I Think I Bother Everyone

life is so exhausting. happiness never lasts.

Vent since I'm pissed

Tw sh

My one friend is pissing me off so bad she told me something and I said ok and then said "don't go telling anyone I know you like to do that" and all I think is how she told me a week ago that are whole friendship was built off her using me for homework and I'm the backstaber. Like I feel like she's a bad friend cause she made me so upset I relapsed and I can't even say anything cause she will make it about herself and I know she will cause when I told her I self harm the next day she came to school waving her arm in my face showing me her cuts like were twins now and it makes me feel like I'm the asshole for self harming in the first place.

If anyone actually read this thank you for listening and if you have any advice please share if you want I honestly don't no what to do

i overthink a lot so please go ahead and use that to your advantage

use my own mind and thoughts to get me away from people and be attached to you

fuck my mind up even more that i can't even trust my own words

fuck my mind up so much that i will only rely on your words and crave your attention

I just lost the one thing I had

Someone pray for me

It really stings when you tell someone what you like, what you love, what makes you happy and sad and vulnerable and they just don't really remember or bother or care

Being traumatized from an early age is strange.

I long for a home I never had.

pretty faces deserve to be grabbed and kissed consistently throughout the day

fighting the urge to say thank you for talking to me

All I do is bleed

I bleed for you

I bleed for them

I bleed for her

I bleed for him

I bleed for me

All I am is a bleeding bloody mess