Latest Posts by maeed2103 - Page 3

As a butch4butch lesbian, Rio Romeo releasing Butch4Butch brought back my faith in humanity and revived my search for a quirky little butch partner who I can go on silly little adventures with

Sometimes I lose my mind over the plot of Naruto bc 3/4 of it is just Naruto being like

“I NEED SASUKE HES MY HOME, THE OTHER HALF OF MY BEING. ”

Naruto went on record with full sincerity “give me your pain, I can bare it” to Sasuke like that isn’t the most loving, romantic gestures ANYONE could EVER do

And I’m supposed to just sit there and be like “oh cool, yeah, best pals”

THOSE BITCHES YEARNED, FAWNED, TORE THEIR SOULS APART FOR ONE ANOTHER AND IM SUPPOSED TO THINK THEYRE “best friends, like brothers”?????

….no.

No. They’re gay.

I hate being the token gay, because my existence is always one that’s celebrated through homophobia.

“You don’t look gay”

“You’re not like other gay people I’ve met”

“You seem normal”

First off, I dress like an ai rendering of a twink and a butch lesbian mashed together, bound with non-binaryness, BC I AM.

And I’m not your starter gay, your token gay, your “cool” gay, I’m just fucking gay.

I’m a lesbian, the big homo, shirtless men make me sad, I frequently yearn over women, I describe my gender as lesbian or just N/A.

Just because YOU🫵, a clueless cishet, couldn’t clock me despite the mullet, baggy clothes and excessive amount of necklaces, (I don’t mean to stereotype but I dress every morning with the intent of letting the world know men aren’t for me) doesn’t mean I’m a palpable gay.

sometimes i wonder what my cat named me

This flare-up’s taking its sweet time stg

I’m now realizing that pronouns and gendered terms hit different for me when I’m speaking different languages

ms/miss: ew no I hate it but I’ll suffer through

Mr/sir: I’m ripping my soul apart with rage

Madame: uh fck no

Monsieur: YAHHHH PLZZZZ I LOVE ❤️❤️

小姐(xiaojie): cute fun, I can deal

先生（xiansheng): such a vibe, feels chill

Why is it that ppl just post abt dieting with pcos…

Like I don’t need diet information I need memes abt the existential dread of knowing that my body cannot function properly

The craziest thing to me to come out of the Hbomber video is finding out the James’s co-writer DIDNT READ OR DO RESEARCH.

Like this guy basically said “woah woah, hang on there guys, I’m a writer, not a reader. Don’t get all upset, common misconception.”

Having OCD is so weird and silly. Like, I know that there isn't a monster under my bed who’s gonna take my feet if I stand too close, obviously, I’m a logical adult.

But like,

There is, trust me on this one.

I’ve come to absolutely love the cowboy/western Narusasu au.

At first I was like “nah I don’t really see it”

And then I listened to I’m your’n by Tyler Childers and my little narusasu brain went BAM!

JUST PICTURE THIS: Naruto humming along to I’m Your’n in his pickup truck (obv) with his cowboy hat and orange t-shirt that he always buys a size too small so it excentiates his muscles (and bc he knows sasuke loves it), tapping his thumb against the steering wheel, passing glances to Sasuke who sits in the passenger seat. Sasuke rolls his eyes playfully but holds on tight to the hand Naruto reaches over to him and looks out the window at the endless fields.

Like….

Naruto in a cowboy hat and Sasuke making fun of it but in reality it drives him crazy when Naruto gives the hat a tilt with his infamous smirk

Naruto being raised as a farm hand throughout the small town, Sasuke being from a well known ranch

Naruto watching brokeback mountain one night and then realizing “oh, oh”

THE POSSIBILITIES

Y'all gonna hate me but when I saw this...

I thought of this...

Naruto and Sasukes relationship has truly fucked with my mind

Like those two had a love that was palpable, raw and just honest. Naruto loved Sasuke for being Sasuke and Sasuke loved Naruto for just being Naruto. They loved each other clumsily, with white knuckles and sour words, they loved one another with curiosity and vigor. Watching their story unfold on the screen shatters my brain because they are without a doubt Soulmates. They would choose one another again and again in every lifetime, they would die at the hand of the other with pleasure and comfort. If destiny had one plan in mind they would turn the universe in their hands just to meet one another again, they would steal the sun and moon to get the other back.

If that isn’t love then I don’t know what is.

~* it's a pakkun party *~

Watching Naruto knowing it was made for dude bros, but seeing how it accidentally became a beautifully heartbreaking story about two people who would sacrifice the world for each other but never realized that they were in fact the world for each other, is so sad and so so gay of Naruto and Sasuke.

Getting blood work done for PCOS bc all my life I’ve had extremely irregular/non existent periods, painful symptoms and extreme lows during times I thought would be my period but nothing happened, along with thicker body hair.

For YEARS. No one believed me when I said something felt wrong, that this was all normal. Advocate the fuck out of yourself, be annoying and push for doctor referrals.

Menstruating shouldn’t be extremely irregular and painful.

Again,

MENSTRUATING SHOULDN’T BE IRREGULAR AND PAINFUL!!!

fuck anyone who’s says that that’s normal, ur body is not fulfilling a cleaning cycle, it’s like pulling up old laundry. That shouldn’t happen.

If u feel like something in your body doesn’t feel right speak up about it. You know your body best, don’t let ppl diminish that.

How We Love

*a poem of love from someone who has never been close to it*

You love with the same fervernece Of a starved man who has been Gifted with the promise of food Sitting mere feet away.

You are all bite an snarl, You push and shove To the finish line; Your eyes trained on the flesh In front of you.

I too was hungry. You were not the only one Who was withheld lifes simple Pleasures.

I too was left to chew At the inside of my cheek To slow the decay of my skin.

I know what it feels like To cut away pieces of your body Just to feel whole.

Yet you keep taking from me; Living under the assumption That leaving my skin bitten, broken And bruised, used up from your ventures, Is an act of love, and not one Shaped from your depravity.

When I laid my body bare for you That night while the world screamed Beyond the four walls of your quiet, Cluttered room, I thought you saw how our Eyes where blurred red from the same travasties.

Naivety has always been my downfall.

It was my undoing believing you knew that We were scarred from the same knife--rather, It was careless of me to assume you would hold it in consideration before serrading me once more.

But,

With my body cut open, My blood seeping into your sheets, claiming ownership in the one place you called home, I think the hunger that had been gnawing At my insides, long before you knew me, began to subside.

There is a power in knowing You come to me to feel worthy Of being human again. That it is my body, my being That is the foundation of your Sense of self.

So I will stay quiet while your feast, I will not cry while you dismember me. I will wait, watching red stain creme cotton In a halo around us and build myself From the remnants you left, and hold you While you struggle to understand the fullness.

For this is how I love.

I think ppl tend to brush over the loneliness of brain trauma and how isolating it is to be recovering from a tbi (traumatic brain injury)

I've been in recovery for 2yrs and something I don't think ppl fully understand is how when ur trying to “move on” and “go back to normal”, your body doesn't move like your body anymore.

It doesn't feel like your body anymore.

There is nothing more devastating than trying live your life in a body that doesn't feel like yours or work like the body you once had. Like how tf do you expect me to move on when my limbs don't feel like my limbs?!

You're left mourning the death of the body you once had and no one else sees or knows how disconnected from yourself you feel.

Brain damage sucks

Why is it always “enemies to lovers” this and “enemies to lovers” that, why can’t they be both?

I need more enemies AND lovers.

Enough of the whole “I realized I don’t hate u but love you” I want “I despise you, you are everything I hate in this world and I want to kill u but I also have a deep love for u despite it all, I yearn to be close to you and I will kill anyone that tries to hurt u bc I’m the one who’s supposed to kill u”

It’s messy, it’s gay, it’s so emotional it’s palpable.

Something I wish was portrayed on tv more, or like at all is masc lesbian couples/ non binary lesbian couples. A lot of times on tv I feel as though lesbian/wlw relationships r still forced into hetero-normative dynamics of the “man and woman” of the relationship.

Like I want two masc lesbians who r goofy and awkward and aren’t afraid to be vulnerable, who may struggle with sexual intimacy bc of gender dysphoria, I wanna see a wlw couple that doesn’t just fuck on screen all the time, I wanna see cute cuddles, quick banter, silly arguing that you know they both don’t really mean. I wanna see a lesbian couple that helps one another with their gender expression bc GODDAMN BEING A LESBIAN FCKS WITH UR VISION OF GENDER.

I just want to see an awkward, silly, cute masc lesbian couple bc they exist. masc for masc lesbians exist, we r real and we r socially inept.

Dysautonomia is so weird bc like what do you mean I’m sweating my ass off with this sweatshirt on but if I take it off my skin hurts bc I feel cold BUT IM STILL SWEATING AND ALL OF A SUDDEN EVERYTHINGS BLURRY???

Okay I have to rant for a sec.

Something I don’t think a lot of ppl understand is that if u have ibd and/or a shit ton of allergies, going to restaurants SUCK.

I have Crohn’s and a ton of allergies that I recently found out about and going out to eat is just so difficult and draining. Having to watch everyone eat delicious foods and get these fantastical meals while you’re always stuck with the bare bones of a salad, chips away at ur mentality. Plus, with restaurants, there is always the major factor of cross contamination that makes going out to eat very anxiety inducing.

I’m not saying don’t invite ur chronically ill friends out to eat but if that person has said before that restaurants are hard and they CLEARLY aren’t having a good time, find a different way to spend time together. When food is making u sick, having a whole 2+hrs spent around it isn’t the best of vibes.