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CW : VENT THAT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH MLM BUT I NEED TO GET OUT

CW for disabilities and self-harm

I became sick over memorial day weekend (for those who don't know, we have the memorial day off.). Now all of my disabilities are flaring again, and i just got out of a huge flare not even a month ago.

I'm convinced this is because i don't wear a mask anymore. and before you blame me for my own issues, I don't wear one because my family doesn't anymore. I don't like to wear them in the house and due to breathing issues, i cannot wear them for a long time anyways. If i'm gonna get sick being at home or out in public, what's the point? OFC i would wear one if you asked me and would always warn you if i was sick because disabled ppl and able-bodied ppl with preferences matter.. always.

Anyways, I'm just in so much pain. I want to cry and scream and rip out my hair. I want to throw things across the room but all of that would get me recorded and prolly sent back to the psychiatric hospital.

i can't breathe without wheezing and coughing, my knees click when i walk and i keep going into pre-syncope. My fingers ache and i lost my hand brace for my wrist when it locks up. My hips hurt and even sitting criss-cross no longer helps. my back hurts and i can't crack it and i have a major headache.

I had to come home from school today, i begged my parents until they gave in. I'm scared. I'm sad. I'm depressed. I feel as if it'd be better if i just .. wasn't here. That way nobody would have to suffer. anymore. idk

I'm just so.. tired, man. Nothing is going my way, it never has. I'm so so tired, i feel so numb. I don't want to be here anymore.

Yeah, I understand that. You aren’t alone in those feelings. The amount of people who have left or ghosted me bc I was too clingy and obsessive is insane.

At this point, the only way I would date again or get super close to someone, is if we were both clingy and obsessive. But also in therapy bc not unhealthily —

BPD goes brrr when it comes to developing crushes in everyone I met— insane

I really want to have someone in my area be a friend or a boyfriend to me. The interest isn’t the safest place ofc but I’m so fucking lonely dude, this isn’t fair.

I just want to hug and cuddle someone.

this is probably like. a really weird ask but. how does one get a boyfriend i am SCREAMING the world is so homophobic

You see, my dear anon!! Do you know what rizz is? Do you know how to slow mo your way into a man’s heart?

(I actually have no idea, why does the world not want me/ us ?? to have boyfriends aaaaaaaa)

The best advice I honestly have for you is to take it slow and have good communication !!

It’s been 21 days since I last posted on this account ^ - ^ Oh my gahhhh!!!

I just came Back to beg who ever is following me to follow or read my newest wattpad story!! I Need as much constructive criticism from others as possible!!

Wattpad

Something's wrong with sam. .

Tied to a chair and held at a gunpoint, Sam is forced to answer questions for his two so-called "best friends." As they...

If you do, thank you!! Feel free to DM me for a picture of my cat fr!! ILY 🤟 🫶🏽🫡

The story is mature with themes of death and suicide!! Along with Mystery-horror themes!! So beware if you’re easily triggered!

Guys.. I want to have a SIMP. I don’t want to be the simp but I want A SIMP. I want someone to worship me on their knees, someone who’d let me step on them and would still love me. Maybe that’s the narcissistic behaviors talking but god, I want someone like that so bad.

Hi gay people, I love you 🫶🏽

i can torture u here too now>:3

HWHDOSM WHAT

Who wants to be obsessed with me? I gotta collect ya’ll Like Pokémon and give ya’ll smooches on the forehead <3!

BTW guys, I am a transmasc and if you slide into my DMs, I’ll make magic happen between us (⌒▽⌒)

(THAT SOUNDS SO BAD LMAO-)