Do I Have Chronic Pain Or Am I Just Constantly In Pain Because Bad Health Habits

I have discovered the queue setting on Tumblr. I can say all my thoughts and they won’t post all in one block then nothing for a week!!!

Not bestie looking aesthetically attractive today

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T-minus two days till hell, sorry I mean exams, start!

4 exams out of four blocks

Somebody will need to come and move my body by the end of the week so that I don’t shut down

Intro post:

(Edited on January 12)

Hi, I’m Fae (internet name)

He/him ze/zir

I’m transmasc, and aro ace (Aroflux (fluctuating between apothiromantic and Aegoromantic usually falling closer to Aegoromantic) and bellusexual)

I’m late teens and have autism ( not diagnosed yet, my mother doesn’t think I do (everyone else in my life does)

I love answering questions (about my social interests especially)

Some of my favourite things include

Big mouth

Armadillos

Crochet

Swimming

Futurama

Queer identities

Spider-Man (but only in film, focussing on Tobey maguire)

Trigonometry

Biology

HTTYD (but not as much as my bestie @grey-loves-dragons )

Umbrella academy

B99

Good place

Sitcoms in general

Squid games

Currently I am so excited for:

Big mouth season 8

Squid games season 2

Exam season to be done

TFB tour dates drop!!!

Fav mutuals:

@grey-loves-vikings @nick-the-dog @andrewgloubermanfr

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💜🤍🩶🖤

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IF I SEE ONE MORE PERSON ON TIKTOK SAY THAT “WE BOTH REACB FOR THE GUN” IS A GEN-Z SONG OR THAT THE JAZZ CHOREO IS FROM TIKTOK IM GOING TO DELETE THE INTERNET!!!!

Going back to school sucks.

Everyone is much further ahead than me.

All my school friends can drive and I’m even a couple months older than them but I can’t drive. I don’t want to drive because it isn’t something I want to focuse on.

I could probably get my liscence but I don’t have a car in comfy driving. I don’t enjoy driving. But my mother and dad are always on my ass. I can’t even take my test. My dad’s truck isn’t reliable to take a test in and my mom’s car has a huge crack in the windshield.

Why would I spend money and get my parents to spend money so I can get my drivers when I have NO WHERE TO FUCKING GO.

And then there’s the whole problem with me not being able to function.

My mom wants me to get another job because I only get 12 hours on my pay stub but I can hardly handle that.

I can’t function at the same level as my peers and no one understands that

I told my therapist that I feels like my support needs are getting more and more. She basically told me that im just doing to much so they show up more.

That is not what’s happening. Last year I could handle going to work after school and doing therapy and hanging out with people.

Over a three month period now I can’t go to work without shutting down and I’m not going to school because of summer. Therapy takes everything out of me and I can only hang out with my one friend for more than 30 minutes at a time.

I’m doing less and I need more help. It makes no sense

And now I have a week to go back to school and everyone else in my grade is able to function normally and balance school and personal life and have a bunch of friends and drive and make time for themselves and work. And they can do that all with no help.

But when I tell my mom and dad that I don’t want to get my liscence because I zone out a lot when I’m alone, or when I throw a fit because something isn’t the way I like it, my parents say that I’m over reacting or I’m being lazy

Realizing that any person on this app could be someone I know in person when I originally came here to be able to post without people I know seeing it was not what I wanted tonight

Season six is sooooo bad :/

I hope it gets better

​I know I am late to the futurama fandom but I used to watch some with my dad so when the new season started coming out I needed to watch it all before I watch the new episodes

FIVE HARGREEVES in The Umbrella Academy season 3