This Is So Me Coded

i want to die but i know ill never have the confidence to do it myself, but nights like these i feel awful, its like a constant emptiness inside me all the time

I don’t think it’s body dysmorphia anymore i think i am just kinda fat LOL.

i fear i am in love with my bsf i cant do this again oml when will i learn

day twenty two

ive been incredibly sad recently so i forgot about this. anyway, my lowest weight was probably about 47kg, but then i became $uic1dal and i was convinced i wouldnt live the year out so i binged loads bc i was depressed lmao

“im a fan of the pro 4n4 nation, i do them drugs to stop the f-food cravings” ⋆ ˚ 𝜗𝜚˚ ⋆

stress binged for like a week so now ive got to starve for a week

my dreams are just dreams unfortunately

The 4n4 girlies wanting to st4rve but also have long thick hair down to their ass is so real but also so contradictory 💀

just liquid all day takes the kilos away 🎀

day four

honestly a weird concern but i like my chest and i want to lose weight every where but there ngl 😭

i was doing decent today but i had a piece of bread with butter for dinner and even tho im def under 1000 cals i still hate myself