What Can I Do With This Want.

a delusion does not mean a person should ever be dismissed, brushed off or disregarded.

delusions are beliefs that are extremely hard to shake regardless of how self aware we are.

a delusional person is not quirky, not rambling nothingness for the sake of attention, they are serious.

from believing youre dead or dying (cotard's) to believing your halucinations were real, these things are terifying for us. theyre real for us.

just because you know its not true doesnt mean we're making it up. we deserve to be heard, listened to and helped just like you and your issues.

delusional is not and should never be nor should it ever have been an insult. its a serious issue. take it seriously.

I don’t know if I’m in love or if I’m mentally sick. All I know is the gaping hole and aching I feel in my chest fucking hurts.

i don’t know who i am anymore, there’s too many versions of “me”

I thought I felt this way because I miss you but I probably just have a disorder. Maybe it’s both.

i literally have to lay down after every minor task. going to the supermarket is a herculean effort. how am i supposed to live a life like this

I cannot accept that one person can act so differently. I cannot love and hate a person at the same time and still see them as one person. You are two people. And I only love the one of you that has died. 

oh I’ve stopped. I’ve realised how nasty you are. Selfish, rude, self absorbed lowkey kinda ugly, undisciplined loser. Enjoy your life. So glad I’m free from you.

At this point being in love with you has become a part of my personality. So what’ll happen if I stop?

my mind flickers to the thought of him and her just conversing….him not thinking about me at all. I just. I don’t want to be thinking like this.

i hate myself