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(Welcome to my weird agenda of skk meet the night Dazai leaves, and dazai tries to break up with chuuya that night,

and Chuuya just goes "don't be stupid, makerael. Now, I'm coming with you."

Which in response dazai goes "marry me." And they both just stand there awkwardly but eventually conclude yes they are going to illegally get married before running away.)

"Dazai what are you doing here." Chuuya seethed

"Collecting my things my dearest ex~" Dazai replied in a sing song voice

"You cannot be serious right now."

"I'm Collecting my things, mr nakahara, now kill me or leave me be." He responded seemingly completely numb in that moment

"No." He continues

"you do not get to leave me without even giving me a chance to keep you in my life, don't be like all those people who have left. At least be honest with yourself"

"What are you trying to say chuuya?"

"You stupid makerael, break up with me or prove to me that you won't try to push me out of your life again and take me with you. Let me experience your change with you. Let me be there for you, asshole."

"Nakahara chuuya, marry me"

"Wait- What!? And why was that a demend? You're supposed to ask."

"Awww chibi, I was trying to be romantic!"

"I- what?"

"Chuuya, your really set on coming with me and betraying the port mafia with me and you want me to do something to prove I won't  break up with you over text and than sneak into our secret apartment right?"

"Well, yes but I meant like over the years we'll be in hiding."

"I still think you should marry me."

"I- are you being serious"

"Of course I am slug."

"Yes."

"Come on it'll be- wait what!? "

"Yes, you stupid makerael"

"Did you really have to add a insult befitting of your size?"

"Stop being a infuriating finance before I change my mind and go become a bitter mafia ex"

"Whatever you say chibi, now since you used that insult, you have to pretend to be the bride!"

"What! Why!?"

"Slug, gay marriage isn't legal remember?"

"Oh right..."

"Plus you look more like a girl, and your a bottom!"

Chuuya wasn't really paying attention, he was too busy hoping this timeline did not go like the last one, he admit he didn't regret committing suicide with dazai in that one, but still he hoped maybe in this timeline they could be happy......

Any advice on characterisation? (They are obviously 18!skk)

Mine own moth'r shouldst has't nev'r did talk with thee

or did marry thee

or hadst me

neith'r shouldst i has't hath paid thee any mind not aft'r what thee didst

to h'r,

to me.

yet i didst because i desp'rately did want a fath'r.

coequal if 't be true t wast one i didn't seeth thee as much as mine own moth'r.

thee w're nev'r a valorous husband,

a child shouldn't has't to protecteth their moth'r.

at first thee w're a valorous fath'r

most of the timeth.

then as i did turn ten and hitteth othergates'rty

thee hath changed.

to me at least,

to the people who is't very much kneweth thee hadst known these w're thy true colours.

and yet somehow thee kneweth bef're me,

yond i wasn't truly me

yond i wouldn't beest what thee did want

yond i wasn't h'r.

at which hour thee realis'd yond thee becameth creepy and abusive.

because thee did want me to beest a bett'r v'rsion of mine own moth'r

because the lady wast nev'r valorous enow f'r thee.

thee f'rev'r did want me to beest

'your dram house jointress',

'your "daught'r" longing f'r approval

i hath tried making t stand ho by going hence

once because of someone else and thee at which hour i wast only 9,

which thee did encourage.

the lasteth timeth wast 2 years ago because of thee,

thee hadn't known about yond despite t.

then 8 months ago i hadst a breakdown in front of mine own schools consular,

and i toldeth h'r about the two things yond hadst me at mine own breaking pointeth

the lady hadn't coequal hath asked me about yond, the lady wast just trying to receiveth me into an activities group.

yet i toldeth h'r

and finally i wenteth to child protection s'rvices with ev'rything thee didst.

i shouldst has't done t earli'r, but.

i wast desp'rately hanging on to the chance thee'd changeth,

but thee didn't and thee wonneth't.

i knoweth yond anon 'i wouldst nev'r changeth f'r h'r'

t wast hard at first,

aft'r all i hath felt incredibly guilty f'r telling people

f'r finally telling mine own moth'r,

howev'r aft'r h'r reaction i wast just fell,

because the lady wast blaming h'rself f'r what thee didst.

and then i realis'd truly what thee didst to me,

how thee hadst me doth those things to myself

how thee hadst manipulat'd me

how thee hadst groom'd me.

i shall admiteth i am not bett'r and i knoweth not if 't be true i ev'r shall beest.

but.

anon i can beest who is't i am.

and those gents art helping me 'long the way

and hopefully anon th're shall beest m're.

i gage thee i shall beest a bett'r parent then thee ev'r w're at which hour the timeth cometh.

because i am free anon and i shall beest who is't i am,

i shall receiveth though this.

and i shall becometh a bett'r p'rson than thee couldst ev'r tryeth to beest.

this is mine own only true desire f'r the future.

[ 2 months without self half harmeth, 2 years without a sucide attempteth ]

This will eventually be a comic but for now have the Shakespearean version.

Chacter A is a fae or something along those lines, chacter b thinks that they're human but thats only half true.

(Extra points for Possive nature from both partys) []

oft i feeleth liketh just the loveth int'rest in mine own girlfriends st'ry, and i knoweth not wherefore

All future vent posts will be in Shakespearean from now on, if you manage to understand them feel free to give advice lol

T is me who is't wast b'rn as a queen but realis'd t wasn't mine own way and becometh a knight to protecteth the queens out th're especially mine own girlfriend,

mine own w'rld,

mine own queen.

Trans-lation:

It is me who was born as a queen but realised it wasn't my way and become a knight to protect the queens out there especially my girlfriend,

My world,

My queen.

At times I have a 'phatom dick'

(Bassically I sometimes feel like I have a dick despite being obviously dickless)

Current Goal: get to the point where cis people & most definitely, terfs clock me as a "cis gay white guy trying to be quirky"

Trans boy who is bi or pan? That me.

I get called my beautiful boy/son by my mum and somehow it's just dysphoria and euphoria at the same time??? 

Like yes mum I am your beautiful boy but for some reason beautiful is causing dysphoria??? What?

Ladies, gentlemen and other elegant guests.

welcome to

hairstyle struggles!

I am so scared of looking like my father when I go on T

And it's not because haha I don't want look like my parents it's because Looking like my abuser scares me so much, it's the only reason I'm hesitant about T

Cause rn I'm lucky, I got mabye only two features from him. (Excluding all the health issues he gave me)

I look unbelievably like my mum & my grandfather from her side

Can any fellow trans mascs help me?

My little sister can be difficult at times and god does she out me without realising it, but holy shit- I tell you I have never seen a little girl more angry when someone does anything remotely transphobic

My supportive mum accidentally misgenders me? She already corrected her 5 seconds before I could register it.

Overly Christian stuff in school? She's not listening

(she associates it with my dad who is transphobic)

In conclusion my sister may be difficult at times but she's supportive and i love and appreciate her.

Ok skk idea incoming (based on yours truly being mentally unstable)

A fic written from 17? dazai's perspective where he finds out chuuya after everything has also become suicidal but in the doesn't tell anyone way,

as in 17 year old dazai finds his crush who he was just laughing with two hours ago, trying to commit suicide. He freezes up because what? Why? And then on instinct saves chuuya.

Example:

He suddenly relises why chuuya was 'jokingly' agreeing to the double sucide he had proposed during their latest misson, But it also didn't make sense blindly loyal life loving chuuya suicidal? It didn't make any sense.

He kept a close eye on chuuya after that, focused on his every movement even more than before. However he didn't know what to do when chuuya was away and he lost his best friend, he of course listened to oda and ran away but he waited for chuuya to get back.

When he talked to chuuya he really wasn't expecting to end up with chuuya as his rich husband and him in the ada, chuuya is not in the mafia anymore mind you his husband is rich in a respectable way.

The ada hadn't met his husband yet, they didn't even know about his husband to be honest, it's not like dazai hid chuuya from them. To be fair dazai didn't fluant the fact he was married either, even his ring was almost never in view.

And him flirting with women didn't help even if to him it always clearly a joke. He would never cheat on chuuya, Chuuya & his promise was his reason for living and chuuya's was him, they were even planning to add another reason soon.

Should I finish this then Ao3 it?

I have no motivation rn T-T

Ah yes my life as a fan fic writer

[A photo of my laptop containing my files filled with different fanfic i have yet to complete] did i do that right?

Hi names Eagan!

[He/him or if you're feeling silly they/them]

I'm just a trans masc teen trying to get though the living hell that is life

My girlfriend is on here too @purpleblobfrompluto !

My analysis of my most used playlist

Anyway feel free to send me an ask if you want!

This is my personal blog so all stuff on here will either be rebolgs with a comment from me or about my day to day basically

I'm usually funny, talk about issues, life or sometimes vent in Shakespearean

My other blogs: is in the post below I also run the @queer-questions-and-polls blog

Me and sir Leer wish you the best on your travels!

I feel so lethargic and dysphoric omg (this is the op btw)

Just so everyone is aware no asks will be answered this week, feel free to send them in but I'm not responding till 7-8 th of April.

Why?

It's my shark week :(

This is my sea life lepoard shark from Melbourne btw

His name is sir Leer

My gf named him :]

🤣

Finally! Alright going to bed now T-T

Getting there lol

Me rn

alternating between imposter syndrome and dysphoria

why pick one when you can have both? /hj

Same honestly to the tags lol

Aren't you sleepy? Don't you just wanna go to bed?

It's not a choice & it never was.

Please watch this

Share it, rb it idc as long as people see this

I call this piece

'trans masc dysphoria'

When your probably on this timline

She/her to they/she to they/them to they/he to he/they and probably he/him

My mum started using he/him and called me her son today

I'm so happy I can't explain it.

Before my lil sister was born I used to imagine being a cool big brother.

Honestly that should have been the first sign

Okay but like trans masc sqh who was saving up for top surgery though pidw and then BOOM he dies and suddenly he's a guy now but his hair is still too long- and other thing about og sqh's body still don't feel right.

yeah hes a guy now but it's still weird to go from not transioned yet to omg I'm a guy now but it's in the body of one of my characters, so therefore theres a disconnect.

I personally don't think sqh's family was sportive of him being trans and wanted a traditional daughter instead. I feel like they would have blamed their divorce on him being trans.

I'll add to this later

Meme I made about my gf lol

I don't know about the world? Really? I'm a kid who grew up on the internet. I'm trans, I have a girlfriend in a world that believes I'm a girl, I'm still suicidal, I know about all the wars going on, I am a victim of all kinds of fucking abuse.

And you, tell me I don't how harsh this world is? All my father figures fucking abused me. I want to believe the world isn't so bad but thats all your seeing. Why are you even telling me this i just said I wanted to be a counsellor wth

You know me? Yeah right. You know the version of me i use around others to get them to like me. To think of me as a good person.

Sorry just needed to vent lol