I Just Make Everything Worse

i love them so much

i wish they were here

this is so sad

raaaagghhh i miss them sm

but they won't // 12.16.2023

don’t forget to be very very silly today. it’s essential

sorry, I didn’t mean to wake up again today

If you've ever told a person who's had to be bedbound for a period of time that you wish you could "just stay in bed", DO IT.

Stay in bed. For days. But don't get up if someone needs you to, or you get bored, or you get antsy. Don't do anything other than rest. Just lie in your bed, whether you need to get stuff done around the house or socialize or anything else "productive". You'll have to cancel on people, you'll disappoint them, they won't understand.

And if you're thinking, "well, i CAN'T just be in bed. There's stuff that has to be done - I have plans", maybe ask yourself why you assumed a disabled person doesn't have plans or things to do or desires.

desperately need to read or watch something that will alter my brain chemistry and turn me into a new person

Whatever *sticks my dick in the gap between who you are and who you portray yourself as*

In bed. Straight up losing it. And by "it," well. Haha. Let's just say. My memories

fascinating how grief makes you miss people who suck