Need To Keep Myself In Check Cause I Feel So Close To Asking My Mom If She Could Live On If I Died.

The fact that I acc have to resist the thought about skipping school just go and buy food is wild, cause the school in question is a short, nice and actually useful.

Gotta hate it when the hunger gets so suffocating you just start to dryly sob.

I hate how i have no brainpower in the evenings, the worst thing is that I have no self discipline aswell. I'm just a disgusting pile of useless and self sabotaging flesh.

Just ate a box of cold chicken nuggets. 621 kcals and 48 grams of protein. I'm an unstable mf Binger, but atleast im hitting that protein goal.

Gotta love it when the shift you kinda didn't wanna do turns out to go along well, even being enjoyable.

I was set on trying to get into university for one specific degree and obvs have back up options aswell. But that one degree was my certain number 1 option. I seemed to have atleast something certain. And today I just realized it's not for me and I'm very unsure if I'll be able to do it. But it's not like I have anything else, I can't even think of a second option for an option I'm already so doubtful of.

If he ain't like this I don't want him /hj

Treat me like your toy, I’m made solely for your pleasure, be so very selfish with me, be greedy, be greedy, be so very greedy.

Because of my constant eating during binges and times where i simply was overeating my tooth enamel is completely damaged. And that can nor will never be restored.

My dentist straight up told me I have damaged it already so from now on if I don't stick with very strict, regular meals my teeth will be easily and quickly rittled with holes. But if I haven't been able to do that so far, no matter what. So now I'll just have teeth full of holes, feel constant pain and spend god knows how much trying to keep fixing em to escape atleast some of the pain. Just rip all my teeth out so I could not ruin them further and not chew at all.

I'm just feel sad and devastated. That shit by the age of 19. And for what? Nothing positive or anyhting of resemblance to even show for the years of straight up food addiction.

I crave his warmth so bad. He looks like he would be so warm to the touch. Being in his presence sends my heart into overdrive, being able to be in his arms would simply make my mind melt. That's all I could ask for. No thoughts other than his warmth and touch.

Since i was a little girl ive always wanted to throw up blood and die