what felt like the thirtieth time in the hour, you turned over with a huff and pressed your pillow to your ears, trying to muffle the sounds coming from next door.Â
And just as it finally died down, you sighed and was just about to thank some ancient being for hearing your prayers whenâŠit started again.Â
âThatâs it.â
Changing out of your longer pyjama bottoms and into some sleep shorts, you made your way out of your room, keeping your footsteps as quiet as you could until the noises faded away and you started to reach your intended room.Â
Opening up the door, you found exactly what you were looking for.Â
Shaking his shoulder as he lay on his stomach, you whispered his name, hoping heâd hear you.Â
âLogan.â You shook him for a third time. âLogan.âÂ
Nothing.Â
With another sigh, you slapped his face gently and said his name once more, a little louder and firmer.Â
âLogan.â
Finally, he groaned. âWhat?âÂ
His voice was muffled by his pillow but you could hear him just well enough. Or maybe you were just used to his grunts that they were starting to become their own language you could understand.Â
âMove over. Iâm sleeping here tonight.â
âWhatâs wrong with your bed?â
âNothing.â
âThen go and sleep there.â Logan turned his head away from you and scrunched up his pillow beneath his head.
âI canât. My neighbours have decided tonight is Valentineâs Day 2.0.â
You pushed half of his body with your hands until he finally got the cue to turn over.Â
âToo much information.â
You shook your head, âToo much information is what Iâve been hearing for the last hour.â
Finally, Logan rolled onto his back, his covers covering his bottom half, and groaned. âFine.â
âThank you.â
Logan straightened himself in his bed, giving you room to get in beside him. And the minute you touched his covers, you were glad you had changed into shorts.Â
Logan was like a furnace. Just constant heat radiating from his body and for as much as it, at times, got too hot to stand near him, he was also, in your opinion, the best person to fall asleep beside.Â
âJust shut up and go to sleep.â
Laying on your side, it wasnât long until you closed your eyes, thankful that you could hear nothing other than Loganâs steady breathing and the distant clock down the hall that was forever ticking.Â
However, just before you fully drifted off, you felt Loganâs hand take hold of yours and you smiled.Â
He could be gruff all he liked, but when it came to you, he could be a softie.Â
By the time morning rolled around, Storm was in search of both yourself and Logan. So, when she found your bed empty and cold, she figured Logan would know where you were.Â
But he was asleep.Â
Right beside you.Â
Storm leaned against the door frame for a while, taking in the picture in front of her.Â
Logan was fast asleep, something that was a miracle in itself, with you right beside him, your head turned towards the windows in his room, his own looking towards you, all the while, his arm slung over your midsection and one of your own hands, holding his.Â
âStorm- what are you- Oh.â
Jean looked inside.Â
âLooks like someone had a good night.â She smiled before looking back at Storm. âDo you think we can finally ask if theyâre together?â
âIâd say this is confirmation enough.â
You shifted in your sleep as did Logan, and the two girls hid behind the corner for a moment.Â
You turned your head and the rest of your body towards Logan, all the while his arm held you in a stronger grip and pulled you towards him.Â
It took you a moment but you finally opened your eyes, adjusting to the light before your vision finally cleared on a sleeping Logan.Â
For a moment, you allowed the hand between you both to reach up and brush the stray hairs from his eyes. It was rare you ever got to see Logan thisâŠcalm.Â
Serene.Â
Rested.Â
Unknowingly, you started to run your left thumb over Loganâs arm that still held onto you.Â
Then his fingers twitched, running over the exposed skin at the bottom of your back.Â
âAre you watching me sleep?â His voice was rough, the first words in the morning.Â
âNot anymore,â you smiled, brushing the final parts of his hair out of his face.Â
âThanks for letting me stay.â
Then a cough came from the door.Â
Logan groaned. âIs this a new hobby; watching people sleep?â
Jean and Storm laughed from the door. âYou two look cosy.â
You lifted your head and glared at Jean. âThere is one reason Iâm here. Maybe I think itâs time you make an investment in soundproof walls.â
Jean turned a little red and Storm laughed.Â
âLook, weâve got a busy day. You can kiss your boyfriend later.â
âHeâs not my boyfriend,â you called out just as Logan called; âSheâs not my girlfriend.â
Storm and Jean nodded and just as Jean snapped a picture, she sent it to both yourself and Logan as they walked away.Â
âSure.â
Leaning up, Logan reached for his phone to see the notification pop up before he placed it back down and you climbed out of bed.Â
âTheyâre got a point.â
âAbout us being a couple?â
You threw a t-shirt at Logan. âHaving a busy day.â
Logan laughed a little, scrubbing his face as he watched you leave his room before he reached behind him and took hold of his phone once more.Â
Jean and Storm were right.Â
From the pictureâŠthey did look like a couple.Â
A couple of days passed and you were sitting in the quiet living room, the fires on both sides roaring.Â
All classes had been finished for two days and some kids had returned home for the holidays, which meant you had some free time on your hands.Â
And for you, that meant finally reading.Â
Until you sensed someone stood behind you.Â
âIf you want to know what happens, you could just ask me.â
Logan plucked the book from your hands and circled around the sofa before coming to sit down beside you.Â
âLogan! Give it back.â
âI want to see what itâs about.â
You sighed and sat up, âItâs a romance, Logan.â
âA romance?â Logan had a hint of a smirk on his face. âLike theâŠtrashy kind?â
âLike the romantic kind.â
Logan looked at you and smiled. âThe trashy kind.â
You rolled your eyes and took the book back from him, leaving him to fix the blanket so it rested over both of you. He placed his arm over the back of the sofa, allowing you to lean into him, whether you noticed you were doing so or not.Â
âJust because you might not believe in romance, doesnât mean the rest of us are the same.â
âI believe in romance.âÂ
âYeah, right.â
Logan couldnât help but smile. âWhat?â
âThe Wolverine,â you said with a deep voice. âBelieves in romance?â
Logan nodded. âOccasionally.â
âOccasionally?â
âDo you just like repeating everything I say?â
You nodded and smiled. âOccasionally.â
Logan rolled his eyes and took the book back from you and read a line out loud.Â
âPeople really talk like this?â
You leaned into Logan. âNo, but in a book itâs not so bad. Go on, read some more.â
âYouâre enjoying this, arenât you?â
You nodded. âYouâre like my own personal audiobook.â
Logan gave a short smile before getting a little cosier and continued reading out loud.Â
It wasnât long before Logan found you asleep against him and he shifted in order to avoid you getting a crick in your neck.Â
âKeep reading.â
âI thought you were asleep.âÂ
âNow Iâm awake.âÂ
âFine, just be quiet.â
You gave a fake salute. âYes, sir.â
Holding his arm around your body that was pressed between himself and the sofa, Logan quickly kissed the top of your head and went back to reading.Â
And ten minutes later, you were asleep.Â
And so was he.Â
An hour passed before someone found either of you, but this time, it was Scott and Bobby.Â
âThey might be in- oh. What do we have here?â
âOh my god, Rouge has to see this. I told her they were together.â
Bobby rushed off and soon returned, pulling Rouge with him.Â
âWhat is it?â Then she gasped.Â
âBelieve me now?â
And what Rouge saw made her smile.Â
On the slightly too small sofa for Logan, you lay both between him and the sofa, as well as partly on him with your hand a little over his heart. His head was turned towards you. The blanket had fallen a little, so she reached over and pulled it up both of you before turning around and throwing a log onto the fire.Â
âCome on, let's leave them.â
âBut-â
âNo, you are not going to disturb them. Come on.â
Rouge dragged the pair out and closed the door behind her.Â
The third time people suspected you and Logan were an item was one late evening in October.Â
Half of the kids were playing outside with all the freshly fallen leaves, whilst some of the older kids helped them find different critters and point them out, and build them habitats. The rest of the kids were either in their rooms or studying.Â
Save for two.Â
Bobby and Rouge were hiding outside of the kitchen watching yourself and Logan cook.Â
âI didnât even know he knew how toâŠchop. Let alone cook.â
âYou should have more faith in him.â
âCome on, Rouge. You canât tell me you weren't thinking it, too.â
And she couldnât. Because she was.Â
Meanwhile inside the kitchen, Logan was watching you from the kitchen island as he continued chopping the veg.Â
There was something different about you. From the way you practically danced around the kitchen finding the different items for the recipe, to justâŠyou. Whilst he was (semi) shirtless, just having his zipper hoodie on, along with his jeans and socks. He would have been fully dressed, except you had come and ambushed him in his room â even though you denied the word âambushedâ â to get him to help.Â
And you were just simply in your pyjamas (of sorts) along with one of his zipper hoodies.Â
âBub,â
Logan laid down his knife and walked over to you as you stood by the stove, standing a little higher to see how much water was left in the pot at the back.Â
You hummed a questioned response, but was met with a questionâŠyou didnât expect.Â
âDance with me?â
âWhat?â
Logan smiled lightly as he pulled the wooden spoon from your hand and pulled you closer to him, despite him walking backwards.Â
âCome on,â his voice in a light whisper. âDance with me.â
âDidnât take you for a dancer.â
Outside the door, Bobby and Rouge mouthed to each other; âTheyâre dancing.â
And you both were.Â
Gently swaying to the music for a while, you allowed Logan to lead you around a small space in the centre of the kitchen.Â
âWeâre gonna burn the sauce.â
Logan gave a slight smile at you as he spun you out and back in, âWeâre not gonna burn the sauce.â
âLogan.â
âCanât you ever just enjoy a moment?â
âWhen that moment doesnât include burning the house down, yes.â
âBit of a jump, donât you think, from burning the sauce.â
âHa, so you agree. Weâre gonna burn the sauce.â
Moving over, Logan turned down the heat on one of the pans before taking your hand back into his. âNow we wonât.â
Bobby and Rouge watched, in shock, the rest.Â
For one, Logan knew how to dance? Since when? And since when did heâŠcook and dance in the kitchen? UnlessâŠ
Then Logan did something even you didnât expect.Â
He dipped you.Â
You hand tightened its grip on Loganâs arm as you let out a small, if a little nervous, laugh.Â
Logan had been full of surprises recently. From the impromptu audiobook session in which you woke up in his arms, to him not only dropping off a cup of coffee during your break from teaching but also a freshly baked muffin.Â
And now he was dancing with you in the kitchen.Â
And dipping you.Â
When you had rushed him out of his room to help you cook, you hadnât expected him to know the recipe for the sauce from the top of his head. Something he just happened to rattle off whilst you were looking for the cooking notebook that should have been in the cupboard beside the oven. Let alone be the one to ask to dance in the kitchen, and dip you.Â
Bring you back up, both of you gave a slight chuckle as you turned around, the music slowly fading away in the background.Â
âLoganâŠâ
Looking at him, you forgot what you were going to say.Â
Had his eyes always had so much green in them?Â
Loganâs palm became warm against your back as it pressed further into you. Or maybe you pressed further into him and he just held you tighter.Â
Slowly, your hand left his bicep and trailed towards his chest all the while your eyes studied his face. Youâd known him for years and seen him a thousand times or more.Â
So why did now feel like you were seeing him for the first time? Noticing him? Noticing each particle he was made up of that allowed him to sway with you in the kitchen to the music that had changed on the radio?
Only, before the space between yourself and Logan became any more closer, a noise came from outside the door.Â
A sneeze.Â
A sneeze that shocked you and Logan back into reality.Â
Still holding you, Logan looked towards the door and gave a hint of a smile when he saw the flash of white disappear behind the beam.Â
Realising what was happening, you lowered yourself back to the ground and slowly stepped out of Loganâs arms. âWe should finish up.â
Logan nodded in agreement, however did look back at you when you got back to the stove, not noticing you do the same a few moments later, watching him pick up the rest of the veg and toss it into the collider to be washed.Â
Time passed and after more music, more conversation - including a burnt tongue from when you had shoved a wooden spoon with fresh sauce on, into Loganâs mouth for him to try - and a lot of scrubbing later, you found Logan sitting inside the library and collapsed next to him.Â
âGood news, the kids loved the food,â you told Logan. âDouble good news; Jean and Scott are on cooking duty tomorrow.â
âThank fuck.â
âThank you for helping me.â Turning to look at Logan, you found him already looking.Â
âYou did ambush me.â
âI didnât ambush you.â
âI wasnât dressed.â Logan examined himself. âTechnically, Iâm still not.â
You rolled your eyes with a slight smile. âFine. Maybe it was a mini, tiny, miniscule ambush.âÂ
You made a small space between your fingers. âLike this big of an ambush.â
Logan looked at you, at your fingers and then back to you in slight disgust before moving your fingers wider with his own.Â
âThat big of an ambush.â
You rolled your eyes and dropped your hand. âAnd they say us women are dramatic.â
It was Loganâs turn to roll his eyes. However, as he did so, his arm wrapped around you, and pulled you back into him and the sofa.Â
âJust shut the fuck up for a minute and listen.â
You did so.Â
âI donât hear anything.â
âThatâs the point.â Loganâs eyes were shut as his head rested on the back of the sofa.Â
Eventually you gave a shrug and joined him.Â
An hour later, Storm found you both fast asleep beside one another so with a knowing smile, she found a blanket, covered you both up and closed the door behind her. But not before reminding herself she needed to get verbal confirmation from you both.Â
She wasnât handing over any money to Jean and Xavier until she had verbal confirmation of what exactly was going on between you two.Â
And she didnât have to wait longâŠat least in the long run, she didnât have to wait long.Â
Until then, there were plenty more incidents of falling asleep next to each other, bringing each other coffee, dancing to music in the kitchen, smiling and laughing â all before she finally got verbal confirmation that the inevitable had finally happened.Â
Finally, it was acceptable to decorate for Christmas.Â
Two days prior, Rogue, Logan and Storm had been helping you find all the old decorations in the attic and bring them down. Storm did try then to bribe something out of Rogue, but she apparently was just in the dark as the rest of them.Â
But the smile she gave when she looked over at Logan, who was placing down another box from the back of the pile for you to take a look at, told Storm something different.Â
âI canât believe you leave it this late to decorate.â
Logan looked at you. âWeâre still in November.â
âSo?âÂ
Taking hold of the garland, you started to climb the ladder. Logan held onto the bottom just to be safe.Â
âIf you had it your way, the decorations would be up all year round.â
âHey, no.â
âHey, yes.â
âIâd take them down forâŠâ you tried to think. âHalloween. Youâd have a little break.â
Logan didnât look entirely thrilled. âHalloween is one day.â
âTechnically, itâs a month.â
âTo you, itâs a month. To the rest of us, itâs a day.â
You looked back at him. âTo you itâs a day, to the rest of us itâs a month.â
Then you looked back at the garland. âHow does that look?â
âGreat from where Iâm standing.â
You looked a little confused for a second before quickly looking over your shoulder, realising where Logan was, in fact, looking.Â
Not at the garland, but at your ass.Â
You smiled and started to step down the ladder, hitting his shoulder on the way down.Â
âI meant the garland.â
âOh, yeah, sure.â Logan looked up. âLooks great.â
You laughed. âYou didnât even look.â
With a smile as you finally stepped back into his arm, he looked to the side and up. âIt looks great.â
âGood. Now,â Logan turned back to look at you and you kissed him quickly. âWe have to put up five more.â
âI get to watch you put up five more.â
You smiled. âThis is why youâre my favourite person.â
Logan smiled. He could help you with everything else, but when it came to the garland, you had full control on where it went. Which, he didnât mind. So long as he got to watch you put it up.Â
You quickly kissed him once more, only to be pulled back when you tried to walk away.Â
Then Logan gave you a real kiss.Â
A little dizzy, you smiled and placed a hand on his chest and closed your eyes. âWow.â
He gave you a quicker, lighter kiss. âYou better get going before Rogue comes back with another box of lights.â
âLight?â Then it hit you. âOh, yeah.â
Logan smirked a little as he watched you walk away and down the hallway.Â
It was a couple of hours before everyone was in the same room, making the final touches all the while most of the other kids were either playing outside in the snow, were taking naps or decorating their own rooms.Â
And the others had been watching you and Logan all day.Â
The stolen glances, the stolen touches, the slightly knowing smiles from both Rogue and Bobby. And then, as Logan was helping you down from the ladder, his hand on your thigh, Bobby went to make the final hammer to hang up the mistletoe.Â
âWait, no. Not there.â
âWhere then?â
Storm looked around. âI know. Y/n, hang this just above there. We donât need a remake of Mistletoe Central 1997.â
Logan looked at Storm. âDo I wanna know?â
Storm shook her head. âHere.â
She handed you the mistletoe before Logan passed you the hammer back from his belt.Â
Three knocks and the nail was set in and the mistletoe was above you on a corner beam, just a little to the side of the christmas tree.Â
At least this way, those looking for it, would find it.Â
"Oh, no, wait.â Jean said, looking at you. âHave to kiss someone. Itâs tradition. Youâre under the mistletoe.â
There was no one else apart from Logan.
Logan looked around at the others. He wondered how long it would take.Â
Coming up behind you on the ladder, you moved over for him to stand beside you. His palm on your back held you steady and, leaning his other arm on the ledge of the ladder, his hand cupped your face and he kissed you.Â
Lasting a little longer than the others had expected, you soon heard Rogue giving a little cheer, as well as a couple of whistles from the others.Â
âOkay, I think they get it.â You whispered to Logan as he finally pulled away, a smile very noticeable on both of your faces.Â
âHappy now?â Logan asked, turning towards where Jean and Scott were standing.Â
âThat was some kiss.â
You felt yourself blush at the comment. As did Logan.Â
He helped you back down the ladder before you both turned and really saw the other's expression. As well as the exchanging of money between people.Â
âSoooâŠhow long has this been going on?â
You were leaning into Logan, his hand around your back and on your hip.Â
You looked at Logan, âA couple of months. WeâreâŠwhat? November now so that wouldâŠâ
âThat wouldâŠâ Logan counted back in his head. âMayâŠJune, JulyâŠsix months.â
You looked back to the others. âSix months.â
A chorus of shocked faces and loud voices sounded out; âSIX MONTHS?!â
All before a small call from Rogue was made, which made both yourself and Logan smile.Â
âI knew it!â
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⏩ pairing(s) logan "wolverine" howlett x mutant!female!reader
⏩ warning(s) language, sparring/fighting, a little bit of plot, a super teeny tiny bit of angst, smut, dirty talking, masturbation (mentioned), competency!kink (aka logan liking someone that can beat him in a fight), penetrative sex (p in v), bodily fluids (mentioned), rough(ish) sex, no pussy eating but logan is still a munch, no protection (wrap irl pls), yearning!logan, hold the moan vibes, female anatomy/pronouns are used. minors dni/+18!
⏩ author's note imposter syndrome set in but we're posting anyway because the love for logan is real! not sure how i did with his character but it's okay because this is fiction :) dedicating this to @joannasteez @rae-gar-targaryen @heavenbarnes @kyletogaz and anyone else who needs logan howlett as badly as i do. reader's powers are sort of explained but pretty vague so you can imagine whatever you want outside of what's mentioned in the fic. more logan coming soon and i hope you enjoy <3
⏩ word count 3.9k
Six months. Six months ago youâd started as the new counselor. Six months, and Logan canât get you out of his head.Â
Extraordinary was the word the Headmaster had used. Logan thought it was just Charles being Charles when heâd introduced you as such, though he soon finds his boss was correct. Understating, even.
The realization comes on your sixth day of employment. Ororo, Loganâs usual training partner and woman who could double as Mother Nature, was a few hours east with Jean and Scott. This left Logan to skip for the day and settle for a good run instead. Well, that was his plan until he catches you on your way to the gym.
He doesnât mean to stare but fuck. The leggings youâre sporting could bring even the strongest mutants to tears. In his haze, the man forgets that you can spot him and probably already have as he attempts to follow you. Youâre hearing is as good as his, if not better, and your super acute senses are just thatâsuper and acute. Hell, youâre ability to feel what others have to search hard for is one of the reasons Charles hired you in the first place.
Logan knows heâs caught when youâre already laughing quietly to yourself upon his entry to the gym. The room would be empty if not for the two of you and he couldnât feel luckier.
âJust wanted to make sure you got to where you were going.â Itâs a lie and a bad one, but your ass in those pants has his head too fogged to think of anything better. âEasy to get lost in this place. Lotta rooms.â
You hum at Loganâs words, already knowing that he knows you arenât buying it. âI appreciate that. Had a couple hours free, so I thought Iâd check this place out. Gotta keep up with the rest of you guys, somehow.â
Loganâs eyebrows accidentally raise, and you tilt your head at him.
âWhy the face?â
Shit. Shaking his head, Logan comes to join you where you stand on the large sparring mat in the middle of the room. Soon enough, he gives in. No point in lying if heâs already fibbed once.
â...just didnât think a school counselor would be into that kinda thing.â
âAnd what makes you say that?â
Logan huffs out something similar to a laugh, as your rebuttal came quicker than he was expecting. He can see the gears in your head working and the smile threatening to break out, but it canât be for what heâs thinking, right?
âI justââ
Only the two words slip from his lips before you charge in his direction. He catches on fast enough to counter the leg you try and slip around his, but canât catch himself when you shove him into the mat from behind.
Logan crashes to his hands and knees, stunned. He whips his head to you from his place on the ground, face reading what the fuck? The way you stand over him with a pleased look doesnât give him a chance to be angry, however. In a matter of a few short seconds, the manâs shaking with an unexpected round of laughter.Â
âWell, fuck,â he exhales, finally standing with an impressed grin. âThatâs one way to prove a guy wrong.â
Your shrug is interrupted by a pouncing Logan, who carries out the move you tried to execute to near perfection, causing your back to hit the mat with a short thud. When you blink yourself back to reality, youâre met with him dangling over you. Not that you really got any chance, but itâs his turn to gloat.
âGotta sweep both legs, not just swipe at one.â
You roll your eyes, taking the outstretched hand he offers to help you up. Logan sniffs at the flame that shoots through his hand.
Thatâs how the next hour goes. One of you attacks, the other counters. Never with any true malice behind any of your intentions, but thatâs not to say either of you donât try to knock the wind out of each other once or twice. All of it is in good fun, concluding with the both of you panting atop the mat with matching grins.
âYouâre good⊠and fast,â Logan sighs after catching his breath. âWhereâd you learn how to fight like that?â
â...where we all did; surviving in a world that doesnât like us very much.â
When you donât tell him any more than that, he leaves it alone. Youâll tell him one day. If you donât, thatâs fine, too. Heâs the last person to push someone back into memories theyâve obviously tried to forget.
This world is shitty enough. Heâs searched enough to know thereâs no sense in dipping behind locked doors.
âSame time tomorrow? Assuming Charles doesnât need someone to save the world.â
Another laugh twitches Loganâs upper body as he peeks over at you. Your skin is damp after all your skillful offense and better defense. His eyes snake down your entire frame and linger for who knows how long. Lower lip sucking into his mouth, he has to flick his gaze back toward the ceiling before his dick can harden any further.
âSounds like a plan,â Logan replies, hoping you canât hear the wobble in his voice. You leave him a few minutes later with an aching member he hides all the way back to his room.
This becomes the routine. Once a week, the two of you meet in the gym, spar, and he runs back to his shower to pump one out over your competence. If the count heâs been keeping is right, youâve got a slight edge on the matchesâa fact heâd be surprised with if he didnât already know the reason behind it.
Youâre impossibly enthralling, even more so when you fight, and it really starts fucking with him the better he gets to know you. Like he said before, youâre fast. It keeps him on his toes, on and off the mat. What move will you counter with next? What story do you have for him today? What panties do you wear to keep those leggings so smooth?
Months pass and it gets harder to hide. Logan waits a little longer to push you off when you end up on top of him. His hands linger a little more when heâs pinning you to the mat with a victorious smirk. He stands a little closer when listens to you speak, your voice becoming a sirenâs song that invades his mind into the hours past sundown.
Tonight is all the same, and as usual, a soda in the kitchen at midnight does nothing to help his attempts to sleep.
What that man would do for a cold beer.
He sits by himself at the counter, rubbing his eyes in half annoyance, half worked up. You had sparred with the man five days ago, and heâs still stuck on the move that made him tap out. Something with your thighs wrapped around his neck and squeezing until he smacks the mat. That evening, he rushed through dinner to finish grading exams before fucking one of his pillows for half the night.
Loganâs thrusted out of his daydream at the distant sound of footsteps, recognizing them instantly. He leaves his stool with an embarrassing swiftness but is able to collect himself as he travels through the mansion. The sound of your calming pitters is followed by Logan with ease, and the man finds his prize in record time.
âSo itâs not just the kids that donât get enough rest around here.â
God, it takes everything within Logan not to smile smugly at the way you pause and spin. Finally, youâre the one caught off guard for a change. Itâs nice, the way you hide your squirm with a clearing of your throat and a tiny grin. You had to have heard him coming, so why the nerves?
âHard thing to do when the mindâs always on.â The words come with a shrug that causes the straps of your loose tank to slip off one of your shoulders. Logan swallows at the sight of the skin, sucking in a quiet breath to keep an embarrassing noise from slipping from his lips. What would you think if heâd told you heâd dream about kissing that very spot? Inhaling against and sucking on it after at whatever time of day youâll allow in whatever room you wish.
âAnd the mindâs a hard thing to turn off for people like us.â Logan eases to you, even steps echoing in the otherwise empty hallway. With a tilted head and barely-hooded eyes, the manâs growing somewhat drunk just off the smell of you. The thought of a good drink is somewhere else. Itâs long gone as he breathes in your scent as deep as he can before continuing. âWhatâs keeping you up tonight?â
Logan waits patiently while you think. The subtle tick of your eyes to the right as you rack your brain is almost as stunning as when you glance back at him before dragging your gaze down to the crotch of his jeans.
âYou donât really sleep in those, do you?â
You havenât moved your eyes. Why havenât you moved your eyes?
Logan huffs out of astonishment more than anything, cocking one of his hips to the side. His tongue darts out to wet his bottom lip before having to bite the same spot to keep his chuckle down.
âMy, uh,â he grins a little. âMy jeans are why you canât sleep?
Logan swallows when you finally look back at his face. You stare something wrong into his soul, something he feels in the smallest divots of his otherworldly joints, in the very meaning of his existence. He doesnât realize heâs drifted even closer until the heat of you raises the hairs on the back of his neck. The mutant stares at you, into you, a slight sway leaning his body to hang even closer to yours.Â
âItâs⊠whatâs under them that has me wandering the halls.â
Loganâs insides jump and twitch and flail as he processes your words. His mouth grows to feel extremely dry, and it seems impossible to say anything back. Somewhere deep down, he eventually finds it.
âAre we finally gonna do this?â Loganâs question hits out hard in the dimness of the hallway. Almost as powerful as the beats his heart pounds, a thudding ardor pulsing right alongside the blood pumping all the way down to his cock. He doesnât hesitate in the gliding of a tender palm along your sides, hands settling to grip against your waist. He dips his fingertips, pressing into what he desperately wishes was your skin instead of the soft fabric of your shirt. âYou finally gonna let me show you what I think about every time you walk into the fuckinâ room? Every time you knock me into that mat?â
Thereâs a vibration coming off your skin now, one that Logan feels rattle against his bones as your lips part in a slow grin. It doesnât take more than a nod and soft yes from you to force a low growl from Loganâs throat. He almost sounds it again when you pull away to gather his hand into yours.
Logan studies you the entire journey to your room. Itâs the furthest down the hall of all the instructorsâ quarters, giving him ample time to dance lingering, heated looks at the way you move; itâs with such grace and attention, though the man knows you give it none. Itâs just who you are, the slick moves and cunning ways that have him entranced.
The air inside your room is thick with want. A quiet clunk sounds when Logan shuts the door, his back resting against the wood in a slight lean.
âNice place,â Logan comments quietly. It looks as put together as he thought it would. Tidy but lived in, and touches of you all over. You accept the compliment with a few strides to where Logan stands, and he welcomes the arms you snake around his neck with an embrace of his own.
âCan I kiss you?â
His badly stoked yearning makes the seconds it takes for you to bob your head seem like an eternity. The time it takes to kiss you, however, is second to none. Your faces sink together, tongues too impatient to wait before they meld together in a deep kiss. A moan slips from you, Logan drinking it with a groan of his own.
Logan drags his lips from yours, allowing you to breathe but only for a moment as he trails kisses down your jawline. His world glows golden when he finally makes it to your shoulder. The spot heâs wanted to feel against his lips oh so badly. He nips at and moans lowly against it, raising a round of goosebumps he can feel erupt across you. Heâs doing that. Heâs the one causing you to shiver like this, and itâs going to drive him crazy.
Logan snogs you the entire way to your bed, pushing you onto the mattress with a gentle flop.
âOff,â he commands, ripping off his tank in the blink of an eye before rushing to unbuckle his belt. âAll of it.â
The two of you move quickly, ripping off shirts and slipping off bottoms in a single move. Your desperation forbids any kind of teasing, the two of you completely naked when Logan clambers on top of you. His cock noticeably twitches when it brushes against the skin of your stomach, but Loganâs too busy being slack-jawed as he stares down at you.
He could sob at your tits, and his hand has to tweak one of your nipples on its way down to your soaking lips. Right now, Logan doesnât focus on taking his time, and you donât let him. The man dives right in, incapable of waiting when such a ravishing meal like this is laid out like this before him.
A finger glides up your slit and just outside your entrance, collecting your already gathering wetness.Â
âThis all for me?â A gasp spills from you, right into Loganâs mouth. He breathes it down without hesitation, pressing his lips into yours as he slides the drenched pads of his fingers up and down your puffing clit. Your legs try to clench together as the sudden spark that zaps through you, but Logan easily parts them with a single swipe of his knee, keeping you pressed open for him with a little tsk.
All you can do is squeak out a small ahs, a pair of thick fingers rubbing you roughly, while Logan relishes the way your head throws back, mouth parting. Your hand finds its way to his chest, where you clutch his forearm, and squirm underneath him. Another smirk darkens Loganâs face when your writhes forge into determined grinds against his working digits, and he makes sure to burn the image of this into his very core.
âThatâs it,â he breathes out. âUse me, baby. Donât fuckinâ stop âtil your pussy creams all over my hand.â
Logan could burst at how you do exactly what he said to; you use the fuck out of the hand he has clamped against you, whining and jerking, pussy leaking a devastating amount of your juices out to coat his fingers. He talks you through when your first orgasm ricochets through your body, jolting your limbs and wrenching ill-restrained wails from your lips. Instead of stopping, he hurries to kiss you when you release a particularly loud sound at the overwhelming sensation. Telling you how good youâre being for him. Coming for him so well. You cling to him your entire way down, kissing at his lips and chin lazily as he holds you.
He waits until you return with a heavy breath before removing his hand. You tense at the removal, your shivers quickly decaying when he returns the warmth in the form of his member nudging back against your slit.Â
The head of his cock presses into you at an infuriating speed, but Logan canât go any faster. Your center is a mess of wet and clings around Logan with a tautness that makes him pause halfway inside of you. He needs a second, or heâll cum. Flood you before he gets a chance to feel you come around him first.
A lengthy oh draws from Logan, ending with a punched-out fuck only when his entire cock is entirely submerged inside your hole. He gives you both a moment to adjust, twining an arm under you to press a hand to your back while the other palms itself on your cheek. He clutches you close, testing a few deep strokes that he finds are the right move when you choke out a perfect whine.
Loganâs pace grows gradually, always angling his hips according to whatever makes you clench around him the most. Youâre lucky your bed is bolted to the floor when Logan starts bucking with a new snap to his hips, a slick layer of cream appearing and glazing the cock that slips in and out of you.
âFuckinâ take me,â he heaves above you, just over the slaps of his sopping thrusts. Every grind buries himself deep into your heat, Logan losing himself in the feeling. At this moment, itâs all heâs ever wantedâto rail you until neither of you canât think straight. Loganâs already there, unable to form a single coherent thought that doesnât revolve around you. He fucks you well, ignoring the way the muscles in his ass burn nicely every time he plunges himself into you.
Logan can see you staring back up at him, and heâs sure he looks something pitiful. He can feel his eyes trying not to roll back in his head when your body bounces back upwards to meet his thrust. The hair that usually sits perfectly on his forehead sticks to his skin now, and heâs sure that his face is stuck in an expression of pure, fucked out rapture.
âGod, youâve got a pussy on you, dontâcha? Fucking incredible,â Logan murmurs, the fat head of his dribbling cock spearing you open.
A little grin teases at your lips, taking just enough time to catch Logan off guard for you to use your legs to keep him from moving after his next sink inside of you.
âOh, fuck,â the man shudders, eyes fluttering shut when you kiss him again. His world spins at your rolling over, head hitting the sheets at the way you stuff yourself full of him. Forcing his eyes open, Logan nearly closes them again. The sight and rush of you starting a leisurely rock is enough to inch him closer than heâs ready for.
âShit, wait.â Even with the hand he squeezes strongly on the cheek of your ass, you keep steady in your grind. âFucking wait.â
A low, forcing growl thunders through his voice, and he whips forward into a sitting position at a speed that has you seizing to grab at his shoulder. His grip finds the back of your neck, interrupting your gasp to yank your face just inches apart from his.
Your noses brush, eyes studying each other in a thick silence. Unable to help himself, Logan drags you into a long kiss. It steals whatever air is left in your legs, and doesnât stop when he rolls his cock into you with a bite to your lip. Itâs when you match his movements that the hand on your neck moves to the small of your back, helping you along.
âAttagirl. Thatâs better,â Logan praises between kisses, your hand sneaking under his arms to hook your grasp onto his wide shoulders. Your mouth slicks and pecks against Loganâs, waist easing into an intoxicating whine up and down his cock. âFuck me, thatâs it.â
Logan follows the words with a more forceful knocking of his cock into you, and heâs starting to lose it again. Before you know it, heâs flipped you onto your back once more, and your head almost hangs off the bed with the angle heâs contorted you both into.
Your bodies jerk and hump together with a new vigor. Logan can feel himself dwindling into nothing but a puddle of pitiful moans, eventually having to bury his mouth into the neck to muffle his strangled sobs. They rip from him anyway, vibrating with each flick of his hips.
All you can do is wrap your legs and take it, hanging on the man whoâs got you seeing literal fucking stars.
âFucking cream my cock, bub.â
You donât have to tell Logan when youâre close. The harsh pulsing of your pussy around his dick alerts him well enough to rail you deeper. Pulling from your neck, Logan rises to watch as you look up at him, a mixture of lust and a hint of panic in your gaze.
âC-cover my mouth, cover my mouth,â you rush out, Logan barely sealing his hand over your lips before youâre falling apart around him. He fucks into you deep as you start to come, palm doing the bare minimum of dampening the long, loud moan that shreds your throat raw. Your hands donât know what to do with themselves, clenching Logan then the sheets then Logan again while your body sputters under his with rough shakes.
âSuch a good fucking girl,â Logan punctuates with matching thrusts, unable to stop his own wave from catching up with him. The first rope of cum spurts inside you when he bottoms out, the last of your peak squeezing him to a stomach-burning clench of his abs as he comes for you. The only thing that leaves his mouth are a slew of curses, all of them groaned with tightly shut eyes and a damp forehead pressing onto yours.Â
Logan pumps and pumps, removing his hand from your face to keep him from falling as you milk him into nothing but tiny whimpers and flinching aftershocks.Â
A hard, warm weight begins to sink against you, Loganâs breathing still shaky when you wrap an arm around his back. His cock remains inside you, twitching every now and again, some of his load seeping out of your still-stuffed center.
He doesnât say anything for a while. He canât say anything for a while, body feeling as if heâs floating. He canât remember feeling this loose and free and adoring. He wants to sleep here. Can he sleep here?
âCan I sleep here?â Logan questions, voice hoarse with exhaustion. He smiles lazily at your answer.
âOnly if you kiss me again.â
With the little energy he has left, Logan pulls his face to yours. He opts for your jaw first, kissing his way to your chin before planting a final kiss on your lips. This one is different, more careful than the rest. His eyes barely stay open when he retreats, pleased with the picture of your blissed-out expression.
Logan watches you attentively when he finally decides to pull out, his thumb reaching up to stoke at your cheek.
âShh, shh,â he coos at your light gasp. âI know.â
âStill so big,â you groan quietly, and he shushes you with a peck to your head this time.
âI know, pretty, I know.â
He huffs when his cock falls all the way out, easing to lay next to you. His chest shines, damp, one of his arms folding behind his head while the other maneuvers you into his side. You give in to sleep fast, a cheek pressed into his built peck, and mouth open with steady puffs of warm air against his skin.
Six days, and he was yours. Six months, and youâre hisâsomething certain when he wakes in the early morning to find you already staring back at him with those charming eyes and knowing twinkle.
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BELLE WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN?? You havenât posted since OCTOBER
Sorry I abandoned you guys I had the worst writers block BUUUUT
I have a new Logan fic in the works
Itâs semi AU-ish but not really. I present to you: next door neighbor Logan who just conveniently knows how to fix all the appliances that keep ârandomlyâ breaking in your house.
This one is going to be kind of silly bc Iâve been working on my own writing project thatâs a little dark and I need a break from that.
Should be up soon-ish
You struck again!! The newlywed fox was everything!! The fake neighbors reminded me of the Donât Worry Darling movie and listening to the soundtrack while reading was 10/10!! Youâre so incredibly talented!
I'm so glad everyone liked the newlyweds, I was worried that I had rushed the ending for it. Listening to the soundtrack is such a smart move, you could say a movie like that influenced the fic, but I was thinking of the Stepford Wives (with Nicole Kidman) the whole time.
That was my jam as a kid, I was obsessed with that movie.
Thank you so much for such a sweet message â„ïž
Pairing Ë˰âą*ââ· Logan Howlett x fem!reader (Flux)
a/n: I wrote this at 3 AM and I'm also pretty sure I'm sick, so bare with me. Based on this: ask
You know Logan can't stand you, but it doesn't stop the way you feel about him. Your mind recognizes the hate in his eyes whenever you're in the same room, but your heart can't. Finally, you come to terms with the truth: it's never gonna happen. However, your newfound resolve is flipped on its head when you're forced to go undercover with him as newlyweds. Your new wedding ring is a noose and you don't know how you'll survive it or him.
You stumble forward as someone knocks into you from behind. Their shoulder jams painfully into your ribcage and you trip into the wall in front of you. âShit,â you hiss, rubbing your back and turning around to glare at whoever it was. You figure it's a kid skipping class, imagine your surprise when itâs a fully grown man practically growling at you.Â
âWhere the hell am I?â He darts forward, grabbing you by the arms and jerking you towards him. âWho are you people?â Youâre stunned into silence, eyes wide with shock as he pushes your spine into the wall behind you.Â
You recognize him now. This is the man who was with Rogue in the truck you, Ororo, and Summers rescued. The only reason you donât toss him across the room and rip his spine out through his throat is because you know how disoriented he is. Though, with the way his claws threaten to pierce your skin, you are tempted to.Â
âAh,â a familiar and welcomed voice sounds out from beside you both. âI see youâve met Flux.â Charles rarely ever uses your actual name, mainly introducing you through your X-Men persona. Itâs a preference of yours.Â
The manâs eyes dart between you and Charles, and your own turn into slits the longer he keeps his tight grip on you. âWanna let me go now?â You demand voice practically a growl. Your patience has never been wonderful, but heâs really working on your last nerve.Â
He blinks, seemingly coming back to himself. With an almost regretful look, he lets you go. You sigh in irritation, straightening your shirt out and shoving past the corner heâs pushed you into. âWho the hell is this?â You snap, moving to stand behind Charles.Â
He gives you an apologetic look, âIâm not sure. He hasnât introduced himself yet.â He gives the man an expectant look. Instead of answering he glances around, and scoffs.Â
âWhat is this, summer camp? You people donât need to know me, I donât need to know you. Just show me how to get the fuck out, alright?â Finding Charlesâ school had been heaven on earth. Heâd provided you with a home and a haven you never thought you would have the privilege of. Youâd never shown anger in the face of his guidance or generosity. But many have.Â
You can tell, as much as the man in front of you might believe otherwise, heâs going to be enjoying the comfort of Charlesâ protection soon. You move to the side, leaving them to their conversation. Instead, you focus on keeping the kids away from the newest form of entertainment. You usher them towards their classes, despite their reluctance.Â
The other members of the team soon join you all, introducing themselves. âStorm, Cyclops,â he scoffs a little at Scottâs name and you feel a reluctant smile tugging at your lips. He turns towards you, brows furrowed inquisitively, âFlux?â
âMatter manipulation,â you explain bluntly. He shrugs his shoulders giving you a blank look. Sighing you hold out your hand and gesture to Charlesâ desk. With a flick of your wrist, it melts into an unnatural form of liquid wood. Loganâs eyes widen and you canât help but finally let the full smile form on your lips. âFlux was just what fourteen-year-old me thought fit best.â
He nods, turning back towards Charles with a smarmy grin. âAnd what do they call you, wheels?â Your eyes widen with shock and an unbidden laugh surges forth. Charles sends you a playful glare and you have to turn around to keep from laughing more.Â
Youâd thought you wouldnât like this one. Itâs always bad when thereâs a member on the team you donât get along with. Itâs not common, but it has happened. They simply keep you separated if they can. The school is wonderful, but itâs not perfect. Not everyone will like each other. You think you and Logan will get along just fine, though.
It started slow, barely noticeable at first. You didnât know him well enough to understand that the way he treats you is completely different from how he treats everyone else. Where your greetings are brushed off with cold shoulders or the occasional glare, others at the very least get a brief mumble of hello. When you speak, you can practically feel the irritation wafting off of him in waves. You taste his hatred in every interaction.Â
Thereâs no exact moment you can pinpoint where you went wrong. Sure, your introduction to one another was rocky at best. But heâd nearly thrown Jean across the room when they first met and they got along just fine.Â
Youâve thought about it, for far too long, about what makes you different than the others. Is it your smile? The pitch of your voice? Of course, you understand that sometimes there are just people that you meet and something inside you hates them. Thereâs never a true explanation behind the feeling, just instinct.Â
But you canât place what about you would make someone so guarded, so mean. It feels like such a childish word, like too simple of a way to explain Logan. The very least you know about him is that he can never be summed up with the word simple. There are secrets buried deep within him, some he knows, others he doesnât. You canât just slap a label on him and walk away.Â
More often than not, though, you feel like youâre talking to one of your childhood bullies and not a team member. Because, despite your own feelings towards him, at the end of the day you are team members. Thereâs no getting around it. From that connection comes, what should be, a base level of respect.Â
Youâre both in charge of protecting one another and looking out for each other on the field. That means when you put on the suit, youâre putting aside petty grievances. But he seems incapable of that as well.Â
Youâve spent mornings practicing your greetings, trying to tone down your cheeriness or inflect your voice with a more welcoming timbre. Youâve changed how you dress, how you do your hair, even your makeup. And at the end of it all, you still got the same miserable look and distinct feeling of worthlessness. All of the change has been temporary, you are a creature of habit. Inevitably, you slide back into the same habits and styles that make you, you.Â
You feel stupid, trying to change yourself to better fit someone else's tastes. Especially when itâs someone who so clearly despises you. Itâs not how you carry yourself, how you look, itâs the mere fact you exist that bothers him. At least, thatâs the conclusion youâve come to in all your months of experimenting.Â
It truly shouldnât bother you so much. Thereâs always going to be people who donât like you. Thereâs nothing you can do about it. And youâve never had that desire to change other's opinions on you. But something about Logan has dug its claws under your skin and has refused to let go. You canât get him out of your head, even when you feel like you hate him, heâs all you think about. Youâve considered asking Jean to use her abilities to somehow dig him out of your brain and keep him out. But you donât think that would work either.Â
You step into the kitchen and nearly freeze in the doorway. Logan sits at the island, back to you as he reads the newspaper. You find yourself lightening your steps, quieting your breath. You make yourself as inconspicuous and convenient as possible. Every time you catch yourself doing something like this, you hate yourself just a little bit more.Â
You shouldnât have to alter parts of yourself to better fit someone elseâs needs. You slip along the tiles, your socked feet slamming into the corner of the counter as you pass it. âShit!â You shout, doubling over as you clutch your throbbing toes.Â
So much for being inconspicuous.Â
Loganâs head shoots up in shock as he glares over his paper at you. You let out a strained whimper, reluctantly releasing your foot and hobbling towards the coffee pot. Youâve taken more bullets than you count, and somehow that still hurt worse.Â
You canât just ignore him, you feel his stare burning into your back, and it feels too dickish-too much like him, to not say anything. âMorning,â you mutter over your shoulder, barely looking at him. You pour your coffee, trying to ignore how daunting the silence seems. You might as well be alone in the room for all the attention heâll grant you.Â
You feel like a beggar, on hands and knees just for a simple hello. Ever since his first night here, heâs been so aloof with you. Itâs only devolved since then. You sigh, slamming the mug onto the counter. Something in you has snapped this morning and itâs not just the bones in your foot. Youâre sick of this.Â
You shouldnât have to walk on eggshells around him. Heâs not a toddler, he doesnât deserve to be coddled and catered to. Heâs a grown man, an X-Men for fuckâs sake. What he needs, is to learn a little emotional regulation.Â
You turn, mouth open and sucking in a deep breath as you prepare your speech. The island is empty as you face it, his stool in the same place it had been while he was on it. The paper lies abandoned, even his nearly full mug is still on the granite.Â
You scoff, snapping your jaw shut and rolling your eyes. âJesus,â you mutter to yourself. Wonderful, even the same room is too much for him now. Something bitter has been forming in your mind. A rage building from weeks of unprompted cruel behavior.Â
Yet, somehow, the thing that pushes you over the edge from interest to resentment is the fact that he didnât say good morning back.Â
You teach history at the school, but the majority of your role at the mansion is to train children with powers similar to yours. Youâve never met a mutant who had such a broad scope with their abilities as you do. Some can turn water to ice, control the blood running through someoneâs veins, or make the air around them a solid block. But youâve yet to meet one who manipulates anything with matter the way you do.Â
Still, for training, you deal with the unreliable, untameable, and generally more dangerous abilities. And sometimes for training, you work with other teachers and let your kids practice on each other. Itâs a rotating schedule, and unfortunately, the week youâve decided you hate him, youâre partnered with Logan for training.Â
Youâve got the entirety of Charlesâ backyard, which is essentially the size of a football field. Itâs a lot of room for accidents and accidental misfires. You stand in front of the pond, admittedly a risky choice with these kids, and direct them all to their partners.Â
âRemember, the goal of this isnât to maim each other,â you give a particularly pointed glare towards Billy. Heâs caused a lot of problems lately with his fires. âItâs just to learn how to wield your abilities to your advantage, to protect yourself and your team.â
You look to Logan, seeing if he wants to add anything or contribute to the class in some way. He just keeps his arms crossed, glowering at all the children like heâs imagining skewering them on his claws. Rolling your eyes, you turn back to the kids. âLet's start with the hand-to-hand maneuvers we went over yesterday before we practice with our abilities.â
âWhy donât you show us?â Your head whips towards Billy and you canât help the sneer on your lips. Heâs sat on the ground, legs crossed leisurely over each other. He doesnât have a care in the world as he taunts you.Â
âWhat?â You grit out, glaring at him.
âShow us what a balanced fight should look like between mutants. You and Logan,â he nods to the aforementioned man. Logan just quirks a brow, glancing at you before turning back to Billy.Â
âI donât think-â
âFine.â You gape at Logan as he tugs his jacket off. He shrugs as he looks at you, moving towards the middle of the field. Of course, he wouldnât pass up the opportunity to try and pummel you. Youâre sure that heâs just been waiting for an excuse to fight you.Â
âIf thatâs what you want,â you mutter bitterly. You pull off your sweatshirt and start walking towards him.Â
âYour cuffs,â Billy calls out from behind you. The other students all watch the interaction with rapt attention. Theyâre practically salivating at the chance to see you two fight each other. Meanwhile, Billy just seems like he wants to see someone bleed.Â
The metal cuffs around your wrists are the only thing that stops you from leveling the entire school. Your abilities are so tightly entwined with your emotions that one unlucky bout of anger can lead you to vaporizing everyone around you. They dull your abilities just enough to still be useful but not deadly. You havenât taken them off in years. And perhaps itâs wrong to lean so heavily on them for protection, but you have. Thatâs your cross to bear. You donât even want to picture what will happen if you open that dam.Â
âWhat?â Billy shrugs, sending you a sharp smirk. âHow are we supposed to trust you, if you canât even use your own damn abilities?â He snorts and narrows his eyes at you, âHow the hell did you even become an X-Men, Flux?â His name rolls off your tongue with a sharpened venom.Â
He oozes hatred and a burning resentment that catches you off guard. Itâs too much to process the insults heâs hurling at you and the sudden one-eighty in his personality. You donât even hear Logan coming until his fist is wrapped in Billyâs collar and heâs yanking him off his feet.Â
He dangles him, just a couple of inches, off the ground, teeth practically bared at the kid. âWanna keep talking, mouth?âÂ
âLog-â Youâre cut off as a fireball shoots out of Billyâs palm and explodes against Loganâs gut. You gasp, throwing up a wall in front of the other kids so it canât hurt them. âAll right,â you call out sternly. âEveryone inside,â you demand, pointing the other kids back towards the manor.Â
You linger with Logan, who still has Billy dangling from his fist, only he looks even more pissed off now. Anyone else, and theyâd be dust at Billyâs feet. But Logan isnât anyone else and the only collateral seems to be his shirt.Â
Not that you mind the view.Â
Billy hasnât been here long enough to know what Loganâs abilities are, though. You donât think he actually knew he could heal. The thought alone is worrying enough that you donât force Logan to let him go. âWe need to get him to Charles,â when Logan doesnât move you put more force behind your voice, ânow.â
Logan lets out a low huff before placing Billy back on his own two feet. He doesnât let him go far, though, keeping his hand around the back of his neck and dragging him forward. You follow behind them, making sure he doesnât rip him to pieces before Charles can speak with him.Â
You sit outside Charlesâ office, fingers tapping restlessly against your thigh as you stare at the mahogany walls in front of you. The red velvet of the seat is too soft and you find yourself slipping to the edge every few seconds. Itâs too soft, too luxurious, your back aches the longer you wait.Â
Charles had instructed both you and Logan to wait for him to finish up with Billy. Itâs been nearly an hour, though, and youâre growing restless. You can tell Logan feels the same way. Heâs pacing the hall like a caged lion about to rip the arm off its keeper.Â
âHow are you?â You blurt out, desperate for something to fill the silence. He stops abruptly, whipping around to face you. You flinch back slightly at the intense glare heâs sporting. âYour stomach, I mean,â you gesture towards the scorch marks on his shirt, the soot on his abs.Â
Itâs been a practice in self-control to not just be staring at his wonderfully sculpted muscles flexing this whole time. Youâre pleasantly surprised with how well youâve been doing so far. Though, now with him facing you, youâre finding it incredibly hard to meet his eye. Heâs such an imposing figure, especially when heâs standing over you like this.Â
âFine,â he barks out, turning back around and effectively ending the conversation. Your eyes narrow and you scoff, god, why do you try?
The door swings open and you expect Billy to come running out crying with his tail tucked between his legs. Instead, you hear the familiar whirl of Charles wheels as he rolls into the hall. He faces you and Logan, a strained smile on his face.Â
âWhereâs Billy?â You slowly get to your feet, peering into his office. Your confusion only grows when you find it empty.Â
âHeâs away from the other children for now. Heâll need private lessons before we allow him near them again. And if that doesnât work, we have no choice but to expel him.â You can tell it hurts Charles to say that.Â
He does genuinely want the best for these kids. He wants mutants to have a home, a place where they can be themselves without fear of retaliation. Sometimes, though, it doesnât work out. Thereâs nothing wrong with that, you all try your best to help the kids. But some of them have been so twisted by the world around them that thereâs no undoing the damage. When they pose a risk the way Billy does, the other kids come first.Â
Logan scoffs with distaste, stalking closer to Charles. âHe tried to kill me, fucking tried to get Flux to take her cuffs off.â He gestures towards you, for once, though, you donât feel like youâre being attacked. Even he can understand the dangers of that demand is idiotic. Itâs clear Billy only wanted to watch everyone around him get hurt, he didnât care about the consequences.Â
Charles holds up a pacifying hand, nodding his head and dismissing Loganâs concerns. âIâm quite aware of what happened, Logan. But Billy is my responsibility and heâs not the reason I needed to talk to you both.â
He rolls back into his office, expecting you both to follow him. You fall in line behind him, taking a seat at his desk. Logan takes another minute to join you both, a reluctant scowl on his face as he sits beside you. Charles waves his hand, the door closing and providing you all with a little bit more privacy.Â
He reaches into a drawer on his desk, pulling out a thin manilla folder. He pushes it towards both you and Logan. You share a confused look with Logan before flipping the file open. There are a few pictures of a stereotypical suburban neighborhood. Bright green laws, uniform driveways, each house looks the same as the last.Â
There are a few more pictures, all of them taken from an awkward distance that makes it hard to determine what youâre looking at. You pass the pictures to Logan and shake your head at Charles. âI donât understand, what is all this?â
âYour next mission,â he informs you both with a strained smile.Â
Loganâs head shoots up, eyes narrowing in on Charles. âExcuse me?â He demands, his voice a growl more than anything.Â
âThere have been some disturbing rumors about this neighborhood. Mentions of a possible mutant trafficking ring being conducted behind closed doors. Normally, I would dismiss such claims. Oftentimes these are just ways to bait and snatch mutants. However, my own attempts at telepathic investigation have been thwarted. Even with Cerebro, I canât seem to breach the neighborhood.â
âSomethingâs blocking you?â You ask, snatching the pictures back from Logan to get a better look. He tosses the folder back on the desk, muttering something you canât hear.Â
âOr someone. Iâm worried there might be some truth to these rumors. And since I canât find a safe way in, I need your help. You only need to do some reconnaissance. The only problem is how gated the community is. Theyâre not going to let anyone in unless they live there.â
Charles gives you both a cheekily expectant look. The truth is so hard to swallow that you almost canât process it. âNo,â you mutter, shaking your head and smiling, waiting for the punchline. When one doesnât come you get up from your seat and give him a disbelieving look. âYou want us undercover?â
Charles pulls out a key and smiles widely, âCongratulations on your new home, newlyweds.â
Logan shoots up from his seat, it wobbles precariously, nearly toppling to the ground. âYou want me to move into a house with her?â He spits out the sentence like it pains him to even have it in his mouth. A disbelieving smile spread across your cheeks, sardonic laughter slipping through parted lips. âWhy canât I do it with Jean? Or better yet you just get some other asshole to play her husband?â
Your heart stutters to a stop and you quickly rip your eyes off the pair. The stung worse than you think it should. Your heart aches, each beat painful. You feel like someoneâs punched through your chest and ripped at all the tender bits.Â
âI have chosen you,â Charles loses all humor from his voice. He is stern, like a father scolding his child, as he speaks to Logan. âAnd thatâs the end of it. Besides, I donât suppose that Jeanâs fiance would appreciate her playing house with another man.â He places heavy emphasis on fiance, enough to get Logan to purse his lips and look away from him.
You speak up, your voice a surprise to them both. You claw through the lump in your throat, ignoring the hot burn behind your eyes. âIâm not doing this. Especially not with him,â you force the words out, wiping roughly at your cheeks. âShit,â you hiss, looking down and trying to hide the tears that have slowly trickled down.Â
You donât allow either of them to argue, running out of the door and ignoring the calls of your name behind you. You canât do this. Canât pretend to be in love with Logan, not when he hates you. Not when itâs so close to the truth.Â
Evidently, Charles didn't feel like giving either of you a choice.
You drum your fingers along the door handle. The cab of the truck rattles as the trailer drags along behind you. The trees have begun to thin out on the road, and more shopping centers pop up than youâve seen this whole trip. Itâs the how you know youâre getting closer, that and the map on Loganâs thigh. You steal glances at it because he refused to let you help him navigate.Â
Besides the occasional ask for a bathroom break and refuted offer of switching drivers, the four-hour road trip has been quiet. You tried to turn the radio on earlier but heâd shut it off nearly immediately. He claimed that the pop shit they play makes his ears ring.Â
You were almost tempted to turn it up to full volume if only to torture him a little bit.Â
Loganâs rough voice jars you out of your head, âIâm going to need to know your real name.â
You frown, brows furrowed in confusion. Had you still not given him your actual name? Heâs always referred to you as Flux, but you just assumed thatâs because he didnât want you to be an actual person in his eyes. Itâs easier to hate someone if you can distance yourself from the idea of them having actual feelings. Still, you canât believe he never asked someone for it.Â
It just shows you how little he cares for you. Reluctantly, you give it to him. He hums, something pensive pinching at his face. âWhat?â You snap, waiting for him to insult you.Â
He just shrugs, âItâs pretty,â he mutters, so quiet you almost donât hear him. You donât even know how to respond to that, so caught off guard by a genuine compliment that you just choose to ignore it. You doubt he meant it, anyway. He might think the name is pretty, but he doesnât hold the same opinion of the person connected to it.Â
You sink back into the silence, finding it more comforting than jarring now. Youâd prefer the familiar feeling of him ignoring you than the abrupt turn in character. He glances over at you, something like regret on his face as he sighs.Â
Thankfully, he doesnât say anything else. Instead, in what feels like an extension of an olive branch, he turns the radio back on. He keeps the volume low, so it doesnât bother him so much. But at least thereâs something to listen to besides your breathing.Â
You turn back towards the window, a white sign surrounded by daises coming up as Logan slows the truck down. He flicks on his turn signal, pulling up to Storybrook Walk. He stops in front of a large wrought iron gate and jumps out of the truck. He runs up to a black metal box, flipping the lid open and typing in the code Charles gave you both. As he gets back in the truck, the gate swings open widely.Â
You pull your rings out of your pocket and slip yours on. âHere,â you urge, holding Loganâs ring out to him. He huffs, glaring down at it before snatching it out of your hand. He balances his hands atop the wheel, slipping the ring on his left hand.Â
The neighborhood is picture-perfect suburbia. The lawns are bright green and manicured to perfection. You can hear children laughing as they play in their backyards and draw out a hopscotch grid on the sidewalk. Women and men who look like theyâre straight from the fifties stop on the sidewalk and wave as you drive through the gated community.Â
You mouth the numbers on the mailboxes to yourself, sitting up straighter when youâre one house away from your new home for the next few weeks. âHey,â you frown, noticing a large congregation of people in the driveway of 1220. âThis is our house isnât it?â
Logan frowns, stopping the truck just before pulling in so he doesnât hit anyway. âSupposed to be.â He glares at the people suspiciously, âStay here, alright?â
You nod, watching him as he jumps out and rounds the front of the truck. You roll your window down, fingers dancing along the metal of your cuffs. Thereâs no way youâve been found out before youâve even gotten a chance to investigate.Â
âHey!â Loganâs voice is scary on a good day, but when he feels threatened, itâs enough to frighten a grown man. You can see the people flinch slightly away from him. Thatâs when you spot the wrapped cookies in a blonde womanâs hand and see children hiding with balloons on the porch.Â
âOh, fuck,â you mutter. You throw the door open, racing after Logan before he does something stupid. âHowdy neighbors!â You shout, speaking over him before he gets a chance to say anything else. You rush up to Loganâs side, nearly out of breath in your haste to get to him. âIs this our welcoming committee?â
You glare up at him and his eyes narrow as he sees the same thing you did. âShit,â he mutters under his breath.Â
âSmile and wave,â you whisper through gritted teeth. His lips peel up into something terrifying and it takes everything in you not to flinch back. âWhat the fuck is that?â You mutter.
âA smile,â he hisses, glaring down at you in irritation.Â
A blonde woman steps forward before you can continue your hushed argument. âWelcome!â She calls out in a heavy southern accent, throwing her arms open with a bright smile. She walks as fast as she can in her tight skirt and kitten heels, coming over to embrace you, the casserole in her hand balancing precariously behind you.Â
She tugs Logan down into a hug, pressing a kiss to his cheek and staining the skin red. âSurprise!â The kids on the porch jump out with balloons and flowers and she winces.Â
âA bit late on the delivery,â she waves it off with a faux chuckle. âBut we donât mind âcause theyâre so darn cute.â She is very⊠loud. Thereâs something about her that is meant to be charming but puts you on edge. Sheâs got all the familiar characteristics of a woman youâd love to be around, but sheâs executing it like someone playing a character. âShiela,â she holds out her hand, perfectly manicured nails shining bright red.Â
You take her hand introducing yourself, âAnd this is my husband, Logan. Forgive him for his tone, we had an accident on the highway earlier. Weâre still a little on edge.â
âOh no,â she gasps, pressing her nails to her chest and even that seems plastic. âWhat happened?â
Years of bullshitting your way through school presentations are finally coming in handy. You think quickly on your feet, something these people would despise. You need something that endears you to them, âTire blew out and someone tried to raid the trailer while we were fixing it.â
She lets out a disapproving hum and the throng of people behind her echoes it with disturbing harmony. You find yourself leaning closer towards Logan, feeling like you need to defend yourself against them. You know theyâre only an overzealous HOA committee, but there is something uncanny about them.Â
Sensing your discomfort, Logan wraps his arm around your shoulder, tugging you into his side. You have to school your features into one of neutrality. Youâre supposed to be newlyweds, this is normal behavior for you. His touch feels like ice water being tossed over you, though. His willing embrace makes your head swim with distaste and skepticism.Â
âWell,â a man steps forward. Heâs conventionally handsome, with brown hair cropped short, slight stubble on his cheeks, slacks, and a button-up that he fills out nicely. His smile, however, stretches too wide and shows too many teeth. A shiver crawls up your spine as he places his hand on Shielaâs shoulder. âYou wonât have to worry about people like that here, thatâs for sure. John,â he offers his hand to Logan, bypassing you completely. âHead of the HOA here at Storybrook.â
âNice to meet you, Johnâ Logan falls just short of sincere. He towers slightly over John and you can see that heâs squeezing his hand just a bit too tight by the wince of Jouhnâs face. You dig your elbow into his side and he drops his hand immediately.Â
Your gaze drifts over their shoulders and your stomach drops. The people behind them all hold dishes full of food and gift baskets. Their smiles are pinned to their faces, never once flinching out of place. Thereâs no joy in their eyes, though. Theyâre glazed over like theyâre a million miles away. You would think they were mannequins before you even considered them human.Â
âLong drive?â Shiela asks, your eyes dart back to hers only to find her intense stare already wholly focused on you.Â
âYeah,â you answer, clearing your throat of the panic rising in it. âWeâre gonna have a fun time unloading this,â you laugh humorlessly, motioning towards the trailer.
She waves her hands in dismissal. âDonât you worry about that, hun. Thatâs what neighbors are for after all.â She looks behind her, snapping her fingers a few times. The otherâs start going towards the trailer and you feel Logan tense under your touch.Â
A kid reaches it first, they manage to unlock it before you shout, âNo!â Itâs too loud, echoing through the street and making you clench your eyes shut in embarrassment. You turn back towards Shiela and John, both of them wearing shocked expressions. You chuckle awkwardly, âThereâs just a lot of family heirlooms. I donât want to risk them being damaged.â There are no heirlooms, just empty boxes and surveillance equipment that you'll have no chance of explaining away.
Shiela purses her lips into a tight smile, eyes turned to slits as she nods. âOf course,â you know she doesnât believe you for a second. âWell then, weâll just take all this inside.â She snaps and the others take their casseroles and gifts and begin flooding towards your front door. Shiela and John walk behind them, herding them all into a straight line.Â
You let go of Logan immediately, glaring at the door of your home. Shiela holds a key in her hand, unlocking it and letting everyone inside. You scoff and shake your head in disbelief. âWhat the actual fuck?â You hiss.Â
Logan just shakes his head. âFucking bizarre, what the hell is wrong with these people?â He starts back towards the truck and you follow him. âI almost prefer the welcoming committee at the manor.â
You roll your eyes, âI was your welcoming committee,â you grouse.Â
He shrugs, âI know.â You swat lightly at his shoulder and relatch the trailerâs lock. You linger by the mailbox as Logan pulls the truck into the driveway. Heâs getting out just as the others finally leave your house.Â
Shiela walks back towards you and you gesture towards the keyring in her hand. âGot a key to my house?â You play it off as a joke but itâs incredibly disturbing to know she could walk in at any minute.Â
âOf course,â she smiles and shrugs it off like itâs the simplest thing in the world. âFor the safety of everyone here.â Her smile drops and she takes an imposing step towards you, âInspections are every Wednesday at noon.â Your jaw drops in astonishment and you choke on your words. She cackles loudly, face breaking out into a smile once more. âIâm just kidding, honey! God, your face, youâre too gullible, sweetheart.â
You force out a chuckle, smiling as much as you can force. âOf course, silly me,â you barely make it sound believable. This is going to be much harder than you thought.Â
âWell,â John comes up behind her, guiding her away from you. âWeâll get out of your hair now. Welcome, neighbors!â The others around them all call out a Welcome as they drift across your lawn and head back to their own homes.Â
Logan walks up to your side, the both of you keeping stilted smiles on your faces, waiting for them to just go away. But they pause at their doors, in almost perfect synchronization they turn and wave at you both. You back further into Loganâs chest and his grip on you tightens.Â
âWhat. The. Fuck.â They step through their homes at the same moment and you feel sick to your stomach. There is something seriously wrong here, youâre not sure you want to find out the truth of it.Â
You leave Logan to unload the trailer while you unpack the boxes. Youâre forced to do it all by hand while the front door is open. You canât risk someone stopping by for a visit and seeing you float the couch through the middle of the living room. Youâre stumped on how to set up the surveillance equipment. Shiela doesnât seem like the type to understand boundaries when it comes to popping by for a visit.Â
Youâre just going to have to keep most of it upstairs and set up some cameras on the porch. You donât doubt that sheâll abuse that key of hers as she sees fit. You canât imagine how anyone could stand living in this neighborhood. Having no privacy seems like a nightmare. Especially when the commander of the HOA is John and Shiela. They seem like the type to fine you over a rosebush.Â
Logan grunts, dragging in the couch. He pushes it through the doorway and kicks the door closed behind him. The second itâs closed he drops the act and picks the couch up with one hand. âWhere do you want it?âÂ
You point towards the back wall of the living room and he drops it with a small groan. âWeâre going to need to put cameras out on the porch,â you inform him, still digging through the box. He walks behind you, heading for the fridge and digging around in it.Â
âFuck,â he mutters. You look up, watching as he tosses aside casserole after casserole. âThey didnât bring any beer?â
You laugh a little and get up, heading towards the cooler youâd packed. âThey donât seem the type.â You lean over, digging around through the melted ice until your fingers brush against cool glass. You straighten up, sending him a coquettish smile. âWant a beer after all that hard work, darling?â You taunt, playing the perfect housewife.Â
He scoffs and holds his hand out, snatching it from the air as you toss it at him. He pulls the cap off with his teeth, spitting it out into the sink. âAnd a sandwich while youâre at it,â he demands roughly.Â
If you werenât a connoisseur of dry humor, you wouldnât have recognized the joke for what it was. Still, youâre almost too shocked he even bothered to play along with you to laugh. Almost, you canât help the slight chuckle that slips out. Â
He throws himself on the couch, taking a deep swig from the bottle, and the moment feels remarkably domestic. You suppose that it should. That is the whole reason youâre here after all. But you hadnât expected even a singular pleasant moment with Logan.Â
This, playful banter and a shared joke, thatâs all you could ever want from him. You would settle for this if it was all he was willing to give you. But he canât even grant you that. This is one outlier in a long list of rude remarks and dismissive behavior. You canât let yourself be so easily swayed.Â
âI might try and get some cameras on the other houses,â Logan remarks from the couch. He kicks his feet on the coffee table and you click your tongue at him, motioning towards his shoes. With an aggrieved sigh, he undoes the laces of his boots and kicks them off. You glare at the dirt that flings across the carpet but a quick wave of your hand makes it disappear.Â
âDonât bother with the cameras. Theyâve all got security.â You turn away from the box youâre unpacking with a pensive frown. âTheyâre all covered by the same company, too. All of them. Isnât that weird?â
He scoffs and shrugs. âAnywhere else, yeah. But Iâm pretty sure they piss at the same time here.â Your nose wrinkles at his crude words and you roll your eyes.Â
âTake this seriously.â
He huffs out a laugh, âI am. Didnât you see them earlier? They only breathe because Shiela lets them.â You take a seat at the kitchen table, uncomfortable attempting to take a spot on the couch. He sighs when he sees the expression on your face, finally dropping the dismissive attitude. âIâll just be smart about how I set up our cameras, alright?â
You just nod, reaching for the box of your essentials on the table. Itâs strange to be sitting beside him, talking to him. Youâve never gotten more than two words out of him. This is so far out of your normal comfort zone that you feel like youâre crawling out of your skin trying to escape.Â
âIâm going to go to bed,â you announce awkwardly, shooting up from your seat at the table.Â
The beer pauses halfway to his lips and he gives you an odd look. âOkay?â He responds slowly, not sure why youâre telling him this. You open your mouth, and almost tell him to have a good night, but change your mind at the last second.Â
You move towards the bedroom near the front door, âFlux,â you turn slightly and he shakes his head. âTake the one upstairs.â
Your brows furrow, âWhy?â You demand, an attitude edging its way into your voice.Â
âSo if Shiela busts down our door I can protect us,â you know heâs teasing, but the sentiment is nice. âAnd so I donât have to set up the surveillance shit upstairs,â your face drops and you roll your eyes. There it is.Â
âDick,â you mutter, storming towards the stairs, your boxes hovering along behind you. His laughter follows you up the stairs, even when you slam the door shut. Although, when you take in the room, you canât find it in yourself to complain for a second about it.Â
While Logan is screwed with the teeny guest room downstairs, you get the largest bedroom youâve ever been in all to yourself. The closet could practically be another bedroom. The bath is more like a jacuzzi than it is a tub.
A four-poster bed sits against the wall, the fluffiest comforter ever becoming you forth like a siren. Thereâs even a table in the middle of the room, with a chair, perfect for setting up as your desk.Â
You scoff in astonishment, âOh, I could get used to this.â You place your boxes on the table and start pulling out your clothes. You toss yourself on the bed, bouncing against the sheets, and throw pillows go flying everywhere. You flick your wrist, all your essentials flying out of the boxes and sorting themselves out.Â
After a luxurious soak in the tub, youâre spread out along the bed, the limited information from Charles's file spread out before you. There are only a few blurry pictures of the neighborhood and a typed-up page of everything heâs heard about Sotrybrook. Thereâs nothing even remotely useful here.Â
You sigh, tossing the file to the floor and looking out the large window of your room. Youâve got a camera placed on the sill, programmed to take a picture anytime thereâs movement. You doubt youâre going to get much from that. The secrets of this place seem to be buried deep. Youâre gonna have to get real friendly with your neighbors if you want to get out of here fast.Â
Logan is on the computer, trying to sync all of the cameras up. You clean up the dishes from breakfast and tidy up the kitchen. Youâre trying to decide how you should start investigating when thereâs a dainty knock on the door.Â
Your brows furrow and you peer around the cupboards to look at the door. Loganâs head lifts and he shares an odd look with you. He gets up from the couch and glances through the peephole.Â
You drop the towel on the counter and frown as his shoulders slump forward. Something pinched appears on his face and he sighs. âWhat?â You hiss at him.
He turns and glares at you, âYouâll see.â You shake your head in confusion as he throws the door open.Â
His attitude makes a lot more sense when you hear a very happy, âHowdy!â Shiela stands in your doorframe, three women hovering behind her. At least they look awake, unlike the people from last night. A redhead with the most gorgeous waves youâve ever seen holds beach towels in her arms. A brunette with flawless brown skin carries a jug of lemonade. And a woman with black hair and a perfect figure is carrying a plate of cookies.Â
All of these women are wearing bathing suits that look like theyâve been snatched out of a fashion magazine from the sixties. Each of them is gorgeous, alarmingly so. Theyâre beautiful to the point of being flawless. As you walk out of the kitchen and take a step closer, Shiela welcomes herself into your home.Â
You donât even think you see pores on their faces. Each of them offers you the same practiced smile that you force yourself to return. âHow are you settling in?â Shiela demands, not asks.Â
âUm,â you look to Logan for help but heâs just as perplexed as you are. âJust fine, Shiela, thanks. What are you all doing?â
The redhead rolls her eyes playfully, âTanning, sweetheart.â She glances at Logan expectantly and he grabs his duffel from by the couch.Â
âI think thatâs my cue,â he falls easily into the role of a playful husband. But you donât need him to play along right now. You need him to stay where the fuck he is so youâre not alone with the barbies.Â
âHa ha, donât go,â you whisper, trying to grab at his sleeve. âLogan,â you hiss, making sure the others canât hear you as they look around your home. âDonât do this.â
He dips his head down, and for one stupid moment, you think he might kiss you. âGood luck,â he whispers in your ear, backing off with a smug smirk and letting himself out of the house.Â
Oh, youâre going to fucking kill him.Â
âFinally,â the brunette breathes out a relieved breath, âI thought heâd never leave.â
Shiela chuckles, âYouâre lucky honey. It took us a long while to have ours so well trained.â She motions to the other girls, âThis is Madge,â the redhead smiles and gives a cute wave. She introduces the rest quickly and you file the information away for later when youâre writing your report.Â
Madge- husband is the vendor consultant for the HOA.Â
Sierra - brunette - husband is secretary of the HOA.Â
Kimiko - black hair - no husband.Â
Your brows furrow in confusion as Kimiko nods in greeting. You return it, suspicions running thick in your blood. Itâs odd, that their husbands are in charge of the HOA, you figured they would be. Beyond that, the emphasis they put on it is astonishing. You really didnât think the HOA was so important but itâs practically the government here. And the women only seem to hold importance if their husbands do. Shiela is essentially their leader, sheâs the one you need to impress.
This whole thing seems incredibly backward and like a blast from the past. The way they style their hair, do their makeup, dress- it's all fashioned after the fifties and sixties. You feel incredibly out of place in your worn-down pajamas and frizzy braids.Â
âWeâre not really tanning,â Madge tells you. âThis is just a way for us ladies to get to know the new kid in the neighborhood and tell you everything you need to know,â she leans in, smiling like sheâs sharing a conspiratorial secret with you.Â
âDonât let Madge scare you,â Sierra shoots her a glare. âItâs not that big of a deal, itâs just a way for us to escape our husbands for an hour.â
âWell,â you chuckle awkwardly, crossing your arms over your chest as you grow uncomfortable under their tense stares. It feels like their eyes are peeling back your skin, exposing everything underneath as they judge every nook and cranny of your soul. âI havenât reached that stage yet.â
Shielaâs smile loses some of its humor and she scoffs. âYou will,â she assures you, acrid bitterness coating her words. âGive it a few years,â she gives you a bitchy and all-knowing smirk. Your hackles raise, the urge to defend your sham of a marriage rising quickly in you. You bite your tongue, swallowing down your smart retort before you say something you regret.Â
Youâre not even married to Logan, but you donât like her butting her nose so far into your business. âSadly, I donât have a bathing suit.â
âOh,â Kimiko gives you a blank smile, âWe brought you one.â Madge moves the towels aside to reveal a two-piece that matches their own. In your size.Â
Your cheeks ache with a forced smile as you take the bathing suit from them. âWeâll just set up out back,â Shiela lets you know. She turns to the others with a beaming smile, âCome on ladies.â They follow after her like ducklings, and when you look down you see each of their steps are in sync.Â
You wait until the back door closes to rush to the front. You throw the door open and Logan jumps from where heâs drilling the camera into the side of the house. âIâm gonna fucking kill you,â you warn.
He chuckles and smirks, âDonât keep âem waiting too long, sweetheart,â he mocks and you slam the door closed with a loud scoff. He was enjoying your suffering far too much, but you shouldnât be surprised. Youâre sure heâs just been waiting for a moment like this.Â
You change into the bathing suit and take a deep calming breath. You can do this. You can play pretend for a few hours.Â
You wished youâd known being an actor was a part of the job description before you joined the X-Men.
You lay on your stomach along the soft beach towel that Madge brought. The sun isnât too hot on you, but you also bent the tree behind you to provide a bit more shade when the others werenât looking. So far, youâve collected nothing but mindless gossip.Â
Sam never takes in his trash cans on time. Alicia has been getting a little too cozy with the gardener. Some couple you didnât pay attention to is expecting a kid. Youâre struggling to pay attention to all the mindless drivel.Â
Usually, you wouldnât mind a little gossip, but none of this feels real. Their words are hollow, smiles empty. Everything they say sounds like theyâre reading it from a script. The only person you actually believe cares about any of this bullshit is Shiela. The rest of them seem to just play along, not meaning a word they say.Â
Youâre gaining nothing useful from this. Thereâs no information youâve gotten during this conversation that could remotely help you. All you want to do is go out front and strangle Logan for abandoning you.Â
The only good thing about all this is the lemonade and cookies. Which, you admit, you may have indulged yourself a little too much. But at this point, youâre just eating to stay awake. You reach for another cookie and Shiela lets out a dainty huff.Â
âI wish I could eat like you,â she laughs and you prepare yourself for the most backhanded insult youâve ever heard. âBut I have to be so careful about watching my figure. Wouldnât want to lose my waist,â she titters and the other women giggle.Â
You toss the cookie back on the plate, rolling your eyes. It feels like youâre right back in high school. You love this, this is great. At this point, youâre just trying to stop yourself from tossing them all out.Â
The backdoor slides open and Logan peeks his head out. The women wave and Shiela calls out a sultry, âHey, Lo.â
Your jaw drops and you canât help but scoff as you tilt your head to give her an astonished stare. This woman has absolutely zero shame. Sheâs not even hiding the way sheâs ogling him. Sheâs literally biting her lip.Â
You clench your eyes shut, taking a deep breath. There it is, the end of your rope. âSweetheart, you gonna be done soon?â Logan calls out and you canât help but smile at the immense satisfaction you feel when Shielaâs face falls. You shouldnât take so much joy in Logan ignoring her, you know thatâs just how he is. But she doesnât.Â
âI think so, hon.â You sit up on your knees, clapping your hands and pretending to be upset. âSorry, girls, I think Iâm needed back in the house.â You get to your feet and pick your towel up. As you do, you flick your fingers, and the lemonade tumbles over, spilling all over Shielaâs pristine white bathing suit.Â
She jumps up with a shrill scream, shaking her arms off at the ice-cold liquid and desperately trying to wipe off her bathing suit. Madge and Sierra flock to her and you roll your eyes at how dramatic sheâs being.Â
Out of the side of your eye, you see someone watching you. You turn slightly, startling when you see the intense glare Kimikoâs sporting. Itâs the first genuine emotion youâve seen from her, but even this seems cold. Her dark eyes are bottomless pits of frigid rage. You find that you canât look away from her, swaying slightly as her eyes beckon you forward.Â
You need to go to her, speak with her, be with her. You need-
Your mind falls short of what you need. But you know Kimko will give it to you. Sierra and Madge both straighten up, both blank-faced as you take a step forward.Â
Logan hollers your name again and you jump, shaking your head and breaking whatever trance youâd fallen in. When you look back, all three of them are still fussing over Shiela. You glance to Logan, to see if he saw what had happened.Â
His brows are furrowed, face pinched in concern as he looks at you. You think you might have just found Charlesâ interference.Â
âI think we should look into Kimiko,â you scroll through the list of residents youâd managed to hack into. Youâve been on the computer for hours, trying to find any information bout her at all. Even when you ran a background check, nothing came up. If that doesnât scream mutant, you donât know what does.Â
Logan walks over to the table with a steaming pan in his hand. You tug your computer glasses off and slide the laptop to the side. He pours some pasta onto your plate and hands you a glass of water. âThank you,â he gives you a tense almost-smile and nods.Â
âFigure out where she lives?â He asks, bringing his own plate to the table. You shake your head and rub your temples, trying to fend off the headache you can already feel forming. You should have taken a break from the research. You canât stand staring at screens for as long as you did.Â
âSheâs not even a registered resident.â
âWell,â he sighs and shrugs, âat least we know this wasnât a waste of time.â You nod in acquiesce and take a bite of your food. Your eyes widen in shock and he laughs at the look on your face. âDidnât think I could cook?â
You shake your head and smile. âI took you as the type to pour beer in your cereal. But this is,â you stumble over your word. Youâre afraid of being too nice to him. Youâve reached a sort of impasse, where youâre not openly hostile, but youâre not exactly friendly. You feel like if you do too much, too fast, heâs gonna be closed off again. âItâs really good.â
He purses his lips and nods, dragging his fork along the porcelain plate. The noise grates on you and only further aggravates the growing headache but you donât snap at him. You swallow down the frustration and just shovel more pasta into your mouth.Â
âThis, uh,â Logan takes in a deep breath and lets all out in one gravely exhale. You give him an expectant look and he shrugs. âIt hasnât been as bad as I thought.â He tells you flippantly.Â
You narrow your eyes at him, âIs that supposed to be a compliment?â You demand with a firm tone, placing your fork down and leaning back in your chair.Â
He lets out an annoyed sigh, âIt was just an observation.â
You scoff and roll your eyes. Heâs fucking ridiculous. âYou know, maybe if you ever tried to get to know me, you wouldnât have had such a horrible opinion about me.â You try and eat more but the food just tastes like ash in your mouth. You grow antsy, not wanting to sit near him anymore.Â
Youâre surprised that heâs the one who fucked up the peace. You really thought it would be you. But something about what he said is rubbing you the wrong way. Of course, it hasnât been bad, youâre not a bad person. He just decided he hated you one day and heâs so goddamned stubborn he never considered anything else being the truth.Â
âI didnât mean anything by it,â he defends, watching with a confused expression as you get up and drop your plate loudly in the sink.Â
âYou know,â you ignore his weak defense, leaning on the sink. You grip the rim of it tightly, sucking in a deep breath to try and keep yourself calm. âYou didnât even know my fucking name,â you mutter under your breath, shaking your head to yourself. Why are you even bothering with him? Youâll never win and you donât even know if you want him to change his opinion about you.Â
Heâs been a dick for so long that youâre not sure youâre even interested in being friends, let alone anything beyond that.Â
âWell,â he takes an angered tone as you continue to deflect his attempts at restoring the peace. âItâs not like you told me. You just go by your X-Men name, how was I supposed to know better?â
âBy fucking asking!â You shout, whirling around on him, nearly ramming into his chest. You hadnât realized how close heâd gotten while youâd had your back to him. âIf you had, ever, at any fucking point tried to get to know me, you wouldnât be so surprised that Iâm nice. Iâm a nice person to be around, Logan. And for some reason I tried to change myself, to make you happy. And it never even worked!â You scoff, a hysterical laugh bubbling up in your throat that you quickly swallow down. You shove past him, escaping the corner heâs backed you into. âYour head is so far up your ass that you didnât even try to know me before you decided you hated me.â
âWhat?â He scoffs and glares at you. âI donât fucking hate you. When have I ever said that? And I never wanted you to change.â He keeps focusing on the wrong things. How he feels about you doesnât matter, itâs how he treated you.Â
âNever, youâve never said that because youâve never said more than two words to me. This,â you motion between the two of you, âis the longest conversation weâve ever had.â A sudden exhaustion settles over you, it weighs heavy on your bones and drapes across you like a blanket.Â
You donât have the energy for this. For him. You donât want to keep defending yourself to someone who couldnât care less. Thereâs no winning with him. He will never listen to you, heâll just offer half-assed excuses that he thinks absolve him of how horribly heâs treated you.Â
He calls your name as you slump into the dining room chair. Your real name, not your X-Men name. âI never hated you,â he tells you, voice soft, but the conviction is strong.Â
You stand up, unable to make eye contact with him. âGoodnight, Logan.â You walk up the stairs quietly, never once looking at him. You canât stand to face him. As much as youâve tried to bury how you feel about him, itâs still there.Â
Being with him like this, having his ring on your finger, itâs a stab in the gut over and over and over. Someoneâs taken your most ridiculous and romantic fantasies and turned them into a waking nightmare. You wake up to him every day, eat at the same table, share the same house, and you two couldnât be further apart.Â
You have to keep up appearances, Logan is sure thatâs the only reason youâve joined him this morning. Heâs working on the truck while you kneel on a foam pad, planting a rose bush by the mailbox. But the way youâre stabbing the shovel into the ground it looks more like murder than it does gardening. You slam the little trowel into the dirt, lips pulled back like a wild animal as dirt flies up around your hair.Â
Logan turns back to the truck, letting out a low whistle under his breath. Besides the insane display of shrubbery abuse, you blend into the neighborhood better than he ever could. You fit that perfect suburban aesthetic, sun hat, cat-eye sunglasses, and a pretty dress.Â
Youâre good at blending in, better than he ever was. Heâs heard you joking about it before. Telling Jean your hidden mutant ability is learning to be a chameleon, fitting yourself wherever you are. He thinks itâs a cute idea, and not too far from the truth.Â
He only wishes he were a little more like that. He sticks out like a sore thumb with his wifebeater, fraying jeans, and general countenance of misery. He canât force a smile when John walks by with a shitty joke. Heâs not like you. You stomach all of the womenâs vapid nonsense with a smile and manage to seem so unaffected by it all.Â
The only time heâs seen you break was last night. And that, of course, had been his fault. He wishes he was better with his words. Heâs always been an action man, but clearly, heâs fucked that up with you too. He really did mean it as a compliment.Â
Heâs just incapable of talking without his foot in his mouth when it comes to you. Itâs why he tends to just avoid you and stay quiet. He knows heâll mess up with you eventually. In the rare chance you ever actually give him a second look, heâd be a shitty boyfriend. And even if you were just friends, heâd still fuck up somehow. He always does.Â
Heâs learned itâs better to just keep a distance between himself and others. Especially you. Heâs always just wanted to keep you away from his bullshit. The haunted past he still knows so little about, all the mental baggage he carries, he never wanted to burden you with it. Even though it seems like he still managed to screw up somehow.Â
Even when heâs trying to be good heâs still the bad guy.Â
You let out a heavy sigh and his gaze drifts back towards you. The way it always seems to do. Youâre his sun, bright, beaming, a golden beacon of hope. But heâs always just too far, eclipsing the light you might bring him with his own stupidity.Â
You toss the trowel to the ground and stand up. You frown, brushing off all the dirt youâre absolutely caked in. When he peers around you and glances at the spot where the rose bush is supposed to be all he sees is a crater of earth and ripped up grass. He figures it's better not to mention it.Â
You walk over to him, the same scowl youâve had for the past few days ever-present on your face. âIâm going to take a shower,â you look at him expectantly and he shrugs. You let out a loud sigh and he canât possibly imagine how heâs messed up now. âYou need one too, the barbecues in an hour.â
Heâd forgotten about the fucking barbecue. Some annual thing Shiela and John threw that the whole neighborhood went to. âIt doesnât take me an hour to get ready,â he tells you, intending a little bit of playfulness.Â
Instead, you just let out an exasperated breath and storm back into the house. How did he keep fucking up with you so badly?
Heâs gotten a taste of your personality, your company. Heâs tried for so long to avoid getting to know you. He knows that if he truly did, heâd never get over you. He was right. Just one taste of you and he wants more, he wants to consume everything about you that he can. Heâs screwed up in so many ways but he canât just go back to normal after this and act like strangers.Â
You smooth the wrinkles out of your cotton dress and let out a low breath. âYou need another minute?â Logan grumps from beside you, his stare boring into the door. He didnât want to come to this. Frankly, neither did you, but he needs to suck it up and be a big boy. You two are here for a purpose greater than yourselves.Â
Maybe if you repeat that enough times youâll start to believe it.Â
Kimiko was everywhere that Shiela was. She was her shadow, her loyalist servant. And the only person in this neighborhood whoâs shown a sliver of consciousness. You donât know where she lives, or if she even owns a house here. But you do know sheâll be at this barbecue tonight.Â
The only reason youâre bothering to bring Logan along is because you need him to distract Shiela. She drools every time she sees him, practically licking her maw at the sight of him in a tight t-shirt. You canât really blame her, but sheâs a married woman and heâs technically a married man. The lack of shame and compassion is genuinely astonishing to you.Â
âNo. Letâs just get this over with.â He needs no further prompting as he knocks heavily on the door. Each pound of his fist sounds like a bell tolling your doom. The intense feeling of nausea and eyes on the back of your head has developed and grown increasingly worse the longer youâre here.Â
You feel like someoneâs pressing against your mind, wiggling their fingers in and squeezing until mush slips through their knuckles. You keep a tight grip on Logan so you donât tip over. Playing it off as the love-sick newlyweds youâre meant to be.Â
Even though the feeling of his skin against yours makes you angrier than you can even begin to fathom. Youâve held onto built-up resentment and anger ever since your little tiff. Youâve heard that tumultuous times are common in the beginnings of marriages. Luckily, youâre getting a divorce the second this fucking mission is over.Â
You resent Charles for ever sending you here. Any minuscule hopes youâve had of finally building a relationship with Logan have been dashed across your front yard. Thereâs no hope for him. Heâll never change, and how he treats you will never change.Â
The door swings open and the music from the backyard drifts through to the front. Shiela smiles widely, greeting you both with a drawn-out Hi! She reaches forward and grabs Logan, tugging him away from you and dragging him into a hug.Â
You stumble forward as your support is ripped out from under you. She briefly glances over his shoulder at you and you offer her a sardonic smile. Every bit of you wants to dig your nails into her and rip until chunks of her start flying off. The post beside you warps slightly, bending like itâs melting.Â
You dig your nails into your palm, swallowing down your anger, and force the post upright once more. Logan grabs Shiela by the waist, practically yanking her off of him. He steps back towards you, wrapping his arm around your waist.Â
You canât help the smug smile that lifts your lips as you face her. You almost want to rub her face in it. He chose you and he canât stand you, that says a lot about how he feels about her. You stop yourself, though, itâd be beyond idiotic to let that be the reason your cover is blown.Â
âThanks for inviting us,â you tell Shiela, playing oblivious instead of walking into her trap. You pass her the casserole you half-assed and baked in her dish. âWeâre so excited to finally have a home to call our own, and with such wonderful neighbors,â you gasp dreamily. âOh, itâs just a dream come true.â
Shiela runs a manicured nail along the side of her lip, looking wholly unimpressed. âMhm,â she hums, âIâm sure.â You share a look with Logan, both of you caught off guard by her sudden dip in personality. Her face is blank, devoid of the usual overwrought happiness and charm. Itâs like somethingâs taken control and drained the life from her.Â
Either Kimikoâs here and youâre right about her, or, Shiela is just a depressed housewife who canât always control when she smiles. Youâre hoping itâs Kimiko and you can just end this once and for all.Â
âAlright,â sheâs back in a second like nothing ever happened. The boom of her voice echoing through the foyer makes you jump. âLetâs get you two outside. And thank you so much for this,â she gestures to the casserole. âYouâre just such a sweet little thing arenât you?â
Everything she says to you feels just a tad patronizing. Sheâs incapable of complimenting you without minimizing you in some way. You dismiss it, shaking off the funk she always seems to put you in.Â
Shiela leads you to the backdoor of her porch where the rest of the neighborhood is. She certainly got the best square footage, thatâs for sure. She doesnât just have the biggest house, sheâs also got the biggest yard youâve ever stepped foot on.Â
People are milling about, Johnâs flipping hamburgers on the grill, and children are playing happily with one another. It feels like an advert for the Fourth of July.
You scan the yard for the only person youâre looking for. You spot her, pushed back towards the shadow of Shielaâs oak tree. Shiela follows your gaze with a frown and scoffs. âI know, hideous isnât it?â
You jump, startled out of your stupor. âSorry?â
She points towards the tree. âI wanted to get rid of it, but apparently itâs historic,â she throws up air quotes, inflecting her voice lazily, âor something stupid.â
âOh, right,â you nod dismissively and she shrugs, hands slapping against her thighs as she nods to her yard.Â
âWell, go on, socialize, make yourself at home yâall.â She walks back into the house and you glance back at the yard.Â
âShit,â you hiss, âKimikoâs gone.â You move away from Logan and take a step down the stairs, he begins to follow you but you stop him with a firm hand to his chest. He frowns down at you and you nod towards Shiela. âI need you playing interception. Those two are attached at the hip. The only thing thatâs going to distract her is the hunk of meat sheâs been drooling over.âÂ
Logan frowns and takes a step back. He sets his face and crosses his arms and you sigh, knowing exactly what heâs about to say. âNo.â He tells you firmly, not even bothering to hear you out.Â
âWell,â you shrug. âToo bad, I need you to do this or weâre never getting out of here.â
He mocks your shrug and nods, âAlright. Fine.â He leans into your space and you feel like youâre being scolded, âIâm not leaving you on your own, okay? And Iâm not letting you go after Kimiko alone.â
âIâm not going after her,â you glance around, making sure no one is listening to you talk about their neighbor like sheâs on a hit list. âI just need one interrupted conversation with her. Just one,â youâre practically pleading with him at this point.Â
You feel pathetic. Youâre a grown woman and an X-Men. You shouldnât have to be bartering with Logan. He should just have some faith in your abilities to not only protect yourself but conduct yourself appropriately on a mission.Â
His face screws up in irritation and you know heâs about to really cause a scene. Heâll start arguing with you, and blow your spot up just to get you out of here. You give him a placating smile, a real one because heâs somehow learned to tell the difference. âLogan, itâs only for an hour. Iâm sure you can fend Shiela off,â you joke to try and lighten the mood.
He sucks in a deep breath and you know youâve got him when his shoulders sink in defeat. âFine. Iâm only agreeing to this because youâre practically a chameleon with this shit,â he gestures vaguely to the barbecue and your face pinches with confusion.Â
âWhat?âÂ
âI heard you talking about it with Jean one day. How youâre a chameleon when it comes to blending in with people.â
âWell, that wasnât exactly a brag. Itâs a method of survival, a way to make people like me. It gives me a fighting chance when they find out Iâm a mutant.â God, why are you even talking about this? Why had he even been listening to your conversation with Jean?
He opens his mouth like he wants to say something but you donât have time for that. âLook, Logan, just go find Shiela.â You walk away from him before he can drudge up more uncomfortable memories of high school.Â
You manage to slip through the party relatively unnoticed. You didnât see where Kimiko had disappeared to. Youâre hoping there might be some sort of hint left where she had been. You rush towards the oak tree, using it as a way to scan the party for her again. From here you canât see anything except the kitchen. Â
Youâve got a perfect view of Logan trudging towards Shiela. You canât help but laugh when she wraps her hand around his bicep, eagerly telling him something. You smile and shake your head, the audacity of this woman is amazing.Â
Something catches your eye, right by your foot. Glancing down you see something silver glinting through the grass. Frowning, you kneel and scoop it up. Itâs an oblong device, small, and fits in the palm of your hand. Itâs curved oddly, and the lights on it start flashing bright red as you hold it.
âWhat the hell?â You flip it over, a warped mirrored reflection on the back of it. You just barely spot Kimikoâs twisted face in the reflection before the world goes black.Â
You groan, slowly blinking the fog of a forced sleep out of your eyes. You reach to swipe at your face, but something is holding your wrists down. You jerk your arms a few times, struggling against whatever restraints are wrapped around you. When nothing happens, you instead focus on the feeling of it against your wrist, trying to get it to dissolve.Â
âDonât bother,â a cool voice calls out from the shadows. Thereâs one bright light shining down on you, like the type you might see above an operating table. The entire room feels sterile. And itâs cold, you can barely feel the tips of your toes or fingers.Â
âWhatâd you do?â You demand, trying to sound intimidating but your words come out as a slur. The back of your head radiates pain and it takes everything in you just to keep your eyes open.Â
âI developed a gas,â the voice circles the room, echoing across the curved walls. You hear footsteps but you canât tell where theyâre coming from. âIt halts the neurons in a mutantâs brain that fire when they use their abilities. Temporary, but quite handy when Iâm dealing with a mentalist like you.â
Kimiko steps out of the shadows like a bad comic book villain. Her face is blank, no expression on it, somehow, itâs the realest sheâs ever looked before. Here, you can see her humanity. Pores across her nose, frizz and oil along her hair, her nose just a little bit crooked. Whatever sheâd been doing to herself has been wiped away. And the human woman lurking beneath is finally revealed.Â
âThere you are,â you mutter, your speech slowly coming back to you. âI knew that plastic face wasnât real.â
âEverything was going just fine until you and Wolverine got here,â she gives you a sharp look, âFlux.â
You sarcastically gasp, âWow, you know my X-Men name. Itâs not like I havenât been interviewed before. Whatâs the plan here, Kimiko? Where are the others?â
Her brows pinch, âOthers?â
âThe mutants youâre trafficking.â
âOh,â she laughs and itâs so jarring you nearly jump. âIs that what people think?â Hesitantly, you nod, but youâre beginning to feel like you might have gotten something very wrong. âNo, thatâs not what weâre doing here.â
âWe?â
âShiela and I. We have much simpler plans, much more peaceful. You see, Shielaâs the only person to ever stand beside me after she found out I was a mutant. She gave me a home, a friend, and a sense of belonging.â Thereâs something devout in her words, like a humble follower kneeling at the feet of their god. âEverything I have, everything I am, I owe to her.â
Youâve seen Shielaâs manipulation firsthand. You have no doubt that sheâs never actually done anything for Kimiko. Sheâs just made her think she had and instilled in her this sense of owing her something.Â
Then again, Kimikoâs getting this look on her face. Sheâs like a rabid dog staring down the barrel of their ownerâs shotgun. Perhaps she hadnât needed much prompting to develop such an unhealthy attachment. âShielaâs parents never loved her the way they should have. They never gave her the perfect life she deserved. So I created one for her.â
She rolls a tray of surgical tools over and a sense of panic finally starts to rouse within you. Yet, for the first time in years, your powers arenât here to help you. You have nothing to rely on but yourself. But youâve been trained so intensively in using your abilities as a protector rather than an inhibitor that youâre practically useless without them.Â
âAll these people,â you rush the words out as she picks up a syringe. You donât know what the yellow liquid inside is, but from the look on her face, you donât want to. âYouâre controlling them?â
Kimiko nods and youâd be staggering if you werenât strapped down. Not even Charles could control this many people at once. Not without Cerebro. âKimiko, thatâs,â you gasp, flinching away as she brings the needle towards your arms. âItâs incredible!â Your quick rise in volume makes her jolt and the syringe tumbles out of her hands.Â
She grumbles to herself, leaning over to pick it up. âDoes Shiela know?â She pauses at the mention of Shielaâs name, brushing her hair over her shoulder and glaring at you.Â
âYes. Of course she does, this is my greatest gift to her.â
âReally?â Your voice drips with contrived empathy. âThen Iâm sure sheâs done something incredible for you back.â You were hoping a simple manipulation tactic might work, that you could turn Kimiko against an ungrateful Shiela. But this type of obsession isnât one that canât be destabilized with a few jumbled words.Â
No, you only make her angrier. âBack? Back?â she practically screams, her voice raw and feral as she leaps into your face. You flinch as far back as you can as her face hovers over yours, screaming right at you. âI owe her everything! I should thank her for letting me breathe the same air as hers!â
Your jaw drops, a silent scream tripping out of your mouth as you gasp for air. Something squeezes against your brain, the pulsing from before returns with a vengeance. You can feel your mind pulsing and swelling, pushing against your skull.Â
âDonât fucking say her name again,â Kimiko glares down at you, her eyes devoid of any remorse or compassion as she makes your brain swell until blood leaks down your ears. Whatever plan she had before has been abandoned, sheâs going to just kill you now.Â
Youâre going to die in her basement, no one will ever see you again. Your eyes throb and you feel your brain push to its fullest limits. The pressure builds, builds, and builds until it explodes.Â
âThen you just pour a little sugar in.â Logan watches as Shiela tips nearly an entire bag of cane sugar into her jug of sweet tea. His stomach shrivels at the sight and he fights down bile. A little bit of sugar drops over the edge. She catches it on her finger and looks over her shoulder, licking the sugar off and practically deepthroating her own finger. All while maintaining a disturbing amount of eye contact with Logan.Â
âWell,â he knows that he promised you a while with Kimiko, but he canât handle much more of this. âThank you so much for this,â he struggles with the word, landing weakly on, âlesson.â Heâs not even sure what the point of watching her prepare all this food was.Â
Heâs pretty sure she just wanted him to see her leave a rim of red lipstick at the bottom of her finger as many times as possible. The entire time heâs just wanted to go back to you. Thereâs a nasty feeling gnawing at him and he knows he needs to get back to you soon.Â
âOh,â she seems genuinely disappointed and Logan sighs awkwardly. âLeaving already, huh?â
He points to his ring pointedly reminding her of the reality of their situation. âGotta get back to the wife.â
She doesnât even try to hide her sneer as he mentions you. âOf course, just the perfect husband arenât you?â
Logan doesnât dignify that with a response, too distracted by whatâs happening outside the window. People have begun to wander around aimlessly, some of them stumbling into the fencing. They just keep walking forward, knocking into the wood repeatedly, not once stopping. Johnâs got a stuck smile on his face as he leans against the grill, Logan can see smoke rising from where the flesh of his palm is melting onto the metal. A few people all run into each other, collapsing on the ground and just lying there.Â
Theyâre like robots, suddenly without command and unsure what to do. Theyâre following their programming without anyone putting a stop to it. Shiela follows his gaze and gasps. âExcuse me,â she mutters, practically running out of the room.Â
Logan tries to find you amongst all the mess but youâre nowhere to be seen. âFuck,â he growls out, looking back to where Shiela had run. He should have fucking known not to leave you on your own.Â
He stalks after Shiela, listening to her racing heart and the slam of a downstairs door. He follows her down the steps leading to her basement. It looks the same as every other one heâs ever been in. Except, for the metal door hidden behind a few shelving units. The only reason he spots it is because Shiela knocked over a can of paint in her rush toward it.Â
Anger brews hot and putrid in his gut. The claws come out unbidden, and the thought of you being locked away in that room pushes him forward. If youâre not in there, heâll get an answer from Shiela one way or another. But heâs not going to let you get hurt because he didnât have your back.Â
âWhat the hell are you doing?â A shrill voice interrupts. Your head sinks back against the cool material of the table, brain surging back into place. Your teeth ache, white-hot pain rushing through your bones as Kimiko finally releases her grasp on you.Â
Kimiko gives Shiela the look of a dog who just got in trouble. âShe found my amplifying device. I have to get rid of her.â She holds the device you found earlier out to Shiela.Â
So, she wasnât as powerful as she pretended. She did need help. It explains why the entire neighborhood is always in the same area, she needs them close to keep control. âWhatever youâre doing is making my toys malfunction.â
Shiela hisses at Kimiko, she darts forward and slaps her hard across the back of the head. If you werenât in excruciating and paralyzing pain, youâd flinch at the sound. Being as if your brain was just about to explode, though, you could give less of a shit if she beats her rabid dog up.Â
These two crazy bitches deserve each other. You just want a Tylenol and a nap at this point. âWell, arenât you two twisted sisters?â Logan slips through the door, his claws glinting under the light of the room. âToys?â He demands, eyes roaming the room desperately.Â
The second he sees you, strapped down and with blood pouring from your orifices, something slips over his face. Itâs like a mask being ripped off. The man he pretends to be is ripped apart by the animal truly lurking within him. Neither women have time to even defend themselves. He goes for Kimiko first and all you see his claws plunging down before arterial blood sprays across your face.Â
You groan, tilting your chin the other way and spitting the metallic liquid out of your mouth. There are a long few minutes of screaming, clothes shredding, and blood splashing against every surface of the room. By the time heâs completely calmed down, youâre drenched in it.Â
You suck on your teeth, rolling your head limply and finally getting a good look at him. Heâs panting, standing over their mutilated corpses with blood dripping down his claws. Thereâs a wrath on his face youâre happy to have never been on the other end of. But the second he looks at you, you see nothing but stark relief.Â
He breathes out your name, your real one, and surges towards you. âClaws!â You shout, hurting your head again. But he was a second away from accidentally skewering you. Theyâre put away in an instant as he undoes the straps holding you down.Â
You groan in relief as the pressure around your head and limbs is released. He perches himself on the edge of the table and scoops you into his chest.
Youâre still loopy from Kimiko messing around in the grooves of your brain. The best you can manage is weakly draping your arms along his sides. He pulls you back and brushes the hair out of your face, laughing a little at the blood covering you. âThey do anything to you?â
You shrug, âBesides turn my brain into a pressure cooker? No.â
The smile drops from his face and he glares down at the remains of the women. If you werenât so tired, youâd think he wants to kill them again. âI should have been here.â
âLogan-â You want to tell him not to be ridiculous. You had insisted you could take care of yourself. Told him it would only be a conversation when you knew that was never going to be true. Youâd gotten yourself into this, you were lucky he was there to get you out. But you donât say anything because he interrupts you as he so often does.Â
âI canât keep acting like this is all okay. Like Iâm happy with how we treat each other. I thought I was going to lose you, Iâm not going to keep pretending I donât care about you.â
Your face screws up in confusion and youâre not sure you want to hear where heâs going with this. Youâve been used to this dynamic between the two of you for so long. Youâre used to him treating you like he can't stand to breathe the same air as you. If this is going where you think it is, youâre not sure you can handle it.Â
âLogan,â youâre regaining some feeling in your limbs now. You use the returning strength to push away from him, shaking your head in disbelief. âNo, you canât do this. You canât just change your-â
Heâs incapable of letting you finish a single sentence. His hands wrap around your cheeks tugging you forward until your lips are brushing together. Itâs enough of a shock to get you to stop talking. You donât reciprocate, too stunned to even think about moving.Â
He brushes his lips against yours again, firmer this time. Under the layers of blood coating you both, youâre wholly enveloped by him. His scent, his arms, everything about him drapes over you like a warm blanket. Against your better judgment, you find yourself returning the kiss.Â
You move further into his lap, one hand holding his face and the other clutching at his hair, needing something to hold to keep you steady in this moment. Logan smiles against your lips, deepening the kiss without wasting another beat. His tongue moves gently across yours at first. A curious caress to see how well you two fit together. He groans when he gets a taste of you, pushing further in and kissing you like he wants to devour you. Â
Thereâs warmth blooming in your stomach and spreading all along your body. Youâre buzzing with adrenaline and pain and this unidentifiable feeling that Logan is evoking from you. Itâs not the sweet mushy, romantic kiss you always imagined with him.Â
This is desperate. Like a dying manâs last attempt at redemption. Heâs tasting you like youâre rare, something to be savored. You feel like youâre the only thing left in existence. The only person left for him to admire. You forget the gore behind you, the tumultuous experiences youâve had with him.Â
You let yourself fall into the moment, a blind leap of faith into a pool of all your hopes and desires. Heâs better than you ever could have imagined. More desperate than your wildest fantasies. He makes no move to stop, even as the air becomes scarce and you both have to part longer. He just grips you tighter, hands wrapped around you like heâs worried if he lets go heâll lose you.Â
He could, he could lose you. This kiss of his is putting you into a trance, distracting you from all heâs trying to make up for. Perhaps if he stops kissing you, youâll remember it all and want nothing to do with him. But you donât see that happening, you just see yourself craving more and more for him., You feel the addiction forming already. A deep-seated need in your bones is finally being sated, it will always need more from him.Â
When you can no longer survive on the shared oxygen between you both, youâre forced to part. Your cheeks tingle from the stubble of his beard and you know your lips are pink and swollen because his are too. Youâre both still coated in blood and you share a familiar glean in your eyes.Â
âI never hated you,â he sounds breathless and you love that youâre the cause of it. âI just didnât want to lose you.â
You scoff, but there are no cruel intentions behind it. âSo you push me away before you ever get a chance to have me?â
He gives you a crooked smile, âI never said I was smart.â You canât help but laugh at that. Slowly, he helps you to your feet, ignoring the puddles of blood and bits. âWe'll have to call Charles. He needs to help the people out there.â
âWe also need to let him know thereâs no trafficking ring. Just one fucked psyche.â You shoot another glare at the pile that was Kimiko, still bitter about her experiment with your brain. As Logan helps you up the stairs of the basement, you stop him just before you reach the door.Â
He gives you a concerned look, like he thinks youâve hurt something somehow. âI want to talk to you. Really talk to you about everything.â Concern gives way to dread and you canât help but smile at the regretful look on his face. âBut first,â his head perks in interest at your tone, âmaybe we can finally enjoy that master bed together?â
âYou know,â he leans down, swiping his arms under your knees and lifting you. You gasp, through your arms around his neck and squeezing until you worry you might suffocate him. âYou really are the smart one of us, arenât you?â
âClearly.â
Youâre not sure how well this transition to married couple to tentatively something else is going to go. But you have hope and it's kept you going for all these years. What's wrong with letting it linger a little longer?
a/n: Guess who's back, back again? Hint, it's Flux. I missed writing for them, so I hope you enjoyed this as much as I did. Although, I worry the ending was too cheesy.
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Pairing Ë˰âą*ââ· Logan Howlett x fem!reader (Flux)
a/n: I wrote this at 3 AM and I'm also pretty sure I'm sick, so bare with me. Based on this: ask
You know Logan can't stand you, but it doesn't stop the way you feel about him. Your mind recognizes the hate in his eyes whenever you're in the same room, but your heart can't. Finally, you come to terms with the truth: it's never gonna happen. However, your newfound resolve is flipped on its head when you're forced to go undercover with him as newlyweds. Your new wedding ring is a noose and you don't know how you'll survive it or him.
You stumble forward as someone knocks into you from behind. Their shoulder jams painfully into your ribcage and you trip into the wall in front of you. âShit,â you hiss, rubbing your back and turning around to glare at whoever it was. You figure it's a kid skipping class, imagine your surprise when itâs a fully grown man practically growling at you.Â
âWhere the hell am I?â He darts forward, grabbing you by the arms and jerking you towards him. âWho are you people?â Youâre stunned into silence, eyes wide with shock as he pushes your spine into the wall behind you.Â
You recognize him now. This is the man who was with Rogue in the truck you, Ororo, and Summers rescued. The only reason you donât toss him across the room and rip his spine out through his throat is because you know how disoriented he is. Though, with the way his claws threaten to pierce your skin, you are tempted to.Â
âAh,â a familiar and welcomed voice sounds out from beside you both. âI see youâve met Flux.â Charles rarely ever uses your actual name, mainly introducing you through your X-Men persona. Itâs a preference of yours.Â
The manâs eyes dart between you and Charles, and your own turn into slits the longer he keeps his tight grip on you. âWanna let me go now?â You demand voice practically a growl. Your patience has never been wonderful, but heâs really working on your last nerve.Â
He blinks, seemingly coming back to himself. With an almost regretful look, he lets you go. You sigh in irritation, straightening your shirt out and shoving past the corner heâs pushed you into. âWho the hell is this?â You snap, moving to stand behind Charles.Â
He gives you an apologetic look, âIâm not sure. He hasnât introduced himself yet.â He gives the man an expectant look. Instead of answering he glances around, and scoffs.Â
âWhat is this, summer camp? You people donât need to know me, I donât need to know you. Just show me how to get the fuck out, alright?â Finding Charlesâ school had been heaven on earth. Heâd provided you with a home and a haven you never thought you would have the privilege of. Youâd never shown anger in the face of his guidance or generosity. But many have.Â
You can tell, as much as the man in front of you might believe otherwise, heâs going to be enjoying the comfort of Charlesâ protection soon. You move to the side, leaving them to their conversation. Instead, you focus on keeping the kids away from the newest form of entertainment. You usher them towards their classes, despite their reluctance.Â
The other members of the team soon join you all, introducing themselves. âStorm, Cyclops,â he scoffs a little at Scottâs name and you feel a reluctant smile tugging at your lips. He turns towards you, brows furrowed inquisitively, âFlux?â
âMatter manipulation,â you explain bluntly. He shrugs his shoulders giving you a blank look. Sighing you hold out your hand and gesture to Charlesâ desk. With a flick of your wrist, it melts into an unnatural form of liquid wood. Loganâs eyes widen and you canât help but finally let the full smile form on your lips. âFlux was just what fourteen-year-old me thought fit best.â
He nods, turning back towards Charles with a smarmy grin. âAnd what do they call you, wheels?â Your eyes widen with shock and an unbidden laugh surges forth. Charles sends you a playful glare and you have to turn around to keep from laughing more.Â
Youâd thought you wouldnât like this one. Itâs always bad when thereâs a member on the team you donât get along with. Itâs not common, but it has happened. They simply keep you separated if they can. The school is wonderful, but itâs not perfect. Not everyone will like each other. You think you and Logan will get along just fine, though.
It started slow, barely noticeable at first. You didnât know him well enough to understand that the way he treats you is completely different from how he treats everyone else. Where your greetings are brushed off with cold shoulders or the occasional glare, others at the very least get a brief mumble of hello. When you speak, you can practically feel the irritation wafting off of him in waves. You taste his hatred in every interaction.Â
Thereâs no exact moment you can pinpoint where you went wrong. Sure, your introduction to one another was rocky at best. But heâd nearly thrown Jean across the room when they first met and they got along just fine.Â
Youâve thought about it, for far too long, about what makes you different than the others. Is it your smile? The pitch of your voice? Of course, you understand that sometimes there are just people that you meet and something inside you hates them. Thereâs never a true explanation behind the feeling, just instinct.Â
But you canât place what about you would make someone so guarded, so mean. It feels like such a childish word, like too simple of a way to explain Logan. The very least you know about him is that he can never be summed up with the word simple. There are secrets buried deep within him, some he knows, others he doesnât. You canât just slap a label on him and walk away.Â
More often than not, though, you feel like youâre talking to one of your childhood bullies and not a team member. Because, despite your own feelings towards him, at the end of the day you are team members. Thereâs no getting around it. From that connection comes, what should be, a base level of respect.Â
Youâre both in charge of protecting one another and looking out for each other on the field. That means when you put on the suit, youâre putting aside petty grievances. But he seems incapable of that as well.Â
Youâve spent mornings practicing your greetings, trying to tone down your cheeriness or inflect your voice with a more welcoming timbre. Youâve changed how you dress, how you do your hair, even your makeup. And at the end of it all, you still got the same miserable look and distinct feeling of worthlessness. All of the change has been temporary, you are a creature of habit. Inevitably, you slide back into the same habits and styles that make you, you.Â
You feel stupid, trying to change yourself to better fit someone else's tastes. Especially when itâs someone who so clearly despises you. Itâs not how you carry yourself, how you look, itâs the mere fact you exist that bothers him. At least, thatâs the conclusion youâve come to in all your months of experimenting.Â
It truly shouldnât bother you so much. Thereâs always going to be people who donât like you. Thereâs nothing you can do about it. And youâve never had that desire to change other's opinions on you. But something about Logan has dug its claws under your skin and has refused to let go. You canât get him out of your head, even when you feel like you hate him, heâs all you think about. Youâve considered asking Jean to use her abilities to somehow dig him out of your brain and keep him out. But you donât think that would work either.Â
You step into the kitchen and nearly freeze in the doorway. Logan sits at the island, back to you as he reads the newspaper. You find yourself lightening your steps, quieting your breath. You make yourself as inconspicuous and convenient as possible. Every time you catch yourself doing something like this, you hate yourself just a little bit more.Â
You shouldnât have to alter parts of yourself to better fit someone elseâs needs. You slip along the tiles, your socked feet slamming into the corner of the counter as you pass it. âShit!â You shout, doubling over as you clutch your throbbing toes.Â
So much for being inconspicuous.Â
Loganâs head shoots up in shock as he glares over his paper at you. You let out a strained whimper, reluctantly releasing your foot and hobbling towards the coffee pot. Youâve taken more bullets than you count, and somehow that still hurt worse.Â
You canât just ignore him, you feel his stare burning into your back, and it feels too dickish-too much like him, to not say anything. âMorning,â you mutter over your shoulder, barely looking at him. You pour your coffee, trying to ignore how daunting the silence seems. You might as well be alone in the room for all the attention heâll grant you.Â
You feel like a beggar, on hands and knees just for a simple hello. Ever since his first night here, heâs been so aloof with you. Itâs only devolved since then. You sigh, slamming the mug onto the counter. Something in you has snapped this morning and itâs not just the bones in your foot. Youâre sick of this.Â
You shouldnât have to walk on eggshells around him. Heâs not a toddler, he doesnât deserve to be coddled and catered to. Heâs a grown man, an X-Men for fuckâs sake. What he needs, is to learn a little emotional regulation.Â
You turn, mouth open and sucking in a deep breath as you prepare your speech. The island is empty as you face it, his stool in the same place it had been while he was on it. The paper lies abandoned, even his nearly full mug is still on the granite.Â
You scoff, snapping your jaw shut and rolling your eyes. âJesus,â you mutter to yourself. Wonderful, even the same room is too much for him now. Something bitter has been forming in your mind. A rage building from weeks of unprompted cruel behavior.Â
Yet, somehow, the thing that pushes you over the edge from interest to resentment is the fact that he didnât say good morning back.Â
You teach history at the school, but the majority of your role at the mansion is to train children with powers similar to yours. Youâve never met a mutant who had such a broad scope with their abilities as you do. Some can turn water to ice, control the blood running through someoneâs veins, or make the air around them a solid block. But youâve yet to meet one who manipulates anything with matter the way you do.Â
Still, for training, you deal with the unreliable, untameable, and generally more dangerous abilities. And sometimes for training, you work with other teachers and let your kids practice on each other. Itâs a rotating schedule, and unfortunately, the week youâve decided you hate him, youâre partnered with Logan for training.Â
Youâve got the entirety of Charlesâ backyard, which is essentially the size of a football field. Itâs a lot of room for accidents and accidental misfires. You stand in front of the pond, admittedly a risky choice with these kids, and direct them all to their partners.Â
âRemember, the goal of this isnât to maim each other,â you give a particularly pointed glare towards Billy. Heâs caused a lot of problems lately with his fires. âItâs just to learn how to wield your abilities to your advantage, to protect yourself and your team.â
You look to Logan, seeing if he wants to add anything or contribute to the class in some way. He just keeps his arms crossed, glowering at all the children like heâs imagining skewering them on his claws. Rolling your eyes, you turn back to the kids. âLet's start with the hand-to-hand maneuvers we went over yesterday before we practice with our abilities.â
âWhy donât you show us?â Your head whips towards Billy and you canât help the sneer on your lips. Heâs sat on the ground, legs crossed leisurely over each other. He doesnât have a care in the world as he taunts you.Â
âWhat?â You grit out, glaring at him.
âShow us what a balanced fight should look like between mutants. You and Logan,â he nods to the aforementioned man. Logan just quirks a brow, glancing at you before turning back to Billy.Â
âI donât think-â
âFine.â You gape at Logan as he tugs his jacket off. He shrugs as he looks at you, moving towards the middle of the field. Of course, he wouldnât pass up the opportunity to try and pummel you. Youâre sure that heâs just been waiting for an excuse to fight you.Â
âIf thatâs what you want,â you mutter bitterly. You pull off your sweatshirt and start walking towards him.Â
âYour cuffs,â Billy calls out from behind you. The other students all watch the interaction with rapt attention. Theyâre practically salivating at the chance to see you two fight each other. Meanwhile, Billy just seems like he wants to see someone bleed.Â
The metal cuffs around your wrists are the only thing that stops you from leveling the entire school. Your abilities are so tightly entwined with your emotions that one unlucky bout of anger can lead you to vaporizing everyone around you. They dull your abilities just enough to still be useful but not deadly. You havenât taken them off in years. And perhaps itâs wrong to lean so heavily on them for protection, but you have. Thatâs your cross to bear. You donât even want to picture what will happen if you open that dam.Â
âWhat?â Billy shrugs, sending you a sharp smirk. âHow are we supposed to trust you, if you canât even use your own damn abilities?â He snorts and narrows his eyes at you, âHow the hell did you even become an X-Men, Flux?â His name rolls off your tongue with a sharpened venom.Â
He oozes hatred and a burning resentment that catches you off guard. Itâs too much to process the insults heâs hurling at you and the sudden one-eighty in his personality. You donât even hear Logan coming until his fist is wrapped in Billyâs collar and heâs yanking him off his feet.Â
He dangles him, just a couple of inches, off the ground, teeth practically bared at the kid. âWanna keep talking, mouth?âÂ
âLog-â Youâre cut off as a fireball shoots out of Billyâs palm and explodes against Loganâs gut. You gasp, throwing up a wall in front of the other kids so it canât hurt them. âAll right,â you call out sternly. âEveryone inside,â you demand, pointing the other kids back towards the manor.Â
You linger with Logan, who still has Billy dangling from his fist, only he looks even more pissed off now. Anyone else, and theyâd be dust at Billyâs feet. But Logan isnât anyone else and the only collateral seems to be his shirt.Â
Not that you mind the view.Â
Billy hasnât been here long enough to know what Loganâs abilities are, though. You donât think he actually knew he could heal. The thought alone is worrying enough that you donât force Logan to let him go. âWe need to get him to Charles,â when Logan doesnât move you put more force behind your voice, ânow.â
Logan lets out a low huff before placing Billy back on his own two feet. He doesnât let him go far, though, keeping his hand around the back of his neck and dragging him forward. You follow behind them, making sure he doesnât rip him to pieces before Charles can speak with him.Â
You sit outside Charlesâ office, fingers tapping restlessly against your thigh as you stare at the mahogany walls in front of you. The red velvet of the seat is too soft and you find yourself slipping to the edge every few seconds. Itâs too soft, too luxurious, your back aches the longer you wait.Â
Charles had instructed both you and Logan to wait for him to finish up with Billy. Itâs been nearly an hour, though, and youâre growing restless. You can tell Logan feels the same way. Heâs pacing the hall like a caged lion about to rip the arm off its keeper.Â
âHow are you?â You blurt out, desperate for something to fill the silence. He stops abruptly, whipping around to face you. You flinch back slightly at the intense glare heâs sporting. âYour stomach, I mean,â you gesture towards the scorch marks on his shirt, the soot on his abs.Â
Itâs been a practice in self-control to not just be staring at his wonderfully sculpted muscles flexing this whole time. Youâre pleasantly surprised with how well youâve been doing so far. Though, now with him facing you, youâre finding it incredibly hard to meet his eye. Heâs such an imposing figure, especially when heâs standing over you like this.Â
âFine,â he barks out, turning back around and effectively ending the conversation. Your eyes narrow and you scoff, god, why do you try?
The door swings open and you expect Billy to come running out crying with his tail tucked between his legs. Instead, you hear the familiar whirl of Charles wheels as he rolls into the hall. He faces you and Logan, a strained smile on his face.Â
âWhereâs Billy?â You slowly get to your feet, peering into his office. Your confusion only grows when you find it empty.Â
âHeâs away from the other children for now. Heâll need private lessons before we allow him near them again. And if that doesnât work, we have no choice but to expel him.â You can tell it hurts Charles to say that.Â
He does genuinely want the best for these kids. He wants mutants to have a home, a place where they can be themselves without fear of retaliation. Sometimes, though, it doesnât work out. Thereâs nothing wrong with that, you all try your best to help the kids. But some of them have been so twisted by the world around them that thereâs no undoing the damage. When they pose a risk the way Billy does, the other kids come first.Â
Logan scoffs with distaste, stalking closer to Charles. âHe tried to kill me, fucking tried to get Flux to take her cuffs off.â He gestures towards you, for once, though, you donât feel like youâre being attacked. Even he can understand the dangers of that demand is idiotic. Itâs clear Billy only wanted to watch everyone around him get hurt, he didnât care about the consequences.Â
Charles holds up a pacifying hand, nodding his head and dismissing Loganâs concerns. âIâm quite aware of what happened, Logan. But Billy is my responsibility and heâs not the reason I needed to talk to you both.â
He rolls back into his office, expecting you both to follow him. You fall in line behind him, taking a seat at his desk. Logan takes another minute to join you both, a reluctant scowl on his face as he sits beside you. Charles waves his hand, the door closing and providing you all with a little bit more privacy.Â
He reaches into a drawer on his desk, pulling out a thin manilla folder. He pushes it towards both you and Logan. You share a confused look with Logan before flipping the file open. There are a few pictures of a stereotypical suburban neighborhood. Bright green laws, uniform driveways, each house looks the same as the last.Â
There are a few more pictures, all of them taken from an awkward distance that makes it hard to determine what youâre looking at. You pass the pictures to Logan and shake your head at Charles. âI donât understand, what is all this?â
âYour next mission,â he informs you both with a strained smile.Â
Loganâs head shoots up, eyes narrowing in on Charles. âExcuse me?â He demands, his voice a growl more than anything.Â
âThere have been some disturbing rumors about this neighborhood. Mentions of a possible mutant trafficking ring being conducted behind closed doors. Normally, I would dismiss such claims. Oftentimes these are just ways to bait and snatch mutants. However, my own attempts at telepathic investigation have been thwarted. Even with Cerebro, I canât seem to breach the neighborhood.â
âSomethingâs blocking you?â You ask, snatching the pictures back from Logan to get a better look. He tosses the folder back on the desk, muttering something you canât hear.Â
âOr someone. Iâm worried there might be some truth to these rumors. And since I canât find a safe way in, I need your help. You only need to do some reconnaissance. The only problem is how gated the community is. Theyâre not going to let anyone in unless they live there.â
Charles gives you both a cheekily expectant look. The truth is so hard to swallow that you almost canât process it. âNo,â you mutter, shaking your head and smiling, waiting for the punchline. When one doesnât come you get up from your seat and give him a disbelieving look. âYou want us undercover?â
Charles pulls out a key and smiles widely, âCongratulations on your new home, newlyweds.â
Logan shoots up from his seat, it wobbles precariously, nearly toppling to the ground. âYou want me to move into a house with her?â He spits out the sentence like it pains him to even have it in his mouth. A disbelieving smile spread across your cheeks, sardonic laughter slipping through parted lips. âWhy canât I do it with Jean? Or better yet you just get some other asshole to play her husband?â
Your heart stutters to a stop and you quickly rip your eyes off the pair. The stung worse than you think it should. Your heart aches, each beat painful. You feel like someoneâs punched through your chest and ripped at all the tender bits.Â
âI have chosen you,â Charles loses all humor from his voice. He is stern, like a father scolding his child, as he speaks to Logan. âAnd thatâs the end of it. Besides, I donât suppose that Jeanâs fiance would appreciate her playing house with another man.â He places heavy emphasis on fiance, enough to get Logan to purse his lips and look away from him.
You speak up, your voice a surprise to them both. You claw through the lump in your throat, ignoring the hot burn behind your eyes. âIâm not doing this. Especially not with him,â you force the words out, wiping roughly at your cheeks. âShit,â you hiss, looking down and trying to hide the tears that have slowly trickled down.Â
You donât allow either of them to argue, running out of the door and ignoring the calls of your name behind you. You canât do this. Canât pretend to be in love with Logan, not when he hates you. Not when itâs so close to the truth.Â
Evidently, Charles didn't feel like giving either of you a choice.
You drum your fingers along the door handle. The cab of the truck rattles as the trailer drags along behind you. The trees have begun to thin out on the road, and more shopping centers pop up than youâve seen this whole trip. Itâs the how you know youâre getting closer, that and the map on Loganâs thigh. You steal glances at it because he refused to let you help him navigate.Â
Besides the occasional ask for a bathroom break and refuted offer of switching drivers, the four-hour road trip has been quiet. You tried to turn the radio on earlier but heâd shut it off nearly immediately. He claimed that the pop shit they play makes his ears ring.Â
You were almost tempted to turn it up to full volume if only to torture him a little bit.Â
Loganâs rough voice jars you out of your head, âIâm going to need to know your real name.â
You frown, brows furrowed in confusion. Had you still not given him your actual name? Heâs always referred to you as Flux, but you just assumed thatâs because he didnât want you to be an actual person in his eyes. Itâs easier to hate someone if you can distance yourself from the idea of them having actual feelings. Still, you canât believe he never asked someone for it.Â
It just shows you how little he cares for you. Reluctantly, you give it to him. He hums, something pensive pinching at his face. âWhat?â You snap, waiting for him to insult you.Â
He just shrugs, âItâs pretty,â he mutters, so quiet you almost donât hear him. You donât even know how to respond to that, so caught off guard by a genuine compliment that you just choose to ignore it. You doubt he meant it, anyway. He might think the name is pretty, but he doesnât hold the same opinion of the person connected to it.Â
You sink back into the silence, finding it more comforting than jarring now. Youâd prefer the familiar feeling of him ignoring you than the abrupt turn in character. He glances over at you, something like regret on his face as he sighs.Â
Thankfully, he doesnât say anything else. Instead, in what feels like an extension of an olive branch, he turns the radio back on. He keeps the volume low, so it doesnât bother him so much. But at least thereâs something to listen to besides your breathing.Â
You turn back towards the window, a white sign surrounded by daises coming up as Logan slows the truck down. He flicks on his turn signal, pulling up to Storybrook Walk. He stops in front of a large wrought iron gate and jumps out of the truck. He runs up to a black metal box, flipping the lid open and typing in the code Charles gave you both. As he gets back in the truck, the gate swings open widely.Â
You pull your rings out of your pocket and slip yours on. âHere,â you urge, holding Loganâs ring out to him. He huffs, glaring down at it before snatching it out of your hand. He balances his hands atop the wheel, slipping the ring on his left hand.Â
The neighborhood is picture-perfect suburbia. The lawns are bright green and manicured to perfection. You can hear children laughing as they play in their backyards and draw out a hopscotch grid on the sidewalk. Women and men who look like theyâre straight from the fifties stop on the sidewalk and wave as you drive through the gated community.Â
You mouth the numbers on the mailboxes to yourself, sitting up straighter when youâre one house away from your new home for the next few weeks. âHey,â you frown, noticing a large congregation of people in the driveway of 1220. âThis is our house isnât it?â
Logan frowns, stopping the truck just before pulling in so he doesnât hit anyway. âSupposed to be.â He glares at the people suspiciously, âStay here, alright?â
You nod, watching him as he jumps out and rounds the front of the truck. You roll your window down, fingers dancing along the metal of your cuffs. Thereâs no way youâve been found out before youâve even gotten a chance to investigate.Â
âHey!â Loganâs voice is scary on a good day, but when he feels threatened, itâs enough to frighten a grown man. You can see the people flinch slightly away from him. Thatâs when you spot the wrapped cookies in a blonde womanâs hand and see children hiding with balloons on the porch.Â
âOh, fuck,â you mutter. You throw the door open, racing after Logan before he does something stupid. âHowdy neighbors!â You shout, speaking over him before he gets a chance to say anything else. You rush up to Loganâs side, nearly out of breath in your haste to get to him. âIs this our welcoming committee?â
You glare up at him and his eyes narrow as he sees the same thing you did. âShit,â he mutters under his breath.Â
âSmile and wave,â you whisper through gritted teeth. His lips peel up into something terrifying and it takes everything in you not to flinch back. âWhat the fuck is that?â You mutter.
âA smile,â he hisses, glaring down at you in irritation.Â
A blonde woman steps forward before you can continue your hushed argument. âWelcome!â She calls out in a heavy southern accent, throwing her arms open with a bright smile. She walks as fast as she can in her tight skirt and kitten heels, coming over to embrace you, the casserole in her hand balancing precariously behind you.Â
She tugs Logan down into a hug, pressing a kiss to his cheek and staining the skin red. âSurprise!â The kids on the porch jump out with balloons and flowers and she winces.Â
âA bit late on the delivery,â she waves it off with a faux chuckle. âBut we donât mind âcause theyâre so darn cute.â She is very⊠loud. Thereâs something about her that is meant to be charming but puts you on edge. Sheâs got all the familiar characteristics of a woman youâd love to be around, but sheâs executing it like someone playing a character. âShiela,â she holds out her hand, perfectly manicured nails shining bright red.Â
You take her hand introducing yourself, âAnd this is my husband, Logan. Forgive him for his tone, we had an accident on the highway earlier. Weâre still a little on edge.â
âOh no,â she gasps, pressing her nails to her chest and even that seems plastic. âWhat happened?â
Years of bullshitting your way through school presentations are finally coming in handy. You think quickly on your feet, something these people would despise. You need something that endears you to them, âTire blew out and someone tried to raid the trailer while we were fixing it.â
She lets out a disapproving hum and the throng of people behind her echoes it with disturbing harmony. You find yourself leaning closer towards Logan, feeling like you need to defend yourself against them. You know theyâre only an overzealous HOA committee, but there is something uncanny about them.Â
Sensing your discomfort, Logan wraps his arm around your shoulder, tugging you into his side. You have to school your features into one of neutrality. Youâre supposed to be newlyweds, this is normal behavior for you. His touch feels like ice water being tossed over you, though. His willing embrace makes your head swim with distaste and skepticism.Â
âWell,â a man steps forward. Heâs conventionally handsome, with brown hair cropped short, slight stubble on his cheeks, slacks, and a button-up that he fills out nicely. His smile, however, stretches too wide and shows too many teeth. A shiver crawls up your spine as he places his hand on Shielaâs shoulder. âYou wonât have to worry about people like that here, thatâs for sure. John,â he offers his hand to Logan, bypassing you completely. âHead of the HOA here at Storybrook.â
âNice to meet you, Johnâ Logan falls just short of sincere. He towers slightly over John and you can see that heâs squeezing his hand just a bit too tight by the wince of Jouhnâs face. You dig your elbow into his side and he drops his hand immediately.Â
Your gaze drifts over their shoulders and your stomach drops. The people behind them all hold dishes full of food and gift baskets. Their smiles are pinned to their faces, never once flinching out of place. Thereâs no joy in their eyes, though. Theyâre glazed over like theyâre a million miles away. You would think they were mannequins before you even considered them human.Â
âLong drive?â Shiela asks, your eyes dart back to hers only to find her intense stare already wholly focused on you.Â
âYeah,â you answer, clearing your throat of the panic rising in it. âWeâre gonna have a fun time unloading this,â you laugh humorlessly, motioning towards the trailer.
She waves her hands in dismissal. âDonât you worry about that, hun. Thatâs what neighbors are for after all.â She looks behind her, snapping her fingers a few times. The otherâs start going towards the trailer and you feel Logan tense under your touch.Â
A kid reaches it first, they manage to unlock it before you shout, âNo!â Itâs too loud, echoing through the street and making you clench your eyes shut in embarrassment. You turn back towards Shiela and John, both of them wearing shocked expressions. You chuckle awkwardly, âThereâs just a lot of family heirlooms. I donât want to risk them being damaged.â There are no heirlooms, just empty boxes and surveillance equipment that you'll have no chance of explaining away.
Shiela purses her lips into a tight smile, eyes turned to slits as she nods. âOf course,â you know she doesnât believe you for a second. âWell then, weâll just take all this inside.â She snaps and the others take their casseroles and gifts and begin flooding towards your front door. Shiela and John walk behind them, herding them all into a straight line.Â
You let go of Logan immediately, glaring at the door of your home. Shiela holds a key in her hand, unlocking it and letting everyone inside. You scoff and shake your head in disbelief. âWhat the actual fuck?â You hiss.Â
Logan just shakes his head. âFucking bizarre, what the hell is wrong with these people?â He starts back towards the truck and you follow him. âI almost prefer the welcoming committee at the manor.â
You roll your eyes, âI was your welcoming committee,â you grouse.Â
He shrugs, âI know.â You swat lightly at his shoulder and relatch the trailerâs lock. You linger by the mailbox as Logan pulls the truck into the driveway. Heâs getting out just as the others finally leave your house.Â
Shiela walks back towards you and you gesture towards the keyring in her hand. âGot a key to my house?â You play it off as a joke but itâs incredibly disturbing to know she could walk in at any minute.Â
âOf course,â she smiles and shrugs it off like itâs the simplest thing in the world. âFor the safety of everyone here.â Her smile drops and she takes an imposing step towards you, âInspections are every Wednesday at noon.â Your jaw drops in astonishment and you choke on your words. She cackles loudly, face breaking out into a smile once more. âIâm just kidding, honey! God, your face, youâre too gullible, sweetheart.â
You force out a chuckle, smiling as much as you can force. âOf course, silly me,â you barely make it sound believable. This is going to be much harder than you thought.Â
âWell,â John comes up behind her, guiding her away from you. âWeâll get out of your hair now. Welcome, neighbors!â The others around them all call out a Welcome as they drift across your lawn and head back to their own homes.Â
Logan walks up to your side, the both of you keeping stilted smiles on your faces, waiting for them to just go away. But they pause at their doors, in almost perfect synchronization they turn and wave at you both. You back further into Loganâs chest and his grip on you tightens.Â
âWhat. The. Fuck.â They step through their homes at the same moment and you feel sick to your stomach. There is something seriously wrong here, youâre not sure you want to find out the truth of it.Â
You leave Logan to unload the trailer while you unpack the boxes. Youâre forced to do it all by hand while the front door is open. You canât risk someone stopping by for a visit and seeing you float the couch through the middle of the living room. Youâre stumped on how to set up the surveillance equipment. Shiela doesnât seem like the type to understand boundaries when it comes to popping by for a visit.Â
Youâre just going to have to keep most of it upstairs and set up some cameras on the porch. You donât doubt that sheâll abuse that key of hers as she sees fit. You canât imagine how anyone could stand living in this neighborhood. Having no privacy seems like a nightmare. Especially when the commander of the HOA is John and Shiela. They seem like the type to fine you over a rosebush.Â
Logan grunts, dragging in the couch. He pushes it through the doorway and kicks the door closed behind him. The second itâs closed he drops the act and picks the couch up with one hand. âWhere do you want it?âÂ
You point towards the back wall of the living room and he drops it with a small groan. âWeâre going to need to put cameras out on the porch,â you inform him, still digging through the box. He walks behind you, heading for the fridge and digging around in it.Â
âFuck,â he mutters. You look up, watching as he tosses aside casserole after casserole. âThey didnât bring any beer?â
You laugh a little and get up, heading towards the cooler youâd packed. âThey donât seem the type.â You lean over, digging around through the melted ice until your fingers brush against cool glass. You straighten up, sending him a coquettish smile. âWant a beer after all that hard work, darling?â You taunt, playing the perfect housewife.Â
He scoffs and holds his hand out, snatching it from the air as you toss it at him. He pulls the cap off with his teeth, spitting it out into the sink. âAnd a sandwich while youâre at it,â he demands roughly.Â
If you werenât a connoisseur of dry humor, you wouldnât have recognized the joke for what it was. Still, youâre almost too shocked he even bothered to play along with you to laugh. Almost, you canât help the slight chuckle that slips out. Â
He throws himself on the couch, taking a deep swig from the bottle, and the moment feels remarkably domestic. You suppose that it should. That is the whole reason youâre here after all. But you hadnât expected even a singular pleasant moment with Logan.Â
This, playful banter and a shared joke, thatâs all you could ever want from him. You would settle for this if it was all he was willing to give you. But he canât even grant you that. This is one outlier in a long list of rude remarks and dismissive behavior. You canât let yourself be so easily swayed.Â
âI might try and get some cameras on the other houses,â Logan remarks from the couch. He kicks his feet on the coffee table and you click your tongue at him, motioning towards his shoes. With an aggrieved sigh, he undoes the laces of his boots and kicks them off. You glare at the dirt that flings across the carpet but a quick wave of your hand makes it disappear.Â
âDonât bother with the cameras. Theyâve all got security.â You turn away from the box youâre unpacking with a pensive frown. âTheyâre all covered by the same company, too. All of them. Isnât that weird?â
He scoffs and shrugs. âAnywhere else, yeah. But Iâm pretty sure they piss at the same time here.â Your nose wrinkles at his crude words and you roll your eyes.Â
âTake this seriously.â
He huffs out a laugh, âI am. Didnât you see them earlier? They only breathe because Shiela lets them.â You take a seat at the kitchen table, uncomfortable attempting to take a spot on the couch. He sighs when he sees the expression on your face, finally dropping the dismissive attitude. âIâll just be smart about how I set up our cameras, alright?â
You just nod, reaching for the box of your essentials on the table. Itâs strange to be sitting beside him, talking to him. Youâve never gotten more than two words out of him. This is so far out of your normal comfort zone that you feel like youâre crawling out of your skin trying to escape.Â
âIâm going to go to bed,â you announce awkwardly, shooting up from your seat at the table.Â
The beer pauses halfway to his lips and he gives you an odd look. âOkay?â He responds slowly, not sure why youâre telling him this. You open your mouth, and almost tell him to have a good night, but change your mind at the last second.Â
You move towards the bedroom near the front door, âFlux,â you turn slightly and he shakes his head. âTake the one upstairs.â
Your brows furrow, âWhy?â You demand, an attitude edging its way into your voice.Â
âSo if Shiela busts down our door I can protect us,â you know heâs teasing, but the sentiment is nice. âAnd so I donât have to set up the surveillance shit upstairs,â your face drops and you roll your eyes. There it is.Â
âDick,â you mutter, storming towards the stairs, your boxes hovering along behind you. His laughter follows you up the stairs, even when you slam the door shut. Although, when you take in the room, you canât find it in yourself to complain for a second about it.Â
While Logan is screwed with the teeny guest room downstairs, you get the largest bedroom youâve ever been in all to yourself. The closet could practically be another bedroom. The bath is more like a jacuzzi than it is a tub.
A four-poster bed sits against the wall, the fluffiest comforter ever becoming you forth like a siren. Thereâs even a table in the middle of the room, with a chair, perfect for setting up as your desk.Â
You scoff in astonishment, âOh, I could get used to this.â You place your boxes on the table and start pulling out your clothes. You toss yourself on the bed, bouncing against the sheets, and throw pillows go flying everywhere. You flick your wrist, all your essentials flying out of the boxes and sorting themselves out.Â
After a luxurious soak in the tub, youâre spread out along the bed, the limited information from Charles's file spread out before you. There are only a few blurry pictures of the neighborhood and a typed-up page of everything heâs heard about Sotrybrook. Thereâs nothing even remotely useful here.Â
You sigh, tossing the file to the floor and looking out the large window of your room. Youâve got a camera placed on the sill, programmed to take a picture anytime thereâs movement. You doubt youâre going to get much from that. The secrets of this place seem to be buried deep. Youâre gonna have to get real friendly with your neighbors if you want to get out of here fast.Â
Logan is on the computer, trying to sync all of the cameras up. You clean up the dishes from breakfast and tidy up the kitchen. Youâre trying to decide how you should start investigating when thereâs a dainty knock on the door.Â
Your brows furrow and you peer around the cupboards to look at the door. Loganâs head lifts and he shares an odd look with you. He gets up from the couch and glances through the peephole.Â
You drop the towel on the counter and frown as his shoulders slump forward. Something pinched appears on his face and he sighs. âWhat?â You hiss at him.
He turns and glares at you, âYouâll see.â You shake your head in confusion as he throws the door open.Â
His attitude makes a lot more sense when you hear a very happy, âHowdy!â Shiela stands in your doorframe, three women hovering behind her. At least they look awake, unlike the people from last night. A redhead with the most gorgeous waves youâve ever seen holds beach towels in her arms. A brunette with flawless brown skin carries a jug of lemonade. And a woman with black hair and a perfect figure is carrying a plate of cookies.Â
All of these women are wearing bathing suits that look like theyâve been snatched out of a fashion magazine from the sixties. Each of them is gorgeous, alarmingly so. Theyâre beautiful to the point of being flawless. As you walk out of the kitchen and take a step closer, Shiela welcomes herself into your home.Â
You donât even think you see pores on their faces. Each of them offers you the same practiced smile that you force yourself to return. âHow are you settling in?â Shiela demands, not asks.Â
âUm,â you look to Logan for help but heâs just as perplexed as you are. âJust fine, Shiela, thanks. What are you all doing?â
The redhead rolls her eyes playfully, âTanning, sweetheart.â She glances at Logan expectantly and he grabs his duffel from by the couch.Â
âI think thatâs my cue,â he falls easily into the role of a playful husband. But you donât need him to play along right now. You need him to stay where the fuck he is so youâre not alone with the barbies.Â
âHa ha, donât go,â you whisper, trying to grab at his sleeve. âLogan,â you hiss, making sure the others canât hear you as they look around your home. âDonât do this.â
He dips his head down, and for one stupid moment, you think he might kiss you. âGood luck,â he whispers in your ear, backing off with a smug smirk and letting himself out of the house.Â
Oh, youâre going to fucking kill him.Â
âFinally,â the brunette breathes out a relieved breath, âI thought heâd never leave.â
Shiela chuckles, âYouâre lucky honey. It took us a long while to have ours so well trained.â She motions to the other girls, âThis is Madge,â the redhead smiles and gives a cute wave. She introduces the rest quickly and you file the information away for later when youâre writing your report.Â
Madge- husband is the vendor consultant for the HOA.Â
Sierra - brunette - husband is secretary of the HOA.Â
Kimiko - black hair - no husband.Â
Your brows furrow in confusion as Kimiko nods in greeting. You return it, suspicions running thick in your blood. Itâs odd, that their husbands are in charge of the HOA, you figured they would be. Beyond that, the emphasis they put on it is astonishing. You really didnât think the HOA was so important but itâs practically the government here. And the women only seem to hold importance if their husbands do. Shiela is essentially their leader, sheâs the one you need to impress.
This whole thing seems incredibly backward and like a blast from the past. The way they style their hair, do their makeup, dress- it's all fashioned after the fifties and sixties. You feel incredibly out of place in your worn-down pajamas and frizzy braids.Â
âWeâre not really tanning,â Madge tells you. âThis is just a way for us ladies to get to know the new kid in the neighborhood and tell you everything you need to know,â she leans in, smiling like sheâs sharing a conspiratorial secret with you.Â
âDonât let Madge scare you,â Sierra shoots her a glare. âItâs not that big of a deal, itâs just a way for us to escape our husbands for an hour.â
âWell,â you chuckle awkwardly, crossing your arms over your chest as you grow uncomfortable under their tense stares. It feels like their eyes are peeling back your skin, exposing everything underneath as they judge every nook and cranny of your soul. âI havenât reached that stage yet.â
Shielaâs smile loses some of its humor and she scoffs. âYou will,â she assures you, acrid bitterness coating her words. âGive it a few years,â she gives you a bitchy and all-knowing smirk. Your hackles raise, the urge to defend your sham of a marriage rising quickly in you. You bite your tongue, swallowing down your smart retort before you say something you regret.Â
Youâre not even married to Logan, but you donât like her butting her nose so far into your business. âSadly, I donât have a bathing suit.â
âOh,â Kimiko gives you a blank smile, âWe brought you one.â Madge moves the towels aside to reveal a two-piece that matches their own. In your size.Â
Your cheeks ache with a forced smile as you take the bathing suit from them. âWeâll just set up out back,â Shiela lets you know. She turns to the others with a beaming smile, âCome on ladies.â They follow after her like ducklings, and when you look down you see each of their steps are in sync.Â
You wait until the back door closes to rush to the front. You throw the door open and Logan jumps from where heâs drilling the camera into the side of the house. âIâm gonna fucking kill you,â you warn.
He chuckles and smirks, âDonât keep âem waiting too long, sweetheart,â he mocks and you slam the door closed with a loud scoff. He was enjoying your suffering far too much, but you shouldnât be surprised. Youâre sure heâs just been waiting for a moment like this.Â
You change into the bathing suit and take a deep calming breath. You can do this. You can play pretend for a few hours.Â
You wished youâd known being an actor was a part of the job description before you joined the X-Men.
You lay on your stomach along the soft beach towel that Madge brought. The sun isnât too hot on you, but you also bent the tree behind you to provide a bit more shade when the others werenât looking. So far, youâve collected nothing but mindless gossip.Â
Sam never takes in his trash cans on time. Alicia has been getting a little too cozy with the gardener. Some couple you didnât pay attention to is expecting a kid. Youâre struggling to pay attention to all the mindless drivel.Â
Usually, you wouldnât mind a little gossip, but none of this feels real. Their words are hollow, smiles empty. Everything they say sounds like theyâre reading it from a script. The only person you actually believe cares about any of this bullshit is Shiela. The rest of them seem to just play along, not meaning a word they say.Â
Youâre gaining nothing useful from this. Thereâs no information youâve gotten during this conversation that could remotely help you. All you want to do is go out front and strangle Logan for abandoning you.Â
The only good thing about all this is the lemonade and cookies. Which, you admit, you may have indulged yourself a little too much. But at this point, youâre just eating to stay awake. You reach for another cookie and Shiela lets out a dainty huff.Â
âI wish I could eat like you,â she laughs and you prepare yourself for the most backhanded insult youâve ever heard. âBut I have to be so careful about watching my figure. Wouldnât want to lose my waist,â she titters and the other women giggle.Â
You toss the cookie back on the plate, rolling your eyes. It feels like youâre right back in high school. You love this, this is great. At this point, youâre just trying to stop yourself from tossing them all out.Â
The backdoor slides open and Logan peeks his head out. The women wave and Shiela calls out a sultry, âHey, Lo.â
Your jaw drops and you canât help but scoff as you tilt your head to give her an astonished stare. This woman has absolutely zero shame. Sheâs not even hiding the way sheâs ogling him. Sheâs literally biting her lip.Â
You clench your eyes shut, taking a deep breath. There it is, the end of your rope. âSweetheart, you gonna be done soon?â Logan calls out and you canât help but smile at the immense satisfaction you feel when Shielaâs face falls. You shouldnât take so much joy in Logan ignoring her, you know thatâs just how he is. But she doesnât.Â
âI think so, hon.â You sit up on your knees, clapping your hands and pretending to be upset. âSorry, girls, I think Iâm needed back in the house.â You get to your feet and pick your towel up. As you do, you flick your fingers, and the lemonade tumbles over, spilling all over Shielaâs pristine white bathing suit.Â
She jumps up with a shrill scream, shaking her arms off at the ice-cold liquid and desperately trying to wipe off her bathing suit. Madge and Sierra flock to her and you roll your eyes at how dramatic sheâs being.Â
Out of the side of your eye, you see someone watching you. You turn slightly, startling when you see the intense glare Kimikoâs sporting. Itâs the first genuine emotion youâve seen from her, but even this seems cold. Her dark eyes are bottomless pits of frigid rage. You find that you canât look away from her, swaying slightly as her eyes beckon you forward.Â
You need to go to her, speak with her, be with her. You need-
Your mind falls short of what you need. But you know Kimko will give it to you. Sierra and Madge both straighten up, both blank-faced as you take a step forward.Â
Logan hollers your name again and you jump, shaking your head and breaking whatever trance youâd fallen in. When you look back, all three of them are still fussing over Shiela. You glance to Logan, to see if he saw what had happened.Â
His brows are furrowed, face pinched in concern as he looks at you. You think you might have just found Charlesâ interference.Â
âI think we should look into Kimiko,â you scroll through the list of residents youâd managed to hack into. Youâve been on the computer for hours, trying to find any information bout her at all. Even when you ran a background check, nothing came up. If that doesnât scream mutant, you donât know what does.Â
Logan walks over to the table with a steaming pan in his hand. You tug your computer glasses off and slide the laptop to the side. He pours some pasta onto your plate and hands you a glass of water. âThank you,â he gives you a tense almost-smile and nods.Â
âFigure out where she lives?â He asks, bringing his own plate to the table. You shake your head and rub your temples, trying to fend off the headache you can already feel forming. You should have taken a break from the research. You canât stand staring at screens for as long as you did.Â
âSheâs not even a registered resident.â
âWell,â he sighs and shrugs, âat least we know this wasnât a waste of time.â You nod in acquiesce and take a bite of your food. Your eyes widen in shock and he laughs at the look on your face. âDidnât think I could cook?â
You shake your head and smile. âI took you as the type to pour beer in your cereal. But this is,â you stumble over your word. Youâre afraid of being too nice to him. Youâve reached a sort of impasse, where youâre not openly hostile, but youâre not exactly friendly. You feel like if you do too much, too fast, heâs gonna be closed off again. âItâs really good.â
He purses his lips and nods, dragging his fork along the porcelain plate. The noise grates on you and only further aggravates the growing headache but you donât snap at him. You swallow down the frustration and just shovel more pasta into your mouth.Â
âThis, uh,â Logan takes in a deep breath and lets all out in one gravely exhale. You give him an expectant look and he shrugs. âIt hasnât been as bad as I thought.â He tells you flippantly.Â
You narrow your eyes at him, âIs that supposed to be a compliment?â You demand with a firm tone, placing your fork down and leaning back in your chair.Â
He lets out an annoyed sigh, âIt was just an observation.â
You scoff and roll your eyes. Heâs fucking ridiculous. âYou know, maybe if you ever tried to get to know me, you wouldnât have had such a horrible opinion about me.â You try and eat more but the food just tastes like ash in your mouth. You grow antsy, not wanting to sit near him anymore.Â
Youâre surprised that heâs the one who fucked up the peace. You really thought it would be you. But something about what he said is rubbing you the wrong way. Of course, it hasnât been bad, youâre not a bad person. He just decided he hated you one day and heâs so goddamned stubborn he never considered anything else being the truth.Â
âI didnât mean anything by it,â he defends, watching with a confused expression as you get up and drop your plate loudly in the sink.Â
âYou know,â you ignore his weak defense, leaning on the sink. You grip the rim of it tightly, sucking in a deep breath to try and keep yourself calm. âYou didnât even know my fucking name,â you mutter under your breath, shaking your head to yourself. Why are you even bothering with him? Youâll never win and you donât even know if you want him to change his opinion about you.Â
Heâs been a dick for so long that youâre not sure youâre even interested in being friends, let alone anything beyond that.Â
âWell,â he takes an angered tone as you continue to deflect his attempts at restoring the peace. âItâs not like you told me. You just go by your X-Men name, how was I supposed to know better?â
âBy fucking asking!â You shout, whirling around on him, nearly ramming into his chest. You hadnât realized how close heâd gotten while youâd had your back to him. âIf you had, ever, at any fucking point tried to get to know me, you wouldnât be so surprised that Iâm nice. Iâm a nice person to be around, Logan. And for some reason I tried to change myself, to make you happy. And it never even worked!â You scoff, a hysterical laugh bubbling up in your throat that you quickly swallow down. You shove past him, escaping the corner heâs backed you into. âYour head is so far up your ass that you didnât even try to know me before you decided you hated me.â
âWhat?â He scoffs and glares at you. âI donât fucking hate you. When have I ever said that? And I never wanted you to change.â He keeps focusing on the wrong things. How he feels about you doesnât matter, itâs how he treated you.Â
âNever, youâve never said that because youâve never said more than two words to me. This,â you motion between the two of you, âis the longest conversation weâve ever had.â A sudden exhaustion settles over you, it weighs heavy on your bones and drapes across you like a blanket.Â
You donât have the energy for this. For him. You donât want to keep defending yourself to someone who couldnât care less. Thereâs no winning with him. He will never listen to you, heâll just offer half-assed excuses that he thinks absolve him of how horribly heâs treated you.Â
He calls your name as you slump into the dining room chair. Your real name, not your X-Men name. âI never hated you,â he tells you, voice soft, but the conviction is strong.Â
You stand up, unable to make eye contact with him. âGoodnight, Logan.â You walk up the stairs quietly, never once looking at him. You canât stand to face him. As much as youâve tried to bury how you feel about him, itâs still there.Â
Being with him like this, having his ring on your finger, itâs a stab in the gut over and over and over. Someoneâs taken your most ridiculous and romantic fantasies and turned them into a waking nightmare. You wake up to him every day, eat at the same table, share the same house, and you two couldnât be further apart.Â
You have to keep up appearances, Logan is sure thatâs the only reason youâve joined him this morning. Heâs working on the truck while you kneel on a foam pad, planting a rose bush by the mailbox. But the way youâre stabbing the shovel into the ground it looks more like murder than it does gardening. You slam the little trowel into the dirt, lips pulled back like a wild animal as dirt flies up around your hair.Â
Logan turns back to the truck, letting out a low whistle under his breath. Besides the insane display of shrubbery abuse, you blend into the neighborhood better than he ever could. You fit that perfect suburban aesthetic, sun hat, cat-eye sunglasses, and a pretty dress.Â
Youâre good at blending in, better than he ever was. Heâs heard you joking about it before. Telling Jean your hidden mutant ability is learning to be a chameleon, fitting yourself wherever you are. He thinks itâs a cute idea, and not too far from the truth.Â
He only wishes he were a little more like that. He sticks out like a sore thumb with his wifebeater, fraying jeans, and general countenance of misery. He canât force a smile when John walks by with a shitty joke. Heâs not like you. You stomach all of the womenâs vapid nonsense with a smile and manage to seem so unaffected by it all.Â
The only time heâs seen you break was last night. And that, of course, had been his fault. He wishes he was better with his words. Heâs always been an action man, but clearly, heâs fucked that up with you too. He really did mean it as a compliment.Â
Heâs just incapable of talking without his foot in his mouth when it comes to you. Itâs why he tends to just avoid you and stay quiet. He knows heâll mess up with you eventually. In the rare chance you ever actually give him a second look, heâd be a shitty boyfriend. And even if you were just friends, heâd still fuck up somehow. He always does.Â
Heâs learned itâs better to just keep a distance between himself and others. Especially you. Heâs always just wanted to keep you away from his bullshit. The haunted past he still knows so little about, all the mental baggage he carries, he never wanted to burden you with it. Even though it seems like he still managed to screw up somehow.Â
Even when heâs trying to be good heâs still the bad guy.Â
You let out a heavy sigh and his gaze drifts back towards you. The way it always seems to do. Youâre his sun, bright, beaming, a golden beacon of hope. But heâs always just too far, eclipsing the light you might bring him with his own stupidity.Â
You toss the trowel to the ground and stand up. You frown, brushing off all the dirt youâre absolutely caked in. When he peers around you and glances at the spot where the rose bush is supposed to be all he sees is a crater of earth and ripped up grass. He figures it's better not to mention it.Â
You walk over to him, the same scowl youâve had for the past few days ever-present on your face. âIâm going to take a shower,â you look at him expectantly and he shrugs. You let out a loud sigh and he canât possibly imagine how heâs messed up now. âYou need one too, the barbecues in an hour.â
Heâd forgotten about the fucking barbecue. Some annual thing Shiela and John threw that the whole neighborhood went to. âIt doesnât take me an hour to get ready,â he tells you, intending a little bit of playfulness.Â
Instead, you just let out an exasperated breath and storm back into the house. How did he keep fucking up with you so badly?
Heâs gotten a taste of your personality, your company. Heâs tried for so long to avoid getting to know you. He knows that if he truly did, heâd never get over you. He was right. Just one taste of you and he wants more, he wants to consume everything about you that he can. Heâs screwed up in so many ways but he canât just go back to normal after this and act like strangers.Â
You smooth the wrinkles out of your cotton dress and let out a low breath. âYou need another minute?â Logan grumps from beside you, his stare boring into the door. He didnât want to come to this. Frankly, neither did you, but he needs to suck it up and be a big boy. You two are here for a purpose greater than yourselves.Â
Maybe if you repeat that enough times youâll start to believe it.Â
Kimiko was everywhere that Shiela was. She was her shadow, her loyalist servant. And the only person in this neighborhood whoâs shown a sliver of consciousness. You donât know where she lives, or if she even owns a house here. But you do know sheâll be at this barbecue tonight.Â
The only reason youâre bothering to bring Logan along is because you need him to distract Shiela. She drools every time she sees him, practically licking her maw at the sight of him in a tight t-shirt. You canât really blame her, but sheâs a married woman and heâs technically a married man. The lack of shame and compassion is genuinely astonishing to you.Â
âNo. Letâs just get this over with.â He needs no further prompting as he knocks heavily on the door. Each pound of his fist sounds like a bell tolling your doom. The intense feeling of nausea and eyes on the back of your head has developed and grown increasingly worse the longer youâre here.Â
You feel like someoneâs pressing against your mind, wiggling their fingers in and squeezing until mush slips through their knuckles. You keep a tight grip on Logan so you donât tip over. Playing it off as the love-sick newlyweds youâre meant to be.Â
Even though the feeling of his skin against yours makes you angrier than you can even begin to fathom. Youâve held onto built-up resentment and anger ever since your little tiff. Youâve heard that tumultuous times are common in the beginnings of marriages. Luckily, youâre getting a divorce the second this fucking mission is over.Â
You resent Charles for ever sending you here. Any minuscule hopes youâve had of finally building a relationship with Logan have been dashed across your front yard. Thereâs no hope for him. Heâll never change, and how he treats you will never change.Â
The door swings open and the music from the backyard drifts through to the front. Shiela smiles widely, greeting you both with a drawn-out Hi! She reaches forward and grabs Logan, tugging him away from you and dragging him into a hug.Â
You stumble forward as your support is ripped out from under you. She briefly glances over his shoulder at you and you offer her a sardonic smile. Every bit of you wants to dig your nails into her and rip until chunks of her start flying off. The post beside you warps slightly, bending like itâs melting.Â
You dig your nails into your palm, swallowing down your anger, and force the post upright once more. Logan grabs Shiela by the waist, practically yanking her off of him. He steps back towards you, wrapping his arm around your waist.Â
You canât help the smug smile that lifts your lips as you face her. You almost want to rub her face in it. He chose you and he canât stand you, that says a lot about how he feels about her. You stop yourself, though, itâd be beyond idiotic to let that be the reason your cover is blown.Â
âThanks for inviting us,â you tell Shiela, playing oblivious instead of walking into her trap. You pass her the casserole you half-assed and baked in her dish. âWeâre so excited to finally have a home to call our own, and with such wonderful neighbors,â you gasp dreamily. âOh, itâs just a dream come true.â
Shiela runs a manicured nail along the side of her lip, looking wholly unimpressed. âMhm,â she hums, âIâm sure.â You share a look with Logan, both of you caught off guard by her sudden dip in personality. Her face is blank, devoid of the usual overwrought happiness and charm. Itâs like somethingâs taken control and drained the life from her.Â
Either Kimikoâs here and youâre right about her, or, Shiela is just a depressed housewife who canât always control when she smiles. Youâre hoping itâs Kimiko and you can just end this once and for all.Â
âAlright,â sheâs back in a second like nothing ever happened. The boom of her voice echoing through the foyer makes you jump. âLetâs get you two outside. And thank you so much for this,â she gestures to the casserole. âYouâre just such a sweet little thing arenât you?â
Everything she says to you feels just a tad patronizing. Sheâs incapable of complimenting you without minimizing you in some way. You dismiss it, shaking off the funk she always seems to put you in.Â
Shiela leads you to the backdoor of her porch where the rest of the neighborhood is. She certainly got the best square footage, thatâs for sure. She doesnât just have the biggest house, sheâs also got the biggest yard youâve ever stepped foot on.Â
People are milling about, Johnâs flipping hamburgers on the grill, and children are playing happily with one another. It feels like an advert for the Fourth of July.
You scan the yard for the only person youâre looking for. You spot her, pushed back towards the shadow of Shielaâs oak tree. Shiela follows your gaze with a frown and scoffs. âI know, hideous isnât it?â
You jump, startled out of your stupor. âSorry?â
She points towards the tree. âI wanted to get rid of it, but apparently itâs historic,â she throws up air quotes, inflecting her voice lazily, âor something stupid.â
âOh, right,â you nod dismissively and she shrugs, hands slapping against her thighs as she nods to her yard.Â
âWell, go on, socialize, make yourself at home yâall.â She walks back into the house and you glance back at the yard.Â
âShit,â you hiss, âKimikoâs gone.â You move away from Logan and take a step down the stairs, he begins to follow you but you stop him with a firm hand to his chest. He frowns down at you and you nod towards Shiela. âI need you playing interception. Those two are attached at the hip. The only thing thatâs going to distract her is the hunk of meat sheâs been drooling over.âÂ
Logan frowns and takes a step back. He sets his face and crosses his arms and you sigh, knowing exactly what heâs about to say. âNo.â He tells you firmly, not even bothering to hear you out.Â
âWell,â you shrug. âToo bad, I need you to do this or weâre never getting out of here.â
He mocks your shrug and nods, âAlright. Fine.â He leans into your space and you feel like youâre being scolded, âIâm not leaving you on your own, okay? And Iâm not letting you go after Kimiko alone.â
âIâm not going after her,â you glance around, making sure no one is listening to you talk about their neighbor like sheâs on a hit list. âI just need one interrupted conversation with her. Just one,â youâre practically pleading with him at this point.Â
You feel pathetic. Youâre a grown woman and an X-Men. You shouldnât have to be bartering with Logan. He should just have some faith in your abilities to not only protect yourself but conduct yourself appropriately on a mission.Â
His face screws up in irritation and you know heâs about to really cause a scene. Heâll start arguing with you, and blow your spot up just to get you out of here. You give him a placating smile, a real one because heâs somehow learned to tell the difference. âLogan, itâs only for an hour. Iâm sure you can fend Shiela off,â you joke to try and lighten the mood.
He sucks in a deep breath and you know youâve got him when his shoulders sink in defeat. âFine. Iâm only agreeing to this because youâre practically a chameleon with this shit,â he gestures vaguely to the barbecue and your face pinches with confusion.Â
âWhat?âÂ
âI heard you talking about it with Jean one day. How youâre a chameleon when it comes to blending in with people.â
âWell, that wasnât exactly a brag. Itâs a method of survival, a way to make people like me. It gives me a fighting chance when they find out Iâm a mutant.â God, why are you even talking about this? Why had he even been listening to your conversation with Jean?
He opens his mouth like he wants to say something but you donât have time for that. âLook, Logan, just go find Shiela.â You walk away from him before he can drudge up more uncomfortable memories of high school.Â
You manage to slip through the party relatively unnoticed. You didnât see where Kimiko had disappeared to. Youâre hoping there might be some sort of hint left where she had been. You rush towards the oak tree, using it as a way to scan the party for her again. From here you canât see anything except the kitchen. Â
Youâve got a perfect view of Logan trudging towards Shiela. You canât help but laugh when she wraps her hand around his bicep, eagerly telling him something. You smile and shake your head, the audacity of this woman is amazing.Â
Something catches your eye, right by your foot. Glancing down you see something silver glinting through the grass. Frowning, you kneel and scoop it up. Itâs an oblong device, small, and fits in the palm of your hand. Itâs curved oddly, and the lights on it start flashing bright red as you hold it.
âWhat the hell?â You flip it over, a warped mirrored reflection on the back of it. You just barely spot Kimikoâs twisted face in the reflection before the world goes black.Â
You groan, slowly blinking the fog of a forced sleep out of your eyes. You reach to swipe at your face, but something is holding your wrists down. You jerk your arms a few times, struggling against whatever restraints are wrapped around you. When nothing happens, you instead focus on the feeling of it against your wrist, trying to get it to dissolve.Â
âDonât bother,â a cool voice calls out from the shadows. Thereâs one bright light shining down on you, like the type you might see above an operating table. The entire room feels sterile. And itâs cold, you can barely feel the tips of your toes or fingers.Â
âWhatâd you do?â You demand, trying to sound intimidating but your words come out as a slur. The back of your head radiates pain and it takes everything in you just to keep your eyes open.Â
âI developed a gas,â the voice circles the room, echoing across the curved walls. You hear footsteps but you canât tell where theyâre coming from. âIt halts the neurons in a mutantâs brain that fire when they use their abilities. Temporary, but quite handy when Iâm dealing with a mentalist like you.â
Kimiko steps out of the shadows like a bad comic book villain. Her face is blank, no expression on it, somehow, itâs the realest sheâs ever looked before. Here, you can see her humanity. Pores across her nose, frizz and oil along her hair, her nose just a little bit crooked. Whatever sheâd been doing to herself has been wiped away. And the human woman lurking beneath is finally revealed.Â
âThere you are,â you mutter, your speech slowly coming back to you. âI knew that plastic face wasnât real.â
âEverything was going just fine until you and Wolverine got here,â she gives you a sharp look, âFlux.â
You sarcastically gasp, âWow, you know my X-Men name. Itâs not like I havenât been interviewed before. Whatâs the plan here, Kimiko? Where are the others?â
Her brows pinch, âOthers?â
âThe mutants youâre trafficking.â
âOh,â she laughs and itâs so jarring you nearly jump. âIs that what people think?â Hesitantly, you nod, but youâre beginning to feel like you might have gotten something very wrong. âNo, thatâs not what weâre doing here.â
âWe?â
âShiela and I. We have much simpler plans, much more peaceful. You see, Shielaâs the only person to ever stand beside me after she found out I was a mutant. She gave me a home, a friend, and a sense of belonging.â Thereâs something devout in her words, like a humble follower kneeling at the feet of their god. âEverything I have, everything I am, I owe to her.â
Youâve seen Shielaâs manipulation firsthand. You have no doubt that sheâs never actually done anything for Kimiko. Sheâs just made her think she had and instilled in her this sense of owing her something.Â
Then again, Kimikoâs getting this look on her face. Sheâs like a rabid dog staring down the barrel of their ownerâs shotgun. Perhaps she hadnât needed much prompting to develop such an unhealthy attachment. âShielaâs parents never loved her the way they should have. They never gave her the perfect life she deserved. So I created one for her.â
She rolls a tray of surgical tools over and a sense of panic finally starts to rouse within you. Yet, for the first time in years, your powers arenât here to help you. You have nothing to rely on but yourself. But youâve been trained so intensively in using your abilities as a protector rather than an inhibitor that youâre practically useless without them.Â
âAll these people,â you rush the words out as she picks up a syringe. You donât know what the yellow liquid inside is, but from the look on her face, you donât want to. âYouâre controlling them?â
Kimiko nods and youâd be staggering if you werenât strapped down. Not even Charles could control this many people at once. Not without Cerebro. âKimiko, thatâs,â you gasp, flinching away as she brings the needle towards your arms. âItâs incredible!â Your quick rise in volume makes her jolt and the syringe tumbles out of her hands.Â
She grumbles to herself, leaning over to pick it up. âDoes Shiela know?â She pauses at the mention of Shielaâs name, brushing her hair over her shoulder and glaring at you.Â
âYes. Of course she does, this is my greatest gift to her.â
âReally?â Your voice drips with contrived empathy. âThen Iâm sure sheâs done something incredible for you back.â You were hoping a simple manipulation tactic might work, that you could turn Kimiko against an ungrateful Shiela. But this type of obsession isnât one that canât be destabilized with a few jumbled words.Â
No, you only make her angrier. âBack? Back?â she practically screams, her voice raw and feral as she leaps into your face. You flinch as far back as you can as her face hovers over yours, screaming right at you. âI owe her everything! I should thank her for letting me breathe the same air as hers!â
Your jaw drops, a silent scream tripping out of your mouth as you gasp for air. Something squeezes against your brain, the pulsing from before returns with a vengeance. You can feel your mind pulsing and swelling, pushing against your skull.Â
âDonât fucking say her name again,â Kimiko glares down at you, her eyes devoid of any remorse or compassion as she makes your brain swell until blood leaks down your ears. Whatever plan she had before has been abandoned, sheâs going to just kill you now.Â
Youâre going to die in her basement, no one will ever see you again. Your eyes throb and you feel your brain push to its fullest limits. The pressure builds, builds, and builds until it explodes.Â
âThen you just pour a little sugar in.â Logan watches as Shiela tips nearly an entire bag of cane sugar into her jug of sweet tea. His stomach shrivels at the sight and he fights down bile. A little bit of sugar drops over the edge. She catches it on her finger and looks over her shoulder, licking the sugar off and practically deepthroating her own finger. All while maintaining a disturbing amount of eye contact with Logan.Â
âWell,â he knows that he promised you a while with Kimiko, but he canât handle much more of this. âThank you so much for this,â he struggles with the word, landing weakly on, âlesson.â Heâs not even sure what the point of watching her prepare all this food was.Â
Heâs pretty sure she just wanted him to see her leave a rim of red lipstick at the bottom of her finger as many times as possible. The entire time heâs just wanted to go back to you. Thereâs a nasty feeling gnawing at him and he knows he needs to get back to you soon.Â
âOh,â she seems genuinely disappointed and Logan sighs awkwardly. âLeaving already, huh?â
He points to his ring pointedly reminding her of the reality of their situation. âGotta get back to the wife.â
She doesnât even try to hide her sneer as he mentions you. âOf course, just the perfect husband arenât you?â
Logan doesnât dignify that with a response, too distracted by whatâs happening outside the window. People have begun to wander around aimlessly, some of them stumbling into the fencing. They just keep walking forward, knocking into the wood repeatedly, not once stopping. Johnâs got a stuck smile on his face as he leans against the grill, Logan can see smoke rising from where the flesh of his palm is melting onto the metal. A few people all run into each other, collapsing on the ground and just lying there.Â
Theyâre like robots, suddenly without command and unsure what to do. Theyâre following their programming without anyone putting a stop to it. Shiela follows his gaze and gasps. âExcuse me,â she mutters, practically running out of the room.Â
Logan tries to find you amongst all the mess but youâre nowhere to be seen. âFuck,â he growls out, looking back to where Shiela had run. He should have fucking known not to leave you on your own.Â
He stalks after Shiela, listening to her racing heart and the slam of a downstairs door. He follows her down the steps leading to her basement. It looks the same as every other one heâs ever been in. Except, for the metal door hidden behind a few shelving units. The only reason he spots it is because Shiela knocked over a can of paint in her rush toward it.Â
Anger brews hot and putrid in his gut. The claws come out unbidden, and the thought of you being locked away in that room pushes him forward. If youâre not in there, heâll get an answer from Shiela one way or another. But heâs not going to let you get hurt because he didnât have your back.Â
âWhat the hell are you doing?â A shrill voice interrupts. Your head sinks back against the cool material of the table, brain surging back into place. Your teeth ache, white-hot pain rushing through your bones as Kimiko finally releases her grasp on you.Â
Kimiko gives Shiela the look of a dog who just got in trouble. âShe found my amplifying device. I have to get rid of her.â She holds the device you found earlier out to Shiela.Â
So, she wasnât as powerful as she pretended. She did need help. It explains why the entire neighborhood is always in the same area, she needs them close to keep control. âWhatever youâre doing is making my toys malfunction.â
Shiela hisses at Kimiko, she darts forward and slaps her hard across the back of the head. If you werenât in excruciating and paralyzing pain, youâd flinch at the sound. Being as if your brain was just about to explode, though, you could give less of a shit if she beats her rabid dog up.Â
These two crazy bitches deserve each other. You just want a Tylenol and a nap at this point. âWell, arenât you two twisted sisters?â Logan slips through the door, his claws glinting under the light of the room. âToys?â He demands, eyes roaming the room desperately.Â
The second he sees you, strapped down and with blood pouring from your orifices, something slips over his face. Itâs like a mask being ripped off. The man he pretends to be is ripped apart by the animal truly lurking within him. Neither women have time to even defend themselves. He goes for Kimiko first and all you see his claws plunging down before arterial blood sprays across your face.Â
You groan, tilting your chin the other way and spitting the metallic liquid out of your mouth. There are a long few minutes of screaming, clothes shredding, and blood splashing against every surface of the room. By the time heâs completely calmed down, youâre drenched in it.Â
You suck on your teeth, rolling your head limply and finally getting a good look at him. Heâs panting, standing over their mutilated corpses with blood dripping down his claws. Thereâs a wrath on his face youâre happy to have never been on the other end of. But the second he looks at you, you see nothing but stark relief.Â
He breathes out your name, your real one, and surges towards you. âClaws!â You shout, hurting your head again. But he was a second away from accidentally skewering you. Theyâre put away in an instant as he undoes the straps holding you down.Â
You groan in relief as the pressure around your head and limbs is released. He perches himself on the edge of the table and scoops you into his chest.
Youâre still loopy from Kimiko messing around in the grooves of your brain. The best you can manage is weakly draping your arms along his sides. He pulls you back and brushes the hair out of your face, laughing a little at the blood covering you. âThey do anything to you?â
You shrug, âBesides turn my brain into a pressure cooker? No.â
The smile drops from his face and he glares down at the remains of the women. If you werenât so tired, youâd think he wants to kill them again. âI should have been here.â
âLogan-â You want to tell him not to be ridiculous. You had insisted you could take care of yourself. Told him it would only be a conversation when you knew that was never going to be true. Youâd gotten yourself into this, you were lucky he was there to get you out. But you donât say anything because he interrupts you as he so often does.Â
âI canât keep acting like this is all okay. Like Iâm happy with how we treat each other. I thought I was going to lose you, Iâm not going to keep pretending I donât care about you.â
Your face screws up in confusion and youâre not sure you want to hear where heâs going with this. Youâve been used to this dynamic between the two of you for so long. Youâre used to him treating you like he can't stand to breathe the same air as you. If this is going where you think it is, youâre not sure you can handle it.Â
âLogan,â youâre regaining some feeling in your limbs now. You use the returning strength to push away from him, shaking your head in disbelief. âNo, you canât do this. You canât just change your-â
Heâs incapable of letting you finish a single sentence. His hands wrap around your cheeks tugging you forward until your lips are brushing together. Itâs enough of a shock to get you to stop talking. You donât reciprocate, too stunned to even think about moving.Â
He brushes his lips against yours again, firmer this time. Under the layers of blood coating you both, youâre wholly enveloped by him. His scent, his arms, everything about him drapes over you like a warm blanket. Against your better judgment, you find yourself returning the kiss.Â
You move further into his lap, one hand holding his face and the other clutching at his hair, needing something to hold to keep you steady in this moment. Logan smiles against your lips, deepening the kiss without wasting another beat. His tongue moves gently across yours at first. A curious caress to see how well you two fit together. He groans when he gets a taste of you, pushing further in and kissing you like he wants to devour you. Â
Thereâs warmth blooming in your stomach and spreading all along your body. Youâre buzzing with adrenaline and pain and this unidentifiable feeling that Logan is evoking from you. Itâs not the sweet mushy, romantic kiss you always imagined with him.Â
This is desperate. Like a dying manâs last attempt at redemption. Heâs tasting you like youâre rare, something to be savored. You feel like youâre the only thing left in existence. The only person left for him to admire. You forget the gore behind you, the tumultuous experiences youâve had with him.Â
You let yourself fall into the moment, a blind leap of faith into a pool of all your hopes and desires. Heâs better than you ever could have imagined. More desperate than your wildest fantasies. He makes no move to stop, even as the air becomes scarce and you both have to part longer. He just grips you tighter, hands wrapped around you like heâs worried if he lets go heâll lose you.Â
He could, he could lose you. This kiss of his is putting you into a trance, distracting you from all heâs trying to make up for. Perhaps if he stops kissing you, youâll remember it all and want nothing to do with him. But you donât see that happening, you just see yourself craving more and more for him., You feel the addiction forming already. A deep-seated need in your bones is finally being sated, it will always need more from him.Â
When you can no longer survive on the shared oxygen between you both, youâre forced to part. Your cheeks tingle from the stubble of his beard and you know your lips are pink and swollen because his are too. Youâre both still coated in blood and you share a familiar glean in your eyes.Â
âI never hated you,â he sounds breathless and you love that youâre the cause of it. âI just didnât want to lose you.â
You scoff, but there are no cruel intentions behind it. âSo you push me away before you ever get a chance to have me?â
He gives you a crooked smile, âI never said I was smart.â You canât help but laugh at that. Slowly, he helps you to your feet, ignoring the puddles of blood and bits. âWe'll have to call Charles. He needs to help the people out there.â
âWe also need to let him know thereâs no trafficking ring. Just one fucked psyche.â You shoot another glare at the pile that was Kimiko, still bitter about her experiment with your brain. As Logan helps you up the stairs of the basement, you stop him just before you reach the door.Â
He gives you a concerned look, like he thinks youâve hurt something somehow. âI want to talk to you. Really talk to you about everything.â Concern gives way to dread and you canât help but smile at the regretful look on his face. âBut first,â his head perks in interest at your tone, âmaybe we can finally enjoy that master bed together?â
âYou know,â he leans down, swiping his arms under your knees and lifting you. You gasp, through your arms around his neck and squeezing until you worry you might suffocate him. âYou really are the smart one of us, arenât you?â
âClearly.â
Youâre not sure how well this transition to married couple to tentatively something else is going to go. But you have hope and it's kept you going for all these years. What's wrong with letting it linger a little longer?
a/n: Guess who's back, back again? Hint, it's Flux. I missed writing for them, so I hope you enjoyed this as much as I did. Although, I worry the ending was too cheesy.
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Hii ! I was hoping you could do Logan x Reader where all the teachers go to a club, and the Reader starts dancing with Storm and Jean while Logan is sitting on a couch, looking at her. They both have a crush on each other, but they don't know it, so when the Reader notices Logan staring at her, she gets shy and decides to go get a drink. When she got her drink, a guy starts flirting with her, and Logan obviously sees it. he gets jealous and walks up to the guy telling him to leave her alone. After they talk for a bit, the Reader accidentally confesses and Logan kisses her. this ends up in a private room with Logan fucking her as he always wanted. I know this is a long request and I'm sorry for that, bue I'm a writer myself, so I already had develop this bit of the story in my head. I completely understand if you don't want to do it. Hope you have an awesome day !!đ€â€ïž Love your writing btw
a/n: I loved this prompt so much, did switch it up a bit bc I faced a bit of writer's block trying to flesh this out!! (and if I said I was listening to Thong Song while writing this, what then?)
18+ MDNI (fucking in a club bathroom, if that's not your thing, move on out)
Logan rummages around somewhere behind you, digging through the cabinets and moving everything around. The longer he searches, the more confused you grow. Your brows furrow as he cusses to himself.
Thereâs a low grunt of frustration as Logan rounds the kitchen island to glare at you. His face is screwed up in anger that seems to be misdirected towards you. You give him an awkward look, âUh, hi?â
âHe stole my booze,â he responds shortly and without explanation. You shake your head in confusion as the dots slowly connect. A small smile curls up on your lips but the glare he gives you makes it quickly drop.Â
âWell, you know Charles' rules about it,â you tell him flippantly. Logan huffs and shoves away from the counter. He turns back to the fridge, destroying the organizational system as he continues his search. You roll your eyes, eating your food and watching him with a bored expression.Â
Jean walks just as he really begins to work himself up. Her face pinches in distaste, catching on to the root of his anger quicker than you had. She looks at you with a small smirk. âCharles?â
âYep," You answer, eyes still trained on him. He finally gives up the futile search, moving to stand beside you. Your eyes widen and you try not to physically react to his proximity. Itâs an everyday struggle to remain calm around him. Youâre desperately trying to keep a cool girl persona but you donât think it's working.Â
Youâre pretty sure he sees right through your pathetic attempts at nonchalance every time you two are paired on a mission. Jean notices the look on your face and smiles slightly. âThe rest of us are thinking of going out tonight.â
It's not an offer with her, more of a demand for the two least sociable members of the team. She gives you both expectant looks, ignoring the way you minutely shake your head in disapproval at the idea of going out.
âPass,â Logan grunts. He steps away from you, making for the kitchen door. Jean quickly steps in front of him, firmly placing her hand on his chest and giving him a stern look.
You feel like you're missing something as they silently converse with tense looks and aggressive eye motions towards you. You might be worried they're flirting if it weren't for how fed up they both look right now with one another.
Your brows furrow in confusion and it only worsens when Logan lets out an aggrieved huff. âFine. Iâll come.â He gives Jean a thin smile, âHappy?âÂ
She releases him and moves out of the way with a smug look. âVery. Youâll thank me, by the way.â She says to his retreating back, ignoring whatever he mutters back to her.
Youâre completely lost about what that was but don't have much time to process it before Jean turns her attention to you. You already know what she wants and you immediately shake your head. âNo, nope, you know I donât like going out.â Jean smiles at you, but you know sheâs just pretending to agree with you.Â
âJean,â your voice is sharp as you glare at her. âNot happening.â
You really regret ever befriending her. Sheâs either ridiculously persuasive or she's used her mind-warping abilities on you.
You're squished between Ororo and Logan on a sticky club booth. The smell of booze and cheap perfume soaks through your senses. You feel the beginnings of a headache forming as the music pounds.
While you love the feeling of Logan's biceps pushed up against you, you hate the club more. Storm catches the tense look on your face and sighs in disappointment.
"We need to get some more alcohol in you," she tells you with a faux sense of authority. "Come on," she nods her head and for a moment you think she's talking to you. But, with a move that seems practiced, Scott and Jean both follow her out of the booth and head toward the bar.
You watch them go with a suspicious glint in your eye, not trusting how smoothly they all just conveniently slipped away. That leaves just you and Logan behind at the table and you doubt that's coincidental.
They've been a little pushy about this crush of yours ever since they found out. They insist that he feels the same way about you as you do him. But you sincerely doubt he's fantasizing about going on romantic picnics with you and thinking of mushy dates.
He seems like the kind of guy to value silence over a girlfriend and you doubt you're his type. You don't tend to stray from the rules, ever. You don't think there's much you two have in common, as much as the others insist the opposite.
You give him a subtle look over. He hasn't moved away from you, which seems like a good sign. There's plenty of space for him to go now, but he keeps himself pressed up against you.
But, he's also not looking at you. His thumb is idly tracing the rim of his glass and he's refusing to take his eyes off the stained wood of the table. You know he can feel the way you're staring at him, but he's stubbornly refusing to acknowledge your presence. It almost feels petty and that makes you scoff and roll your eyes at the thought. You doubt Logan cares enough to be petty.
Practically in love with me, you think sarcastically.Â
You know your friends are taking longer than necessary at the bar, trying to give the two of you some privacy. You feel like a high school girl, trying to get the cool guy to like her when he literally couldnât give two shits.Â
Your friends being pushy about the two of you really isn't helping anything. It only gives you false hope, and when he's inevitably a jerk again, it just makes all your little fantasies come crashing down.
You pick up your glass, tipping your head back and letting the alcohol warm you from the inside out. You've done your hair, spent forever doing your makeup, and you put on your favorite slutty dress. You don't feel like sitting here all night sulking alongside your unrequited crush.
More often than not, Logan is nothing more than a wet blanket. You've put in the effort and dragged yourself outside for once, you'd like to enjoy the experience. He could come find you when he felt like pulling the stick out of his ass. You slide out of the booth with a huff, uncaring as the hem of your dress rolls up your thighs.Â
âWhereâre you going?â Logan demands, voice gruff. Now he wants to pay attention, figures.Â
You turn around and glare down at him. His eyes rove slowly over you, the way they should have been all night. His gaze is a physical caress and his stare lingers along your body. You can practically feel his touch on the curves of your hips. Slowly, he looks back up to meet your eye, something like a challenge on his face.Â
You assess him, raising a brow and shrugging. âIâm gonna dance.â Something has possessed you or thereâs a very talented telepath manipulating you right now. In a rare display of confidence you lean over the table, breasts pushed out towards him. âWanna join me?â You ask, breath barely above a whisper.Â
He scoffs and goes back to glaring at the table. Whatever confidence you had settles coldly in the bottom of your gut. âNot my thing, kid,â he gripes, every bit the crotchety old man.Â
You roll your eyes, playing off the sting of rejection as an annoyance. âOf course, youâre not. Youâre not having fun unless everyone else is miserable,â you snap. His eyes shoot up to meet yours, something like shock playing on his face.Â
You donât let him respond, already turning on your heel and walking off. As much as you like Logan, sometimes this attitude of his becomes tiring. Whatâs wrong with wanting to have fun for a night?
Youâre not usually a huge fan of clubs. But when youâre out with your friends, youâre not going to actively ruin their night. As rude as that was, itâs right. Heâs the âcoolâ kid in high school who thought everything was lame and never wanted to enjoy anything.Â
So, what? You like to get a little drunk and sloppy sometimes, maybe if he ever tried it he might be less miserable. You head towards the bar, spotting Ororoâs hair easily through the crowd. You slide behind her, slipping your arm over her shoulder, âHey pretty,â you whisper in her ear, laughing as she jumps.Â
She turns and glares at you, swatting at your shoulder. âYouâre lucky I didnât hurt you.â
âOoh, save it for later.â She rolls her eyes and passes you a shot. You take it with a smile, wincing at the burn of the tequila. âYou wanna dance?â You have to shout to be heard over the music but you know she hears you when her eyes widen in surprise.Â
She glances behind you and you donât have to look to know Logan is glaring daggers at your back. You can feel him and it's pissing you off. âWhat happened?â You know she can tell something is up, youâre never this outgoing when you go out. But you donât want to talk about finally coming to terms with the fact that you and Logan arenât going to work out.Â
Instead, you hold your hand out and wink. âWanna dance or not?â She laughs a little, slipping her palm into yours and letting you drag her out onto the dance floor. Itâs been a while since youâve actually been sober dancing. You usually like to be near blackout drunk, but you just donât have the energy for that tonight.Â
Ororo is a little tipsier than you, clearly having been drinking while she was waiting at the bar. Her inhibitions are looser and sheâs giggling as you move your hips against hers. Neither of you is dancing to impress, youâre messily moving around each other to the beat of the music. You donât pay attention to the people around you, just having fun by yourselves.Â
Ororo takes your hand, spinning you a little and pulling you back into her arms. You laugh, swaying your hips to the same rhythm she is, chests pressed tightly together while you smile at each other.Â
She only lasts a few songs before she pulls back. âI need a drink,â she yells before stumbling back towards the bar. You feel yourself deflate, not sure what to do with yourself now that your favorite dancing partner has ditched you.Â
You look through the mass of grinding bodies and try and spot your table. You canât see much through the brightly colored lights spinning all around you. Everythingâs a little disorienting and the shots youâve had arenât helping.Â
Someoneâs hand slips around your waist, âYour friend left you all alone?â Normally, youâd push whoever it was off and tell them to back off. But heâs got an attractive voice and you can feel how fit he is against your back.Â
âYou gonna keep me company?â You tease, voice a low purr as you push back against him. Your hands drift down to his arms, pulling them a little tighter around your waist. He chuckles, the noise reverberating through your back.Â
You barely even get a chance to dance before your back is cold and you can feel his arms forcibly ripped off you. It doesnât take much digging to find the culprit. Logan is behind you, hand fisted in the guyâs collar, âWhy donât you back off, bub?â He shoves him back and you roll your eyes as the guy scrambles off.Â
âWhat the hell was that?â You demand arms crossed as you glare at Logan.Â
He turns around and youâre surprised at the intensity of his glare. Something about it has you heated for an entirely different reason. Heâs staring down at you like heâs gonna pounce on you. Your heart races, thighs clenching the longer heâs glowering at you.Â
He shouldnât be allowed to be so attractive when heâs pissed off. He reaches forward, grabbing your bicep and jerking you into his chest. He leans down until his lips are brushing against your ear. âYou wanna dance, letâs dance, kid.â
âWhat-â
He cuts you off, flipping you around and pulling your back flush against him. You can feel just how much your little show with Storm got him going. You truly werenât doing anything too alluring, but it seems to be enough for him.Â
When you donât move his hands drop to your hips and he grinds them down against him. âLogan,â you gasp his name out, caught off guard by how brazen heâs being in the middle of the club. There are people around you doing much worse but youâve never known him to be this bold before.Â
âYou trying to make me jealous?â Itâs hard to pay attention to what heâs saying, to focus on anything at all when his hand is drifting steadily down your body. The tips of his fingers just barely brush the skin of your thigh while his thumb lets the hem of your dress curl up.Â
He flips you around, taking his hands off of you and instead tilting your chin up to face him. âI said,â he repeats in a condescending tone, âwere you trying to make me jealous?â He doesnât sound like heâs taking you seriously. Even if that was your intention, he thinks itâs just your petty way of lashing out at him for not dancing.Â
You narrow your eyes at him and swat his hands off of you. âNo. I wasnât trying to make you jealous. I was trying to have some fun since youâre clearly not interested at all.â
That insufferable smirk of his doesnât go away for a minute. If anything, heâs more incensed by your anger. âWho said I wasnât interested?â Your lips part, another dumb little noise about to slip out when he dips down and stops you.Â
Heâs not trying to be subtle at all, gripping your dress and tugging you up against him while your lips lock. His tongue dips briefly into your mouth, savoring the taste of tequila on your gums before he pulls back.Â
âIâm interested in you, kid, just not this shitty little club.â Your mouth is gaping and you feel like a fool, standing there and just staring at him. Your brain is completely scrambled, bits and pieces forming together to scream that he kissed you. Too many things are happening at once. The music is making the floor beneath you vibrate, liquor is warming you from the inside out and tilting you closer to him. And he kissed you. Your lips are still tingling from it.Â
He chuckles a little under his breath, keeping you moving steadily against him. Youâre simply something to be puppeteered by your desire for him. No thoughts linger inside your brain except his name. âYouâre interested in me?â You repeat dumbly.
He leans down, tilting his lips closer towards your ear. âYou canât feel how much I want you?â One of your thighs is practically draped over his leg and heâs grinding his hips against you. The only thing you can feel is him. The smell of his cologne overpowers all the bodies surrounding you both, his voice drones out the loud music around you. Youâre completely consumed by him.Â
âLogan,â your tone is scandalized, you canât believe heâs bold enough to have you nearly half-naked on his lap right now. Your butt is one wrong move away from being the clubâs newest attraction. Yet, despite every protest lingering on your tongue, you canât do anything except kiss him again.Â
You donât know if the moment is all one vivid wet dream your brain has conjured up at three am and you donât feel like finding out. You want to enjoy being risky for once. You always play everything so safely. You donât confess your feelings to Logan so you arenât rejected. You never break the rules, you never act out. Just once, you want to do something bad and enjoy it.Â
Your arms twine around his neck and you tilt your head to deepen the kiss further. You feel his reaction more than you hear it. A low grumble in his chest that has you practically vibrating with want. He pulls away from you first and it takes a moment for your eyes to flutter back open.Â
When you finally do meet his gaze again, heâs got nothing but a smoldering desire in his eyes that makes you want to melt. Heâs staring you down like youâre prey to be chased and consumed. âCanât do this here,â he mutters.Â
Youâre almost shocked that heâs the first one to cut this off. You knew it was going to happen, you canât exactly fuck in the middle of the dance floor. As much as you might want to. But you thought you would be the one to chicken out.Â
He grabs your hand and shoves through the throng of grinding bodies. You grab the back of his shirt, stumbling after him and trying to stay close. âAs much as Iâd like to make that poor son of a bitch watch me fuck you, we need a little more privacy.â
It takes you a moment to realize heâs talking about the man youâd danced with earlier. If you could even qualify that as dancing. Heâd barely put his hand on your waist before Logan had appeared out of nowhere.
Your eyes narrow in suspicion and you glare at his back. How had he even gotten to you so quickly? He must have been watching you like a creep the whole time. You almost want to laugh at the thought. But youâre distracted by him nudging you through a door and locking it behind you.Â
You glance around, spotting three sinks and some cracked mirrors. Toilet stalls linger to your right and your nose wrinkles in disgust. You turn around to complain but heâs already stalking toward you. Whatever sanitary complaints were lingering in the back of your throat are thrown out the sealed bathroom window.Â
He buries his hands in your hair, ruining the meticulously placed style. You arch into his hold, opening your mouth for him to explore and gasping as his hand drops to your hips. He tugs you closer, ripping your dress up and yanking your underwear down in one smooth move.Â
You barely have a second to process half of whatâs happening before heâs got you bent over the sink. Itâs all happening so fast, so many different desires of yours surging to the surface in one dingy club bathroom.Â
Youâre slick with months of fantasies and sleepless nights where not even your vibrator could curb your desire for him. You hear his belt clink behind you and your back arches like a cat in heat. You practically present yourself to him, so desperate to feel him that you donât care how much of a slut youâre being.Â
You know, if this was anyone else, youâd slap them for even suggesting the bathroom as the first place you have sex. But youâd have let Logan take you in the alley behind the club. You donât care where you are, just so long as it's with him. And you know that desire runs a bit deeper than just a surface-level crush.Â
He doesnât give you much warning as he thrusts into you. The breath is practically punched out of you as he fills you. Everything about it feels right. Youâre so full of him you feel like you could explode. You know itâs going to take a pathetically short time for you to come. Itâs just too much, too fast, youâre so overwhelmed by him.Â
âOh god, Logan,â the porcelain creaks under your palms before you feel it splintering off into your skin. You canât pay attention to it, though, jaw agape, capable of nothing more than slutty moans of his name.Â
Heâs relentless behind you, thrusting so hard inside you that it feels like a punishment. He fists his hand in your hair and forces you to look in the mirror. âCome on, want you to see how wrecked you are. What a fucking slut youâre being for me, letting me fuck you like this in this bar.â
Your mascara is completely ruined, streaked down your face with your lipstick smeared across your chin. You look like a fucking mess and you couldnât care less. You feel yourself fluttering around him the tighter his grip on you is. His hand slips from your hair, latching around your neck and tugging you into his chest.Â
He grips your chin and keeps your eyes on where the two of you are joined in the mirror. It only makes you clench tighter around him, watching as he moves in and out of you. You can see just how much of an effect you're having on him and itâs the biggest ego boost youâve ever had in your life.Â
Youâve reduced him to a mess in a dirty club bathroom, so desperate for you he couldnât even wait to take you home. He tilts his hips, hitting the spot inside you that has your eyes nearly rolling in the back of your head.
You whisper his name in warning, letting go of the sink to clutch tightly at his wrist. He wraps his arm around your waist, keeping you secured against him. His hips start to stutter, losing some of their rhythm the tighter you are around him. The feeling builds in your fingers, tingles down to the tips of your toes, and explodes in a nearly blinding pleasure. His hips are still against you, warmth filling you a moment later.Â
You would slump forward into the sink if it werenât for his protective hold around your stomach. He keeps you tight against his chest for a minute, waiting for you to catch your bearings again. It takes an embarrassingly long time for the feeling in your legs to come back. Youâve never had such an intense experience like that.Â
You donât know if it's from the thrill of possibly getting caught or just because you were with him. Youâve longed and lusted after Logan for so long, and finally having the real thing is a bit of shock. Especially when he exceeded your fantasies, you didnât even know that was possible.
He props you against the sink, tugging your dress down and pulling your underwear back up. You watch him with dulled interest, still reeling from what youâve just done. Youâve never been so bold before, it almost feels liberating to just say âfuck itâ and do what you want.Â
He pulls his own pants back up, fixing his belt and grabbing a wet paper towel for you. Heâs silent as he wipes the mascara of your cheeks and you give him a questioning look. âYou want the others to know what happened?â
You scoff and glance away from him, looking towards the door of the bathroom. âIâm sure they already know. Werenât exactly subtle,â you tell him with a small smile.Â
He smirks, tossing the towel away and walking back towards you. He keeps his arms on either side of you, bracketing you against the sink and grinning down at you. âNo, we werenât, were we?â
You shake your head silently, lips curled up in amusement. Your eyes briefly dart to his lips before meeting his eyes once more. He catches the look with a sly smile, dipping his head down and giving you a brief kiss.Â
Itâs short and sweet, more loving than the passionate, rip-my-clothes-off kisses from before. It feels like the type of kiss a married couple would share in the early morning when they only want to remind the other they love each other. Your proximity and the look heâs giving you feel more intimate than anything that just happened.Â
âYou really meant it?â You muse, voice barely above a whisper as you smile at him.Â
âMeant what?â He mutters.Â
âYou like me,â you tease, entangling your hand with his and tugging him even closer to you.Â
He gives you a confused look, glancing at the sink behind you and then back at your disheveled form. âDid I not make that clear enough, kid?â
You shake your head, âNo, I think I might need another reminder,â you tell him. It takes a moment for your words to click for him. You can see when it does, he gives you a small smile and shakes his head with an aggrieved sigh like youâre bugging him.Â
âReally making me work for it, huh?â You nod your head playfully, dragging him down towards you and bringing him into another kiss. You can deal with the line forming outside in a minute. You can push off your nosy friendsâ questions for another day. Right now, itâs just you and him, finally doing what youâve wanted since the moment you saw him.Â
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Hii ! I was hoping you could do Logan x Reader where all the teachers go to a club, and the Reader starts dancing with Storm and Jean while Logan is sitting on a couch, looking at her. They both have a crush on each other, but they don't know it, so when the Reader notices Logan staring at her, she gets shy and decides to go get a drink. When she got her drink, a guy starts flirting with her, and Logan obviously sees it. he gets jealous and walks up to the guy telling him to leave her alone. After they talk for a bit, the Reader accidentally confesses and Logan kisses her. this ends up in a private room with Logan fucking her as he always wanted. I know this is a long request and I'm sorry for that, bue I'm a writer myself, so I already had develop this bit of the story in my head. I completely understand if you don't want to do it. Hope you have an awesome day !!đ€â€ïž Love your writing btw
a/n: I loved this prompt so much, did switch it up a bit bc I faced a bit of writer's block trying to flesh this out!! (and if I said I was listening to Thong Song while writing this, what then?)
18+ MDNI (fucking in a club bathroom, if that's not your thing, move on out)
Logan rummages around somewhere behind you, digging through the cabinets and moving everything around. The longer he searches, the more confused you grow. Your brows furrow as he cusses to himself.
Thereâs a low grunt of frustration as Logan rounds the kitchen island to glare at you. His face is screwed up in anger that seems to be misdirected towards you. You give him an awkward look, âUh, hi?â
âHe stole my booze,â he responds shortly and without explanation. You shake your head in confusion as the dots slowly connect. A small smile curls up on your lips but the glare he gives you makes it quickly drop.Â
âWell, you know Charles' rules about it,â you tell him flippantly. Logan huffs and shoves away from the counter. He turns back to the fridge, destroying the organizational system as he continues his search. You roll your eyes, eating your food and watching him with a bored expression.Â
Jean walks just as he really begins to work himself up. Her face pinches in distaste, catching on to the root of his anger quicker than you had. She looks at you with a small smirk. âCharles?â
âYep," You answer, eyes still trained on him. He finally gives up the futile search, moving to stand beside you. Your eyes widen and you try not to physically react to his proximity. Itâs an everyday struggle to remain calm around him. Youâre desperately trying to keep a cool girl persona but you donât think it's working.Â
Youâre pretty sure he sees right through your pathetic attempts at nonchalance every time you two are paired on a mission. Jean notices the look on your face and smiles slightly. âThe rest of us are thinking of going out tonight.â
It's not an offer with her, more of a demand for the two least sociable members of the team. She gives you both expectant looks, ignoring the way you minutely shake your head in disapproval at the idea of going out.
âPass,â Logan grunts. He steps away from you, making for the kitchen door. Jean quickly steps in front of him, firmly placing her hand on his chest and giving him a stern look.
You feel like you're missing something as they silently converse with tense looks and aggressive eye motions towards you. You might be worried they're flirting if it weren't for how fed up they both look right now with one another.
Your brows furrow in confusion and it only worsens when Logan lets out an aggrieved huff. âFine. Iâll come.â He gives Jean a thin smile, âHappy?âÂ
She releases him and moves out of the way with a smug look. âVery. Youâll thank me, by the way.â She says to his retreating back, ignoring whatever he mutters back to her.
Youâre completely lost about what that was but don't have much time to process it before Jean turns her attention to you. You already know what she wants and you immediately shake your head. âNo, nope, you know I donât like going out.â Jean smiles at you, but you know sheâs just pretending to agree with you.Â
âJean,â your voice is sharp as you glare at her. âNot happening.â
You really regret ever befriending her. Sheâs either ridiculously persuasive or she's used her mind-warping abilities on you.
You're squished between Ororo and Logan on a sticky club booth. The smell of booze and cheap perfume soaks through your senses. You feel the beginnings of a headache forming as the music pounds.
While you love the feeling of Logan's biceps pushed up against you, you hate the club more. Storm catches the tense look on your face and sighs in disappointment.
"We need to get some more alcohol in you," she tells you with a faux sense of authority. "Come on," she nods her head and for a moment you think she's talking to you. But, with a move that seems practiced, Scott and Jean both follow her out of the booth and head toward the bar.
You watch them go with a suspicious glint in your eye, not trusting how smoothly they all just conveniently slipped away. That leaves just you and Logan behind at the table and you doubt that's coincidental.
They've been a little pushy about this crush of yours ever since they found out. They insist that he feels the same way about you as you do him. But you sincerely doubt he's fantasizing about going on romantic picnics with you and thinking of mushy dates.
He seems like the kind of guy to value silence over a girlfriend and you doubt you're his type. You don't tend to stray from the rules, ever. You don't think there's much you two have in common, as much as the others insist the opposite.
You give him a subtle look over. He hasn't moved away from you, which seems like a good sign. There's plenty of space for him to go now, but he keeps himself pressed up against you.
But, he's also not looking at you. His thumb is idly tracing the rim of his glass and he's refusing to take his eyes off the stained wood of the table. You know he can feel the way you're staring at him, but he's stubbornly refusing to acknowledge your presence. It almost feels petty and that makes you scoff and roll your eyes at the thought. You doubt Logan cares enough to be petty.
Practically in love with me, you think sarcastically.Â
You know your friends are taking longer than necessary at the bar, trying to give the two of you some privacy. You feel like a high school girl, trying to get the cool guy to like her when he literally couldnât give two shits.Â
Your friends being pushy about the two of you really isn't helping anything. It only gives you false hope, and when he's inevitably a jerk again, it just makes all your little fantasies come crashing down.
You pick up your glass, tipping your head back and letting the alcohol warm you from the inside out. You've done your hair, spent forever doing your makeup, and you put on your favorite slutty dress. You don't feel like sitting here all night sulking alongside your unrequited crush.
More often than not, Logan is nothing more than a wet blanket. You've put in the effort and dragged yourself outside for once, you'd like to enjoy the experience. He could come find you when he felt like pulling the stick out of his ass. You slide out of the booth with a huff, uncaring as the hem of your dress rolls up your thighs.Â
âWhereâre you going?â Logan demands, voice gruff. Now he wants to pay attention, figures.Â
You turn around and glare down at him. His eyes rove slowly over you, the way they should have been all night. His gaze is a physical caress and his stare lingers along your body. You can practically feel his touch on the curves of your hips. Slowly, he looks back up to meet your eye, something like a challenge on his face.Â
You assess him, raising a brow and shrugging. âIâm gonna dance.â Something has possessed you or thereâs a very talented telepath manipulating you right now. In a rare display of confidence you lean over the table, breasts pushed out towards him. âWanna join me?â You ask, breath barely above a whisper.Â
He scoffs and goes back to glaring at the table. Whatever confidence you had settles coldly in the bottom of your gut. âNot my thing, kid,â he gripes, every bit the crotchety old man.Â
You roll your eyes, playing off the sting of rejection as an annoyance. âOf course, youâre not. Youâre not having fun unless everyone else is miserable,â you snap. His eyes shoot up to meet yours, something like shock playing on his face.Â
You donât let him respond, already turning on your heel and walking off. As much as you like Logan, sometimes this attitude of his becomes tiring. Whatâs wrong with wanting to have fun for a night?
Youâre not usually a huge fan of clubs. But when youâre out with your friends, youâre not going to actively ruin their night. As rude as that was, itâs right. Heâs the âcoolâ kid in high school who thought everything was lame and never wanted to enjoy anything.Â
So, what? You like to get a little drunk and sloppy sometimes, maybe if he ever tried it he might be less miserable. You head towards the bar, spotting Ororoâs hair easily through the crowd. You slide behind her, slipping your arm over her shoulder, âHey pretty,â you whisper in her ear, laughing as she jumps.Â
She turns and glares at you, swatting at your shoulder. âYouâre lucky I didnât hurt you.â
âOoh, save it for later.â She rolls her eyes and passes you a shot. You take it with a smile, wincing at the burn of the tequila. âYou wanna dance?â You have to shout to be heard over the music but you know she hears you when her eyes widen in surprise.Â
She glances behind you and you donât have to look to know Logan is glaring daggers at your back. You can feel him and it's pissing you off. âWhat happened?â You know she can tell something is up, youâre never this outgoing when you go out. But you donât want to talk about finally coming to terms with the fact that you and Logan arenât going to work out.Â
Instead, you hold your hand out and wink. âWanna dance or not?â She laughs a little, slipping her palm into yours and letting you drag her out onto the dance floor. Itâs been a while since youâve actually been sober dancing. You usually like to be near blackout drunk, but you just donât have the energy for that tonight.Â
Ororo is a little tipsier than you, clearly having been drinking while she was waiting at the bar. Her inhibitions are looser and sheâs giggling as you move your hips against hers. Neither of you is dancing to impress, youâre messily moving around each other to the beat of the music. You donât pay attention to the people around you, just having fun by yourselves.Â
Ororo takes your hand, spinning you a little and pulling you back into her arms. You laugh, swaying your hips to the same rhythm she is, chests pressed tightly together while you smile at each other.Â
She only lasts a few songs before she pulls back. âI need a drink,â she yells before stumbling back towards the bar. You feel yourself deflate, not sure what to do with yourself now that your favorite dancing partner has ditched you.Â
You look through the mass of grinding bodies and try and spot your table. You canât see much through the brightly colored lights spinning all around you. Everythingâs a little disorienting and the shots youâve had arenât helping.Â
Someoneâs hand slips around your waist, âYour friend left you all alone?â Normally, youâd push whoever it was off and tell them to back off. But heâs got an attractive voice and you can feel how fit he is against your back.Â
âYou gonna keep me company?â You tease, voice a low purr as you push back against him. Your hands drift down to his arms, pulling them a little tighter around your waist. He chuckles, the noise reverberating through your back.Â
You barely even get a chance to dance before your back is cold and you can feel his arms forcibly ripped off you. It doesnât take much digging to find the culprit. Logan is behind you, hand fisted in the guyâs collar, âWhy donât you back off, bub?â He shoves him back and you roll your eyes as the guy scrambles off.Â
âWhat the hell was that?â You demand arms crossed as you glare at Logan.Â
He turns around and youâre surprised at the intensity of his glare. Something about it has you heated for an entirely different reason. Heâs staring down at you like heâs gonna pounce on you. Your heart races, thighs clenching the longer heâs glowering at you.Â
He shouldnât be allowed to be so attractive when heâs pissed off. He reaches forward, grabbing your bicep and jerking you into his chest. He leans down until his lips are brushing against your ear. âYou wanna dance, letâs dance, kid.â
âWhat-â
He cuts you off, flipping you around and pulling your back flush against him. You can feel just how much your little show with Storm got him going. You truly werenât doing anything too alluring, but it seems to be enough for him.Â
When you donât move his hands drop to your hips and he grinds them down against him. âLogan,â you gasp his name out, caught off guard by how brazen heâs being in the middle of the club. There are people around you doing much worse but youâve never known him to be this bold before.Â
âYou trying to make me jealous?â Itâs hard to pay attention to what heâs saying, to focus on anything at all when his hand is drifting steadily down your body. The tips of his fingers just barely brush the skin of your thigh while his thumb lets the hem of your dress curl up.Â
He flips you around, taking his hands off of you and instead tilting your chin up to face him. âI said,â he repeats in a condescending tone, âwere you trying to make me jealous?â He doesnât sound like heâs taking you seriously. Even if that was your intention, he thinks itâs just your petty way of lashing out at him for not dancing.Â
You narrow your eyes at him and swat his hands off of you. âNo. I wasnât trying to make you jealous. I was trying to have some fun since youâre clearly not interested at all.â
That insufferable smirk of his doesnât go away for a minute. If anything, heâs more incensed by your anger. âWho said I wasnât interested?â Your lips part, another dumb little noise about to slip out when he dips down and stops you.Â
Heâs not trying to be subtle at all, gripping your dress and tugging you up against him while your lips lock. His tongue dips briefly into your mouth, savoring the taste of tequila on your gums before he pulls back.Â
âIâm interested in you, kid, just not this shitty little club.â Your mouth is gaping and you feel like a fool, standing there and just staring at him. Your brain is completely scrambled, bits and pieces forming together to scream that he kissed you. Too many things are happening at once. The music is making the floor beneath you vibrate, liquor is warming you from the inside out and tilting you closer to him. And he kissed you. Your lips are still tingling from it.Â
He chuckles a little under his breath, keeping you moving steadily against him. Youâre simply something to be puppeteered by your desire for him. No thoughts linger inside your brain except his name. âYouâre interested in me?â You repeat dumbly.
He leans down, tilting his lips closer towards your ear. âYou canât feel how much I want you?â One of your thighs is practically draped over his leg and heâs grinding his hips against you. The only thing you can feel is him. The smell of his cologne overpowers all the bodies surrounding you both, his voice drones out the loud music around you. Youâre completely consumed by him.Â
âLogan,â your tone is scandalized, you canât believe heâs bold enough to have you nearly half-naked on his lap right now. Your butt is one wrong move away from being the clubâs newest attraction. Yet, despite every protest lingering on your tongue, you canât do anything except kiss him again.Â
You donât know if the moment is all one vivid wet dream your brain has conjured up at three am and you donât feel like finding out. You want to enjoy being risky for once. You always play everything so safely. You donât confess your feelings to Logan so you arenât rejected. You never break the rules, you never act out. Just once, you want to do something bad and enjoy it.Â
Your arms twine around his neck and you tilt your head to deepen the kiss further. You feel his reaction more than you hear it. A low grumble in his chest that has you practically vibrating with want. He pulls away from you first and it takes a moment for your eyes to flutter back open.Â
When you finally do meet his gaze again, heâs got nothing but a smoldering desire in his eyes that makes you want to melt. Heâs staring you down like youâre prey to be chased and consumed. âCanât do this here,â he mutters.Â
Youâre almost shocked that heâs the first one to cut this off. You knew it was going to happen, you canât exactly fuck in the middle of the dance floor. As much as you might want to. But you thought you would be the one to chicken out.Â
He grabs your hand and shoves through the throng of grinding bodies. You grab the back of his shirt, stumbling after him and trying to stay close. âAs much as Iâd like to make that poor son of a bitch watch me fuck you, we need a little more privacy.â
It takes you a moment to realize heâs talking about the man youâd danced with earlier. If you could even qualify that as dancing. Heâd barely put his hand on your waist before Logan had appeared out of nowhere.
Your eyes narrow in suspicion and you glare at his back. How had he even gotten to you so quickly? He must have been watching you like a creep the whole time. You almost want to laugh at the thought. But youâre distracted by him nudging you through a door and locking it behind you.Â
You glance around, spotting three sinks and some cracked mirrors. Toilet stalls linger to your right and your nose wrinkles in disgust. You turn around to complain but heâs already stalking toward you. Whatever sanitary complaints were lingering in the back of your throat are thrown out the sealed bathroom window.Â
He buries his hands in your hair, ruining the meticulously placed style. You arch into his hold, opening your mouth for him to explore and gasping as his hand drops to your hips. He tugs you closer, ripping your dress up and yanking your underwear down in one smooth move.Â
You barely have a second to process half of whatâs happening before heâs got you bent over the sink. Itâs all happening so fast, so many different desires of yours surging to the surface in one dingy club bathroom.Â
Youâre slick with months of fantasies and sleepless nights where not even your vibrator could curb your desire for him. You hear his belt clink behind you and your back arches like a cat in heat. You practically present yourself to him, so desperate to feel him that you donât care how much of a slut youâre being.Â
You know, if this was anyone else, youâd slap them for even suggesting the bathroom as the first place you have sex. But youâd have let Logan take you in the alley behind the club. You donât care where you are, just so long as it's with him. And you know that desire runs a bit deeper than just a surface-level crush.Â
He doesnât give you much warning as he thrusts into you. The breath is practically punched out of you as he fills you. Everything about it feels right. Youâre so full of him you feel like you could explode. You know itâs going to take a pathetically short time for you to come. Itâs just too much, too fast, youâre so overwhelmed by him.Â
âOh god, Logan,â the porcelain creaks under your palms before you feel it splintering off into your skin. You canât pay attention to it, though, jaw agape, capable of nothing more than slutty moans of his name.Â
Heâs relentless behind you, thrusting so hard inside you that it feels like a punishment. He fists his hand in your hair and forces you to look in the mirror. âCome on, want you to see how wrecked you are. What a fucking slut youâre being for me, letting me fuck you like this in this bar.â
Your mascara is completely ruined, streaked down your face with your lipstick smeared across your chin. You look like a fucking mess and you couldnât care less. You feel yourself fluttering around him the tighter his grip on you is. His hand slips from your hair, latching around your neck and tugging you into his chest.Â
He grips your chin and keeps your eyes on where the two of you are joined in the mirror. It only makes you clench tighter around him, watching as he moves in and out of you. You can see just how much of an effect you're having on him and itâs the biggest ego boost youâve ever had in your life.Â
Youâve reduced him to a mess in a dirty club bathroom, so desperate for you he couldnât even wait to take you home. He tilts his hips, hitting the spot inside you that has your eyes nearly rolling in the back of your head.
You whisper his name in warning, letting go of the sink to clutch tightly at his wrist. He wraps his arm around your waist, keeping you secured against him. His hips start to stutter, losing some of their rhythm the tighter you are around him. The feeling builds in your fingers, tingles down to the tips of your toes, and explodes in a nearly blinding pleasure. His hips are still against you, warmth filling you a moment later.Â
You would slump forward into the sink if it werenât for his protective hold around your stomach. He keeps you tight against his chest for a minute, waiting for you to catch your bearings again. It takes an embarrassingly long time for the feeling in your legs to come back. Youâve never had such an intense experience like that.Â
You donât know if it's from the thrill of possibly getting caught or just because you were with him. Youâve longed and lusted after Logan for so long, and finally having the real thing is a bit of shock. Especially when he exceeded your fantasies, you didnât even know that was possible.
He props you against the sink, tugging your dress down and pulling your underwear back up. You watch him with dulled interest, still reeling from what youâve just done. Youâve never been so bold before, it almost feels liberating to just say âfuck itâ and do what you want.Â
He pulls his own pants back up, fixing his belt and grabbing a wet paper towel for you. Heâs silent as he wipes the mascara of your cheeks and you give him a questioning look. âYou want the others to know what happened?â
You scoff and glance away from him, looking towards the door of the bathroom. âIâm sure they already know. Werenât exactly subtle,â you tell him with a small smile.Â
He smirks, tossing the towel away and walking back towards you. He keeps his arms on either side of you, bracketing you against the sink and grinning down at you. âNo, we werenât, were we?â
You shake your head silently, lips curled up in amusement. Your eyes briefly dart to his lips before meeting his eyes once more. He catches the look with a sly smile, dipping his head down and giving you a brief kiss.Â
Itâs short and sweet, more loving than the passionate, rip-my-clothes-off kisses from before. It feels like the type of kiss a married couple would share in the early morning when they only want to remind the other they love each other. Your proximity and the look heâs giving you feel more intimate than anything that just happened.Â
âYou really meant it?â You muse, voice barely above a whisper as you smile at him.Â
âMeant what?â He mutters.Â
âYou like me,â you tease, entangling your hand with his and tugging him even closer to you.Â
He gives you a confused look, glancing at the sink behind you and then back at your disheveled form. âDid I not make that clear enough, kid?â
You shake your head, âNo, I think I might need another reminder,â you tell him. It takes a moment for your words to click for him. You can see when it does, he gives you a small smile and shakes his head with an aggrieved sigh like youâre bugging him.Â
âReally making me work for it, huh?â You nod your head playfully, dragging him down towards you and bringing him into another kiss. You can deal with the line forming outside in a minute. You can push off your nosy friendsâ questions for another day. Right now, itâs just you and him, finally doing what youâve wanted since the moment you saw him.Â
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Hey Iâm just begging for a fic of Logan with a shy reader that she has a crush on him but thinks heâs never going to fix on her since Jean exists (maybe the reader can make her hair color change depending on the emotion or something
a/n: sorry I havenât been responding to asks. The new job has officially killed my spirit. But I got to work out finally and do some yoga so hopefully Iâll start feeling more motivated đ€đ€this one will be shorter
Logan Howlett x X-men!reader (Chameleon)
âChameleon!â You jump, shoulders flying up to your ears. Almost immediately you can feel the tips of your fingers tingling. Sure enough, when you look down theyâre already disappearing. Sighing, you turn around and glare at Scott.Â
âWhat have I told you about scaring me?âÂ
He grimaces, raising his hands in surrender. âSorry, I forgot.â
You roll your eyes and turn back toward your project. âEvery time,â you mutter bitterly. Youâre not an idiot. You know he thinks scaring you is funny. The whole school does. They all like to see you yelp and blend in with the nearest surface, the only thing visible is your stupid hair.Â
âYouâre, um, turning red.â Scott points to your head and you donât have to look to know your hair is shifting colors.
You reach over and swat harshly at his arm, âBecause you pissed me off! I know you scare me on purpose,â you accuse, jabbing your finger into his chest. He laughs and stumbles away from you.Â
âAlright, alright, calm down. I was just messing around a little. Look,â he glances down at the lesson plans before you and sighs. âAll this will have to wait. Charles needs us all for a mission.â
You huff and shove the papers into your desk drawer. âAlright, lead the way.â You feel Scottâs eyes still lingering on your hair and glare at him. âMove it, Summers,â you demand.Â
You were already in a bad mood, you didnât need him making it worse. It honestly shouldnât be such a big deal for you. You get scared by everyone all the time. You used to enjoy it, enjoyed the way it felt like you all had your own joke. But, eventually, it started to feel less like an inside joke and more like youâre the unwitting butt of one.Â
Some mutants get amazing powers, like Jean or Charles. Loganâs abilities are incredible, even if he doesnât believe you when you tell him that. But yours, well, you're better suited as the cheap gimmick of a childrenâs birthday party than an X-Men. Youâre just a walking mood ring that blends in with her environment.Â
The only thing youâre good for is reconnaissance missions and embarrassing yourself. You donât know what Charles sees in you. Youâve never understood why he insists youâre such a good asset to the team. Yes, you are good at spying on people, but you donât need to when Charles has such strong telepathic abilities. Youâre essentially useless in a fight due to a lack of regenerative or strength abilities.Â
More often than not you feel like a child playing dress up, chasing after the big kids. You know the others donât mean anything bad by it when they tease you into going invisible or laugh when your hair changes. Itâs all in good fun. But it doesnât make you feel any less like easy entertainment rather than a teammate.Â
It doesnât help that youâve got little to no control over your abilities when it comes to Logan. Youâve never had such a horrifically bad crush like this. Anytime he opens his mouth around you, you're fighting off the urge to just go invisible and run away. You feel like you go feral around him. You donât know how he hasnât caught onto what the colors of your hair mean when youâre near him.Â
Itâs constantly switching between some odd mix of red and pink when you talk. Which, you know what it means, but youâre praying no one else does. Red can mean angry, depending on whether youâre talking to Scott or not. You know, though, that with Logan it just means you want to jump his bones and youâre hopelessly in love with him.Â
Thankfully, like the others, he associates red with anger. Which isnât great for you because that just means he thinks every time he opens his mouth youâre pissed off. At yourself, maybe, but at him, never. It just means when he wears those stupid tanktops you want to dig your teeth into his biceps and never let go.Â
Scott opens the door to the meeting room and you slide in past him. Charles gives you a brief smile as a greeting. You take the chair at the end of the table, which just happens to be next to Logan - completely coincidental. He gives you a tense smile and you return it stiffly. You tug your hood over your hair, praying he doesnât notice the red in your strands yet. You donât want him to think you hate him. You completely prefer that over him knowing how feral you are for him, but itâs not conducive to your slow plan to finally get him to acknowledge you as a sexual partner.Â
You swear, if your name isnât Jean Grey, you might as well just be a shapeless blob of nothing. He glances over at her, that smoldering look in his eyes, and you try not to throw up in your mouth. Scott wraps an arm around Jeanâs shoulders and they break their lingering stares.Â
Logan glances over at you and catches the glare on your face before you can get rid of it. He huffs and turns towards Charles. With a sigh, you sink back into your chair and focus on not just going invisible.Â
âChameleon,â Charles says your name and your eyes widen. You wonder how much youâve missed while youâve been glaring at the back of Jeanâs head. âDoes that sound alright with you?â
You look around the table for help but theyâre all staring expectantly at you. âSure,â you stumble over the word, racking your brain for any answers. It seems not even your subconscious was paying attention to Charles droning on. âSounds great.â He gives you a satisfied nod.Â
âGood. Off to the jet, all of you.â he rolls out of the room and you wait until heâs out of earshot to kick Logan under the table.Â
He glances back at you, smirking. âDonât know what you agreed to?â
You purse your lips and shake your head. âNope,â he gives you a look like he knew youâd say that. You hate how well he can read you when it feels like youâre constantly hitting walls trying to understand him.Â
âYouâre scoping a place out for us. Making sure itâs safe so we can retrieve some information.â You give him a thankful look and he chuckles. âYou need to start paying attention, kid.â
You groan and get up from your chair, brushing past him. âI told you to quit calling me that.â It makes you feel like thatâs all heâll ever see you as, some kid invited onto the team. You want him to see you as someone he could have sex with, hopefully, love one day.Â
He glances past you at Jean. She smiles at him and you fight everything inside you to not roll your eyes and gag at them. Sheâs holding onto Scott and making fuck me eyes at Logan, which heâs happily returning. This is just too disgusting for you.Â
You shove past him and ignore how he calls out your name. Your real name. Heâs the only one that uses it. For some reason, most people just refer to you by Chameleon. You donât understand why. They just donât seem to think of you outside your abilities as a mutant.Â
You make it to the jet before the others, taking the private time to change into your X-Men suit. If thereâs one useful thing about your ability, itâs that it affects whateverâs touching you. Which means, you donât have to strip naked to go completely invisible. And if anyone is around you, all you have to do is hold onto them and theyâll blend in too.Â
Youâre tugging up the zipper of your top as Logan walks in. He gives you an odd look, sitting on the bench in front of you. âAngry about something?â He asks, gaze darting up to your head.Â
You drag your fingers over the ends of your hair and sigh. âNo,â you tell him bluntly, taking the seat beside him.Â
His brows furrow in confusion. âItâs red, though,â he points out, his tone colored in suspicion.Â
You laugh a little, âRed doesnât always mean angry.â Itâs the most youâve ever confided about your hair colors to him. The largest hint youâve ever given him that you donât hate him. Youâre worried if he knew how you really felt about him, heâd think you were a little creep.Â
He slides his arm behind you on the bench, leaning in until youâre practically sharing the same air. You know your eyes are comically large, you donât even want to know what color your hair is turning right now. âWhat else does it mean, kid?â He whispers and you donât even pay attention to the nickname. All you can see and hear right now is him. How close he is, how close your lips are.Â
You could lean forward an inch or two and youâd be kissing. âUm,â you swallow harshly around the lump in your throat. You donât even know what he asked you, all you can think about now is kissing him.Â
âLogan!â Ororoâs voice echoes through the jet and you leap away from him, trying to calm your racing heart. Logan sighs and leans back in his seat, giving Storm a tense smile. She glances at you and laughs, âSheâs nearly see-through, what are you doing to her?â
You frown and look down at your hands. Sure enough, youâre going translucent. You let out a silent groan, and tuck your knees into your chest. You take a few deep breaths until youâre one solid form again. Itâs so embarrassing when that happens, when you lose control over yourself like that.Â
But itâs even worse when Logan does it to you. He gives you hope, stupid, hateful hope, for one minute that he might feel something deeper. Only for it to be another joke. Youâre a walking mood ring, nothing more than a quick laugh to all of them.Â
Jean walks up the ramp, her gaze going to Logan first before drifting towards you. âAre you alright?â She mutters, trying not to let the others hear. Of course, Logan can, with his stupid enhanced abilities. âYouâre turning blue,â she points out and you roll your eyes.Â
You can feel Loganâs stare burning holes into the side of your head and it only makes you feel worse. You hate being a joke, but you also hate showing them just how much it affects you. You donât want to seem like a crybaby that canât handle a little teasing. But youâd thought coming to Charlesâ school meant people would stop poking fun at you. It feels like being dragged right back into high school.Â
âIâm fine,â you tell her. She doesnât look like she believes you but she takes a seat anyway. Of course, placing herself right next to Logan, even though her fiancee is a few feet away from her, looking just as hurt as you. They lean into each other and whisper. Theyâre not even trying to hide it anymore. You let your glare bore into the floor, ignoring how much seeing them together hurts.Â
The mission had gone well, Logan had been hoping to go to the bar and grab a drink with you. But the second his back is towards you, youâre running off the jet. Logan calls out your name, trying to catch up. You glance back at him, looking like a deer caught in the headlights. He smiles at you and your eyes widen. You go invisible and Logan glances around, baffled.Â
He calls out your name again but the door ahead of him opens and closes quickly. He can only assume youâve run away again. You always run away from him. Youâre always pissed off at him. He doesnât know what Jeanâs talking about when she says you like him.Â
Loganâs never met anyone more repulsed by him.Â
âWould you just trust me?â Jean tells him lowly, creeping up behind him.Â
His face falls and he turns to her, glaring at her knowing smirk. âShe just fuckinâ ran away from me. Pretty sure thatâs about as good a hint as Iâm gonna get, Jean.â
She glances over her shoulder, waving Scott away and looping her arm through Loganâs. âYouâre an idiot, Howlett.â He scoffs and she swats at his shoulder. âTrust me, I can read minds, remember?â
Of course, he knows sheâs got some pretty decent telepathic abilities. But he didnât think she would so brazenly breach your boundaries. Thereâs an unspoken rule that the mind readers of the school donât delve into your brain without permission.Â
She sees the look on his face and sighs. âI didnât read her mind. She got drunk a little while ago and told me about her raging crush on you,â she laughs a little at your expense and Logan lets out a short chuckle. You can be a pretty sloppy drunk if they let you go too far. He figures it was one of those girlâs nights he wants nothing to do with. Youâd probably let the tight reigns you keep on yourself slip for once.Â
âShe goes red every time she sees me. I donât know what else that could mean other than she hates me.â Logan isnât surprised that youâre not taken with him like he is with you. Heâs used to the rejection, but it hurts just a bit more coming from you. Youâre so welcoming to the others.Â
You embrace every new member of the school with open arms. Yet, with him, you get angry whenever you see him. You see through his walls, see the rot lurking underneath them. And, rightfully, want nothing to do with him. He understands your reasoning.Â
Most days he barely wants anything to do with himself. Heâs made a lot of bad choices in his life, half of which he canât remember. But heâd hoped, for one minute, that you might give him a second chance. As much as Jean insists otherwise, he can see the truth of how you feel about him every time you run away.Â
âRed doesnât always mean anger,â Jean tells him elusively. Itâs the same thing youâd said to him on the jet. It makes his brows furrow in confusion and he glares at her.Â
âWhat else could it mean?â He demands sharply, sick of her teasing him with the possibility you might feel the same way.Â
She bites her lip, looking suddenly sheepish. âI canât say-â
âJean,â Logan snaps. He stops her from walking any further, keeping her planted in one spot with him. âTell me,â heâs sick of the games youâre both playing with him. He just wants some straight fucking answers. How hard is that?
She sighs and looks away from him. âI promised her I wouldnât tell.â
âAnd Iâm sure you promised you also wouldnât tell me how she feels about me,â he points out. Thereâs a sharp tone to his voice, itâs rude but he canât bother feeling guilty about it.Â
She canât meet his eye, a smirk fighting at the corner of her lips. He waits impatiently for her answer, irritation broiling quickly in his gut. Heâs about to snap at her again when she finally meets his eyes.Â
She speaks through a laugh, like what sheâs about to say is so ridiculous she canât hold it in. âShe wants,â she cuts herself off with another laugh and Logan groans in frustration. He begins to walk away from her when she yells, âShe wants to fuck you!â At his back.Â
His eyes widen in surprise before he turns back to her with a displeased look. âAre you fuckinâ with me?â He demands, narrowing his eyes at her suspiciously.Â
She shakes her head and brushes past him. âYou didnât hear it from me,â she warns, tone grave as she leaves the room.Â
Logan is left standing in the same spot, stunned at the revelation. Heâs not sure how much of that he believes. But he doesnât understand why Jean would possibly lie to him about this. She gains nothing by setting him up for failure. As much as he doubts the honesty behind her words, heâs got no other choice but to trust them.Â
He heads to the most likely place youâre hiding out. Charles has a private library thatâs blocked off from the kids. There are too many first editions in there, he canât risk any of them accidentally blowing them up. You like to head there when youâre trying to avoid people.Â
He tries to stay quiet as he walks in, not wanting you to run off again. Itâs hard to confront someone who goes invisible whenever she feels like it. He sees light blue hair draped over the back of an armchair. He feels like a creep as he stalks towards you, sneaking and pouncing on you so you canât run away.Â
He canât imagine how Jean ever thought him approaching you would be a good idea. He whispers your name, trying not to startle you. It doesnât take a genius to see how much you hate when the others scare you. They might not mean anything bad by it, but they have to be blind not to see how much it pisses you off.Â
You still jump, glancing up at him with a surprised look. He looks to your hair for any tells of how you feel. Some pink weaves its way through the stands but it otherwise stays relatively blue. His brows furrow in confusion, he canât tell if itâs a good or bad sign that thereâs no red.Â
âHow are ya, kid? Ran off pretty quick earlier.âÂ
âDonât call me that,â you mutter, giving him a brief glare before staring absently down at the book in your hands. Logan kneels beside your armchair, covering the pages with his hand. You huff, giving him an expectant look. âYes, Logan?â You demand, tone short.
Logan tilts his head, examining you and your body language. You seem relatively closed off, irritated at him or something else. He doesnât know what to say. Heâs never been good with words or trying to express how he feels. Heâs more comfortable showing how much he cares for those around him.Â
Throwing caution to the wind, he lets his hand drift to your wrist and tugs you forward. Your eyes widen as he drags you toward him. The kiss is short, he doesnât want to push you too much. But it takes everything in him to stop himself from deepening it. All he wants is to pull you into his arms and devour you.Â
He holds back, parting from you with a low exhale. Your eyes flutter open and he grins when he sees the bright red your hair has turned. âWhat,â you sputter and stumble over your words. You shove him back and leap to your feet. âWhat the hell was that?â You demand, voice higher than heâs ever heard of it. âWhat was that?â You ask him shrilly, again.Â
You almost seem to be stuck in a loop, blinking rapidly and asking the same thing. Logan chuckles and gets to his feet, he gives you a knowing look and you narrow your eyes at him in disbelief.Â
âJean told me.â
Your brows furrow and you shake your head. Realization dawns on your face and you gasp, looking up at him with something like horror on your expression. âNo,â you tell him lowly. âShe didnât,â it almost sounds like youâre begging him to tell you otherwise.Â
He laughs again and your face falls. You start going clear, he can see the bookshelf through your stomach and he sighs. He grabs your hand, holding onto you before you can run again. You donât even seem to be aware that youâre slowly disappearing from view.Â
âSheâs, uh,â he struggles to figure out what to say to make you feel better. âSheâs been coaching me,â he admits shamefully. âTrying to help me talk to you.â
You glance up at him but he can barely see your expression. The only thing reassuring him youâre here is his grip on you and your voice. âWhat? But I thought that-â You cut yourself off quickly and Logan glares down at where he thinks your face is.Â
âThought what?â
You take a long pause and exhale deeply. âI thought,â you mutter, âyou liked her.â
âSheâs with Scott,â he points out bluntly. He can practically hear you roll your eyes, even if he canât see it.Â
âYeah, I know. But you guys are always whispering to each other and making googly eyes.â
âGoogly eyes?â He interrupts, disgust clear in his tone.Â
âI was wrong,â you continue, ignoring him. âI see that now, but I thought you didnât care about me.â
Logan huffs, he hates that you thought that. He should have just been open with you from the start. Heâs faced rejection his whole life, he shouldnât have been so petrified of it just because it could come from you. If heâd just manned up and told you earlier, it would have saved you both a lot of time and hurt.Â
âKid,â he hopes heâs making eye contact with you and not just staring at some random book. Itâs really hard to tell when you go invisible like this. âYouâre the only person I care about in here.â
Youâre quiet for a long while and he worries youâve somehow slipped away without him realizing. But, ever so slowly, you start coming back into view. Logan awkwardly averts his eyes from your breasts, heâd been hoping he was making eye contact with you, clearly, he was wrong.Â
âYou mean that?â You ask, and he hates the trepidation in your voice. Heâs never been good with words, he doesnât know how to tell you how much you mean to him. But he can show you.Â
His hand drifts up your arm, wrapping around the back of your neck and tugging you towards him. You trip over your feet, hands landing on his chest to stabilize yourself. He leans down, hovering over your lips for a moment. He waits until your eyes drift shut and your lips purse impatiently before he finally kisses you again.Â
He doesnât hold himself back this time. He pours every racing thought heâs ever had about you, every one of his wanted-to-tell-you-how-he-feels-and-hasnât moments into the kiss. Your hands slowly curl up into his shirt, wrinkling it and tugging him further into you.Â
To his surprise, you deepen the kiss, mouth moving over his like you want to devour him whole. Heâs sure if he opened his eyes your hair would be a bright roaring red. He smirks against your lips, happy that, for once, he actually listened to Jean. If it gets him results like this, he might have to do it more often.Â
end. â I do not own the characters or the comics/movies Wolverine/X-Men, but this writing is my own all rights reserved © not-neverland06 2024. do not copy, repost, translate & recommend elsewhere.
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Logan Howlett x fem!reader
a/n: inspired by the fact that Hugh Jackman thought wolverines were just a type of wolf and no one corrected him. Rusty because I havenât written smut in a while so you guys arenât allowed to talk any shit. Plus, Iâm too much of a wimp to be like extremely explicit, but these prompts ( one, two, three) together were too good to pass up.Â
SMUT 18+Â (my slight monsterfucker tendencies might shine through in this one)
Summary: Logan's told you a million times not to take the path through the woods. You never listen, of course. Now there's a monster on your tail and you're all alone. (part of my Halloween Palooza)
You never should have taken this path. You knew it was going to happen, Logan had warned you, and you still didnât listen. Now, youâre in the middle of the woods, completely turned around and on the verge of tears. God, why do you never listen?
You put your groceries down and pull out your phone. Through the thick spread of leaves, you get minimal moonlight. Youâre surrounded by shifting shadows and rustling undergrowth. Everywhere you turn is a monster waiting to leap out at you.Â
When you were little you were petrified of the dark. You hated the shapes you saw lurking within it. Youâd outgrown that as an adult, but now, you can barely breathe as your eyes dart all around. The childish fear is returned with a vengeance and you feel like youâre about to have a heart attack.Â
You flip open your phone, squatting on the ground and trying to conserve your body's warmth. The temperature must have dropped twenty degrees since you left the house. Of course, Logan had told you to bring a jacket too. Did you listen? No.Â
You were only going out to get some chips and dip, you really didnât think it would take so long. But then youâd got caught up talking to one of your friends and before you knew it, it was pitch black outside. You should have just called Logan at the store, asked him for a ride. Now, youâre staring down at the flickering screen of your flip phone and about to sob as you see the bars disappearing.Â
âNo fucking service, of course,â you hiss and shove the phone back in your pocket. The batteryâs nearly dead anyway. You doubt it would have lasted long enough for a phone call. You run a stressed hand over your face, trying to calm your breathing down.Â
Youâre trying to trick yourself into thinking that everythingâs okay. That the shadows are just shadows and youâre scared. Then you hear it.Â
Itâs a low noise, something out of your worst nightmares. Thereâs an immediate spike of adrenaline as an inhuman growl echoes through the night air. You swear you can feel it inside your chest. It rumbles through the animal, bursts through clenched fangs, and makes the hair on your neck stand on end.Â
You glance over your shoulder, mouth parted in a silent scream. You donât see anything, you canât. You just barely make out the branches shifting nearby before youâre leaping to your feet. You almost call out, see whose there, but that feels like the last move every bimbo makes in a horror movie.Â
So, you do something arguably worse. You abandon your groceries and purse and bolt. Immediately you can hear its pounding footsteps chasing after you. You do scream now, thereâs no point in swallowing it down. Itâs like the terror is ripping through you, making you stumble over every branch and rock in your path.Â
You know it's faster than you. You can hear how easily its keeping up its stride behind you. This feels like a game to it. It's just teasing you, dangling freedom in front of its prey before it closes its drooling maw around your neck.Â
You trip over an enlarged root and go flying forward. Rocks scrape across your arm and you let out a short shriek of pain. The flesh tears easily on the sharp points and the metallic scent of your blood fills the air. It comes to a sudden stop a few feet away from you. There are no thoughts in your head besides the voice screaming at you to RUN!
It tells you to keep running. If you stop it will catch you and it will kill you. This is no longer a product of your imagination. This is real and it is hungry for you. You scramble to your feet, boots slipping along the muddy forest floor. You dig your fingers into the earth, feel the dirt slide under your nails, and launch yourself forward. You nearly flip your feet over your head but you manage to keep yourself steady.Â
You canât hear the steps behind you. The beat of your heart pounds through your head, drives you forward, and discombobulates you all the same. Blood rushes so quickly beneath your skin that you can feel your vessels swelling with the warmth of your terror-fueled adrenaline.Â
Youâve never felt so inferior before, like a rabbit desperately trying to escape the hungry jaws of a wolf. Your legs are moving faster than they ever have, youâre bounding, racing, leaping through the forest. You move through it like you were born in it, anything to escape whatever was following you.Â
You no longer remember the way home or what home is. You can only focus on right now. You donât notice the dark shape running alongside you, or how easily it keeps pace. Not until itâs barreling into your side and you go slamming into the ground again. Your head nearly bounces against a rock but something slides underneath it, stopping the impact at the last second.Â
Something rough grips at your face. Youâre still blind, blood rushing so hard beneath your skin, youâre practically blind with panic. You bite down, taste flesh, and hold on until blood rushes into your mouth. The metallic tang of it is like poison against your tongue but you donât let go.Â
âRelease!â He orders you like a dog. His voice is so thick with anger and hunger that you barely recognize it. But something clicks in your head and you unlock your jaw from his palm. âThe fuck have I told you about taking this path?â Again, his voice is so thick with volatile rage that you barely register it.Â
âSorry,â you sob out, shoving at his chest and scrambling to sit up. But he keeps you pinned to the ground, one hand clamped tightly around your neck and the other pushing down against your stomach. You can feel something hard against your thigh but you pay it no mind, still struggling to catch your breath.Â
You take in deep, heaving, gasps of air and the moon shifts overhead. It gives you just enough light to see Logan clearly now. You nearly choke at the sight of his face. His lips are peeled back, sharpened points of teeth causing blood to bead along his lower lips. His beard seems scruffier than normal and thereâs a golden glow to his eyes.Â
âWhat the fuck?â You stutter out, glaring up at him. Youâve seen him angry before. But youâve never seen him quite so animalistic. âLogan?â You whisper his name hesitantly and it only makes him look more pissed off. You shrink back, though thereâs not far to go with him holding you like this.Â
His hips shift down and you bite down on your lip so a pathetic whimper doesnât escape you. His head tilts curiously, gaze raking over your heaving chest and then down to the too-short shorts youâd put on earlier.Â
He gives you a look of astonished disbelief, âYou fuckinâ kidding me?âÂ
The hand on your stomach drifts down to the waistband of your shorts. Your eyes widen when you realize what heâs trying to do. âLogan, wait-â Too late. He rips the shorts down your legs and his eyes widen. The sneer of his lips finally melts away as he sees the clear wet spot in the middle of your underwear.Â
You donât even get a chance to defend yourself before heâs gripping your hips and flipping you over. Your hands struggle for purchase on the slippery rock in front of you. You try and glance back at him, but he buries a hand in your hair, tugging harshly, and forcing your face forward.Â
âLogan, please,â you whine, thoroughly humiliated as he sits behind you, silently examining your battered form. Youâd tripped more than you thought while youâd been running from him. The adrenaline has just barely waned enough for you to feel the bruises forming. But he has no sympathy for your plight, if anything your tears seem to egg him on.Â
âWhat have I told you about taking this path?â You bite your tongue, a sudden refusal to answer raging forth. Heâs got you half-naked on your hands and knees after chasing you through the woods. You shouldnât have to be scolded like an imbecile on top of that.Â
He leans over you, the weight of his body pushing forward, your arms strain to keep you both up. You grit your teeth, still keeping your mouth clamped shut. He chuckles, the noise so low you feel it rattling through you rather than hear it. âI could hear you.â
His hand drifts down your bicep, wraps around your front, and rests over your breasts. âCould hear how fast your heart was beating. Itâs still about to come out of your chest.â You suck in a sharp breath, keeping yourself from arching into his touch.
His nose lingers against the side of your head, dipping towards your neck and inhaling deeply. Your face wrinkles in confusion as he practically smells you. âI can smell how terrified you were.â His hand suddenly jerks your head back and you canât help but yelp. Thereâs a smirk on his lips as he finally gets a noise from you.Â
You can feel the desire practically dripping down your thighs at this point. All you can think about is how powerful he is. How hungry he is for you. You want him to devour you, completely wreck you.Â
He releases you and without his support, you slump forward, neck bowing awkwardly. You try and right yourself but one of his hands grips your neck so tight you can feel the blood rushing up into your face. He pins you there and the only warning you have of what heâs about to do is the sound of his belt buckle coming undone.Â
He thrusts into you and your jaw drops. You inhale the dirt beneath you and it tastes remarkably like blood. He pushes your cheek further into the ground and you grunt as tiny little pebbles have their taste of your flesh.Â
Had you not been so wet, you doubt you would have enjoyed a second of this. But, because his chasing you down like something feral made you more aroused than you have been in months, you let out a pathetic moan beneath him. It borders on the thin line between pain and pleasure. But each rough thrust inside you blurs the line until theyâre indiscernible from one another.Â
Your fists curl up, mud sticking in the lines of your palm as he takes you like youâre nothing more than a toy. You shouldnât like this, shouldnât like how used you feel. But you relish it. Relish in how crazy you make him, to the point that heâd lose his mind and use you like this.Â
Heâs like a fucking animal. Taking what he wants from you with no concern or care to whether you like it or not. Heâs panting and grunting behind you, you donât understand the insults spewing from his mouth because thereâs blood rushing in your ears and you feel like you might pass out.Â
The adrenaline and residual terror from earlier are building into one explosive moment inside you. Your fingers tremble with it, your limbs burn from the volatile feeling and you canât help the noises being forced out of you. It doesnât take much longer for you to combust.Â
Pleasure rushes through you, makes you numb to the world around you. A dulled tickling feeling rushes through every part of you. Your arms go limp and heâs quick to wrap a hand around your waist, keeping you upright. He presses into your lower back, arching it until heâs hitting the spot inside you that causes aftershocks of painful pleasure.Â
Your core throbs as you pulse around him. Sucking him deeper until his hips come to an erratic stop and he spills inside you. You keep your forehead pressed to the cool earth beneath you. You never actually managed to catch your breath before and now it just feels like youâre five seconds away from hyperventilating.Â
A soothing hand runs up and down your spine, he curls around you and helps you to sit up. His voice is a low whisper, âYou alright?â
You close your eyes, taking in a deep breath and giving him a shaky nod. He laughs and pulls you to stand up. Your legs were limp from running earlier, now theyâre practically boneless. He keeps you propped against him and pulls your shorts back up.Â
He buttons his jeans and straightens. His eyes narrow as he glares down at you. He cups your chin, tilting your head to examine the scratches on your cheeks and tutting at you. His fingers tighten to the point of pain and he jerks your face up to meet his eyes. âYou gonna come down this path again?â
After that, yes. You completely would. He sees the look on your face and rolls his eyes. He leans down, tossing you over his shoulder and groaning. âYouâre gonna be the death of me.â
âYou like it,â you taunt, tugging at his shirt for balance.Â
He shakes his head but you know heâs smiling. âYouâre lucky I love you.â
âSame time next week?â You tease as he goes back for your groceries and purse.Â
âDonât push it,â he snaps.Â
end. â I do not own the characters or the comics/movies Wolverine/X-Men, but this writing is my own all rights reserved © not-neverland06 2024. do not copy, repost, translate & recommend elsewhere.
General Taglist: @evasmlp âĄÂ
Logan Taglist: @nonamevenus @smexy-bucky-waifu @wh1sp @peony-always @corvusmorte Â
@mrs-ephemeral @wolviesgirl @allllium @insomniachox @izbelross âĄÂ
big bad wolf - Diokophobia is the irrational and extreme fear of being chased.
starring: Logan Howlett as the monster in the woods
wicked influence - Daemonophobia is the intense fear of demons, demonic possession, and otherworldly influence
starring: Stu & Billy as our devoted men of the cloth
paranormal love - Phasmophobia is the intense fear of ghosts, haunting, and possessions.
starring: James âBuckyâ Barnes as our haunted leading man
haunted past - Mnemophobia is the fear of memories and past events
starring: Mike Schmidt as our underpaid hero