Imagining A Day I Don't Imagine A Different Life So Hard I Hurt My Own Feelings

how can someone’s absence affect me so much while my presence doesn’t affect them at all

In another universe, I'm kind to everyone I know and myself. In another universe I am no longer frugal with love. In another universe when I pick up the phone, I answer it with "I love you" instead of "Y'ellow!"

In another universe I don't feel bad for asking for a hug. In another universe I don't infect everything around me with how awful I am. In another universe I reach out and hold your hand and you hold mine back.

Give me money…or a shotgun with one bullet…

Any other landmines/jirais out there with NO anons, NO huge following, NO reason to wake up every day- I mean, what?

to those of you who are moving here from tiktok, from someone whos used both tiktok and tumbr for years...

1. DO NOT censor your posts

dont censor sex, abuse, suicide, dont censor it. we dont have censors like tiktok does, you wont be banned for talking about these things and tagging them properly helps people avoid them (also, we dont have shadowbanning here)

2. we dont really have an algorithm

you follow who you follow, and you see posts from who you follow or what you search. the 'for you page' is basically useless here. this also brings me to my next two points

3. dont crosstag

we get it, on tiktok you have to crosstag for reach, but thats not really a thing here. just tag your posts properly (also posters often leave more info about the post in the tags!! and when you reblog stuff you can leave your own notes in the tags, kind of like the old "repost comments" on tiktok)

4. dont expect to go viral/be famous

"viral" isnt really a thing on here (at least not for the average blogger). your posts will probably get 2-10 likes and you wont get nearly as many followers than on tiktok. thats just how tumblr is

5. blocking is your best friend

tiktok is VERY discussion based, and while tumblr is much more discussion based than other social medias, its still not a good place for ragebait/discourse. dont interact, itll make your experience worse in the end, just block and move on

6. you cant go into someone elses house and start rearranging their furniture

this is tumblr, not tiktok. dont diss old tumblr users for how they use the site or try to change them, thats like going into someone elses house and trying to rearrange their furniture. we've been here longer and we're familiar with the site and its culture, either find your niche, adapt, or find a different app

JIRAIS listen, i MIGHT be leaving the community since i have been getting better like alot better, the scars that once dappled my body are gone, the cigrattes all i have thrown away, the blades are left forgotten in my jewelry box. I became more social and likeable, started to look at my body with love instead of disgust. Started eating healthy and going out. And i have been getting into the gyaru culture. Knowing that i am finally starting to feel like myself makes me wanna tear up, im happy

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Jirai/Menhera/Girly songs for my mentally ill bitches part 1/2

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♡Music for the mentally ill♡

If you feel sad at least you have this playlist

Link^^^