Reminder To The Self

You’re still important to me, with or without conversation.

It's Night. Dreams are calling me , sky has switched on its cooler, stars are ready to shine till dawn . And i am gonna talk with my subconscious mind.

Good night ❤️

Caution: don't get too close with me (I hurt ppl)

Questions to which I don't have answers

Why do I feel sad when I am alone?

Why do I think like everyone around me are staring when actually they aren't?

Why do I suddenly feel broken when I get to know i am gonna be alone?

Why do my mind and heart pity me in that situation?

Why do my heart and mind gets weak by then?

Why am I not happy when I am alone?

When am I gonna enjoy solitude like others ?

How can I overcome this feeling of nothingness during solitude?

Why is sitting alone in a room with people tough for me?

Why do I act weirdly when I am with me?

Why can't I feel the sorroundings, my body and mind?

Why do I bother about others ?

I would rather die than live with anxiety

when Rumi wrote, “You have to keep breaking your heart until it opens,” he was referring to breaking our heart by giving and receiving love from other people, to fully trust them, which means, if they break the trust, our heart would break. If this repeats, either with the same or different partner, we will eventually wise up by opening our heart to ourselves: by loving ourselves, by being accountable. To ourselves.

Only when we open our heart to ourselves first, we can have a healthy relationship with ourselves. Anyone who has a healthy relationship with themselves will have a healthy outlook on life and relationship with others. It’s similar to the saying, “you can’t pour from an empty cup”. Fill your cup first. Take care of yourself first. Love yourself first.

Once we love ourselves, we don’t feel the need to completely depend on others for our happiness. Sure our happiness gets affected somehow, but if they decide to betray us or leave us, instead of kicking and screaming, throwing tantrums (or shoes, or plates), we’ll peacefully let them go. I’m not saying that we won’t feel sad or angry. The uncomfortable feelings are inevitable, but when we love ourselves, we will not avoid the responsibility to take care of ourselves.

In the long run, we’ll naturally repel anyone who is not right for us

Pooja - mexican chicken wrap 100

Me - crispy paneer wrap 100

Sharmi nd aashika - chicken spring roll - 94

Chocolate frappe- Monisha 79/- 100+100+94+89+100+94 =577

This is what happens when you are away from home

#hostellife #notcarefree

Ignore my math:)

FACT

“Mental pain is less dramatic than physical pain, but it is more common and also more hard to bear. The frequent attempt to conceal mental pain increases the burden: it is easier to say “My tooth is aching” than to say “My heart is broken.”

— C.S. Lewis

Mantra.