Latest Posts by alizahawthorne - Page 6
december 30, 2024
why am i judged for wanting a husband? i don’t want to settle and have ten children, i just want someone who loves every bump, curve, and blemish of me.
december 29, 2024
today i watched a video from my ring camera of you smashing my potted plants. the ones you gave me.
december 28, 2024
i would much rather stay inside to do my skincare than go out and party all night. why does that make me a villain?
december 27, 2024
is my smudged mascara, black mini skirt, bruised knees, red eyes, hungover state aesthetic enough for you?
december 26, 2024
screaming must be your love language. because you love me but you scream at me every time i blink.
december 25, 2024
for christmas i got a mind full of rage and a body labeled as a sex object. i guess i was worse this year than i thought.
december 24, 2024
do you think he’ll fall for frank sinatra at full volume and being wine drunk by 10am?
december 23, 2024
i will continue screaming at the sky until it can match the rage coursing through my veins.
december 22, 2024
as the dust settles, all i see is a mutilated version of who i used to be.
december 21, 2024
i yell at my mother with her same ruthlessness and out-argue my father with his same logic.
december 20, 2024
i’ll run away from you my whole life if i have to.
december 19, 2024
i’m suffering. sinking into the furthest depths of misery. and yet it feels holy.
december 18, 2024
how tragic it is, that my own brain poisons itself.
december 17, 2024
i wish you were laconic. you aren’t. you just don’t care.
december 16, 2024
my grief chases me. like a hunter and his very favorite prey. brutal, persistent, ruthless.
december 15, 2024
my heart mourns you for weeks. my brain takes care of my body while my hearts barely beats on.
december 16, 2024
i taste you, on my tongue. i taste us, on my tongue. i taste tragedy, on my tongue.
december 15, 2024
my brothers are the only people on the planet i would dare to call mine.
december 14, 2024
i love my brothers. it doesn’t matter that we come from different parents. they would give up anything to be there for me.
december 13, 2024
just a reminder: the mistress, the husband, and the wife all believed they had found their true love.
december 12, 2024
heaven is over now. the party got shut down. the amphitheater is empty. the bars deserted. usually so full of life but now; deathly silent. but they’re waiting.
december 11, 2024
even though we are not in love anymore, your mere presence puts me at ease. your body being in my vicinity calms my restless mind.
december 10, 2024
the clouds are as angry as i am.
december 9, 2024
i’m so afraid of becoming everything i’m running from.
december 8, 2024
sorrow is on my tongue. i wonder if you can taste it.
december 7, 2024
he loves me, he loves me not. he loves me, he loves me not. he loves me, he loves me not. he loves me, he loves me not. he loves me, he loves me not. he loves me, he loves me not. he loves me, he loves me not. he loves me, he loves me not. he loves me, he loves me not. he loves me, he loves me not. he loves me, he loves me not.
december 6, 2024
believe it or not, i am still very much in love with you.
december 5, 2024
from the moment i met you, i knew that you would change my life. to explain the love and the pain and the grief we’ve gone through would take years.
december 4, 2024
this summer’s haze feels like lifetimes ago. i was happy and tanned, eating raspberries by the river with my friends. i want her back.
december 2, 2024
hate seeps into my bones quicker than the chill in the air.