Latest Posts by lispenardlover - Page 6
october 22, 2023
I just read the first chapter of the “axiom of equality” part of a little life and dude I’m really reconsidering the way I view life as a whole.
x=x, yes Jude, I feel you so fucking much, all my life I felt like I wouldn’t surpass this feeling of being wrong, the wrongdoings of my childhood, my mistakes and mistakes of others done to me haunt me every single moment of my days, maybe If I were funnier, maybe I if worked on my weight a little harder it would disappear, what did I do to deserve so much hate from others as a kid? to experience the heavy bullying? why should it stain my memory like a wine stained carpet? (you get used to it but it’s never really clean, this metaphor worked in my head so please bear with it). and Caleb, man I’ve met so many fucking Calebs in my life, people i trusted at first sight, thought it could work just to be utterly disappointed at the outcome.
“you’re not your past”, easier said than done.
it’s 3:15 a.m where I live as i’m writing this and I doubt i’ll be able to afford a good night of sleep due the mental state i find myself in. I haven’t cried once while reading this book, maybe it’s because I see so much of myself in these characters that I’m just perplexed and angry, at myself, at others who made me feel like a complete piece of shit my whole life, at the JB’s, cause we all have that one friend that, at some point, made fun of our insecurities and left us feeling like garbage.
read “a little life” by Hanya Yanagihara, i promise it’ll change you and the way you interpret life and others (and i haven’t even finished it yet)
jude is so me i also have such an obviously catholic full name
my roman empire is wondering whether jude st francis would have liked me as a person
“Or he would sleep in the bathtub or in the closet, beetled up as tight as he was able.”
“My poor potato bug.”
Stills from my previous post
bonus per my dear friends request: Jude w/out that fucker behind him
your ALL fanart is so good i want to just submerge myself in it
Thank you, kind anon! This ask made me happy so I made a bashful young Jude sketch to commemorate.
I think Harold and Julia were the last to strike me as folks who would have Boston accents, which is why the thought of the two having a boston accent is so funny. Even if it were mild, appearing only in specific phrases or emotional states; amidst an argument at Harold's dinners, ect.
Now -- would I imagine Jude, Willem, ( ect ) have New York-based accents in general? Probably not. Maybe I could see it in Willem amidst things such as road rage, busy streets, ect; though, really, I could only see it wholly when it comes to Andy. So on, so forth.
“a little life is ableist”
SHUT UP SHUT IP
as a disabled person when i read “people who had been made disabled felt they had been robbed of something” i had to put the fucking book down and recollect BECAUSE HANYA GOT IT SO CORRECT SO SHUT THE FUCK UP
people i imagine as jude (multiple people bcs in everything AND everyone i see, i see him)
1.) loyle carner
I SAW HIM LIVE AND I WAS LIKE?? OMG JUDE HI
2.) ethan hawke
very random but he is serving sm jude at university here
3.) rami malek
the average rami malek jude fancast, but i really do understand it
4.) james norton
THIS CASTING CHOICE FOR THE PLAY WAS SAUR GOOD (except jude isnt white)
5.) joseph gordon levitt
he’s just so jude in mysterious skin ok
6.) milo ventimiglia
i refuse to elaborate
jude’s childhood and trauma was not unrealistic OR outlandish, i suffered it daily and millions of others did too. you are so lucky to be able to think that, and to have never come across some of these people, but monsters like that really do exist
a hill i will die on is that a little life by hanya yanagihara is not meaningless and is not torture porn and is in fact a very stark and realistic exploration of unprocessed trauma and the inability to talk and how trauma shapes the way you view those who love you and the fact that tiktok has turned it into the "you will cry at the end!!!!" book honestly breaks my heart
glenn gould is lowkey so jude coded question mark
one of the ways i am like jude st francis is that if there isn’t a lock on the door or i’m unable to close it i WILL have a panic attack😆
thinking about how jude knew that two of his fellow students were on the spectrum so he researched their special interests so he’d be able to ask them questions they’d want to answer and make them more comfortable </3
i’d pay copious amounts of money to know what jude did on the day in rome he went off alone and what he was thinking and feeling
IM IN PARIS RN IVE BEEN DOING TBIS
everyday my poor friend is harassed by my inability to be normal after reading A Little Life
“a little life is trauma porn” tell me you had an easy childhood without telling me you had an easy childhood
me when “maybe he’s that grey cat that purrs everytime i reach my hand out to it”
i just went to see a little life recorded for the cinema and i’m actually so heartbroken!
