Ayoooo Who Wants Our Souls To Be So Intertwined That I Cant Do Simple Tasks Without Being Reminded Of

in the mood to cuddle a cute sleepy boy in our pajama pants and play with his hair until he falls asleep in my arms i mean what i didn’t say anything

I hate it when people ask me if I'm feeling something. Are you excited? Nervous? What do you want to watch? Do you wanna do something? Are you relieved now that it's over? Happy that you graduated? Proud to have achieved so much?

The answer is literally no. I have dysthymia, I do not care about anything nor have I for a long time. There is no point to anything so why would I have feelings related to something being important?

Thanks for reminding me that I'm empty inside though. Now I feel depressed about that so I guess I do have feelings after all. It's sure nice to graduated BSc and feel only sadness because you're not feeling happy about it.

sometimes life feels just terrible and that's how I am tried to get over it today

i am going feral (i wanna be cuddled and listen to music together)

Maybe I just want to be something that could justify my existence.

I want to be special, so I could deserve love.

Maybe I can finally deserve love if my existence doesn't feel so meaningless.

If I wasn't such a burden, then maybe I can be loved.

I want to be easy to love.

My flaws are making it harder so.

I am difficult.

It feels wrong to desire something as great as love.

Why am I always going out of my way to be loved? Can’t I just be loved as is?

Growing up with an absent father is all funny haha daddy issues until it’s one of those rage filled nights of sobbing wondering why he would subject you to this.