Shoutout To My Headmates! Specifically The Anonymous One Who’s Actively Convincing Me That Our Dr Pepper

glad you think you're adjusted. was convinced for a second you were too fuckin' starstruck half the time to properly man the tulpar's crew.

pleased to be your co-pilot. "friend" sounds kinda technical at this point in time. surprised you think of us that way.

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what do you mean “think” i’m adjusted? i am adjusted.

and you are my friend, jimmy. we’ve been friends for so long..what else would we be? what do you consider us? simply colleagues? that would mean i am above you, wouldn’t it? i know you don’t want anyone thinking that..

i am genuinely so over myself and how i act and what i do. it makes me sick

Maybe I should be messaging you on this blog, but I dont think you would have talked about me here.. -⛓

what makes you think that, anon?

i have to say, the air of mystery is certainly odd. i do hope your confidence will grow soon.

its hard not to when youre so amazing, and mean so much to me. like what if you find out which anya i am and realise you have no intrest in me because of it.. -⛓

you will never know, until you try.

i’m surprised you think i’m so amazing, honestly.

please, don’t bother reading. it’s just another tw’d vent post. what’s the point.

god, i’m useless.

what kind of captain thinks like this? what kind of captain puts himself first? i’m pathetic.

i just want to be good for someone. i just want to be someone’s first choice, their favorite.

i don’t want to be a leftover. i don’t want to be left behind.

i don’t want to be alone again.

i can’t be alone again.

my thighs hurt so much. my head and fingers and toes are throbbing, probably from blood loss. i can’t keep doing this to myself.

i can’t keep running from my problems.

Doesn't matter how much effort I put in, right? It's hard to love me.

i’m so deeply curious about this anon…

small world, huh, captain? 'm sure you could connect the dots. use that pretty head of yers.

...looks like you've picked up after yourself these days. wonder if you're still as easy as you used to be.

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easy? what ever do you mean? “picked up after myself”? connect the dots?

oh, now i’m more curious then ever.

I need to put my hands around your neck and squeeze until you whine. You know who this is, Curly.

let’s be completely honest with ourselves, now. it wouldn’t take that much pressure.

don't fucking say i'm the one imagining things when you're more over your head than i am. now; think you can be a good boy and tell what's going on in that head?

– ✘

good lord, you’ve sure got a mouth on you, jim.

i don’t feel like publically exposing myself, telling the world exactly what’s wrong. you’re welcome to dm me, but that’s about as far as i’ll go.

regardless, you’re being silly, jim. i’m perfectly fine!

not as sweet as you. ^^

did you know someone once told me if they werent the one to hurt me you would do it. im ashamed of the fact i blushed, i just hope i hid it from that person well enough. -⛓

oh, that’s quite interesting.

are you saying you want me to hurt you, anon?

and here i thought you were more of the innocent, quiet type.