Them Having Fun:

i think I bother everyone by being alive

Sitting around waiting to be messaged and flirted with and paid attention to

how I crave to feel loved and enjoyed. I want to feel as though my presence is desired and beloved. I want my heart to feel full. but it's not about what I want. this is exactly what I deserve. I am hideous and vile. I am gross and deceitful. apathetic and unlovable, just as it was intended.

the intimacy of knowing what someone's hands feel like

I fake being well.

trying to empathize w/ your mom and understanding the hardships she went through and how much she loved you

vs.

remembering

Yeah hand holding is cute but how about I grab your shirt instead

i hate when men are funny and kind and smart and silly and caring and pretty. stop it dude you're ruining my sleep schedule.

In every kind man I see what would’ve been.