Here's A Tiny Room Tucked Behind My Ears And Hidden In My Head The Person I Want To Be The Things I Want

Oof, I don't like this lineart, please end me

I sold my soul for this lineart. Alli deserves to be beautiful, ok!

One day I will go through all my posts and correctly tag them. BUT that day isn't for a few more months sooo

One large order of “Holy Shit I So Gay asdfghjklertyuiopzcvbnmmgdyklfsafj-” Featuring: -My buffiest OC, Calyssa(who is gay. And a mermaid.) -And Me: The Lesbian^tm

I missed. His funeral.

Fuck.

I missed the entire service because my nephew was being loud/giggly/fussy and I offered to walk around the church lobby and outside for a bit to see if he's calm down.

He didn't.

I missed the entire. Fucking. Service.

I was actually relieved at first but then almost immediately get super pissed about it, because this is someone that I was friends with when I was like 3-9 years old and he killed himself and I MISSED HIS GODAMN FUNERAL.

What the fuck am I supposed to do except be fucking pissy???

Long story short: I'm being a bitch because I didn't do something that I didn't even want to do.

Well we have to evacuate this week

God, I hate living in the south.

We have like fucking 5 or 6 hurricanes coming towards us(possibley) and 1 headed straight towards us directly! Like "eye-of-the-storm" shit towards us.

So we have to fucking evacuate, and of course I'm the bitch with OCD and 2something fucking useless collections that I insist on bringing, and of course my family acts like I'm not emotionally attached to this shit and they've got limits on how much of certain things I'm allowed to bring and I'm being fussy about it and my mom called me retarded and of course I had to get upset and now I just really with I know where the suitcases were so I could at least start packing for when we leave instead of thinking about everything I shouldnt.

Haha, it's ok, he's not so bad, it just sucks when it does happen- I'm sure he's worse when I'm not around, so I'm actually pretty grateful for the things I /have/ heard him say, haha

"What, are you /queer/, now?"

-my dad, to my sister, less than 20 feet from me.

I am the /only/ queer person in the house.

I am the /only/ queer person in our imedient family.

He's didn't need to say it like.... That.

It wouldn't hurt so much if it hadn't been almost a year since the last time I heard say something anti-lgbt+ but it has been a while and I thought he might not say that- at least not in front of me.

Encyclopedias

Of random/oddly specific topics: do they exist and where can I get them. Seriously, I want.

I want encyclopedias/books of/about:

-plants (specifically succulents, cacti, and sunflowers)

-animals (rabbits, cats, frogs, turtles, sheep, goats, snakes, and bees)

-clothes/fashion/trends (fuck me up with that character design material)

-art (just a fucking book about art history and shit because I fucking want one)

I just- I have some things I wanna learn about and they happen to be very strange and specific, ok.

I started listening to WTNV...

And I just need to ask two quick questions:

1. How is Cecil not dead/why haven't any of the things he's not supposed to talk about (management, the shape in the park, etc.) killed him yet????

2. Does Carlos not listen to the radio or is he very much aware that Cecil is completely infatuated with him and just kinda goes with it, 'cause that's a mood??? (I think I've seen people saying they get married? And I'm like?? Cecil dreams actually coming true??? What????)

I should probably point out that I've only listened to the first 6 episodes...

Reminder that it really doesn’t matter what ways you’re marginalized, if you’re not black you’re just as capable of anti blackness as white cishet people. No amount of “but I’m gay!”, “but I’m trans!”, or “but I’m not white!” changes that.

And being neurodiverse/disabled isn’t an excuse for anti blackness either.