My Stomach Is Flat From Being -ved But The Bottom. It Won’t Fucking LEAVE

skinny is part of my personality idc

I'm miserable when I'm eating normally and when I'm starving and when I'm binging so I might as well starve because at least I'll be miserable and skinny

. ݁₊ ⊹ . my motivation :

- the th-gh gap

- the flat tummy and visible r-bs

- more attention

- "how'd you do it?"

- "you look sick..."

- being smaller than everybody i hate

- so people care more about me

- so the smallest size won't fit

- won't have to worry about if a size is too small

- i'll look good no matter my outfit

- can have a bad mood without being seen as 'b¡tchy'

- won't feel so bad on lazy days

- won't feel like a w@nn4r3x¡c and actually feel valid

- to be 'iconic' th-nsp0

- family member / friend reactions

* i'll be adding more ♡ :)

⭐️ving Affermations

I control food, it doesn't control me.

I can choose to e@t or restr1ct whenever I want.

Wanting food has little to no effect of me. I e@t what I plan.

I only ever regret e@ting, never ⭐️ving. Don't e@t, don't feel regret.

I am in charge. If I don't want to e@t for a day, I will not.

I have control over my body. It does nothing without me allowing it.

I am never missing out on food opportunities. It will ALWAYS come around again.

I will not e@t just because other people are.

I like feeling hungry. It makes me feel good. I prefer it over feeling full.

i just wanna have a friend that's just as disordered as me irl. We would talk without feeling judged and give each other motivation. it's rlly another pointless fantasy about having cool and understanding friends I wish could be with me.

ahh but for now i can only hope for someone like that to come along eventually. i kinda need them rn but it's fine I can wait.

idk why i run to the mirror every time i go to the bathroom thinking im gonna get the bc of the century

you could've sworn i was recovered with the way easter has me breaking my fast 10 hours earlier with super-sized chocolate bunnies

daily affirmations:

i'm not chopped

a burger is not going to kill me

the opinions of my classmates don't matter because i'm not gonna see them after we graduate

i do not have a secret crush on my teacher

i'm not a pedophile and smiling at someone younger than me doesn't make me a pedophile

i am not secretly being filmed

i'm not a secret serial killer

nobody is stalking me

it's not a bad life, it's just a bad day

nothing beats the humiliation you get when you thought you were skinny until coming to school and so many people are thinner than you

i immediately get humbled anytime someone mentions how they haven't eaten anything all day long bc whoopsie they forgot

like i have to deliberately ignore the hunger and they don't even have to think abt it like goshh