Sometimes I Want To Kill Myself Just To Avoid The Irksome Task Of Trying To Fall Asleep

unfortunately my desire to see them happy greatly contradicts my desire to be the one and only reason they're happy

there's nothing more petrifying than the realization that the main reason i'm like this is because of myself

more products of my chronic boredom.

edit: since so many of you are completely misconstruing the purpose of this meme, the reason why HPD isn’t mentioned on this post is because this is specifically talking about the personality disorders that i have and the demonisation i’ve experienced.

i'm so so so so so tired of this. it's been way too long. i can wait longer but god does this hurt

i miss when my problems could be solved through a simple encouraging conversation

△ basic intro post ▽

(i'm too boring to make this cool)

my name is arashel

i go by she/her

birthday: may 4th

taurus sun, gemini moon, and sagittarius rising

ISTJ

true neutral

hobbies: reading, singing, (occasionally) journaling

interests: bsd, ohshc, madoka magica, fruits basket, aot, horror, gore, salad fingers, arcane, tsitp, derry girls, reply 1988, the 8 show, genshin, hsr, pjsk, hamilton, epic: the musical, greek myths. (things in bold hold greater importance)

random likes: cards, dice, triangles, the wind, mild pain, water, milk, bread, blood, sharp objects, rocks, spiders

basic dni criteria, i block freely

dms/asks are open, i'm down for random conversations/friendship

if, for whatever reason, you want to see my reblogs, go to @megafirereblogs

me when the loml doesn't treat me like shit for no reason

(i still want them to)

Can I wake up to anon asks plsssss!!! Thank u!!!

just remembered that in 3rd grade my classmates and i would roleplay as a family and i ALWAYS had to play the father and the role consisted solely of giving money to my spoilt kids and mourning the loss of the wife that left me 😭

turns out people actually get hurt when i distance myself from them. this is news to me