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Panicking over something I shouldn't

I still panic

When you come back

Each time

I think

You're going to do it

Again

And I panic

Because you'll blame me

And I'm scared

That you'll be right

This time

I wish

I didn't think of you

Anymore

And I hope

That I stop

Thinking

Of that night

Because I'm so scared

That you'll do it

Again

And I won't be able

To stop you

That way I did

Last time

Because

It wasn't my fault

And I hate it when

You blame me

For not coming back

When I'm scared

That it'll happen again

If I came back

Like how you want me too

I'm scared

That you wont

Come back anymore

A and I'd rather

Have you hate me

From a distance

As someone

I don't feel

Responsible for

Anymore

Because

You make it my fault

And I

Convence myself

That you're right

And I

Forget

That you're not

Scared of the same

Things as I am

Because you love to blame me

And was never really my fault

Stop scaring me

I'm not coming back

I don't want that night

To happen again

So stop

Making it my fault

I left all this

Behind me

And I gave up

When

There was nothing

I could do

For you anymore

I'm sorry

I'm not enough

And

I'm sorry

That

I

Never

Was

Here's a tiny room Tucked behind my ears And hidden in my head The person I want to be The things I want to see The books I want to read Are cluttered in that room Somewhere in my head I don't know where But There's a window And two chairs, Plants I don't recognize And paintings Of people I don't know One lamp For light It's all the- Sticks - stones - words That could ever hurt me Piled up under one roof And stacked On one shelf There's one corner I can hide in And plenty of things To hold And places to sit To think I never want to leave My little room In my head