Wednesday 25/10

For breakfast I decided to have a blueberry smoothie, this is like half of it but it's pretty good, 195 kcal all up

Blueberries- 1 cup- 84 kcal

Greek yoghurt- 1/4 cup- 63 kcal

Milk- 1/3 cup- 48 kcal

I used whole milk because I don't have any almond, I feel like almond would've been much nicer and if I were to do this again I'd just stick with adding water

This is what I ate today! Istg my family actually eats so unhealthy I wish I had an almond mum😭 all up though this was 752 calories so not that bad really

In my smoothie I had half a banana, 1/3 cup of milk, 1/4 cup of Greek yogurt, plus cinnamon and water. It was 227 kcal

For tea I had a cup of chips (just a guess), two ham steaks and an egg which was 525 kcal, kind of a lot for one meal but I'm just grateful it wasn't more I won't lie

I finally went and got groceries so I made a little after school meal! Only 114 kcal

3 rice cakes- 104 kcal

Tuna- 3 tbsp- 7 kcal

3 slices cucumber- 3 kcal

All up today I consumed 1190 kcal and I feel so gross😭 I can't wait for school tomorrow so it takes my mind off of being hungry, I just had that dinner and I actually feel disgusting

For breakfast I had:

poached eggs on toast (352 kcal) and a banana and cinnamon smoothie (163 kcal)

For a snack:

Fried tofu (106 kcal)

For lunch:

4 rice cakes with canned tuna (148 kcal)

For dinner:

Chips, coleslaw and half a bit of chicken schnitzel that my mum got me (421 kcal)

All up this was 956.5 calories and like 850 of them was the pizza😭 I ended up having in order to like, make my mum less suspicious but I actually feel so gross, probably gonna fast until dinner tomorrow. I'm so happy I didn't eat anything before dinner because I was dangerously close to my limit

Saturday 28/10

Today I had 729 calories, I really wanna cut down though because I haven't really lost any weight in the past week😭

For breakfast/lunch dad made me some sausages and eggs and I felt bad so I didn't wanna turn it down😭 it was 353 calories

I had a little meal around 5 because I get hungry around then, it was around 25 calories

For dinner I had what I had yesterday which is some glazed salmon with some leftover creamy potatoes which was 350 calories

Just had a quest bar and I'm sorry but they taste so bad😭 I think if I really got a craving for something sweet I'd rather just have a chocolate bar and go for a run or something. They only had the cookies and cream one so maybe that's just a bad flavour?

I thought I was the smallest out of all my friends so i was only gonna restrict calories for another week but it turns out one of thems taller than me but still only 46 kilos I'm going fucking crazy why can't that be me

Does anyone else feel better about their body since relapsing?? Like I used to sit at the mirror and nitpick everything wrong with my appearance but now I'm just like 'damn, I look good. Once I lose a few kilos I'll look great'