How Do You Kill Yourself In The Most Painless Way?

Living just keeps getting harder by the day, I don't know if i can keep going like this. I hate going to school. The way people look at me is so suffocating. The way people talk about me. Why do i have to suffer like this? Is liking someone a crime now? Just because i liked a guy? School isn't fair, they only got off with a warning. I can't even bring myself to look at people anymore, i feel like i am the one at fault, and not the victim with the way people look at me.

I hate highschool.

I can physically feel the sadness in my body and i just want to be happy for once

It’s crazy to me that there are people out there who never thought about killing themselves even once where as I think about it 24/7 every single day

I feel tired.

I need to keep telling myself it’s not normal to look at sharp objects and wonder how it would feel to cut my skin open with them

I keep throwing up wtf

fuck. suicidal and in a bad place again

I’ll always be the ugly friend, the friend that nobody ever finds attractive, the insecure friend, the depressed friend, the friend with social anxiety, the dumb friend, the always left out friend, the useless friend.

having bpd and also being a people pleaser is so weird because i will hate someone when they’re not with me and swear i’ll ignore them, and then 15 minutes later i’ll pick up their call and spend the next five hours with them