I’m Going To Be 19 Tomorrow… Damn… Where Did All The Years Go? It Still Feels Like I Should Still

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So, you all know about that “my friend Lisa” story? If not… then, stop what you’re doing and go look it up online or on YouTube! Anyways… other than Lisa, the three characters are mine. This is a drawing from a little girl named Lelu. Her real name is Lisa Lucy Hailey, but her sister Autumn called her Lelu and now she doesn’t want to be called anything but. Autumn is 19 and takes care of her sister all by herself, because of her parents will, and she’s not scared of her little sister like many other people are. Lelu is a medium, meaning she can see ghosts and talk to dead people. But Lelu is only 4 and hasn’t been introduced to life and death yet. Lisa and She (yes her name is She) don’t want Lelu to be anything other than her happy cheerful self, so they tell her that the people they had killed, are just sleeping and to leave them alone because it’s rude to disturb people while they sleep. Autumn knows that Lisa killed her father, but she’s fine with that because her father was abusive and cruel to her, her sister, and her mother. And yes… you heard me correctly, that shadow lady with 4 arms is named She. She was Lelu’s monster in her closet or under her bed. She mostly just sat there and watched Lelu while Lelu would just babble away with her at night. She didn’t talk much, but when Lisa went away for a while, She got stuck with babysitting Lelu. Lelu gave her some chocolate pudding and she started to get attached to her.

I love these four so much! Especially Lelu, she’s that little cinnamon roll as my classmates call her. So please send those ask in and Lelu and the others will answer!

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Hello, I am Bashaer from Gaza my husband was martyred in the brutal war. When I was pregnant , after few months I was born my daughter in the war. She is 3 months old now, She become an orphan.

Help me and my baby girl get out of death save my life and my child's life please

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I tag @drtesla2426 @diabolicalvixen @diabolik-boys

I wish there were headphones instead of air pods, because I have tiny ear holes and they won’t fit into my ears. But I can’t go a single day without listening to music.

What’s in my bag?

Khaarl

+ stim toys, pins to the bag itself, Swiss Army knife, spoon, bubble gum, can of energy drink and a bunch more keychains on the keys

🏷: @iricathel @yuriko-tsukino-rp @bobateasilverpearl @besnella @ruki–mukami @elizabeth-virnien and anyone else

I love the irony that the demon is the levelheaded, calm, collected, and responsible one; meanwhile the Angel is the one that would prefer to fight, blow shit up, and kill first then ask questions later.

I looked up biblically accurate angels & demons to get inspiration for their designs, maybe they’ll change later but for now I’m satisfied with them.

(Also, for those of you wondering; what the hell is an Arch-Demon? An Arch-Demon is similar to Arch-Angels, they patrol hell and keep the sinners in line. Basically like Hell’s police. They started forming after the treaty between heaven & hell in 1682. Demons & Angels only started mingling with each other socially (dating, friendships, business, etc) in 1985.)

I almost fell off of the rails way up high in Huggy’s factory. Cat Bee couldn’t catch me, but something big, fluffy and pink caught me! It must’ve been the pink Huggy Wuggy Penny’s auntie was talking about! She said her name was Kissy Missy! She’s Huggy’s sissy! Huggy was happy to see his sissy again, but I couldn’t help but be a bit scared when I first saw her. When she smiles big… she had like, two rows of sharp, pointy, teeth! Kissy was sorry she accidentally scarred me, but then Huggy showed me he had a bunch of teeth too. Lisa and She have sharp teeth, I don’t know what I was scared of… Huggy and Kissy are funny! Kissy annoys Huggy a lot, and Huggy chases her around the factory! It almost reminds me of the Tom and Jerry shows I see on the TV! Cat Bee says it’s how things normally were before they got separated. He, and the others would watch the Huggy and Kissy run around, and if Huggy caught Kissy, Poppy would chase Huggy around with a hammer before he could do anything! It sounds super funny! Almost like Nugget and Buggs from school. Kissy asked Huggy what was wrong with his voice box. He made some kind of shape with his hands… it almost seemed like a… flower? I asked Huggy what he was doing with his hands, I told him I didn’t understand what he meant by flower. Kissy and Huggy told me, I don’t need to worry about it.

When I got home, I told Lisa and She that I was kind of hurt that my friends wouldn’t tell me anything. The girls looked at each other, and then told me that they would look into it, that I don’t need to worry anymore, and they would take care of it…

The last time they said that, was when Daddy hit me… I wonder what’s going to happen now…

I had a really, REALLY weird dream about The Amazing Digital Circus last night!! ( @gooseworx you wanna weigh in on this?)

I have had a lot of wierd dreams but I’m usually in all of them as the main protagonist in first person view, but this is the first time that it felt like I was watching an actual episode of a series.

The cast was on some adventure and the main npc villain was actually someone who used to be at the circus, but abstracted and is now used as an antagonist npc (I think her name was Victoria? She’s themed as some giant aquatic monster with a bunch of starfish and kelp on her, think of like the Big Daddies from Bioshock, but with more sea life on her, and you could see her scarred up face).

Pomni gets paired with Jax throughout the episode and Jax FINALLY gets some character development instead of just being some kids cartoon bully with no background or character other than just annoying & torturing people. The entire cast is supposed to defeat Victoria but Pomni being the hero that she is, tries reaching out and helping her, despite Jax constantly trying to mess this up. Jax Finally gets the character development I was talking about and is still a jerk but is now more like Buford levels of jerk (still mean, but you can tell he cares and he’s a bully friend that you would invite over for a game of baseball) instead of being like Denzel Crocker (Fairly Odd Parents) or Brad (Kick Buttowski) levels of bully.

One thing I forgot to mention is that in the adventures, Caine gave the characters the ability to fuse together to become more powerful and fight through. At first, Jax simply just uses Pomni to get stronger and the fusion they start out with is like; INCREDIBLY toxic! Think of it like from Steven Universe, with Lapis and Jasper becoming Malachite and showcasing a toxic and abusive relationship. (As Garnet said; “They’re a bad match for each other”) But as time goes on, Jax starts to see how fast Pomni’s already non existent mental health is deteriorating faster and faster, even when he stops fusing (mostly because he’s annoyed with how Pomni is slowing them down and making the fusion weak with her problems) her problems starts showing on Jax. After the both of them almost abstract because of Jax trying to do something he sees as “fun”, (trapping the rest of the cast in a cave to make them panic) Jax and Pomni have a heart to heart and realize how they need to work together to complete this adventure and get back to the circus. Once Jax finally realizes that, he lets go of the controls a little bit so that Pomni can also take charge. By the end of it, they’ve bonded and their fusion relationship is more like Stevonie with the fusion even changing to show both of them equal amount.

For some reason, Caine absolutely HATES the idea of Victoria coming back to the circus, something about “it’s not up to him” and “against the rules and company policy” several times the cast has to stop him and beg for him to not turn her into confetti like he did with Gummigoo. Caine ends up putting the cast into a new adventure and sets them up with an impossible task. They all have to agree on something or team up together to let Victoria stay.

The cast is transported to some falling apart school that is floating in the middle of space with some dim sun in the center, yet it’s freezing cold. The way I can describe the school is like Elmore Junior high (from amazing world of gumball) I think I even saw some of the gumball characters here and there? But the students and teachers were more like demonic zombies…

The cast is split up and only Pomni and Kinger are the only ones who believe that Victoria should get a second chance at the circus, after all, she was human just like them. Even Ragatha doesn’t want to know what might happen when they bring Victoria back (as she’s been playing the villain for so long she doesn’t know how be a supporting role) not to mention for as long as any of them have been there, they’ve never seen Caine act so hateful towards any of the npcs or avatars. But when Jax is struck with an ultimatum, and chooses to save Pomni and the cast over himself, the rest of the cast says Victoria’s name and they are all transported back to the circus with Victoria.

Victoria’s look has changed almost entirely. I’ll do my best to describe it… she had blue skin now, blonde hair in a high bun, but she looked very abstracted (not tadc abstract! Like an abstract painting) very blocky, and chunky, and she only had one eye now and it was on her right side of her face, which still looked scarred, but no where near as bad as before.

The dream ended with the cast showing her around, and telling her to take it easy as she’s the first person to not only come back from being abstracted, but also the first so-called “npc” to come back to the circus. Caine was floating near by still glaring at Victoria like she was a piece of filth that shouldn’t be there, while bubble is annoying him. Before I wake up Pomni and Jax are wondering if all abstracted humans became npcs or if this was just something new that Caine tried like with Gummigoo ai and making something actually scary for zooble like before.

That’s when I woke up. I’ll tell you that had to be the weirdest dream I’ve had in a long while. @gooseworx you wanna say anything about this???

⚠️ *Tw: Mentions of implied suicide* ⚠️

I know you guys are waiting on my next Diabolik lovers comic, but I’m suffering from art & writers block. So I started playing some Hogwarts legacy. And for those of you wondering; I myself am a ravenclaw, always have been. And I saw everyone else drawing their ocs and filling in their hogwarts id so I thought that I would get in on it. I hope you guys like them and maybe after I’m done with Kanna’s origins if anyone would care enough to see more artwork about my hogwarts ocs?

Bonus: 👇

The depression project on instagram

These three would be good friends I think

It’s interesting, Lelu has the opposite effect where everyone acts like her new best friend and aggressive things act docile and friendly. Where Abby makes normal people around her homicidal, but dangerous things are friendly to her as well.

And with how many people die at the SCP foundation in just a week; Lelu would be able to see dozens of ghost!

What do you think would happen if Lelu met these two?

Pokémon Ghost Story

Nessa sat her glass of champagne down, and glanced over to the new champion. It looked like Gloria was trying to keep a fight between Bede and Hop from breaking out… again. Nessa found herself smiling, wondering if those two will ever be on good terms with each other, probably never. Although… despite the fact that Bede and Hop don’t get along, they both tend to come to a truce when it comes to Gloria. Hop’s reason was just for typical childhood best friend protection, but Bede’s… well, it was almost like watching a hallmark movie in person.

Opal was sitting at the same table as Bede, watching with the same amused look. He is doing far better though, Nessa thought, ever since Opal took him under her wing, and after that man was put away, he seems so much happier now. Nessa personally didn’t know Bede too well… but even during their short encounter during the gym challenge, she could tell there was some kind of inner demons he was dealing with. It was bugging her for quite some time, and now she’s just grateful that Bede has finally found someone he could consider family.

Bede flinched and looked away as a blush flushed across his face when Gloria cutely hugged him. Nessa’s grin grew wider at the sight. She totally ships them.

“Hey Nessie!~” Of course… she barely had any room to talk when it came to romance. Raihan snuck yet another selfie with his girlfriend. “Raihan! No more pictures tonight, please!” She complained, although a part of her was smiling in amusement. This was what? The eighth? The eleventh picture now? Nessa loved modeling and all, but now it was starting to get annoying, especially since it was all just going to end up on Raihan’s blog anyways.

“What? I can’t take pictures to show the people of Galar what a beauty my girlfriend is?” Raihan said with a grin.

“Not when you’ve been doing it for the entire night,” Nessa did her best not to stare, but Arceus damn! It wasn’t often she got to see Raihan in something other than his regular hoodie and gym clothes. Raihan should honestly consider wearing a suit more often. Raihan looked over to the trio Nessa was eyeing earlier; Bede, Hop, and Glory had all sat down with Ms. Opal and it seemed like the tension was resolved between Hop and Bede… for now, anyways.

“Me and Gordie got $50 on those two getting together by the end of the season,” Raihan stated smirking.

Nessa tore her eyes away from them and looked back to him, a little taken aback, but not surprised. “You guys bet on this?”

“Yeah why? Is that wrong?” He asked cheekily, chuckling as she rolled her eyes at him, “Hey, him and Pierce did the same thing with us and now look!” That she couldn’t deny, even if they’ve only been dating for several months now.

“You act like we’ve been together for a few years, when it’s only been a couple of months,” Nessa sighed.

She should’ve guessed what was going to come out of his mouth next after seeing that shit-eating grin of his. “Hey it seems a couple of months is enough for our little ‘after parties’ if last night was anything to go by.”

Nessa nearly spat out her drink as fluster and embarrassment quickly made its presence be known on her face. “RAIHAN!” She hissed. She swatted at his arm as he laughed almost loud enough to catch people’s attention at the charity gala.

Why did she decide to date the one person who drove her crazy half of the time again? “I really hate you sometimes,” she grumbled.

“Nah! That’s not true! You love me, and you know it,” Raihan said.

“Shut up, Raihan!”

“Make me why don’t ya?”

Nessa responded by a short, soft kiss on the lips. Despite that cocky attitude Raihan liked to display, a kiss or two seemed to be enough to shut him up… for now.

Before Raihan could take yet another photo of them, (this time Nessa was willing) a slow dance song was played. “Hey, wanna have one last dance before this party ends?” Raihan asked holding out his hand. Nessa finished her glass off and took his offer. They were joined on the dancefloor by a couple of other pairs, two of them being; Victor and Marnie, and Sonia and the former champion himself, Leon. Nessa rested her head on Raihan’s chest, letting herself fall into the rhythm and movement of the dance. This night was perfect, everyone here together after months of nonstop work as gym leaders or research, what could happen?

***

And as the party ended… wouldn’t you know it? All of the Sky Taxies were full! Raihan wanted Nessa to take his place on the Taxi, but Nessa had brought her rental car for them to arrive in anyways, so she sent Raihan off, promising to drive safely. Safer than Raihan anyways, he drank far too much tonight to be driving in her stead.

As Nessa got situated in the driver’s seat, she finally noticed Alister sitting right outside her window. “AH! Oh! Hoo!” Nessa jumped. How does he do that every single TIME?! “Um… Hi- Hi Nessa,” Alister stuttered as Nessa rolled down her window.

“Hey, Alister, you scared me there… again,” Nessa laughed weakly, still coming down from her shock.

“S-s-sorry, but- but I had to tell you something,” Alister said.

“What’s up?”

Alister played with his hands for a bit, stuttering and trying to let the words come out. Nessa, like the rest of the gym leaders, knew Alister struggled socially, so she was patient with him. “I- um- I- I’ve been- I’ve been feeling something strange… near a certain area of Wyndon… and it-it’s probably nothing… but uh… I wasn’t going to bring it up to anyone because they were all taking the sky taxies… but uhm- be careful? Please?” Alister asked.

Nessa found it a bit odd… what certain spot was Alister talking about? Where was this specific spot? What was it that made him feel uneasy? One by one, questions were floating through her head. “Okay, thank you Alister, you be careful going home too alright?” She said reassuringly. Alister nodded and waved goodnight.

***

The drive to the hotel Nessa and Raihan booked was a long one. It was currently 1:17 am, Nessa was tired and felt her eyelids were getting heavy with each passing second. Maybe this was a bad idea, maybe she should’ve just waited for one of the Taxi’s to come back. But she was already more than half ways there, not much further.

As Nessa drove in the dark, she felt uneasy as she drove underneath one of the many bridges of Wyndon. Nessa shivered as all of the sudden it was freezing cold. She looked at her thermostat, it was 41 C, Weird… it was just 77 a moment ago… Nessa didn’t think anything of it, and simply turned it back to what it was before.

The drive was more unsettling as Nessa discovered there were fewer and fewer cars on the road with her, and before the water type gym leader could realize it… she was the only one at the next stoplight. Nessa didn’t know if it was her paranoia or if this was the certain road Alister told her not to go down, but the chills never stopped, and now she could feel as if someone was following her, but when Nessa looked in her rear view mirrors, she was the only one on the roads as of right now. Nessa left one hand on the steering wheel, and placed the other on her purse. If anything did go wrong… at least she’d have Drednaw and the others to back her up.

As Nessa felt she was being a bit exaggerative, she focused herself, knowing she would hear from Raihan later if he caught wind that she was scarred. Nessa looked at her GPS, only two blocks away from the hotel. Nessa smiled in relief as this would all be over soon. Nessa felt herself beginning to relax as she drove by the lake, she once did a shoot for, she remembered the Pokémon there well, the sweet little Poliwag, the kind Lapris, and the cute little Marill that basically stuck to her leg for the whole shoot. Nessa smiled, that was also the lake where she used to go with her father as a child.

Nessa pulled herself out of her thoughts, before she got distracted by memory lane. She was almost there, just a little bit more. As Nessa drove under yet another bridge, she saw something that made her slow down… there was a child… alone… on the side of the road… and at freaking 1:55 in the morning! Nessa slowed down, staring, until she came to a complete stop… this didn’t seem right. The child was alone, no adult in sight, wearing a sky blue dress that reached down to her knees, and it was 44 degrees outside!

Nessa wondered if she should call someone first, but out of fear of the little girl running off, she rolled down her window. “Hey, honey?! Kid!” She called out, with no response, “Sweetie! Kid!” Nessa tried again, louder this time, there was again… no response. This time, Nessa blew the horn… nothing… not even a flinch, the girl’s back was still turned away from her. Nessa was a little creeped out, no response or even a reaction. As creeped out as she was… this little girl could need help. Nessa unbuckled her seatbelt and got out of the car; she was just going to go to the little girl herself. As Nessa closed her door, she looked to where the little girl was… or rather… would’ve been. The little girl was gone.

What in Garentina’s dimension? Nessa found herself worrying now… where did she go? Or was it just her mind playing tricks on her? It was almost 2 in the morning, and she was exhausted. After spending 12 minutes or so calling out for the little girl, there was no one in sight. Nessa chalked it up to her own imagination, blamed her tiredness, and went back to her car, although she still couldn’t shake the worry she felt for the child.

Nessa was only one block away from the hotel, and thought the rest of the way would go without incident. But then came the frost that grew on her windshield way too suddenly, as the streetlamps flickered. It was freezing! Nessa could now see her own breathe in her car! The frost grew and covered the windows and her mirrors. Nessa stopped breathing as she heard a raggedy breath, and looked over to the passenger seat.

There she was… there was the little girl… only now that Nessa could see her face… she wish she didn’t. The girl’s skin was paler than Alister’s, her eyes were empty sockets, and her black wavy hair was all in her face. She wore a sky blue dress with some summer boots, and held a well-loved Buneary plushy in her lap. She just stared at Nessa with those blank eyes of hers.

Nessa saw her in her passenger seat, she screamed as she swerved across the road, hitting the breaks as hard as she could while steering away from crashing. Nessa knew you were supposed to just go with the car, and take your feet off the brakes until your tires touched the roads again, but she did it entirely on instinct! Nessa screamed full voice as she screwed her eyes closed, hoping that her incident in this car would be painless as long as it was over already!

Nessa felt her car stop abruptly as she was finally on the road again instead of ice… her eyes cautiously opened to the size of saucers, taking in shallow breathes as she greedily sucked in air. Nessa cautiously, slowly, and shakingly took her hands off of the steering wheel, still coming down from the shock of her near death experience. When Nessa finally came down from her shock, she patted her entire body, making sure she was still here and alive. She gasped as she remembered her Pokémon, only to breathe a sigh of relief when she saw they were still in their poke balls undamaged in her purse safe and sound.

Nessa didn’t see any frost covering her windows, no streetlights flickering, and when she looked over to the passenger’s seat… there was no girl or her Buneary plushy anywhere to be seen. What in the name of Kyogre just happened?! Nessa knew she should’ve gotten out of the car, maybe she should just walk the rest of the way to the hotel? She should’ve just drove past the little girl… or was that little girl even there to begin with?

Nessa touched the sides of her temples, starting to contemplate if this was all just in her head… maybe she just drank too much, even though she only had two glasses of champagne and wine tonight, but still… maybe this was all just a hallucination… even if she knew that couldn’t be it, because she felt her tires slip off of the road and onto the ice, but this was the only reasonable explanation she could come up with. Nessa thought about what she should do or should’ve done… but in the end her body acted for her and she resumed her driving the rest of the way to the hotel.

***

It’s been a week and a half since the almost crash scene. Sometimes Nessa wonders what would’ve happened if she had crashed, what would be in the papers? “Famous model and water type gym leader died in fiery car crash” or “Water type gym leader Nessa hospitalized from crash.” Or worse; what would’ve happened to her Pokémon? Nessa shuddered at the thought of anything terrible happening to her beloved Pokémon.

Nessa had decided not to tell Raihan or the other gym leaders about her almost near death experience, just chalking it all up to hallucinations from the alcohol and wine. Nessa had contemplated whether she should tell Alister about the little girl or what she assumed was the spot in Wyndon that made him feel so uneasy. But ultimately decided against it. Nessa wasn’t sure why she didn’t tell her boyfriend or the rest of her fellow gym leaders, maybe out of fear of being told what she’s been telling herself for the past week. But the more time that pasts, the more she is convinced that maybe it wasn’t a hallucination.

Nessa was pulled back to the present when Raihan tapped her leg. “Helloooo?~ Galar to Nessa! You alright?” Raihan asked. Nessa looked at the two other people she was in the flying taxi with; Bea and Milo. “Oh… um… yeah… sorry I guess I just… spaced out for a bit there,” she said. Raihan looked at his girlfriend with a concerned look. “Yeah, ya know, you’ve been doing that a lot lately…” he stated, obviously wanting to know what was up.

“I have not!” Nessa said stubbornly.

“Actually, Raihan has a point,” Bea joined in, “ever since the Gala, you’ve been acting… weird… almost as if you’re not fully here…”

Nessa looked to Milo, who nodded in agreement with Bea’s statement while wearing a concerned look as well. She cringed and mentally scolded at herself for making it that obvious. There was silence for a beat of wings or two, before finally Raihan placed his hand on top of Nessa’s. “Babe,” he said, “something had to have happened on your way back to the hotel that night, you haven’t been yourself since then, and honestly; everyone inside this league can see it… we just want to know what’s going on.” Nessa looked away for a moment, slightly reminded of why she fell for Raihan in the first place. Raihan rubbed his thumb on the back of her hand slightly, waiting for her response. Just as Nessa opened her mouth to speak, the taxi landed with a thud!

“All ashore let’s go ashore!” The taxi man called down laughing. They had arrived at the Wyndon stadium. Nessa looked out her window, one by one, other flying taxi’s that contained the other gym leaders from across Galar had shown up for the start of this year’s season. Nessa looked back to Raihan, who is still looking at her with those pleading eyes of his. Nessa felt a twinge of guilt inside her for making Raihan, one of the most carefree people she knows, worry like this. “Meet me in the lockers after the matches and I’ll tell you,” Nessa said, jumping out of the taxi quickly. Nessa quickly speeding past Bede helping Opal out of the taxi with Gloria and the former steel type gym leader, Peony, inside.

As Nessa was about to go into the stadium, something caught her eye on the bulletin board outside. This board normally contained battle information and battle schedules, but today there was something different. It seemed to be a missing person poster, with contact information and everything. Nessa stepped closer to see who was missing and… felt her heart drop and heard her heart pounding in her ears.

It was the little girl… from the night at the Gala. Only this time she had eyes… beautiful heterochromia eyes, with her right being a pale purple and her other being ice blue. In the photo, the child was cuddling the Buneary plushy that she held in her lap that night, she wore a lavender top with a Milotic on it and blue shorts, with a premier ball clip in her hair to keep the bangs out of her eyes. At the top of the poster read in bright red bold letters:

MISSING!

Gretchen Moya

It’s kind of funny, the sun was out, and if you let it’s warm rays wrap around you… you will feel so warm and fuzzy, but even with the sun out… Nessa felt just as cold as she did that night in the car. She took two little steps backwards, away from the photo… this… this just confirmed… what she saw that night… was no hallucination. Nessa felt the color drain from her face as her breath picked up speed. She didn’t notice some of the gym leaders had stopped to look at her. “Nessa? NESSA!” BONK!

“OW!” Nessa was pulled back to reality once more when Opal had whacked her with her umbrella.

“Ms. Opal!” Bede protested, “terribly sorry Nessa, you can’t take her anywhere.”

“Maybe I should’ve whacked you with this!” Opal threatened holding up her umbrella once more.

“Never mind those two, but Ness… honey? Are you alright?” Melony stepped forward with a concerned look plastered on her face.

“Yeah, you look like you just saw a ghost,” Gordie joined his mother.

Nessa didn’t speak… couldn’t speak… but she should’ve… it would’ve been better than what she did next. Nessa simply turned away from her fellow gym leaders, from her friends, and walked into the stadium to get ready for the day’s matches, leaving the others outside confused and concerned.

Part 2???

I will go down with the ships that are in this! (For real, HOW is Nessa x raihan so underrated???)