I Really Relate To The Eating Quickly Thing. I Don’t Understand Social Meals. I Eat Fast And Then Eating

y’all mind if i just... *flaps my hands*

this is schizo (I am not creative with names) and his head is full of rocks!

your art is super cool btw!!

this is damian doom and xe is Trying his best

I totally get this. I do feel a bit bad for those who don’t have the form they’re supposed to. I can relate on some level to them since no one can see my true form, but I don’t wish for my scales or fangs or anything else in the same way those who aren’t physically nonhuman do.

I feel the tiniest bad when I read posts saying that others wish they had tails and ears and fur and fangs- I suppose it is because since I am physically nonhuman, I do, it's just not something that can be seen outwardly by prying eyes- that is besides my fangs which are natural and are able to be seen by the naked eye. I'm just a giant werebat and it's hard to comprehend even for myself I suppose. /lh

me: i have alexithymia

person: wow i can’t imagine what that must feel like

me: yeah me neither

A note on terms: I do not use the terms therian or otherkin. I may technically fit into these categories, but I do not like these labels (nothing against people who do use them though). I am a physically nonhuman shapeshifting changeling fae creature, and I am a holothere.

I may occasionally use other tags, but these are the only nonhuman labels I feel really suit me.

uhhhh since people are talking about the ugly part of alterhumanity I figured I’d throw in my two cents

Fear agression - I’ve heard a lot on prey drive so I’m not gonna add but fear aggression is a big thing too. not only getting spooked and whirling around, teeth bared and maybe biting on instinct. but also seeing people who you have bad experiences with and everything in you wanting to defend yourself violently when you really can’t/shouldn’t by human standards.

Body language - For the longest time I just nodded and slow blinked instead of waving. I still don’t really know how to show upset by human standards so I just curl my lip and wish I had anything else that could show my emotion like ears to flip back or fur to bristle. I don’t get human body language either except in the overlap between nonhuman and human. I do not know how to show human emotion because i have had a nonhuman body map for as long as I can remember. Also autism

pack mentality & attachment issues - idk how common this is but I am so viciously attached to my pack and my mate that sometimes it’s really hard to step back and realize that sometimes they’re wrong or that they should fight their own battles. Being apart from them like, hurts.

Boredom in human environments - constantly feeling like a zoo animal. I’m not supposed to sit in a box for eight hours a day I’m supposed to maul prey with my teeth and run across miles and miles of coastline with my pack. not only being homesick but also jus being, like… really fucking bored, feeling restrained almost.

me: so being autistic effects every part of me...

allistic: ok

me: it even changes my perception of gender...

allistic: that makes sense

me: i identify as autigender because my experience of gender is intertwined with my autistic experience

allistic: AuTisM IsN’T A GENDer?!!!!

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autigender doesn’t necessarily mean autism is a gender, it is simply a term autistics can use to describe the way their gender and autism interact (hope that helps explain it!)

I definitely stim with behaviors from my species!

I sway very frequently. While other snakes do this to judge distance, I do it to self soothe. It really helps me to regulate and to feel more in touch with my ‘type.

Another thing I frequently do is climb. I don’t know if this really counts as stimming, but oh well. I love to reach high places and dangle from branches. It makes me feel very safe and connected to myself. Often when I’ve reached my designated basking branch, I sway and swish all my limbs.

I also flick my tongue frequently for fun and to help me “reset” my face after emoting. So those are just a few behaviors I attribute to being a snake.

the species euphoria and the autistic joy I get from shaking my whole body like I'm trying to get water out of my fur. hits my autistic 'yote brain real good when I full body stim like that.

i usually do it when I'm stressed and trying to "shake off the bad vibes". It really helps me take a second to calm down from any stressful customer interactions and kinda helps me relax a bit.

I also do it involuntarily sometimes whenever I wash my paws or have to get my fur wet. I hate having wet fur, it's overstimulating and uncomfortable for me.

I also sometimes have a big urge to dig especially in like sandy areas or dusty areas. idk what my coyote brain wants to do but...sometimes you just gotta dig a hole and see what happens. plus digging in sand or grainy dirt feels so good sensory wise.

anyone else sometimes stim using a behavior their species does? or just have a behavior from their species/theriotype that they use/find themselves doing a bunch?

I'm so curious to know if other creatures do this too

gotta love the perpetual "BUT WE KNOW WE'RE PHYSICALLY HUMAN!!!!" from the therian community. You know, instead of just saying "..identifying as an animal to varying degrees".

Gotta love it. Have fun making yourself pallatable to humans who see no distinction between us either way i guess./s

Little moodboard for myself featuring brown treesnakes. (None of these pictures are mine)