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are all animals dangerous?
every animal has the potential to be dangerous under certain circumstances. for instance, a dog could bite you, a moth could distract a UPS driver into plowing through your living room window, you could inhale and choke on an earthworm.
If your girlfriend's ex wants to visit from Phoenix you do not buy him a plane ticket- A lesson on why exactly that is- featuring chronically-attracted-to-dumbass Bobbi Morse, third-wheeling-his-own-relationship Lance Hunter, and Clint Barton, evil seductress.
some old winter soldier sketches from back when this movie possessed me body and soul
another history making marvel post I never see anyone talk about is “so is nobody helping blade kill all those vampires”
How the Winter Soldier shot Nick Fury
I’ve been wanting to make a post about this for a while, even though I might be the only person invested in this, but anyway, here we go. I’ve seen mentioned several times, in posts about the movie and in fics that the Winter Soldier shot Nick Fury through the window of Steve’s apartment, and every time it makes me groan in frustration because no.
The Winter Soldier didn’t shoot Fury through a window, he shot him through a wall, and I don’t know about you, but it seems like a pretty big difference to me.
(bullet hole in the wall!!)
When I saw the scene the first time, I remember thinking holy shit??? that’s crazy, and for me that’s when the Winter Soldier really became a real, terrifyingly good assassin, that’s when his image as a serious threat solidified.
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MCU, give me more Black Widow and snazzy undercover outfits! the haircut is totally stolen from Chris Samnee, who draws the most beautiful and badass Nat imo
It's been 10 years since this movie came out, and it's been almost three years since this piece was drawn by me. Enjoy <3
“I fought a bear once. In Russia.” Bucky says, fiddling with the hair tie around his wrist.
Sam squints at him. “Like, you just randomly squared off with a bear in the Russian wilderness.”
This is EXACTLY why Bucky Barnes is my favorite character and it brings me so much joy to finally see a little bit of it on screen.
I love that we have two Spider-Verse movies, soon to be three, and not a single one of them has even so much implied that they're going to include Morlun, the interdimensional vampire who only eats people with spider powers, who was the reason for the Spider-verse crossover event that the movies are a loose adaptation of.
I love this because Morlun sucks and is a truly shitty character, in many ways being the pinnacle of all the things that one can do wrong when creating a new supervillain for a superhero who's had over half a century of adventures.
this is all, at the core, @lake-shark ‘s fault and all criticism should be directed at her
we were doing our catws10 rewatch and i said that in the highway scene, I had heard that sebastian’s pronunciation of russian is quite bad and instead of saying “i have her, find him”, he’s saying something about a brick. i am trying to be humorous.
misha shoots back “yeah almost like the language got brute-forced into his head.”
i don’t know why it never occurred to me how stressful bucky learning russian probably was, probably because he already speaks it in the comics, but now i’m running through everything regarding language and it’s through a whole new filter. holy shit. he’s got to learn it from torturers and abusers.
first, how fucking isolating. how embarrassing and degrading in a real way. people talk to him like he’s stupid. he doesn’t fully understand why he has this other language in his head that he wants to use, but is almost certainly not allowed to. his internal language is severed from his external language. the words he does say feel unwieldy in his mouth and harsh to his own ears. he can’t practice it, and no one is gonna sit down and teach him.
second, to quote dialect quoting james baldwin, “people evolve a language in order to describe and thus control their circumstances, in order to not be submerged by a reality they cannot articulate”. if you don’t have the right language, you cannot describe what is happening to you. you can’t call for help. you can’t beg for mercy. you don’t have the words to picture your future as different from your present.
third, no wonder bucky takes to pierce better than karpov. no wonder karpov needed specific words and pierce has many to control him. much has been said about how pierce tries to manipulate bucky with his words, like what weak points he presses on to try to keep bucky on track, how he uses language as weapon, and to top it all off, pierce literally speaks his language.
i am chewing on glass.
Do other writers ever get this like, hyper-specific dialogue exchange drop into their brains and you know exactly where these character are standing and what they’re doing and how they’re saying these words but that’s all you get. You don’t have much other context and this specific moment that exists only at this time in your headspace??
descends upon the cartinelli fandom from up high ayo anyone still alive over here?
i was rewatching agent carter and???? the queer vibes from everyone are just??? off the charts??? like, we have the obvious couple cartinelli, the qpr energy of dottie and peggy, the enemies-to-lovers dynamic with jack and sousa, the bi4bi GOALS that is ana and jarvis, the queer energy that oozes out of everything howard does,,,, no wonder disney canceled the show there wasnt a single cishet character there
The best example of the gulf between Nat and Steve that neither of them see is that Steve would absolutely not read Nat’s file that she shared with the world post-SHIELD, to prove that his friendship with her, and Nat would absolutely assume that Steve had read her file, to prove his friendship with her.
And both of them would assume that the other understood exactly the right choice and acted accordingly, and never even think to discuss it.
Because friendship.
Dear Mr Schmidt
I really think you need to brush up on your mythology here. Do you even know what a hydra looks like?
This is a hydra. Its defining features are its one tail and many, many heads.
So what the fuck is this supposed to be?
That, Mr Schmidt, is a fucking octopus. Its defining features are its ONE head and many LEGS.
You literally could not have gotten this more wrong.
I previously mentioned the Internet Movie Firearms Database in my journal. Full credit for the information in this post goes to the IMFDB editors who contributed to its entry on Captain America: The First Avenger.
Steve’s main weapon is a Colt M1911A1 pistol. In some scenes, he’s shown with an M1928A1 Thompson submachine gun.
Peggy’s preferred sidearm is a Walther PPK. In the final attack on the HYDRA base, she wields an M1928A1 Thompson submachine gun.
Bucky uses a customized, scoped M1941 Johnson rifle to snipe. In a deleted scene, before his capture by HYDRA, he uses an M1903A1 Springfield rifle with a scope.
Gabe’s main weapon is a Browning M1919A4 machine gun.
Morita’s main weapon is an M3/M3A1 “Grease Gun,” a submachine gun.
Dum Dum’s main weapon is a Winchester Model 1897 “Trench” shotgun.
Falsworth and Dernier’s main weapons are Sten MkII submachine guns.
I just had a thought on Steve’s initial argument against the Accords.
What if they send us somewhere we don’t wanna go?
What if they don’t send us somewhere we think we should be?
He already had a point in his life when he knew he could be helping the people who needed it, but was limited to a star-spangled costume and jaunty theme tune. He’s been put on the bench before, and he’s seen people he cared about suffer because of it. If they’d let him out sooner, maybe Bucky and his unit would never have been captured. Maybe Bucky would never have been tortured and hurt and made into Zola’s plaything.
Given the war that Steve fought in, and given that he saw how America hung back until Pearl Harbour happened, I don’t imagine he’s ignorant about how they could end up being put on the shelf while conflicts raged, until they were absolutely necessary. On top of that, he has watched his identity as Cap be used for politicking, to sell war bonds, to encourage patriotism and all that jazz, even after his death.
And here’s a thought: Tony was the one who created and unleashed his weapons on the world. Steve was one of those weapons. It’s the difference between being the seller and being the product. Tony sees it as a quality control. Steve sees it as losing his autonomy and becoming that dancing monkey again.
all this interesting meta on disability going round lately has me thinking about Steve and Bucky and disability
so here are some varied thoughts/questions about things I don’t really see much in fic/meta:
Steve spent much longer as a disabled person than an enhanced person so he’d probably have a lot of habits or patterns of thinking that revolve around the disabilities he no longer has, eg:
waking up every morning bracing for the moment of ‘okay, which of the things is bothering me today?’ and it doesn’t come
spring / big open grassy spaces (like parks) are a problem because of pollen; animals are a hazard because of allergies; fall/winter is a problem because of heating and colds and flu and slippery sidewalks; beaches are good because no pollen but bad because shirtlessness; crowds are bad because of his hearing, and so on.
Would he still avoid all these environments without realising he’s doing it, or deliberately seek them out because now he can?
how long after serum did it take for Steve to stop trying to wedge himself into spaces that pre-serum him could fit?
I’ve long headcanoned that the reason Steve leans on things is because he’s subconsciously still resting a back that no longer needs to be rested.
(Ditto for why he cocks his head; he’s channelling sound to his ‘good’ ear.)
if you think about the aspect of disability as a form of living in a world that is not designed/adapted for you to easily navigate, then do both Steve and Bucky, despite being super, still fall into that category?
Everything around them, that was not made for them, was made for people of a different size and strength than them. So there might be all kinds of adaptations they have to improvise to make their environment livable; like reinforcements of furniture, doors, shelves, drawers, cupboards, eating utensils, vehicles, clothing, weapons.
(Imagine being so strong that every tube of toothpaste bursts in your hand, door knobs just come off, and every pedal in a car seems to be on a hair trigger.)
How are you supposed to use a car when there’s a chance you might accidentally rip the steering wheel off? (HILARIOUS, yes, but seriously!)
How many towels and pieces of clothing have Steve and Bucky torn?
What about art? Does Steve need metal handles on his brushes and pencils? Firmer brushes or softer? Thicker paper/canvas?
What about touchscreen technology? How do they not crack screens?
What about the bed. How does a bog standard flimsy ikea bed survive two enhanced men using it? For purposes.
As the friend of someone who was once also smaller, weaker, and slower than him, Bucky might have an easier time handling this ‘everything is small and flimsy’ environment than Steve (it might be like living in pre-serum’s Steve apartment.)
if you headcanon that they both have enhanced hearing and sight, too, then would they also be sensitive to, eg. noise pollution in a way un-enhanced people aren’t?
Do they have to have extra soundproofing? Ear plugs at night? Avoid crowds? Is the city a difficult environment for that reason?
If they have enhanced sight, does that mean they can perceive dirt and dust more acutely than a normal person? Are they assiduous in cleaning because of this, or lax because living in dirt and dust can’t harm them the way it can a normal person?
(Do those two things cancel out? To them it looks like they’re living in a mildly grotty environment but to non-enhanced people it looks spotless? Would them both coming from being in a neat military environment affect this too?)
What about taste/smell? Can they detect chemicals in modern foods that wouldn’t bother an unenhanced person? Do they have to alter their diet to account for that, or again, are they indifferent because those chemicals can’t harm them?
Would Bucky have diet problems after Hydra? (What was the Soldier’s feeding regimen?)
Sound is one of the common anxiety attack triggers for vets with PTSD, so how would they navigate that + enhanced hearing?
Speaking of mental disability, hyperarousal is another common side effect of CPTSD - so how would Bucky and/or Steve handle that when their very senses are themselves hyper?
Flashbacks are another problem for PTSD sufferers, so what are their triggers and how do they each navigate that?
(If Steve’s bad associations are all from WWII, does that mean old things are dicey for him? If Bucky was tortured in a reclining chair, does he have a problem with modern recliners, or environments with those kinds of chairs, like dentists and hair dressers?)
And about Bucky’s arm:
does he experience phantom pain? problems with proprioception? if it’s a removable prosthetic does the join cause pain/irritation?
does he learn how to do things one handed just in case? Consciously or unconsciously?
does he buy things adapted for one-handed use?
does he ever forget one of his hands is stronger than the other and damage things because of it?
does he alter things to be reinforced on the left side? (Does this make them unusable for Steve?)
How do people treat Bucky now that he has a visible disability?
does he hide it because of how people treat him, or because it outs him as the Winter Soldier, or both?
how does he feel about having to hide a disability for that reason?
does he use disabled services (bathrooms, parking spots) and get shit from karens for not ‘looking’ disabled?
how does he feel about other disabled people, now?
given that most people don’t have super hi-tech prostheses like him, how do other disabled people feel about/treat him, especially if they’re poor/er?
how do he and Steve feel about disability representation, now?
imagine if the avengers had actually discussed the plan for more than an hour, and found out from nebula that you have to sacrifice what you love most to get the soul stone (basically a soul for a soul), and steve volunteered himself for the mission. face to face with the red skull, he’s asked if he’s willing to make the sacrifice, to lose what’s important to him. steve replies, “go ahead and try. i’ve already lost everything else.” after its done, steve just laughs and says, “that’s all?”
& steve makes it back alive with the stone. he makes it back to the avengers compound. they don’t recognize him at first, but once they see past the change in structure and size, its obvious. they ask what happened, and he replies “a soul for a soul”. he gave up captain america, let him go once and for all, and that was enough.