Tw Long Ana Rant
tw long ana rant
i’m so pissed off rveruday is a battle to convince myself that i need help, that i’m not a wannarexic, that my body is normal maybe a little skinny, that it’s not abt what i eat but how i think but i can’t fucking believe ANYTHING
i can’t thr0w up to save my life i can’t relate when ppl say “i could never eat all that” bc ik damn well i could. i could eat that entire plate and still be hungry for seconds. for desert.
no matter how many times i remind myself i’m literally -ving, that i’m weak and knee-deep into this ed i can’t believe it
bc i don’t look sick enough. no one can tell i’m fucked up except for my friends who probably know by now. only they know i refuse to eat yet the second i break my fast i’ll gorge on anything near me.
not all of my bones are showing yet, only the normal ones that every skinny person alr has.
no matter how many hours i’ve fasted i’ve never fainted once. sure, maybe i’ve come close to that at times but that still means no one will ever know bc they’ve never seen me do it.
every time i come into school it’s the same bullshit every. single. day i’m so tired of it
i see thinspo in all of my classes and they all wish they weren’t skinny, talking abt how they wish they looked healthier or smth
“i skipped breakfast this morning bc i forgot/wasn’t hungry”, “stop i eat sooo much idk how i’m so skinny!”, “we’re such big backs for eating chips”
SHUT UPPP
who the hell loses their appetite when they’re stressed. who loses their appetite at ALL and why does it never happen to me whether i’m binging or -ving???
when i move out i’m gonna have a big fridge full of nothing
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my fav thinspo recently is just looking at belly button piercings bc hard work will pay off in cuter fits ♡
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hello universe i am reaching out to you to lock me in an apartment in nyc with no food and just a clingy cat to lounge with on the living room floor all day long
or am i supposed to get a job
REASONS TO KEEP GOING:
so when it’s the first of january, you no longer have to make “lose weight” a new years resolution
because you have been craving your dream body for way longer than that high calorie, greasy food you’re craving right now
because as much as people try to deny is your worth is tied to that number on the scale.
because of how many summers have already gone by and you’re still saying “next summer”
because thin is beautiful. thin is classy and elegant. thin is chic and feminine.
so that you look good even if your fashion sense lowkey sucks. why? because skinny is the outfit.
because that 11 year old little girl deserves the skinny future she dreamed of.
because you owe it to yourself to go through life in a beautiful, fit body
because if you’re actually honest with yourself, fat doesnt fit your aesthetic does it?
because you dont deserve to complain about having to start over when its you who keeps giving up.
because you actually have potential and you’re just wasting it all by allowing yourself to be fat
that pizza was the hardest thing to eat i could barely swallow it
i wish that one day it comes down to refusing those slices entirely
i haate ppl that try to pass off “harsh skinny tips” as healthy weight loss and not borderline disordered like u are in DENIAL
neeeeeeeeeed
I honestly hate food so much, If I didn't need it to survive I just wouldn't eat.
Yet at the same time I have an obsession with it and it's all I think about .
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