Eeeeeeismeee - E

The other day I got a really hard ball at soccer practice kicked on my arm, not a big deal usually but it hit exactly my fresh cuts and man that shit hurt

It takes 30 days to build a habit, right? So maybe if I count the days I'll finally be consistent

You'd think after three years of this I'd have finally figured out something that works for me, but noooo

I ate a banana today and it was huge. Seriously. Largest banana I've ever fucking seen I don't think it was real

In a way, I'm really scared losing weight will make me look more feminine (because I always used to have broad shoulders and I have now clue what my face will look like once all the fat is finally off)

So I'm hoping that I can lose as much weight as possible on my hips, thighs and lower belly, because once I'll be able to just wear any pants without them looking ridiculous because they're either way too large or make me look curvy and more like a woman, I'll look more like a guy/androgynous, right? Right???

That's so hypothetically speaking I need to lock the fuck in first

But I'm so excited for when I'll finally have a flat chest

ana culture is washing the measuring cups but leaving your dirty dishes in the sink

*one dry response* they hate me and want me to kill myself

you know you’re deep in an ed when you’re triggered by finding out you have a higher than average birthweight 😭 like wdym i was nine pounds as a newborn? ok fatty

UGH I HATE ALL PRONOUNS IM GONNA EXPLODE

Sometimes I like to imagine what it'll be when I live alone

I can see a fucking bright future of cutting whenever and wherever, starving for days and not even getting the binge food in the house in the first place and weighing myself won't be the most stressful encounter to have to be done in secret

Yeah and other than that I wanna go to uni and stuff

Sounds fucking fun