Whatever I Get Horribly Flashbacked To Everything Traumatic That Ever Happened In My Life - My Mind Just

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Aiki Kiyozumi.

age 4 -- age 1X -- age XXX

trying to comfort yourself through trauma and grief

VS

Finnaly finding peace

I fucking hate them

Stanley pines I'll always love you. this feels personal. Too personal. Both Stanley and stanford. That's where my life headed at this point ☹️

Something I think about so much is just how different the Stanley Pines we see in ATOTS is from the Grunkle Stan we know in the rest of the show.

Like, have you ever noticed just how much more expressive Stan is in 1983? The guy wears his heart on his sleeve so much more than he does later on. At almost every moment you can tell exactly what he's thinking and feeling just from his face, something that will become a lot rarer for him. Even setting aside the portal incident scene itself, have y'all ever watched the Dusk 2 Dawn scene and just watched Stan's face? He looks so… openly sad.

It's not just his expressions. Here's a detail that only just occurred to me: you guys ever think it's weird that Stan doesn't just try to steal the bread from Dusk 2 Dawn? Like, you'd think his stealing habit would've originated from his years on the street stealing to survive, but no— he tries to pay for the bread, and then when he doesn't have any money, he figures out how to get some. It's surprisingly honest.

And just like… I don't know, his whole vibe is so different. He's come from this life of hardship completely willing to talk things through. He's emotional, he's open, and not exactly what you'd expect to see when you imagine what a younger Grunkle Stan might have been like. In fact, his vibe is so different that, in Journal 3, Ford writes that when he first saw Stan, he assumed he was just in another alternate dimension rather than the one he came from.

Anyway, it just makes me think about the transition of how, exactly, he went from one to the other. How we go from the "stubborn, frostbitten vagabond" to the "carnival barker" he is by the show's present. I think about that in-between Stan a lot. Realizing that the hole in his heart, the one he thought was caused by his circumstance for so long, hadn't disappeared even now that he had money and a steady place to live. Growing more bitter and grumpy by the day, learning that maybe it's just better if he shuts himself off from the world so nobody has a chance to hurt him. Seeing himself aging and finding himself no closer to saving Ford. Ship of Theseus-ing himself into the carefully curated asshole that maybe even he thinks he is.

Not-Exactly-Emergency-But-Not-Great Situation-Commissions

Heeeeeey. So as some of you know within the last year I moved across the country from Florida to Washington. That’s been fine and dandy. However, long of the short of it, the other day I found out that a mass was found on my little brother’s brain. The good news is for a pretty terrible situation it’s the best version of it because it doesn’t seem to be in his brain. Which means it shouldn’t be too rough to remove. Still they’re not sure what it is yet since no biopsies have been done at this time. And it still needs to be removed because whatever it is it shouldn’t be there. He has brain surgery that’s scheduled for later at the end of this month. Which is still pretty daunting. He’s only 11. I would like to be there for him during and after because to be honest it’s still a pretty scary thing. So I need to save up for a plane ticket to get there since the timing put me in the FARTHEST CONTINENTAL POINT from them. Unfortunately since people apparently vacation to Florida at this time they’re kinda pricey right now. So I’m opening commissions to help cover some of the costs. Which may only be a few since my brain is honestly a teensy bit scattered at the moment. For details if you are interested information is here- > COMMISSION INFO You can also find me on Ko-Fi Thanks in advance if you are interested! And even if you can’t there is zero pressure. I appreciate all of you who’ve stuck around for my silly doodles. Either way I’ll get out there. Thanks!

Ah yes, child abuse, my favourite

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOUUU🧎‍♀️🧎‍♀️🧎‍♀️🧎‍♀️

will definitely try all of em when I get the timeeee

FINNALY SOMEONE TALKS ABOUT ITTTTTT OP THANKKKYOUUUYYYY

way you worded it so amazingly makes me sick.

fandom needs to talk more about the fact that ford phisically wouldn't be able to keep the right track of time. Like, he defenelty kept (somewhat) track of it purely judging by his feelings, but you know, every dimension got it's own time with different pace, you literally can't trust ANYTHING besides your senses. And imagine finding out that even that was wrong.

trying to hold onto something you don't understand anymore, just because you don't want to lose yourself to it.

y'all don't understand how much of an effect can "not understanding" time cause on a persons mind, and now he has to recalibrate his wrongly adapted sense because he's on earth he doesn't have to run and be on the move like always. But even now - looking at the clock still feels so wrong because his body and his sense built over the years tells him OTHERWISE.

Hard to trust something you didn't had for years

he kept his own track of time but if you ask me: he never really fully processed how limited it us for human species (how short human life is, overall. Dealing and facing immortal or long living creatures for a fair amount of time makes you forget that you're absolutely nothing in their presence)

he ran and ran and ran and ran but now he doesn't have to.

Finnaly, now you can actually think through stuff, and slowly realize you spent your given time - surviving, rather than living. and it hurts like hell.

It's really hard to trust something you didn't had for years.

your life, your time and your lifelong plans wasted for what?

For this?

At least now he got someone by his side in the end.

now Stanley finally got his brother back.

he can stop trying to pretend to be someone he's not, and live a life, HIS OWN life. Alongside someone that truly cares and worries about him.

Strange isn't it.

Do you think Ford knew how old he was when he came back? Because I don't think so.

He's been all around the multiverse, in places that definitely didn't follow the laws of physics of his home dimension. Time works differently depending on the place he lands on, and he never gets used to any of them because he knows he'll have to leave sooner or later.

So time passes. He can feel himself age, of course, but he doesn't know how long it's been since he fell through the portal. When he looks at himself in the mirror, he can see wrinkles paired with new scars, and his hair is getting grayer, but that could simply be a sign of stress. And sure, his body hurts when he wakes up, but he's constantly on the move and sleeping anywhere he can, obviously he's not going to be in the best shape! All things considered, he's a pretty fit man for any age, and whatever years he's been alive for is not his priority right now.

When he comes back home, after his first encounter with Stan, he finally gets a moment to think about his new and old family. His brother looks older, obviously, and certainly different from what he imagined (not that he thought about him often, of course not). His hair is whiter than his own, and he has even more wrinkles than him! Just how badly was he taking care of himself in the... how many years... wait, did he say 30?!

I don't think Ford was necessarily thinking of a higher or lower number. I don't think he expected anything more or less: the way he sees it, it could've been anywhere from 10 to 1000 years. Time was meaningless between dimensions. I think that the sole reminder that time still passed was what got to him.

That shock came full force after Weirdmageddon, when he realized that Stan was his same age, despite the differences in their physiques. It was the fact that they were both around 60 years old, and they had been apart for 40 years. Two whole thirds of their lives. They were supposed to grow old together, maybe not in the same house (or boat), but close to each other. That, paired with how old and worn down Stan looks, Ford can't help but feel like he's now years younger than him, and he hates thinking about it because with the way Stan had been living for the last 40 years, just how much longer- no, stop, don't think about it.

Ford's paranoia turns into hypochondria, but towards his brother. This translates as Ford desperately trying to cut Stan's bad habits (such as alcohol and smoking), making sure he eats well (Ford can't cook for shit) and semi-forcing him to do some exercise. Stan is not on board with these measures, and he lets his brother know just that because he's being bossy and annoying and he would like to enjoy his amnesia in peace please. Ford is as stubborn as a mule, but eventually he gives up and just begs Stan to please consider some of his suggestions because he wants him to be better. Stan still refuses, but every once in a while Ford catches him doing some exercise by himself or ordering a non alcoholic drink, and it makes him happy.

When they return to Gravity Falls, the twins look the most identical they've looked since they were like 10: Stan's eyes have a shine that Soos had never seen before, and his new and improved posture makes him look taller, like the weight of the world had been lifted off of him. Ford, on the other hand, has a fuller face and body, his expression is now softer and somewhat kinder, and he walks much more carelessly, like he's strolling instead of marching.

Ford doesn't care how old he is anymore, because now he's growing old next to his brother.

Small trio artdump!!!!

Way little billy, the image of WIERDNESS would be drawed so much to someone that is wierd and take it close to heart before his rotten nature came to light would be everything to me fr fr

(disrupted his canon event of burning euclydia because he's not present there I fear)