Sorry I Didn’t Hear You I Was Too Busy Rotating Jude St. Francis In My Head

how i imagine willem posed for jb’s photos:

“how does the israel & palestine effect me?” does something need to affect you personally for you to show some empathy, to care? do you not care that we are witnessing A GENOCIDE. an ethical cleansing of palestinians & countries such as the US, the UK arent helping and actually funding to support this genocide.

you dont care about genocide but you guys expect me to care about…your sps? you guys expect me stop talking about palestine and write back to you guys about the void a topic thats been done 27282919 times or wanting your crush messaging you back? atp just stfu

tiktok ALL readers when the main character with deeply complex trauma gets triggered by things 😮😮😮

thank u @orpheuslament for showing this shit to us so i could feel smarter .

me and @bombaciouscaboose were absolutely brainrotted about lil 16 yr old Jude and his summer job at a bakery and I was simply COMPELLED

Might finish this rough sketch;might not; im just livin la vida loca

Hanya Yanagihara, A Little Life

i just cried so hard i was screaming on the floor time to read lispenard street pt 2 to feel worse !

jude’s childhood and trauma was not unrealistic OR outlandish, i suffered it daily and millions of others did too. you are so lucky to be able to think that, and to have never come across some of these people, but monsters like that really do exist

snoopy read a little life... thoughts and prayers

october 22, 2023

I just read the first chapter of the “axiom of equality” part of a little life and dude I’m really reconsidering the way I view life as a whole.

x=x, yes Jude, I feel you so fucking much, all my life I felt like I wouldn’t surpass this feeling of being wrong, the wrongdoings of my childhood, my mistakes and mistakes of others done to me haunt me every single moment of my days, maybe If I were funnier, maybe I if worked on my weight a little harder it would disappear, what did I do to deserve so much hate from others as a kid? to experience the heavy bullying? why should it stain my memory like a wine stained carpet? (you get used to it but it’s never really clean, this metaphor worked in my head so please bear with it). and Caleb, man I’ve met so many fucking Calebs in my life, people i trusted at first sight, thought it could work just to be utterly disappointed at the outcome.

“you’re not your past”, easier said than done.

it’s 3:15 a.m where I live as i’m writing this and I doubt i’ll be able to afford a good night of sleep due the mental state i find myself in. I haven’t cried once while reading this book, maybe it’s because I see so much of myself in these characters that I’m just perplexed and angry, at myself, at others who made me feel like a complete piece of shit my whole life, at the JB’s, cause we all have that one friend that, at some point, made fun of our insecurities and left us feeling like garbage.

read “a little life” by Hanya Yanagihara, i promise it’ll change you and the way you interpret life and others (and i haven’t even finished it yet)