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Head hurt. Hard to write with head aching. Posting chapter on the 13th. Continuing RPs on the 8th. Need mental health day. I think? No. I just need my head to stop hurting so I can think.
Guys.. I want to have a SIMP. I don’t want to be the simp but I want A SIMP. I want someone to worship me on their knees, someone who’d let me step on them and would still love me. Maybe that’s the narcissistic behaviors talking but god, I want someone like that so bad.
whole digestive system doing backflips when bruno
Starting therapy in a couple weeks, still nervous about talking about everything. I kinda wonder what's the point in everything at this point but idk
Cleaned my room for the first time in a while. I forgot I had a floor and how much space I have.
IT BETTER NOT BE WHO I THINK IT IS
Day 1: I swear I’m gonna pull all my hair out, one by one.
After every fight,
I fell deeper
And loved you little more .
Why?
Honestly... The darkness scares me more now rhat i have a life im excited to love for. i actually have peolle in my life that care about me and i realize that, which is terrifying because i dont wanna hurt them like i wanna hurt myself ya know?
Why am i trusting him with my body if i cant even trust him with my mind?
I miss the stinging feeling. Even how days after i cut, it still stung if u touched it or moved the wrong way. I miss being distracted by the way the pain made me feel.
I just keep thinking about that kiss... i keep thinkung about how much i want to just run up to him and kiss him. I just want to be with him, which only proves that im a psychopath. He played me before, hes not good for me. This isnt healthy. But, something that feels so good cant possibly be bad, right?
I think i might have cut too deep this time...
Why am i never enough for anyone?
I have a serious addiction. I cant stop. Its been a year and a half and i just keep finding new places. Anywhere i look are covered in scars. I dont know how to stop, and i dont know if i want to...
I had a family, once. Then i fucked up and things were never the same.
- the funny thing is, i don't take it back. Im happier alone, and i think that scares me more...
Kissing you was the best and worst desision of my life.
I am SO fucking mad rn. I literally just lost EVERYTHING that I had in the Safe Folder in Google files (which was a lot btw)!!!!