Hearing "masculine Women Are Not Attractive!!" From Cishet Men Is So Stupid. Like Ok Bitch. More For

sisyphus is just how having ana-bp feels lol

My feelings may for her may not be as strong anymore (I think), but her name still gives me butterflies and thinking of her face makes me feel so warm and the thought of being with her makes me want to smile so much my cheeks hurt... And here I am, thinking I was over her

Gay with an eating disorder?

Nah man I go by wlwlw

(Get it? Please tell me someone gets it lol)

*one dry response* they hate me and want me to kill myself

I feel so much more fat being on edblr and edtwt when I’m not underweight

Part of me wants to get better so badly, whereas on the other hand I want to get as bad as possible

as much as im the main factor of my downfall into this disorder i really hope one day i can recover and truly love myself as i am

edtblr has taught me more about nutrition than my biology class ever could

Still at my Grandma's... And I fucked up. Usually when I'm here, I either do really well or straight up binge, and it's appears that this time, I do both. Yesterday, I did really well actually but today was horrible. To be fair, no one in my family ate "normally" today, it's the ore-Easter shit, but I mean, they're not disordered, so I feel even more like a faker rn 😭

It's Easter tomorrow and I'm really scared. I'm feeling motivated to do well, but my family wants to go out for lunch tomorrow. I'll just get something from the kids's menu, skip breakfast and only eat a small dinner with my family if I can't avoid it.

And I really have to work on my steps! I feel awful for neglecting them, but I have a really important school project I need to work on... It feels like am excuse, but logically, it really isn't.

I mean, the day after tomorrow my Dad and I will leave already again, and the rest of the fam will stay with my grandma still, andy Dad will leave too after a few days, so my other sister and I will be home alone for a couple days at the end of the holiday s, which is great, since she doesn't really like me and won't force me to eat with her or something. Maybe she'll expect me to cook, because she's prepping for some exams, but that's fine Ig. I mean, I'm kinda planning to fast, but I'll also have to work on that school project, and I'll have to plan my eating depending on how much brain power I'll need then lol. So I have to finish as much of the project as I can now so that I'll be fine fasting/doing high res then.

Bruh why is this post so loong

I feel dirty and I don't feel real

Like it seriously feels like being fat is blocking me from actually living and being someone

I know that sounds silly but I can't take myself serious like this

And I don't know who I am if I'm not skinny

The monster cans have got to be at least a quarter of the experience, heck, a third. Have you ever looked at them closely, because man, these designs are just STUNNING.

(Today I some monster into a glass to check it's color like a normal person just does, and drinking from the can in comparison was just. So much better.)