Løøs!ng W3!ght Without Løøs!ng Muscle Mass Feels Different

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE 🧶

Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano Lunch~ rice with chicken, tempeh, little bit of noodles aaaand tiny little veggies + 1 ice green tea Snack~ + 1 ice Americano Dinner~ instant noodles with one egg + Greek yogurt with toping (granola, chickpeas and fruits)

Total:~ 1500 :)

DAY 7

At the time, it was for the attention of other, I was craving validation. I wanted to stop people jokes about the way I looked and getting some kind of revenge I guess (I wasn’t fat nor skinny they were just mean + bød¥ d¥smørph!@ didn’t help) Now it’s more like an obsession helping to stop overthinking and numbing my feelings. I don’t do that for people, actually I don’t want them to notice nor asking questions, the “looking” part is just additional motivation because it’s just not the main purpose this time And actually it’s working, I’m feeling less miserable than 2~3 weeks ago so happy 🧚✨

My biggest flex right now is that I have a meat bread in my bag and I’m strong enough not to 3@t it

Make me feel in control weirdly

My friend told me tonight that she could see my back and arms muscles!! I’m so happy like- That means that I’m not l00s!ng muscles mass (I might be in denial for this one haha) and it really helps me f!tt!ng my bødy dysmørph!@ right now Love her<3

DAY 25

maybe my collarbones? I don’t really know I suffer from bødy dysmørph!@ hahaha

Tomorrow I’m gonna try a 24h f@st ! (I don’t count coffee in the equation)

And it start right now!

Basically not 3@t!ng anything until I come back home:)

Okay so it’s been 3 weeks since I started and I think it’s time to add a “m3t@b day” to the routine First as a challenge, to prove myself that I’m in control and that I won’t f*€k everything up this time Second, because I don’t want to damage to much my m3t@bøl!sm and g@!n everything back just because of a wrong day And last but not least, as an experiment to see how it will affects my bød¥ (did I g@!n3d, løst or st@gn@t3d) But honestly I’m supposed to 3@t more than 2000 A DAY ?? and I really don’t know how I’ll try tho, it cannot be that hard

It was supposed to be metabday yesterday but since I got my period last Tuesday and ate more than I was supposed to because feeling sick and energy empty I decided to skip it for this week

I’ll definitely do one next Sunday but right know I will just focus on not going over 1200

DAY 6

Cassie (skin)… do I really need to explain?

Chinatsu Kano (blue box) I see her and I’m like, you look like my teenage self..

Rapunzel (Rapunzel) arty girl that want to be free and make her life look and feel like a party. Romanticise every little thing to make your life more fun

Jo & Amy March (Little Women) a mix of the two really because of their determination but the way they are so human, some of their actions and words resonate and they ask themselves questions that I ask myself everyday

Yeah I know that five not three but ik what idc hehehe

Body d¥sm0rph!a is actually the worst thing that I’ve been dealing with

Like what do you mean my all face and body change every minutes ???! Give me a break seriously..